Y\u0131llarca nelere kafa yormu\u015fum,
\nAkl\u0131m bir meczubun akl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f me\u011fer.
\nBeynimi yok yere zorluyormu\u015fum,
\nMutluluk gaflette sakl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f me\u011fer.<\/p>\n
Nefsimin zulm\u00fcne boyun e\u011ferek,
\nYava\u015f\u00e7a her \u015feyden \u00f6telenmi\u015fim.
\nBa\u015fka bir d\u00fc\u015fmana, su\u00e7a ne gerek,
\nKendime en b\u00fcy\u00fck ceza benmi\u015fim.<\/p>\n
Susmu\u015fum konu\u015fmam gereken yerde,
\nG\u00f6recek onca \u015fey varken k\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm.
\nUfkuma \u00e7izilen \u00e7er\u00e7evelerde,
\nMe\u011fer t\u00fcm renkleri siyah g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
Me\u011fer kulaklar\u0131m sa\u011f\u0131r edilmi\u015f,
\nAsl\u0131nda her sabah \u00f6termis ku\u015flar.
\nDo\u011fru bildiklerim do\u011fru de\u011filmi\u015f,
\nD\u00fczm\u00fc\u015f, dik sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn yoku\u015flar.<\/p>\n
Benden uzaklarda bir d\u00fcnya varm\u0131\u015f,
\nRenkler bir c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, sesler m\u00fcs\u00e2vi.
\nG\u00fcne\u015f her g\u00fcn batar her g\u00fcn do\u011farm\u0131\u015f,
\nYery\u00fcz\u00fc ye\u015filmi\u015f, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc m\u00e2vi.<\/p>\n
Me\u011fer g\u00f6zlerime bir perde inmi\u015f,
\nS\u0131zmam\u0131\u015f i\u00e7eri tek h\u00fczme \u0131\u015f\u0131k.
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u00fcm y\u00fck\u00fc s\u0131rt\u0131ma binmi\u015f,
\nBen onda tutuklu o bana a\u015f\u0131k.<\/p>\n
Bir \u00f6r\u00fcmcek a\u011f\u0131 tutmu\u015f tenimi,
\nD\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f dizlerimin \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00e7enem.
\nSarm\u0131\u015f damla damla t\u00fcm bedenimi,
\nG\u00f6zlerimde ya\u015flar duvarlarda nem.<\/p>\n
Ruhum bedenini b\u0131rak\u0131p ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f,
\nYaln\u0131zca cismimden ib\u00e2retmi\u015fim.
\nY\u0131llar zaman ile aray\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f,
\nHayat\u0131 kendime zehir etmi\u015fim.<\/p>\n
S\u00fckut \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f k\u0131n\u0131ndan,
\nVurmu\u015f ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn seslerin.
\n\u00d6rtm\u00fc\u015f \u00fczerini girdi\u011fim zindan,
\nYar\u0131nlara d\u00e2ir t\u00fcm heveslerin.<\/p>\n
\u00c7evrem ba\u015ftan ba\u015fa h\u00fcz\u00fcn ku\u015fanm\u0131\u015f,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm bir girdapta tutsak, \u00e7aresiz.
\nBilmem bu zindanda nas\u0131l ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f,
\nBunca y\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131ks\u0131z ve penceresiz…<\/p>\n
Bir yanda perdeler di\u011fer yanda ben,
\nKorkular \u00fcst\u00fcnden a\u015fm\u0131\u015f bendimin.
\nMahk\u00fbm da benmi\u015fim, gardiyan da ben,
\nVe k\u00e2tiliymi\u015fim kendi kendimin…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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