Gelmeyi\u015fini beklemek,
\nUzak bir yoldan al\u0131namayan bir haber gibiydi
\nTers y\u00fcz edilmi\u015f t\u00fcm hayatlara bedel.
\nVe sen en ak\u0131lda kalan an\u0131yd\u0131n \u00f6m\u00fcr sahnemin
\nGittin film koptu, sahne d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Kokun muydu bahar sabah\u0131 gibi genzimi dolduran
\nBu \u0131tri nefes, kirpiklerimde bir ya\u015fa yenik \u00fcstelik
\nG\u00f6zlerimde yalanc\u0131 bir vuslat\u0131 solduran
\nSokaktaki sessizlikten ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fildi.
\nBeklemek, ince hastal\u0131\u011fa yakalanm\u0131\u015f bir a\u015fk a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131
\nBeklemek, yat\u0131r\u0131p g\u00f6zlerini uzak bir yola
\nVe nemli bak\u0131\u015flar ard\u0131nda bir h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131\u011fa yolda\u015f.
\n\u015eimdi beklemeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek bile yorgunluk
\nD\u00fc\u015flemek bile en b\u00fcy\u00fck haks\u0131zl\u0131k kendime.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki birden b\u00fcy\u00fck san\u0131rd\u0131m bu derin kimsesizlik \u00f6ncesi
\nSan\u0131rd\u0131m ki bir ba\u015f\u0131na kalmak yokluk, yoksunluk
\nGittik\u00e7e b\u00fcy\u00fcyen, b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00e7o\u011falan bir hi\u00e7lik
\nYaln\u0131zl\u0131k ki, i\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm cenin
\nYaln\u0131zl\u0131k ki yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcm sebebin…
\nF\u00fctursuzca savrulan s\u00f6zler dilinde
\nDilinde i\u011fnedenlik ve y\u00fcre\u011fime batan s\u00f6zler
\nBam telimi koparm\u0131\u015f bir suskunluk
\nCi\u011ferlerimde bir nefes, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc beklemekte
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm, sesimin t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131nda \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmekte.<\/p>\n
\u00d6\u011frendim, kaybetmekten korka korka kaybetmeyi
\nVe kazand\u0131m sananlar\u0131n yenilgilerini
\n\u015eimdilerde kendiyle dertle\u015fen bir adam\u0131m
\nS\u0131rr\u0131m\u0131 kimselere anlatmayacak yarenim kendime
\nBiraz \u00e7irkin, \u00e7ok\u00e7a y\u0131k\u0131k, hayli yaln\u0131z
\nD\u00fc\u015fman bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m, aynada bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m kendime
\nBu d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131k bir kan davas\u0131na galebe
\nVe en \u00e7ok yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma \u00e2\u015f\u0131k,
\nOlduk\u00e7a k\u00fcsk\u00fcn\u00fcm kendime…<\/p>\n
U\u00e7urumun kenar\u0131ndan umuda sald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir u\u00e7urtma art\u0131k ya\u015famak
\nElinden tutup yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kalabal\u0131klara ta\u015f\u0131mak
\nVe bir soluk sensiz ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak
\nCinayetimin akrebi
\nFailimin yelkovan\u0131
\nVakit beklemeye \u00e7eyrek var
\nGitmeyi k\u0131rk be\u015f ge\u00e7iyor<\/p>\n
Cennet a\u011fac\u0131;
\nDallar\u0131 topra\u011fa, k\u00f6kleri g\u00f6\u011fe \u00e2\u015f\u0131k
\nBir ya\u015famak ki,
\nTers y\u00fcz edilmi\u015f bir \u00f6m\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
01.04.2019<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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