{"id":9821,"date":"2020-02-01T00:01:32","date_gmt":"2020-01-31T22:01:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=9821"},"modified":"2020-02-01T00:01:32","modified_gmt":"2020-01-31T22:01:32","slug":"sayiklamalar-v","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=9821","title":{"rendered":"SAYIKLAMALAR V"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>\u201ca\u2019n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fc\u2026\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>I<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Dedim ki, sahteydi keh\u00e2net metinleri.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Dedi ki, gittim ve d\u00f6nd\u00fcm sana s\u0131\u011f bir derinlik gibi\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Ne kald\u0131 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n ard\u0131nda? Sis ve pulsuz zarflardan ba\u015fka?<br \/>\nSanki bir alt yaz\u0131n\u0131n sessizli\u011fidir durur yata\u011f\u0131na sarkm\u0131\u015f karabiber a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n dallar\u0131nda.<br \/>\nYozla\u015f\u0131r sanki bedenim sen i\u00e7imi bo\u015falt\u0131nca.<br \/>\nKoyma hi\u00e7bir rengi m\u00fc\u015ffik annelerin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 tablolar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131na.<br \/>\nK\u0131r\u0131p d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn bu Guernika benim y\u00fcre\u011fimdir asl\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Kolsuz bir dervi\u015ftir ya\u015far ayetlerden kovulmu\u015f menk\u0131belerin aras\u0131nda.<br \/>\nYosunlarla gusledip, Yahudi namaz\u0131yla s\u0131nanm\u0131\u015f belki de ar\u015f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda.<br \/>\nOnun d\u00fc\u015flerimi yoksa mantonun astar\u0131nda saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n yara?<br \/>\nIsland\u0131 deniz sonbaharda, k\u00fcs\u00fcnce sen dalgalar\u0131n Zebur\u2019una.<br \/>\n(\u2026Kay\u0131pt\u0131 Dina dervi\u015fin yakas\u0131nda.<br \/>\nNahiye-i Habra\u2019da. Mina\u2019da, Guta\u2019da.<br \/>\nKapat hadi kap\u0131lar\u0131 kufi romanlar\u0131n kahramanlar\u0131na.<br \/>\nKa\u00e7 kez girdin Kusa \u2019ya g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerindeki oyuklar\u0131 doldururcas\u0131na?<br \/>\nKa\u00e7 \u015fehri kutsad\u0131n ermi\u015flerin kan\u0131yla\u2026 ?)<br \/>\nS\u00f6yle ne kald\u0131 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n ard\u0131nda? Omurgas\u0131z bir gezegenden ba\u015fka?<\/p>\n<p>(\u2026Hangi yaz\u0131t\u0131n tozudur d\u00fc\u015fer \u015fimdi eski foto\u011fraflara?<br \/>\nVur beni Minerva ve Ven\u00fcs ad\u0131na: Buhranlar, bunal\u0131mlar ve yollar boyunca\u2026<br \/>\nAyazd\u0131, buru\u015fuktu, da\u011f\u0131n\u0131kt\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fclerini tan\u0131mayan nekropoller gece yar\u0131s\u0131nda: Sen onlara yal\u0131nayak bas\u0131nca.<br \/>\nVe gece yar\u0131s\u0131nda Judas\u2019la yan yana, ta\u015flad\u0131k nevrotik bir bakireyi ac\u0131mas\u0131zca. T\u0131\u011f \u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fc kipalar\u0131m\u0131zla, korkun\u00e7 Siyon\u2019dan sonra\u2026<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>II<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Dedim ki, gittin ve d\u00f6nd\u00fcn bana Siyer ve K\u0131ssa kitaplar\u0131yla.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Dedi ki, ayr\u0131l\u0131r\u0131z yine birbirimize dolan\u0131nca\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Sigaram\u0131 bast\u0131m baca\u011f\u0131ndaki yumruya, penisimdeki hastal\u0131k yumurtana bula\u015f\u0131nca.<br \/>\nKapat g\u00f6zlerini mahremi olmayan perdelerin s\u0131rlar\u0131na. Y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131p kalacak az sonra ke\u015flerin m\u00fczi\u011fi Istavroz k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fc avlusuna.<br \/>\nK\u0131zma sak\u0131n saframdaki ipek k\u0131vr\u0131ml\u0131 Lolita\u2019ya. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n mirac\u0131d\u0131r bendeki o \u00e7o\u011ful yan\u0131lsama.<br \/>\n(Neden ki karyolana ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu efk\u00e2rl\u0131 karma\u015fa?<br \/>\nKimse sava\u015fm\u0131yor art\u0131k Salsa k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131yla, g\u00f6kten d\u00fcnyaya inmi\u015f olanlar d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda\u2026)<br \/>\nBekle seni Kud\u00fcs sanan komodinin tam kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda.<br \/>\n(Bekle me\u015f\u2019um Zelotlar\u0131 d\u00f6piyesindeki burjuvazi azal\u0131nca\u2026)<br \/>\nKalmaz hi\u00e7bir \u015fey \u00f6ylece ortada. Topla art\u0131k da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131n ne kadar ayr\u0131l\u0131k varsa. Kurudu di\u015fledi\u011fin festival \u00e7ile\u011fi masamdaki karanl\u0131kta&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>III<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Kalbimin en sapk\u0131n h\u00e2li sende kald\u0131.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Sende kald\u0131 topuklar\u0131 nemlenen k\u0131zlar\u0131n \u015fuh yan\u0131klar\u0131\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Baksam sana Madural\u0131 bir tazenin zar\u0131nda gezinirken ars\u0131zca.<br \/>\nBaksam, dokunsam var oldu\u011fun Lilith \u00e7amuruna; daha g\u00fczel g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcrs\u00fcn belki de karantina alt\u0131nda.<br \/>\n(Daha g\u00fczel bir \u015eehrazat Bab-\u0131\u2019yla\u2026)<br \/>\nG\u00fccenme sak\u0131n saks\u0131daki petunyan\u0131n karas\u0131na. Unuttu kokmay\u0131 sen d\u00fcnyay\u0131 kusunca.<br \/>\nAh zihnimdeki parampar\u00e7a muamma! Y\u00fcr\u00fc genzime ka\u00e7an kederin \u00fczerine namus b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131yla. Zaman yok, mek\u00e2n yok ula\u015f\u0131nca ihtiras\u0131n nirvanas\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n<p>(\u2026S\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc yasas\u0131d\u0131r bu retorik macera. Yuttum dilimi cinnetime bir ad\u0131m kala. Ve aldatt\u0131m Fuzuli\u2019yi Lili Marlen \u015fark\u0131s\u0131yla.<br \/>\nAldatt\u0131m neslimi buz rev\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn en g\u00fczel kad\u0131nlar\u0131yla\u2026)<\/p>\n<p>Parisli bir \u00e7ocuktum asl\u0131nda.<br \/>\n(Yast\u0131k alt\u0131nda g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131mla\u2026)<br \/>\nNas\u0131l b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm Erra Manzumesi okurken mum \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda?<br \/>\nNas\u0131l da uzakta ve yak\u0131nda\u2026 ?<br \/>\nBol\u015fevik kuma\u015f\u0131ndan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m oysa. Lo\u015f bir manzara gibi, f\u00fct\u00fcrist bir girdapta kaybolurcas\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>IV<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Kilden oyuncaklar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 bizim.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>G\u00fcne\u015fi aram\u0131zdan \u00e7ekip alan kim?<\/em><br \/>\n<em>K\u00fclden tabular\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 sonra. Ve medeniyet diskurlar\u0131, Hintli Pajuriler, semitik objeler\u2026<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Darmada\u011f\u0131n\u0131kt\u0131 bir yan\u0131m\u0131z. Bir yan\u0131m\u0131z kadavra kadar \u0131ss\u0131z\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>K\u00e2\u011f\u0131ttan fenerler alaca\u011f\u0131m sana.<br \/>\n(Kalabal\u0131k bir parkta g\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda\u2026)<br \/>\nAvut proleter \u015fairleri koynunda, zevke d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn t\u00fcm yanlar\u0131nla. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yokluk, yoklu\u011fun varl\u0131kt\u0131r kendimi \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe aday\u0131nca\u2026<br \/>\nKals\u0131n elinde o g\u00fczel Messalina, o g\u00fczel dudaklar\u0131yla, orgazm\u0131n bo\u015flu\u011funda.<br \/>\nHangi okyanusta kayboldun kad\u0131n hayk\u0131rsana!<br \/>\nMason \u00fclk\u00fcs\u00fc m\u00fc yoksa kurban edildi\u011fin sunaktaki bu esmer aforizma?<br \/>\n\u015eimdi g\u00fcl<br \/>\nve yaslan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fehrin sokak lambalar\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n<p>(Pastoral bir \u015fefkatle yakla\u015f \u015fehvetin o\u011fullar\u0131na.<br \/>\nAl\u0131\u015ft\u0131 duygular\u0131m kop\u00e7andaki begonvil beyaz\u0131na.<br \/>\nNe i\u015fin var senin tiranlar\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda? Kim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ruhunu K\u00eepti \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7i\u011fneyen filozoflar\u0131n sat\u0131rlar\u0131na?<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0131kma sak\u0131n kendinden d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya!<br \/>\nS\u00fck\u00fbnet bulamazs\u0131n azizlerin s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131nda\u2026)<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>V<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Dedim ki, ben senin t\u0131marhanen, yuvan, s\u0131land\u0131m oysa.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Dedi ki, g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fcyd\u00fc r\u00fcya. Nemli, \u0131slak, ihtiyar bir d\u00fcnya vard\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131mda\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u0130lahi bir g\u00fc\u00e7 m\u00fcd\u00fcr su\u00e7?<br \/>\nVur aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yere! N\u00fcr dire\u011fidir s\u0131rt\u0131ndaki bu erkeksi c\u00fcbbe.<br \/>\nAz\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f bir kar\u0131ncay\u0131 ezdim ben seninle. \u00dc\u00e7 aslanl\u0131 cebbar bir lahdin i\u00e7inde, \u00c7in \u00c7in\u2019deki Gize\u2019de\u2026<br \/>\nSaray nedimesi olmal\u0131yd\u0131 sen bu gece. Ac\u0131 \u00e7ekti\u011fim her yerde.<br \/>\nNe g\u00fczeldi etinde a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f o b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrtlenli sivilce?<br \/>\nNas\u0131l da y\u00fcceydi Kutsal Kom\u00fcn i\u00e7inde, Z\u00fchre bir kesikle, yar\u0131 tanr\u0131\u00e7a \u015feklinde\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Tutu\u015ftur hadi beni Felluce kibritiyle.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Koca bir ordu b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm ben Gabar\u2019daki i\u00e7 denizde\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Unuttum kendimi Efrahim topra\u011f\u0131nda. Ey a\u015fk, ey erdemsiz yarat\u0131k! Savur \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc alaca bir hastal\u0131\u011fa. Horluk ve yoksullukla ili\u015ftim ve zarafetini yitirmi\u015f t\u00fcm orospulara\u2026 : (Re\u00e7ele bulanm\u0131\u015f parmaklar\u0131mla.)<br \/>\nVe mah\u015ferden ve gafletten ve zilletten insanlarla\u2026<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>VI<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Sen de\u011fil misin beni Dolorosa\u2019n\u0131n duraklar\u0131nda terk eden yery\u00fcz\u00fcm?<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Benim en g\u00fczel h\u00fczn\u00fcm\u2026 ?)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u0130ffet fakiriydik biz. Yabanc\u0131 bir tene dokunur gibi ikimiz\u2026<br \/>\nBoyad\u0131k t\u0131rnaklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 l\u00e2l rengi. Masada ruj izleri, pagan misterleri\u2026<br \/>\nKanatt\u0131k genital b\u00f6lgelerimizi. Habis bir ur misali ya\u015fad\u0131k Sadda, Samud ve Henna\u2019dan beri\u2026<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen bir Buddha gerekli \u00f6fkendeki s\u00fcse. Seni k\u0131z karde\u015finden daha \u00e7ok sevmeden \u00f6nce.<br \/>\n\u00d6lebiliriz art\u0131k medcezir ve g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 an\u0131 ge\u00e7ince.<br \/>\nBelki de Tsoara Kenti\u2019nde. Mutaass\u0131p partizanlarla birlikte\u2026<\/p>\n<p>(\u2026Sadece cenin yapabilme g\u00fcc\u00fcne sahiptik.<br \/>\nEn duyars\u0131z organlar\u0131m\u0131zla sadece; makyajs\u0131z, k\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z, deh\u015fet bir e\u011filimle y\u00fcz y\u00fcze\u2026)<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>VII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Dedim ki, ah ihti\u015faml\u0131 Harpya!<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Neredeydin, neden d\u00f6nd\u00fcn bunca zaman sonra?<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Dedi ki, kefenimi \u00f6rmekteydim ben Anzilha\u2019da. Ta\u015flar\u0131 tavaf ede ede geldim sana\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Korkma! Gir i\u00e7eri. \u015euraya b\u0131rak yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n kelebek desenli kurabiyeleri. Kalb-i Ecred\u2019tir bizden uzakta olanlar\u0131n talihi.<br \/>\nKorkma ey \u015fahdamar\u0131mdaki sahya misali sevgili: Nasran\u00ee mele\u011fi, vakfe yeri.<br \/>\nSu\u00e7lama art\u0131k Moriah sosyalistlerini, indirdiler diye duvar\u0131ndaki \u00d6k\u00fcltist r\u00f6lyefleri.<br \/>\nAz sonra tutuklayacaklar beni. \u00c7i\u00e7e\u011fi burnunda bir o\u011flan\u0131 dansa kald\u0131r\u0131r gibi.<br \/>\nSoyun, \u00e7\u0131kar \u00fczerindeki bencil aristokrasiyi. T\u0131kand\u0131 tutkunun g\u00f6zenekleri\u2026<br \/>\n(\u2026Ve \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131 \u015fehrin meyhaneleri, kerhaneleri, batakhaneleri\u2026<br \/>\n\u00c7o\u011fald\u0131 \u00f6rg\u00fcdeki \u015fi\u015fin ilmek say\u0131s\u0131 dahi. Fermuar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ekerken tak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m yer gibi, \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131 ne varsa; y\u0131lan, yarasa, kurba\u011fa, vajina\u2026<br \/>\nBak\u0131yorum etrafa, bak\u0131yor s\u0131v\u0131lar\u0131 simsiyah insanlar bana\u2026)<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p><strong>VIII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(\u2026Seni mutlu edecek bir \u015feyler arad\u0131m.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Caval\u0131 k\u0131zlara benzeyen bir \u015feyler\u2026<\/em><br \/>\n<em>Bulamad\u0131m; k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fcm, k\u0131sald\u0131m, darald\u0131m\u2026)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Neresinden k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131k biz? Hayat\u0131n neresinden sessiz ve eylemsiz\u2026<br \/>\nEn anlams\u0131z haliydik kentin. Sen t\u00fckenmi\u015ftin\u2026<br \/>\nKabala casusu gibiydi m\u00fcstesna tekkeleri. Her yerde sperm yumu\u015fakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda insan eti.<br \/>\n\u0130lahi bir h\u00fck\u00fcmle geldi biri. Feti\u015fistlerin en sefiliydi.<br \/>\nFettan ya da dindar de\u011fildi. Ahlak onu sevmemi\u015fti. Lut\u2019u k\u0131z\u0131na \u00e2\u015f\u0131k bildi.<br \/>\nRomal\u0131 hem\u015firelere \u00f6zenmi\u015fti. G\u00fcne\u015ften, su\u00e7tan ve sexten daha g\u00fczeldi.<br \/>\nCaimite Mezhebi \u2019ne aitti. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u0130spanyol kolonileriyle sava\u015f\u0131p \u00f6yle gelmi\u015fti.<br \/>\nM\u0131s\u0131r rengiydi \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131. Sanki par\u00e7amd\u0131.<br \/>\nSanki ye\u015fim ta\u015f\u0131m, mercan a\u011fz\u0131md\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>(\u2026Ayr\u0131ld\u0131 sonra g\u00fcn karar\u0131nca. Aristo\u2019dan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 epik bir naz\u0131mla\u2026<br \/>\nFani de\u011fildi! Kutsal de\u011fildi! Sihirli de\u011fildi!<br \/>\nK\u0131skand\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7in elindeki ak\u0131l me\u015falesini, onursuzlu\u011fa hapsetti seni.<br \/>\nOysa ilahi bir h\u00fck\u00fcmle gelmi\u015fti. Anne rahmindeki bir bebek kadar bakireydi. Testisime losyon s\u00fcr\u00fcp gitti.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc feti\u015fizm,<br \/>\nyeralt\u0131n\u0131n en g\u00fczel h\u00e2liydi\u2026)<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>(devam\u0131 Mart say\u0131m\u0131zda&#8230;)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201ca\u2019n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fc\u2026\u201d I (\u2026Dedim ki, sahteydi&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":162,"featured_media":9093,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9821"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/162"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9821"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9821\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9821"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9821"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9821"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}