Her \u015feyi unut, bir lanet gibi birbirimizin \u00fczerine do\u011fdu\u011fumuz geceleri en \u00e7ok da. Kara k\u0131z\u0131l bir a\u015fk\u0131n i\u00e7inde birikmi\u015f tortular gibi gitmemizi engelleyen s\u00f6zleri de. Bahara kozas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan bir kelebe\u011fin \u00f6mr\u00fc olsun ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z. \u00c7\u0131kt\u0131k kanat \u00e7\u0131rpt\u0131k ve hazindir ki uzak iki diyarda son buldu hayatlar\u0131m\u0131z. \u00d6l\u00fcm bir h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131k misali tutmu\u015fken bizi unut gitsin.<\/p>\n
Her \u015feyi unut, hatta ellerinin titrekli\u011fine yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fiirleri bile. Gece zifirisinde odam\u0131 ayd\u0131nlatan teninin bembeyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unutturdu\u011fun gibi unut her \u015feyi. Sabahlara kadar sessiz sedas\u0131z sarho\u015fluklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bir de. Birbirimizden kopmaktan korktu\u011fumuz vedalar\u0131. Ve sabah ezanlar\u0131nda etti\u011fimiz dualar\u0131. Birlikte a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z iftarlar\u0131, sahurlar\u0131, da\u011f ba\u015f\u0131 yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131\u2026 Kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n i\u00e7inde sadece birbirimizi duydu\u011fumuz o t\u0131ls\u0131ml\u0131 susu\u015flar\u0131… G\u00f6zlerimden anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n serzeni\u015flerimi, bir de avaz avaz ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yolculuklar\u0131… Sesim sakal\u0131m gibi ya\u015flan\u0131rken umut gitsin.<\/p>\n
Her \u015feyi unut, beni k\u00f6r karanl\u0131klar\u0131n i\u00e7inde \u00f6ylece b\u0131rak\u0131p gidi\u015fini bile. Seni asla b\u0131rakmam diye verdi\u011fin s\u00f6zleri hatta. Ellerimi \u00f6p\u00fcp koklay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 \u201cSeni kaybedersem bir sevgiliyi de\u011fil; ayn\u0131 zamanda babam\u0131, en yak\u0131n dostumu, en iyi s\u0131rda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 da kaybederim\u201d dedi\u011fin g\u00fcnleri de unut gitsin. Bir g\u00fcn \u00f6yle kimsesizken g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne yaslan\u0131p h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, bir pervane misali ate\u015finin etraf\u0131nda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m tavaflar\u0131 da unut bitsin. Unut daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcd\u00fcr umutsuzluktan ve uykusuzluk yener hep uykuyu. Yan\u0131mda sere serpe dald\u0131\u011f\u0131n r\u00fcyalar\u0131 da unut. \u00dczerime binlerce ton y\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n bunca s\u0131r niyedir bilmem, bazen bunca g\u00fcvenmezse bunca anlatmazd\u0131 diye avuttu\u011fum ve seni bir t\u00fcy kadar hafifletip bana son nefesime kadar a\u011f\u0131r gelecek bir s\u0131r cesedimi yerinden kald\u0131rmas\u0131n diye dostlar\u0131m s\u00f6ylenmi\u015f gibi yine de unut bu s\u00f6ylediklerini de. Yoklu\u011fun zifiri bir geceye \u00e7alarken g\u00fcnlerimi, b\u0131rak \u00fczerinde bir lanet gibi bu karabulut gitsin.<\/p>\n
Hayat iki nefes aras\u0131 ge\u00e7en bir yolculuk ve sen, nefesimi de al\u0131p gideli bir \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde uyumakta cesedim. Hi\u00e7 olmazsa bunu unutma; bir sala sonras\u0131 k\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131p namaz\u0131m, kalm\u0131\u015fsa \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f hat\u0131r\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r dostuma ve g\u00f6m\u00fcp yan\u0131ma sende kalanlar\u0131m\u0131, son g\u00f6revini yap\u0131p mezar\u0131ma topra\u011f\u0131m\u0131 at\u0131p bu yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kapat gitsin.<\/p>\n
Her \u015feyi unut, yaln\u0131z seni yeni do\u011fmu\u015f bir bebe\u011fin kokusunda sevdi\u011fimi unutma!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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