K\u0131z\u0131 Naime, \u201c\u0130\u00e7me art\u0131k \u015fu z\u0131kk\u0131m\u0131 bubaaa\u201d diye evin i\u00e7inden seslendi\u011finde avluda has\u0131r yast\u0131klar\u0131n, minderlerin oldu\u011fu bir sedirde nas\u0131rl\u0131 parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sarma sigaras\u0131n\u0131 avurtlar\u0131nda iki derin \u00e7ukur olu\u015funcaya kadar i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti, \u0130lyas Dede.<\/p>\n
-Kar\u0131\u015fma g\u0131z sen benim i\u015fime, senelerdir biz bu can\u0131na yand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u015finin i\u00e7indeyiz, dedi \u00f6ks\u00fcrerek.<\/p>\n
Radyonun c\u0131z\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131 sesi can\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n
-Naime g\u0131z\u0131mmmm! \u015eu z\u0131mb\u0131rt\u0131y\u0131 kapat. Ben de azc\u0131k \u015f\u00f6le dolan\u0131p gelcem. Kahveye falan giderim, dedi.<\/p>\n
Cebinden k\u00f6stekli saatini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ikindi ezan\u0131 okundu okunacakt\u0131 ki, abdestini de tazeleyip sonra evden \u00e7\u0131kman\u0131n daha m\u00fcnasip olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u0130lyas Dede \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn her an her yerde insan\u0131 yakalayabilece\u011fini inan\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bundand\u0131r abdestsiz soka\u011fa tek ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 atmazd\u0131. Tabi art\u0131k b\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesinde ilerleyen ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n, hayat\u0131n omuzlar\u0131na y\u00fckledi\u011fi a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, a\u011fr\u0131yan dizlerinin ve ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya da ya\u015fayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kalbine adeta deve gibi \u00e7\u00f6ken bir ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman hik\u00e2yesinin t\u00fcm h\u00fccrelerinde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 derin yaralar\u0131n\u0131n olmas\u0131yd\u0131 belki de. Eline ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi bastonu onun elinden tutan son dayanakt\u0131. Bastonundan g\u00fc\u00e7 alarak besmele \u00e7ekip kalkt\u0131 oturdu\u011fu sedirden. Ve a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek avlunun bir k\u00f6\u015fesindeki muslu\u011fa do\u011fru y\u00f6neldi. Tam elli y\u0131l olmu\u015ftu. Bu evi kendi elleriyle ve rahmetli e\u015fi Fikriye\u2019nin yard\u0131m\u0131yla yapal\u0131. Senelerin ad\u0131 vard\u0131. Tek ge\u00e7im kaynaklar\u0131yd\u0131 t\u00fct\u00fcnc\u00fcl\u00fck, o zamanlar. Ne doyurur ne de a\u00e7 b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131 insan\u0131. Ama k\u00f6y yeri de\u011fil mi? Herkes bir di\u011ferinin deli\u011fini kapamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, sen elindekini olmayana verirsin, o da elindekini sana verir. Bir \u015fekilde bor\u00e7-har\u00e7 halletmi\u015flerdi i\u015flerini. Bir an durdu ve baston tutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 sa\u011f eliyle belini hafif\u00e7e do\u011frulttu. Yorulmu\u015ftu. Derin bir nefes ald\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti\u011fi temiz hava ci\u011ferlerini geni\u015fletip g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc \u015fi\u015firdi\u011finde, gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131nda oldu\u011fu gibi \u00fc\u00e7 ad\u0131mda muslu\u011fa varabilece\u011fini hayal etti. Fakat bu sadece hayalden \u00f6teye gidemezdi. Hangi akla hizmet taaa avlunun di\u011fer ucuna konduruvermi\u015fti muslu\u011fu. Gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclm\u00fcyordu b\u00f6yle \u015feyler. Her \u015feyin k\u0131ymeti kocay\u0131nca anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Heeyyy gidinin Ellez\u2019i dedi kendi kendine. Daha d\u00fcn gibiydi. Sabah ezan\u0131 okunmadan e\u015feklere y\u00fckledikleri t\u00fct\u00fcn kelterlerini tarladan eve getirirlerdi. \u00c7oluk \u00e7ocuk yar\u0131 uykulu, yar\u0131 uyan\u0131k avlunun i\u00e7ine yay\u0131l\u0131r, t\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7izerlerdi \u015fi\u015flere. T\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7izilecek \u015fi\u015fler t\u00fckenince bu sefer \u0130lyas \u015fi\u015flerdeki t\u00fct\u00fcnleri karg\u0131lara ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f iplere ge\u00e7irip g\u0131rmandal denen iki taraf\u0131 telli d\u00fczene\u011fe kurumalar\u0131 i\u00e7in asard\u0131. Bundan sonras\u0131 ise balya yapt\u0131r\u0131p son olarak da k\u00f6ye gelen t\u00fcccarlara satmakt\u0131. Senelerce biteviye devam etti bu i\u015fler. Senelerce t\u00fct\u00fcn tetirli elleriyle a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na koyduklar\u0131 her lokmada t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn zehrini ak\u0131tm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 midelerine. T\u00fct\u00fcnc\u00fcl\u00fckten elde etti\u011fi gelirle kurmu\u015ftu yuvas\u0131n\u0131. Hatta \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n yuvalar\u0131n\u0131 da\u2026 K\u0131z\u0131 Naime\u2019yi telli duvakl\u0131 evin ah\u015fap merdivenlerinden indirirken ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u00fcz\u00fcnle kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k mutluluk halleri geldi bir anda g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne. Ne zaman b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc bu k\u0131z da gelinlik \u00e7a\u011f\u0131na gelmi\u015fti? Daha d\u00fcn gibiydi elindeki bez bebe\u011fiyle avluda i\u015fte tam da orada, merdivenin alt\u0131nda her zamanki gibi evcilik oynam\u0131yor muydu? Zaman su gibi akm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Biricik k\u0131z\u0131, iki g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi ne hayallerle evlenmi\u015fti de hay\u0131rs\u0131z damad\u0131 Mehmet, Naime\u2019 nin k\u0131s\u0131r oldu\u011funu, onu z\u00fcrriyetsiz b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne koyuvermi\u015fti zavall\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131. Baba y\u00fcre\u011fi nas\u0131l katlan\u0131rd\u0131 \u015fimdi? Elbette baba oca\u011f\u0131 sonuna kadar a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 Naime\u2019 ye. Fikriye Han\u0131m da Hakk\u2019\u0131n rahmetine kavu\u015funca evi \u00e7ekip \u00e7evirecek tek ki\u015fi olarak Naime y\u00fcklenmi\u015fti bu i\u015fi. Ara ara sigara i\u00e7mesine kar\u0131\u015fsa da iyi miza\u00e7l\u0131, naif bir k\u0131zd\u0131 Naime. Bu \u00f6zelliklerini anac\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130yi huylu, iyi kalpli Fikriye\u2019si evin alt kat\u0131ndaki ekmek evinde ocaktaki ate\u015fin yal\u0131n\u0131 vururken y\u00fcz\u00fcne yokluk varl\u0131k belli etmeden ne de lezzetli yemekler pi\u015firirdi. Fikriye\u2019nin yufka a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131, bazlama, g\u00f6zleme yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn ailenin hatta kom\u015fular\u0131n dahi karn\u0131n\u0131n doydu\u011fu g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ti g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnden. Burnuna hafif bir ekmek kokusu \u00e7ald\u0131. Bak i\u015fte orada, iki zeytin a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda yenice as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131n sabun kokular\u0131 aras\u0131nda o\u011fullar\u0131 Yusuf ve Hasan birbirlerini ebelemek i\u00e7in se\u011firtiyorlard\u0131. Fikriye\u2019nin \u201c\u00c7ekilin ordan haylazlar! Daha yeni y\u0131kad\u0131m onlar\u0131.\u201d diye azarlayan sesini duyar gibi oldu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bir tebess\u00fcm yerle\u015ftirdi. Hafif\u00e7e kafas\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131. Art\u0131k az\u0131c\u0131k da olsa dinlenmi\u015fti. Ha gayret! Birka\u00e7 ad\u0131mda muslu\u011fa varmak i\u00e7in ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 att\u0131\u011f\u0131 o an radyodan gelen o sesle m\u0131hland\u0131 oldu\u011fu yere.<\/p>\n
-Uzun ince bir yolday\u0131m, gidiyorum g\u00fcnd\u00fcz gece
\nBilmiyorum ne halday\u0131m, gidiyorum g\u00fcnd\u00fcz gece\u2026<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k k\u0131p\u0131rdayam\u0131yordu. T\u00fcm v\u00fccudu kaskat\u0131 kesilmi\u015fti. Sadece g\u00f6zlerinden istem d\u0131\u015f\u0131 sicim gibi bo\u015falan g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yd\u0131 hareket eden. Bu t\u00fcrk\u00fc ona y\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 \u00f6ncesini hat\u0131rlatt\u0131. Y\u00fcre\u011finin \u00fczerinde oturan deve kalkt\u0131 sanki bir an. Kalbi h\u0131zla atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Sanki yerinden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131verip, bir ku\u015f olup u\u00e7up gidiverecek gibi. Baz\u0131 ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar vard\u0131 ki ge\u00e7mi\u015fte, bunun i\u00e7in ayaklar\u0131n ko\u015fmaya mecal bulamasa da y\u00fcre\u011fin ko\u015fturuverirdi o g\u00fcnlere.<\/p>\n
-Her \u015feyi hat\u0131rlad\u0131n da beni unuttun mu yoksa \u0130lyas, diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 \u00e7al karas\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcm g\u00f6zl\u00fcs\u00fc Iraz\u2019\u0131.<\/p>\n
Dizlerinin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcverdi aniden. Oldu\u011fu yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131. Bir an kendine geldi\u011finde yele\u011finin i\u00e7 cebindeki tabakas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir sigara yakmay\u0131 denedi. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda yerle\u015ftirdi\u011fi sigaray\u0131, titreyen elleriyle, titrek bir ate\u015fle bulu\u015fturdu. Sigaras\u0131n\u0131n duman\u0131yd\u0131 \u015fimdi ge\u00e7mi\u015fe yolculuk yapan. Aln\u0131ndaki derinle\u015fen \u00e7izgiler daha da belirginle\u015fti. Kalbi bir ku\u015f olup konuvermi\u015fti \u00c7\u00f6kelez Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n zirvesine. Bu da\u011f\u0131n efsanesini ona ilk anlatan, kendisine de \u0130lyas ismini veren Murtaza dedesiydi. \u0130nsanlara verilen isimler ayn\u0131 zamanda kaderleri mi olurdu? Bunu, o efsaneyi dedesinden dinleyince anlad\u0131. Murtaza dede gelenek g\u00f6reneklerini ya\u015fatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ehil bir insand\u0131. Bu civarda ya\u015fayan insanlar zaman\u0131nda onu \u00e7ok sevip sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bir\u00e7ok ki\u015fi \u00e7ocu\u011funa, torununa onun ismini vermi\u015fti. Belki de ona \u00f6zendiklerinden \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n da onun gibi sevilen say\u0131lan birisi olmas\u0131n\u0131 istediklerinden. Lakin Murtaza dede, torununa kendi ismini vermeyip, \u0130lyas ismini okumu\u015ftu kula\u011f\u0131na. Murtaza dede, torununa \u0130lyas demez, \u2018Ellez\u2019 diye hitap ederdi hep. Ne \u0130lyas ne de bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 \u201cNeden Ellez?\u201d diye sormad\u0131 hi\u00e7.<\/p>\n
Dedesiyle \u0130lyas aras\u0131nda olu\u015fan ba\u011f, ne anas\u0131 ne de babas\u0131yla olu\u015ftu. Dedesinin ondaki yeri bamba\u015fkayd\u0131. Babas\u0131 ile anas\u0131 can suyunu vermi\u015flerdi. Anas\u0131 karn\u0131nda, kuca\u011f\u0131nda, s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Dedesi ise dizlerinin dibinde, g\u00f6z\u00fcnden sak\u0131narak b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc \u0130lyas\u2019\u0131. Anas\u0131 karn\u0131n\u0131 doyururken, dedesi ruhunu doyurmu\u015ftu. \u0130lk ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 atmas\u0131 i\u00e7in tahtadan \u00fc\u00e7 tekerli y\u00fcr\u00fcte\u00e7 yap\u0131veren yine dedesiydi. \u00c7ocukluk y\u0131llar\u0131nda bilmedi\u011fi, merak etti\u011fi bir\u00e7ok \u015feyi \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti dedesinden. Mesela, kuzular\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7inde kendi annelerini nas\u0131l bulduklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti bir defas\u0131nda. Zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n bir sene \u00e7ok verim verip, di\u011fer sene dinlenmeye \u00e7ekildiklerini de \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti.\u00a0 Merakl\u0131 ve sorgulayan g\u00f6zlerle \u201cDedeeee! Zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 da insanlar gibi yorulur mu yani?\u201d dedi\u011finde ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n i\u00e7ten g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc y\u00fcz\u00fcne da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, mutluluk kavram\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinin iki yan\u0131ndaki ince \u00e7izgilere oturuvermi\u015fti. \u0130lyas bu ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n ne kadar \u00e7ok \u015fey bildi\u011fini, adeta yolunu ayd\u0131nlatan bir rehber, Allah taraf\u0131ndan kendisine ihsan edilen koruyucu bir melek oldu\u011funa inand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 kendini. \u00d6yle ki bu ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n, bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n her t\u00fcrl\u00fc i\u015fini bildi\u011fi gibi namazlardan sonra okudu\u011fu dualarda di\u011fer \u00e2lemlerden birileriyle f\u0131s\u0131lda\u015farak irtibat kurdu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Her per\u015fembe gecesi odas\u0131na \u00e7ekilir, diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp \u00f6n\u00fcne oturdu\u011fu rahlesinde bir tak\u0131m ileri geri sal\u0131n\u0131mlar e\u015fli\u011finde Mushaf okurdu. Onun g\u00fczel sesinden dinledi\u011fi bu esrarengiz melodinin gizemine kap\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 \u0130lyas. Bir keresinde bazen g\u0131rtlaktan, bazen genizden \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131lan bu i\u00e7li seslerin ne anlama geldi\u011fini sormu\u015ftu dedesine. Dedesi:<\/p>\n
-\u201c\u0130yi bir insan olman\u0131n ulviyetini, iyi olan\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyada oldu\u011fu gibi \u00f6b\u00fcr d\u00fcnyada da m\u00fck\u00e2fat\u0131n\u0131 alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yler. K\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck edenlerin her iki d\u00fcnyada da yerinin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kalbi temiz, iman\u0131 kuvvetli olan\u0131n daha bu d\u00fcnyada cennetini ya\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131r.\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Yazlar\u0131 bir yandan t\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fleri devam ederken ezan vakitleri dedesiyle abdest al\u0131rlar birlikte vakit namazlar\u0131n\u0131 eda ederlerdi. \u0130\u00e7lerine d\u00fc\u015fen derin hu\u015fu, g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldiklerinde par\u0131lt\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Vakit bulduk\u00e7a da dedesinden Kur\u2019an-\u0131 Kerim\u2019i tecvitli okumay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti. Murtaza dede \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi torununun bu kadar zeki, \u00e7abuk \u00f6\u011frenen bir \u00e7ocuk olmas\u0131yla gurur duymu\u015ftu her zaman. Torununu tecr\u00fcbeleriyle, nasihatleriyle en \u00f6nemlisi de derin bir sevgiyle b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u201cD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcl\u00fcrse derince
\nUzak g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcnce
\nBir yol dakka miktar\u0131nca
\nGidiyorum g\u00fcnd\u00fcz gece\u201d<\/p>\n
Kimi zaman bir s\u00f6z, kimi zaman bir resim, kimi zaman da yan\u0131k bir y\u00fcrekten d\u00f6k\u00fclen i\u00e7li bir ses siluetine b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr gezerdi ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman. Ara ara belle\u011fini yoklard\u0131 insan\u0131n can\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131ta ac\u0131ta. On sekiz ya\u015f\u0131nda b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131 yeni terlemi\u015f delikanl\u0131 oldu\u011fu o hazin yaz geldi g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcne. T\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn ilk k\u0131r\u0131m vaktiydi. Kara g\u00f6zleriydi Iraz\u2019\u0131n \u0130lyas\u2019\u0131 yang\u0131nlara atan. G\u00f6n\u00fclden g\u00f6n\u00fcle giden yolun seyyahlar\u0131 olmu\u015flard\u0131. Bilemezlerdi ki gidilen her yol menzile ula\u015ft\u0131rmaz. Kaderden \u00f6teye yol olmaz.<\/p>\n
O yaz zorlu ge\u00e7ti \u0130lyas i\u00e7in. Sevdi\u011fi k\u0131z\u0131n amans\u0131z bir hastal\u0131kla \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ve dedesinin yata\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fmesi \u0130lyas\u2019\u0131 derinden etkiledi. Bir s\u00fcre yemez i\u00e7mez, insan i\u00e7ine \u00e7\u0131kmaz oldu. Hasta yata\u011f\u0131nda yatan dedesi, \u0130lyas\u2019\u0131 yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu nur y\u00fczl\u00fc ihtiyar adam, bir \u00e7ocuk kadar kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yata\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde. \u0130lyas onu b\u00f6yle g\u00f6rmeye dayanamazd\u0131 ama \u201cFani d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sahibi de\u011filiz\u201d demi\u015fti dedesi. \u201cHer nefis bir g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tadacakt\u0131r.\u201d der ayette. Bu sebepledir ki \u0130lyas hi\u00e7bir zaman \u00f6l\u00fcmden korkmad\u0131. Dedesinin yan\u0131na diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp yumu\u015fac\u0131k pamuk ellerini, ellerinin aras\u0131na ald\u0131. Murtaza dede hafif\u00e7e aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131sarak elini tutan delikanl\u0131ya bakt\u0131. Sanki onu tan\u0131m\u0131yormu\u015f da kim oldu\u011funu bir yerlerden \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor gibiydi y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade.<\/p>\n
-\u201cDedeci\u011fim, benim, Ellez\u201d dedi \u0130lyas.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk kez bu kadar \u00e7aresiz hissetmi\u015fti kendini. A\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan her kelime bir \u00e7ak\u0131rdiken tohumu gibi bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 par\u00e7alayacakm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na… Derin nefes al\u0131rken burun delikleri geni\u015fliyor, g\u00f6zlerinden d\u00f6k\u00fclen ya\u015flar yanaklar\u0131nda iki su olu\u011fu olu\u015fturuyordu. Murtaza dede yata\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 pencereye \u00e7evirdi. G\u00f6zlerini \u00c7\u00f6kelez Da\u011f\u0131\u2019na do\u011fru dikti. Bir s\u00fcre bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 da\u011f\u0131n zirvesinden hi\u00e7 ay\u0131rmad\u0131. Sanki bir \u015feyler vard\u0131 da\u011f\u0131n zirvesinde, sadece Murtaza dede\u2019nin g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc. Ya da Azrail orada beklemekteydi Murtaza dede\u2019yi. Derin bir sessizlik h\u00e2kim s\u00fcrd\u00fc odan\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Bu sessizli\u011fin sebebini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rada, ya\u015fl\u0131 adam konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
-\u00c2demo\u011flu her \u015feyi bilseydi, \u00f6lece\u011fi g\u00fcn\u00fc de bilirdi Ellezim. Hak Te\u00e2l\u00e2 biz insanlar\u0131 her \u015feyi bilmek i\u00e7in yaratmad\u0131 ki. Zaten o vakit nas\u0131l katlan\u0131rd\u0131k bu y\u00fck\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Allah ta\u015f\u0131yabilece\u011fi zorlu\u011fu vermi\u015f sevgili kullar\u0131na. Bunu kendilerine pay belleyip \u015f\u00fckretsinler diye. Beden bir emanettir y\u00fcce yaradandan. Topraktan gelip yine topra\u011fa d\u00f6neriz. \u015eu \u00c7\u00f6kelez Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr m\u00fcs\u00fcn? Orada, da\u011f\u0131n zirvesinde tek ba\u015f\u0131na garip bir mezar vard\u0131r. Vakti zaman\u0131nda gavur sald\u0131r\u0131s\u0131na u\u011frayan, topraklar\u0131n\u0131 korumak i\u00e7in cengaverce sava\u015fan, kopuk ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 koltu\u011funun alt\u0131na al\u0131p d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 kovalarken can veren Ellez Komutan yatar orada. Arkada\u015flar\u0131, \u201c\u00c7\u00f6k Ellez, \u00c7\u00f6k Ellez!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rsalar da aslanlar gibi sava\u015f\u0131p, ad\u0131na destanlar yazd\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bu olaydan m\u00fctevellit \u00c7\u00f6kelez Da\u011f\u0131 koymu\u015flard\u0131r bu ha\u015fmetli da\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n
Terler boncuk boncuk olmu\u015ftu ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n aln\u0131nda, dili kurumu\u015ftu. \u0130lyas \u0131slak bir pamukla dedesinin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 nemlendirdi.<\/p>\n
-\u201cDedeci\u011fim yorma kendini bu kadar, biraz dinlen.\u201d dese de ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n s\u00f6zlerine ara vermeye niyeti yoktu.<\/p>\n
-\u0130nsan \u00f6l\u00fcm an\u0131nda bile ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 de\u011fil ya\u015fayamad\u0131klar\u0131, bildikleri de\u011fil bilmedikleri i\u00e7in tasalan\u0131r. Bir t\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00fczelli\u011finin alt\u0131nda yatan yapraklar\u0131 gibi bu dert i\u00e7ini zehirler insan\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Murtaza dede son nefesini verirken dahi \u0130lyas\u2019\u0131n akl\u0131na y\u0131llard\u0131r tak\u0131lan sorular\u0131na da cevap olmu\u015ftu. Son nefesten bile \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131labilecek o kadar ders vard\u0131 ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Radyodan gelen sesle oldu\u011fu yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131veren Koca \u0130lyas, g\u00f6zlerinden akan ya\u015flarla bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00c7\u00f6kelez Da\u011f\u0131\u2019na \u00e7evirdi. Bo\u011fuk bo\u011fuk \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fcrken ayn\u0131 zamanda t\u00fcrk\u00fcye m\u0131r\u0131ldanarak e\u015flik ediyordu. Bir elinde sigaras\u0131 di\u011fer elinde erken ya\u015fta amans\u0131z hastal\u0131\u011fa yakalan\u0131p \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kabuk ba\u011flamaz kalp yaras\u0131 Iraz\u2019\u0131ndan kalan yeg\u00e2ne miras\u0131 t\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi nak\u0131\u015f i\u015flemeli beyaz mendili ile t\u00fcrk\u00fcn\u00fcn son d\u00f6rtl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015ea\u015far Veysel i\u015f bu hale
\nG\u00e2h a\u011flayan g\u00e2hi g\u00fcle
\nYeti\u015fmek i\u00e7in menzile
\nGidiyorum g\u00fcnd\u00fcz gece\u201d<\/p>\n
Mendili hafif\u00e7e burnuna g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp y\u0131llar\u0131n kokusunu \u00e7ekti i\u00e7ine. Ard\u0131ndan gelen h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fckle nefesi kesilir gibi oldu. Mendili a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde taze birka\u00e7 damla kan\u0131n, t\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi i\u015flemesinin \u00fczerine damlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etti. Uzaklardan birileri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu. Gitme vakti gelmi\u015fti. Il\u0131k bir esinti geldi da\u011f\u0131n eteklerinden. A\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131 kapand\u0131 bir daha a\u00e7\u0131lmamak \u00fczere.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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