Seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek nas\u0131l biliyor musun?<\/p>\n
Alt dudakla \u00fcst duda\u011f\u0131n birle\u015fti\u011fi yerde, hi\u00e7 beklenmedik anda muz\u0131r bir \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck kondurmas\u0131 tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn… Her sabah yoklama al\u0131n\u0131r gibi… Sen hep o tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn i\u00e7inde, h\u00fcz\u00fcnse hi\u00e7 u\u011framaz…<\/p>\n
Deniz kenar\u0131na gidersin dalga sesleri ad\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131ldar, bir bana var\u0131r, bir benden uzakla\u015f\u0131r kokun. Denizle y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f her bir \u00e7ak\u0131l ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde suretin kal\u0131r, ta\u015f atmaya k\u0131yamazs\u0131n denize. \u201cBir nefes alay\u0131m!\u201d dersin yosunlardan, deniz kabuklar\u0131ndan. \u0130\u00e7imi senle doldurur, bu sefer de nefes vermeye k\u0131yamazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Cebine atars\u0131n \u00e7ak\u0131l ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, deniz kabuklar\u0131n\u0131, bin bir anlam y\u00fcklersin o sadeli\u011fe. Ay\u0131ramazs\u0131n yan\u0131ndan. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her t\u00fcrl\u00fc gidi\u015fin bir par\u00e7am\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr gibi. \u0130\u00e7i yontulmu\u015f bir k\u00f6rfez\u00a0\u00a0ya da topra\u011f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131ran y\u00fckseklerden yaln\u0131z bir falez.<\/p>\n
Yola \u00e7\u0131kars\u0131n, \u00f6n\u00fcndeki \u015feritler film \u015feridi gibi kayar alt\u0131ndan. Yan\u0131nda oturan art\u0131k kimse v\u00fccut de\u011fi\u015ftirir. Bir \u015feyler anlat\u0131r sana, duymazs\u0131n. \u00c7oktan ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sohbet seninle, kapanm\u0131\u015fs\u0131nd\u0131r art\u0131k di\u011fer ba\u015fka her \u015feye.<\/p>\n
Arabay\u0131 d\u00fcz duvara s\u00fcrersin yine de bekleyemezsin, \u201cG\u00fcnayd\u0131n!\u201d demek i\u00e7in mesela… Bu aceleci arzuyu tutamazs\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Hep senden \u00f6nce var\u0131r gidece\u011fi yere. D\u00fcnya umurunda olmaz, do\u011fru zaman m\u0131, do\u011fru yer mi diye. Zaten zaman o kadar h\u0131zl\u0131 ak\u0131yordur ki, yer\u00e7ekimsiz kal\u0131rs\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Tamamlanm\u0131\u015f her notan\u0131n, her s\u00f6z\u00fcn i\u00e7erisine girmeyi nas\u0131l ba\u015far\u0131yorsun peki? Nas\u0131l gezer durursun dizelerin aras\u0131nda? Ger\u00e7ekli\u011fini kaybeder insan seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde. Hayal etmek de\u011fil bu bahsetti\u011fim, \u201cHangi d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u00e7erisinde daha \u00e7ok vars\u0131n?\u201d sorgusu. Hangisi sana ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettiriyorsa ger\u00e7ekli\u011fin o olmu\u015ftur. Ac\u0131s\u0131yla, tatl\u0131s\u0131yla, h\u00fczn\u00fcyle, kederiyle, hasretiyle, sevinciyle duvar\u0131mdan s\u0131z\u0131p maruz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m t\u00fcm bu \u0131\u015f\u0131k demeti, benim yeni g\u00fcn\u00fcm olur ve ger\u00e7ek d\u00fcnyam.<\/p>\n
B\u00f6yle bir \u015fey seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek i\u015fte\u2026 Bug\u00fcn oltama tak\u0131lan bu kelimelerle; rastgele dedi\u011fim\u2026 Okyanustaki t\u00fcm kelime tanecikleriyle her g\u00fcn yenisini t\u00fcretebilirim.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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