\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ay oldu, \u00fc\u00e7… ay… Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmadan evden do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst bile \u00e7\u0131kmadan bu sa\u00e7ma salak evde \u00fc\u00e7… ay…\u00a0Ne yapmal\u0131, ne yapmal\u0131?..\u201d<\/p>\n
Uzan\u0131p sehpan\u0131n \u00fczerinden telefonu ald\u0131 Re\u015fit, hemen rehbere girip Musa’n\u0131n numaras\u0131n\u0131 buldu. \u00d6nce mesaj yazmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden akl\u0131ndaki c\u00fcmleleri s\u0131ralad\u0131.
\n\u201cSelam karde\u015fim, n\u2019abersin? Kad\u0131k\u00f6y’e u\u011fram\u0131yor musun? \u0130\u00e7elim bir g\u00fcn?\u201d
\n\u201c\u0130\u00e7elim de ne ya!..\u201d\u00a0 Ard\u0131 s\u0131ra k\u00fcf\u00fcrleri kendine s\u0131ralay\u0131p durdu, can\u0131 daha \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131. Vazge\u00e7ti mesajdan bir anl\u0131k refleksle arama tu\u015funa bast\u0131. Arama sesi bir, iki demeden Musa a\u00e7t\u0131 telefonu:
\n– Alo karde\u015fim benim n\u2019abersin?
\n– Ooo, Re\u015fit kanka, hay\u0131rd\u0131r?
\n– Yok, olum k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey, \u00e7ulsuzum bu aralar. Var m\u0131 bir \u015feyler?
\n– Baba, ay\u0131ps\u0131n var ama k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yorum sana bil yani…
\n– Karde\u015fim\u2026
\n– Yok, \u00f6yle, \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l ayn\u0131 evi payla\u015ft\u0131k, yedik i\u00e7tik, hi\u00e7 aram\u0131yon, sormuyon; \u00fcz\u00fcyosun beni bak. Hay\u0131r, ben arad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda da iki \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra d\u00f6n\u00fcyon. Bir yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z var m\u0131 diyom kendime, valla bir cevap bulam\u0131yom. Ollum, iyice bunal\u0131ma ba\u011flad\u0131n diyo g\u00f6renler seni. Lan, biz neyiz burada; \u00e7\u0131k gel yan\u0131ma. Lan sen benim kankimsin be!..
\n– Karde\u015fim\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cBir de konu\u015ftursa ya beni, bu huyunu sevmiyorum ki ka\u00e7 defa s\u00f6yledim. Takm\u0131yor beni ya da bildi\u011fini okumaktan zevk al\u0131yor\u201d<\/p>\n
– Hakk\u0131n var olum benim \u00fcst\u00fcmde, emret \u015fimdi.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, hayret bu sefer uzatmad\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n
– \u0130\u015f laz\u0131m, para suyunu \u00e7ekti. Okul a\u00e7\u0131lana dek s\u00fcr\u00fcnmeyeyim burada. Eve de y\u00fck olmak istemiyorum. Zaten babam zorda, anam \u00fczg\u00fcn, biliyosun i\u015fte mevzuyu.
\n– Olum bitir i\u015fte sen de art\u0131k.\u00a0 \u0130lk d\u00f6nem y\u0131rt okulu, gel beraber \u00e7al\u0131\u015fal\u0131m, gezelim ne biliyim… H\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcyosun bir dersin pe\u015finde.
\n– Musa!
\n– Tamam kanka\u2026
\n– \u0130\u015f var m\u0131?
\n– Kanka, yar\u0131n \u00dcsk\u00fcdar\u2019da a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f var 11.00\u2019de, \u00f6\u011fleden sonra da G\u00f6ztepe\u2019de 14.00\u2019te. \u0130kisi de palya\u00e7oluk. Yar\u0131n da kar\u015f\u0131day\u0131z, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn var ak\u015fama. Cumartesi pazar Adalar\u2019day\u0131z s\u00fcnnete gidece\u011fiz. Para onda \u00e7ok as\u0131l, teknede de i\u015fimiz var. Sonras\u0131nda da bakar\u0131z. B\u00fct\u00fcn yaz i\u015f \u00e7ok, yeter ki aray\u0131 a\u00e7ma.
\n– Sa\u011f olas\u0131n karde\u015fim
\n– Kanka?
\n– Efendim.
\n– \u015eey\u2026
\n– Tamam, karde\u015fim anlad\u0131m. Ge\u00e7 o konuyu!
\n– Pardon kanka.
\n– Tamam, sabah 9\u2019da b\u00fcroday\u0131m karde\u015fim.
\n– Tamam, kanka, kost\u00fcmler burada, iki de eleman var yan\u0131nda. \u00c7\u0131t\u0131r \u00e7\u0131t\u0131r k\u0131zlar onlar da yaz okulu bahanesiyle \u0130stanbul\u2019dalarm\u0131\u015f. Manyak bunlar, kafa yok gidin evinize be de\u011fil mi, ciks b\u00f6l\u00fcmdeler, okul bitince i\u015fleri garanti adamlar -pardon yani de- k\u0131zlara rahatl\u0131k bat\u0131yor. Yanacaklar yar\u0131n de\u011fer mi be o kost\u00fcm\u00fcn i\u00e7inde \u00fc\u00e7 saat durmaya?
\n– Bo\u015f ver\u2026
\n– Tabi de olum\u2026
\n– Tamam Musa\u2026
\n– Hadi \u00f6pt\u00fcm kanka.
\n– G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcz.<\/p>\n
Yandaki kanepeye f\u0131rlatt\u0131 telefonu kapat\u0131r kapatmaz Re\u015fit. Musa’n\u0131n \u015f\u0131mar\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131 hep ayn\u0131yd\u0131. Hi\u00e7bir zaman ciddi olamayan, rahat\u0131n\u0131n kral\u0131 bir gen\u00e7ti. Re\u015fit\u2019in gelgitli zaman\u0131nda Re\u015fit\u2019e yolda\u015f olmu\u015f, okulu da ne hakk\u0131n hikmetiyse zaman\u0131nda bitirmi\u015f, bitirdi\u011fi b\u00f6l\u00fcmle de alakas\u0131z bir i\u015fte bir y\u0131lda bir\u00e7ok farkl\u0131 ba\u011flant\u0131larla kendi ya\u011f\u0131nda kavrulmaktan i\u015f ayarlamaya dek y\u00fckselmi\u015fti. Ama daha da bozulmu\u015ftu Re\u015fit\u2019e g\u00f6re.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdiyse Re\u015fit\u2019in en \u00f6nemli maddi destek y\u00f6n\u00fc olmu\u015ftu. Re\u015fit ne zaman s\u0131k\u0131\u015fsa hi\u00e7 ikiletmeden ona bir \u015feyler ayarlar, Re\u015fit\u2019in mutlaka paraya ula\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flard\u0131. Ya a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015fta palya\u00e7o olur Re\u015fit ya da d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, konser, yemekli toplant\u0131 gibi mevzularda garson. Re\u015fit gocunsa da ailesine ba\u011fl\u0131 kalmadan ayakta kalabilmek duygusu daha bask\u0131n geldi\u011finden katlan\u0131yordu Musa’n\u0131n ayarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 her i\u015fe.\u00a0Ger\u00e7i Re\u015fit en \u00e7ok palya\u00e7olu\u011fu, garsonlu\u011fa ya da getir g\u00f6t\u00fcr i\u015flerine tercih ediyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc makyajl\u0131, koca bir k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 burun, reng\u00e2renk ve bol bir elbiseyle adeta bilinmez biri olup kendini -fark\u0131nda olmadan- m\u00fcthi\u015f rahatlam\u0131\u015f hissediyordu.
\nBilinmez olmak… O makyaj\u0131n alt\u0131nda se\u00e7ilemeyen y\u00fcz\u00fcne, mesai sonuna dek bir de kocaman bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ekliyordu ki, hem bilinmez hem de en ne\u015feli biri olup \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu.
\nAsl\u0131nda olay, kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde kimsenin Re\u015fit\u2019in Re\u015fit oldu\u011funu bilmeden bu, hep g\u00fclen y\u00fczl\u00fc, mutluluk abidesi palya\u00e7oyu hi\u00e7 fark etmemesiydi.\u00a0Bu da Re\u015fit\u2019e garip bir huzur veriyordu. \u00d6n\u00fcnden, ard\u0131ndan, sa\u011f\u0131ndan, solundan ge\u00e7enler o yokmu\u015f gibi ge\u00e7ip gidiyorlard\u0131. Re\u015fit\u00a0 ki\u015fi ay\u0131rt etmeden elinde varsa, bro\u015f\u00fcrleri ya da deneme numunelerini veya balon hatta ikramlar\u0131 herkese\u00a0takdim ederken onlar\u0131n da bu\u00a0 tekliflere genellikle Re\u015fit’in g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesine benzer zorlamayla samimiyetsiz bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ile kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermesi en k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feydi Re\u015fit\u2019e g\u00f6re.<\/p>\n
Bunca sahte g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme insan\u0131 bo\u011fuyormu\u015f, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc her zaman Re\u015fit ama ne \u00e7are d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en ac\u0131 klasik c\u00fcmlesi hem akl\u0131mdan ge\u00e7er hem de hafif bir m\u0131r\u0131ldanmayla a\u011fz\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc: \u201cEkmek paras\u0131, katlanaca\u011f\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130ki ki\u015finin zor s\u0131\u011faca\u011f\u0131 bir balkonu vard\u0131 evin, bir adam boyu pencere-kap\u0131 aras\u0131 bir havaland\u0131rmas\u0131 vard\u0131 buran\u0131n. Her iki kanad\u0131n\u0131 da sonuna kadar a\u00e7\u0131p her an yerinden f\u0131rlayacakm\u0131\u015f gibi duran pasl\u0131 balkon korkuluklar\u0131na yaslan\u0131p soka\u011f\u0131 yoklad\u0131. Akl\u0131ndan hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ge\u00e7miyor sadece gelip ge\u00e7enleri yukar\u0131dan \u015fuursuzca izliyordu. Y\u00fczlerini g\u00f6remedi\u011fi bu insanlar\u0131n birer \u00f6l\u00fc oldu\u011fu varsay\u0131l\u0131rsa her biri mah\u015fer g\u00fcn\u00fc tarif edilen sa\u011fa sola ka\u00e7\u0131\u015fan insanlar\u0131n hallerini an\u0131msat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Can\u0131 bir sigara \u00e7ekti Re\u015fit\u2019in. Geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp odan\u0131n ortas\u0131nda duran sehpan\u0131n \u00fczerindeki sigaray\u0131 almak i\u00e7in e\u011fildi. Sehpan\u0131n \u00fczerinde koca bir cam fanus; i\u00e7inde reng\u00e2renk incik boncuk ve y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kale silueti olan plastik bir akvaryum s\u00fcs\u00fc vard\u0131. Sigara fanusun yan\u0131ndayd\u0131 lakin Re\u015fit\u2019in g\u00f6zleri fanusta\u2026 Bir anda dikkatini bu kadar \u00e7eken \u015fey \u201cona\u201d aitti. \u201cO\u201dndan kalan ne varsa ya iade etmi\u015f ya da \u00e7\u00f6pe atm\u0131\u015fken bu fanusun nas\u0131l burada kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc an\u0131msayamad\u0131. \u015eimdi bir anda dikkatini \u00e7ekmesine ise bir anlam veremedi ki g\u00fcnlerdir ya sigaras\u0131n\u0131 ya telefonun ara s\u0131rada ev anahtarlar\u0131n\u0131 bu sehpan\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rak\u0131yordu. Sigaras\u0131 dudaklar\u0131nda, ellerinde fanus y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131 kanepenin \u00fczerine. Fanusun i\u00e7indeki boncuklara, misketlere, kale modeline bakt\u0131 ve Japon bal\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131 y\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc onlar\u0131 d\u00fczensiz yemlemesi ve sular\u0131n\u0131 zaman\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015ftirmemesi y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bal\u0131klar\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131. \u201cO\u201d birka\u00e7 sefer bal\u0131k alm\u0131\u015f fanusu hi\u00e7 bo\u015f b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015f, her seferinde Re\u015fit\u2019i bal\u0131klara g\u00fczel bakmas\u0131 i\u00e7in tembihlemi\u015fti. Ancak her seferinde Re\u015fit, bal\u0131klar\u0131n \u00f6lmesine neden olmu\u015ftu. En sonunda O da b\u0131km\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131 ki sitem dolu bir kavgan\u0131n ard\u0131ndan bir daha bal\u0131k almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O g\u00fcnden sonra fanus bir evde dekoratif bir unsur olarak sehpa \u00fczerinde sineklerin ve tozlar\u0131n yuvas\u0131 olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
\u201cBal\u0131k almal\u0131y\u0131m\u201d diye i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irdi Re\u015fit, fanusu yeniden sehpa \u00fczerine b\u0131rak\u0131rken hen\u00fcz yakmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 sigaras\u0131n\u0131 sehpa \u00fczerindeki zippo marka \u00e7akma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 alarak yakt\u0131. Genzini yakan duman\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra benzinin ac\u0131 tad\u0131na ald\u0131rmad\u0131. Ard\u0131 ard\u0131na uzun uzun \u00e7ekti sigaradan. Evin ve motosikletinin anahtar\u0131n\u0131, sigaras\u0131n\u0131, telefonunu ve montunu al\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 evden. Evde duracak bir nedeni yoktu. Kald\u0131 ki fanusu fark etmesi O\u2019nu hat\u0131rlamas\u0131na neden oldu\u011fundan daralm\u0131\u015f ve evden uzakla\u015fmak tek \u00e7areymi\u015f gibi gelmi\u015fti. Kap\u0131ya geldi\u011finde fanusu al\u0131p \u00e7\u00f6pe atmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bir fanus y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bir daha can\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131lmamal\u0131yd\u0131. Vazge\u00e7ti. Belki sonra\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00dcsk\u00fcdar sahilden Kad\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019e, oradan t\u00fcm bo\u011faz k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 turlad\u0131. Kad\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019e tekrar y\u00f6nelip her zaman tak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 puba girdi. \u00c7erez ve biralar\u0131 arka arkaya yuvarlad\u0131, bu s\u00fcre zarf\u0131nda zihninde olan tek \u015fey kulakl\u0131kla dinledi\u011fi \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n t\u0131n\u0131lar\u0131yd\u0131. Uzun uzun oturmu\u015f sahili seyretmi\u015f, ka\u00e7amak bak\u0131\u015flarla mek\u00e2ndaki masalar\u0131 izlemi\u015f, gelen gidenlerin tiplerinden en ilgin\u00e7 olanlar\u0131n\u0131 da keskin bak\u0131\u015flarla s\u00fczm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Garsonlar\u0131n hepsiyle tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fundan kimse kolay kolay ona ili\u015fmemi\u015f, oturdu\u011fu masada saatlerin ge\u00e7i\u015fini vurdumduymaz bir halde beklemi\u015fti. Onca saat oturdu\u011fu yerde hepi topu \u00fc\u00e7 koca bardak bira i\u00e7mi\u015fti; asl\u0131nda sadece i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in gelmi\u015f oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda da saat gecenin en karanl\u0131k an\u0131na yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Cebindekileri kontrol edip sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n garson \u00e7ocu\u011fu -hayret ad\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu ama bir an \u00e7\u0131karamad\u0131, yapaca\u011f\u0131 en son \u015fey Re\u015fit\u2019in isimleri unutmakt\u0131- el i\u015faretiyle \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Borcunu \u00f6derken \u00e7ocu\u011fun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fc dikkatlice. Garsonun \u201cbuyur abi bir \u015fey mi oldu?\u201d sorusunu bile duymad\u0131. Garson cevap da beklemeden paray\u0131 al\u0131r almaz d\u00f6n\u00fcp i\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131na ge\u00e7ti. \u00c7ocu\u011fun arkas\u0131ndan bakmaya, ad\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131msamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en bo\u015f zihni ile bakmaya devam etti. Mek\u00e2ndan dolay\u0131 kim g\u00f6rse Re\u015fit\u2019i sarho\u015f san\u0131rd\u0131 ki herkes i\u00e7in de pek do\u011fald\u0131. Ne yaz\u0131k ki Re\u015fit ne sarho\u015ftu ne de hafiften \u00e7ak\u0131r keyif… Sadece bombo\u015f bir an\u0131n i\u00e7inde ne yapaca\u011f\u0131na karar veremeyen ve her \u015feyin anlams\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fc ile birden fark etmi\u015f olman\u0131n sanc\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Evine girer girmez kanepeye uzan\u0131p dald\u0131 uykuya. Telefonun sesiyle a\u00e7t\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini, uzan\u0131p sehpadan telefonu ald\u0131; arayan Musa\u2019yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
-Alo, gecenin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 hay\u0131rd\u0131r Musa?
\n-Kanka, ne gece yar\u0131s\u0131 ya! \u0130\u00e7tin mi ollum sen! Sabah oldu alooo!
\n-Ne sabah\u0131!?<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zleri odan\u0131n ortam\u0131na al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fundan i\u00e7erideki ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 fark etti. Balkon kap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k, perdeler dalgalanmakta; g\u00fcne\u015f neredeyse \u201c\u00f6\u011flen oldu\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131racakm\u0131\u015f gibi i\u00e7eriyi ayd\u0131nlat\u0131yordu. Re\u015fit aya\u011fa f\u0131rlay\u0131verdi:<\/p>\n
-Tamam, tamam\u2026 Hemen \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum Musa.
\n-..
\n-Saat ka\u00e7 sahi?
\n-20<\/p>\n
Rahatlad\u0131 saati duyunca, telefonu bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden kapatt\u0131 Musa\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne. Yatak odas\u0131na ge\u00e7ip \u00fczerini bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da de\u011fi\u015fti. Yedek bir ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fc s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine soku\u015fturuverdi. Alacaklar\u0131 zaten sehpa \u00fczerindeydi onlar\u0131 da al\u0131p s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zleri yeniden fanusa ili\u015fti. Bu sefer de acelesi vard\u0131 \u015fimdi fanusa ay\u0131racak vakti yoktu. Fanus bir g\u00fcn daha odan\u0131n ortas\u0131nda, sehpa \u00fczerinde var olmay\u0131 garantiledi. Bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 inip motoruna atlad\u0131. Musa\u2019n\u0131n yan\u0131na varmas\u0131 yirmi dakikay\u0131 bulmad\u0131 bile.<\/p>\n
-Selam karde\u015fim, geciktim kusura kalma.<\/p>\n
Der demez Musa\u2019n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na oturuverdi. S\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131ndan sigaras\u0131 ve \u00e7akma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p geriye do\u011fru geni\u015f\u00e7e yay\u0131larak yasland\u0131. Sigaray\u0131 yak\u0131p ilk duman\u0131 \u00fcflerken koca bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle kendisine bakan Musa\u2019yla g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldi. G\u00f6zleri elan\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131k tonu olan Musa\u2019n\u0131n kirli sakallar\u0131na \u00e7ember \u015fekli verilmi\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc inceledi. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 her zamanki gibi abart\u0131l\u0131 j\u00f6leli olan Musa, \u201ck\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k dost\u201d s\u0131fat\u0131yla Re\u015fit\u2019i izliyor, konu\u015fmaya Re\u015fit\u2019in ba\u015flamas\u0131n\u0131 bekler gibi hareketsiz masas\u0131nda oturuyordu. Re\u015fit neredeyse sigaras\u0131n\u0131n sonuna geldi\u011finde h\u00e2l\u00e2 ortama sessizlik h\u00e2kimdi. Musa\u2019dan beklenmeyecek bir haldi bu. Sessizce g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesine devam ediyor \u0131srarc\u0131 bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019in \u00fczerinden ay\u0131rm\u0131yordu. Bu ara Re\u015fit, g\u00f6zlerini Musa\u2019dan ka\u00e7\u0131rarak b\u00fcronun duvarlar\u0131na rastgele bakmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Musa\u2019n\u0131n konserler dolay\u0131s\u0131yla bir\u00e7ok \u015fark\u0131c\u0131yla \u00e7ekilmi\u015f ve \u00e7er\u00e7evelenmi\u015f foto\u011fraflar\u0131 duvarlar\u0131 bir hayli \u00e7oklukta s\u00fcslemi\u015fti. \u201cBu gidi\u015fle tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fcnl\u00fc say\u0131s\u0131 o kadar artar ki foto\u011fraflar da duvarlar\u0131 iyice kaplar\u201d diye ge\u00e7irdi i\u00e7inden. Ama bir foto\u011fraf\u2026 Musa\u2019n\u0131n hemen sol omuz hizas\u0131nda \u00e7ap olarak di\u011ferlerinden biraz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir foto\u011frafa g\u00f6z\u00fc tak\u0131ld\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019in. Foto\u011fraftakileri oturdu\u011fu yerden tam olarak se\u00e7emese de kimlerin oldu\u011funu \u00e7ok iyi biliyordu. \u0130ki y\u0131l \u00f6nce okul arkada\u015flar\u0131yla birlikte \u00e7ektirdikleri bir foto\u011fraft\u0131 bu; bir festival sonras\u0131n\u0131n an\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Foto\u011fraf\u0131 duvara as\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan beri bilirdi ama d\u00fcnk\u00fc fanusa verdi\u011fi tepkiyi burada verdi. Daralm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yine. Foto\u011frafa iyi dikkat kesildi. Ayaktakiler sa\u011f ba\u015ftan Ceren, Nida, Ekrem, Musa, Nehir; oturanlar ise Mahmut- ki hi\u00e7 sevmezdi onu- Tar\u0131k, \u201cO\u201d ve Re\u015fit. Cep telefonuyla \u00e7ekildi\u011finden netlik durumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fckt\u00fc ancak Re\u015fit o g\u00fcn\u00fc ve foto\u011fraf\u0131n \u00e7ekilme an\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok net hat\u0131rl\u0131yordu. Musa\u2019n\u0131n di\u011ferleriyle hatta O\u2019nunla da h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc bildi\u011finden foto\u011fraf\u0131n duvarda kasti bir \u015fekilde as\u0131l\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilen Re\u015fit, yine de rahats\u0131zl\u0131k duymas\u0131na engel olamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 hemen oradan \u00e7ekip di\u011fer duvarlar\u0131 s\u00fczmeye ba\u015flarken Musa, daha fazla duramam\u0131\u015f gevezeli\u011finin gere\u011fi konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hem de ne konu\u015fma gayet ciddi ve net bir \u0130stanbul T\u00fcrk\u00e7esiyle:<\/p>\n
-Re\u015fit, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc i\u015fimiz bir petshop a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131. Sa\u011flam bir mek\u00e2n\u2026 Patron bilinenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda farkl\u0131 bir konseptle egzotik hayvanlar ve s\u00fcr\u00fcngenler \u00fczerine \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Bildi\u011fimiz ku\u015f t\u00fcrleri d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bal\u0131k \u00e7e\u015fitleri de \u00e7ok enteresan. Art\u0131 bunlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kendi b\u00fcnyesinde 24 saat a\u00e7\u0131k olarak veteriner hizmeti de sunacakm\u0131\u015f. Patron, Karadeniz k\u00f6kenli zengin bir ailenin \u00e7ocu\u011fu… Koleksiyonerlik y\u00f6n\u00fc de var senin gibi motosikletleri \u00e7ok seven ve bir d\u00fczineye yak\u0131n farkl\u0131 modelde motosikletleri olan birisi. Art\u0131 model tren ve araba koleksiyonu da varm\u0131\u015f. Zaten karars\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015f ya oyuncak \u00fczerine bir yer a\u00e7may\u0131 ya da petshop t\u00fcr\u00fcnde bir \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorken son anda petshopta karar k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n daha \u00e7ok ilgisini \u00e7ekece\u011fine inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7im petshopu uygun bulmu\u015f. Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmam\u0131z da sokaktaki \u00e7ocuklara yo\u011funla\u015fmak olacak. Sana iki bayan arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131z e\u015flik edecek, onlar\u0131n bu ilk i\u015fi olacak. Daha \u00f6ncesinden bir tecr\u00fcbeleri yok, birazdan bize kat\u0131l\u0131rlar a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da haz\u0131rl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 yap\u0131yorlar. Yan\u0131m\u0131za geldiklerinde seni tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r\u0131m sonra da sen haz\u0131rlan\u0131rs\u0131n. Ercan Abi sizi \u00dcsk\u00fcdar\u2019a b\u0131rak\u0131r, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fte de sizi buraya getirir. Ak\u015famleyin de seninleyiz sak\u0131n ka\u00e7maya kalkma hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde bahane istemiyorum bize ge\u00e7eriz. Tamam m\u0131?<\/p>\n
Son c\u00fcmlesine dek sessizce dinledi Musa\u2019y\u0131. Bazen g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine dek dikip g\u00f6zlerini \u00f6yle dinledi bazen de ka\u00e7amak bak\u0131\u015flarla duvardaki toplu olarak \u00e7ektirdikleri foto\u011frafa bakarak dinledi. \u201cAk\u015fama bizdeyiz\u201d ibaresi t\u00fcmden can\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131kmas\u0131na neden oldu. Hele de \u201cbahane istemiyorum\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc tuz biber ekti s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine. Ka\u00e7man\u0131n bir yolunu bulmal\u0131, kesinlikle Musa\u2019y\u0131 atlatmal\u0131yd\u0131. Tam bir bahane uydurmak i\u00e7in konu\u015fmaya haz\u0131rlan\u0131rken i\u00e7eriye iki palya\u00e7o girdi. Anla\u015f\u0131lan k\u0131zlar haz\u0131rd\u0131. Aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131 Re\u015fit isteksizce \u00f6nce kendine yak\u0131n olana elini uzatt\u0131 \u201cRe\u015fit ben\u201d ilkinden \u201cBen de Beril\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc duyunca di\u011ferine uzatt\u0131 elini ad\u0131n\u0131 yenileyerek di\u011feri de \u201c\u00d6zge\u201d diyerek kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019i. Her ikisi de benzer kost\u00fcm ve makyajla birbirinin ayn\u0131s\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. \u015eimdiden kim Beril kim \u00d6zge anla\u015f\u0131lmaz olmu\u015ftu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde zoraki bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme bulunan Re\u015fit \u201cBen de haz\u0131rlan\u0131p geliyorum\u201d diyerek \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 odadan. Alt kata, dar bir merdivenden d\u00f6ne d\u00f6ne indi. Ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 ini\u015fi ki lo\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131kta bile ezbere bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da alt kata ge\u00e7ti. Hemen \u00fcst\u00fcndekileri \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p palya\u00e7o k\u0131yafetini giyip makyaj masas\u0131na oturdu. Bembeyaz bir y\u00fcz ve kocaman bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyi elde edece\u011fi k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 rujla boyad\u0131\u011f\u0131 dudaklar\u0131 ve mavi bir burunlukla haz\u0131rd\u0131 art\u0131k. Di\u011fer palya\u00e7olardan fark\u0131 bu mavi burundu. Yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Musa ve di\u011fer iki palya\u00e7o g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmelerle kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019i. Kendine yormad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 oral\u0131 olmadan kap\u0131ya y\u00f6neldi. Ercan Abi her zamanki gibi onlar\u0131 Renault marka taksisinde bekliyordu. Re\u015fit selam verip \u00f6n koltu\u011fa oturdu sigaras\u0131n\u0131 yeni bitiren Ercan Abi, dalga ge\u00e7er gibi g\u00fcl\u00fcp ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131. Normalde Re\u015fit\u2019i be\u011fenir ve takdir ederdi; a\u011f\u0131r muhabbetleri olurdu g\u00e2h i\u00e7erken g\u00e2h i\u015fe gidip gelirken. Ama ne zaman Re\u015fit\u2019i palya\u00e7o k\u0131yafetiyle g\u00f6rse h\u00e2kim olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fclmeye tutulur, bundan Re\u015fit\u2019in rahats\u0131z oldu\u011funu da i\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmezdi. Ard\u0131ndan g\u00fclmesi ge\u00e7ince hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi muhabbete dalard\u0131. Bug\u00fcn konu\u015fmaya f\u0131rsat\u0131 olmadan ilk kez g\u00f6rece\u011fi di\u011fer iki palya\u00e7o da gelip arabaya binince hemen hareket edip yola koyuldu ihtiyar. K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n oldu\u011fu sokakta durdu. K\u0131zlar ve Re\u015fit inip patronla tan\u0131\u015f\u0131r tan\u0131\u015fmaz yerlerini ald\u0131lar.<\/p>\n
Patron ekstra birka\u00e7 k\u0131zdan olu\u015fan \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan tutmu\u015f yiyecek i\u00e7ecek i\u015flerini, misafirleri i\u00e7eride a\u011f\u0131rlama g\u00f6revini onlara vermi\u015fti. Abart\u0131l\u0131 bir m\u00fczik vard\u0131. T\u00fcm bu heng\u00e2mede Re\u015fit y\u00fcz\u00fcne kocaman bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme yerle\u015ftirmi\u015f kim gelip ge\u00e7iyorsa \u00f6n\u00fcnden onlara bro\u015f\u00fcr da\u011f\u0131tma i\u015fine giri\u015fmi\u015fti bile. Bir yandan m\u00fczi\u011fin ritmine ayak uyduruyor bir yandan herkese makyaj\u0131yla s\u00fcsledi\u011fi devasa g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fcklerini sunuyordu. Di\u011fer iki palya\u00e7o da ellerindeki hayvan resimleri olan renkli balonlar\u0131 \u00e7ocuk denecek her ya\u015ftaki ufakl\u0131klara da\u011f\u0131t\u0131yor, b\u00fcy\u00fckleri de i\u00e7eriye davet ediyorlard\u0131. Gelenlerin baz\u0131lar\u0131 patronun arkada\u015flar\u0131 olsa gerek i\u00e7eride yeme i\u00e7me hallerinde kendilerince e\u011fleniyorlar ve \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlara tak\u0131l\u0131yorlard\u0131. Patron daha ziyade onlar\u0131n g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc yapar gibi hareketlerde bulunuyor, bu durum Re\u015fit\u2019in dikkatinden ka\u00e7m\u0131yordu. Re\u015fit, tecr\u00fcbeli oldu\u011fundan bro\u015f\u00fcrleri da\u011f\u0131t\u0131rken i\u00e7eriye baya m\u00fc\u015fteri \u00e7ekmi\u015f ancak patronun onlardan ziyade kendi tan\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131yla ilgilendi\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden gittik\u00e7e modu d\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Di\u011fer iki palya\u00e7o bu durumdan habersiz garip hareketlerine, basit g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerini ekleyip insanlar\u0131 e\u011flendirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 saatin sonunda yoldan ge\u00e7en binlerce ki\u015fiye tan\u0131t\u0131m\u0131 yap\u0131p hatta az\u0131msanmayacak say\u0131da sat\u0131\u015flar\u0131n yap\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flam\u0131\u015flard\u0131 ki i\u00e7eriye birka\u00e7 kez lavaboyu kullanmak i\u00e7in giren Re\u015fit, petshopun stantlar\u0131nda baya farkl\u0131 hayvan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, birka\u00e7\u0131 ilgisini \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. Ku\u015f ve s\u00fcr\u00fcngen a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 bir hayvan sat\u0131\u015f\u0131na y\u00f6nelik bir dizaynla olu\u015fturulan petshopun i\u00e7indeki \u00e7o\u011fu hayvandan bir tiksinme ve \u00e7ekinme hissi duymu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k zaman\u0131n doldu\u011funu v\u00fccudunun biyolojik saati haberdar etmi\u015f, Ercan Abi\u2019yi de g\u00f6r\u00fcr gibi olunca daha fazla s\u00fcrd\u00fcremeyece\u011fi g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyi b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Di\u011fer iki palya\u00e7onun ortal\u0131kta olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o anda fark etti. Etraf\u0131nda bir tur atarken i\u00e7eride bir \u015feyler yerken yakalad\u0131 onlar\u0131. \u0130stemsiz ama sahici bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme belirdi y\u00fcz\u00fcnde.<\/p>\n
-Sen bir \u015feyler yedin mi?<\/p>\n
Sorudan ziyade emir verir gibi bir ses tonuyla konu\u015fan patronla g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldi. Deminki hisleri yeniden hortlad\u0131. Adamdan oldu\u011funca uzakla\u015fmak istese de cevap vermeliydi.<\/p>\n
-Hay\u0131r ama bir \u015fey can\u0131m \u00e7ekmiyor.<\/p>\n
Zorla da olsa a\u011fz\u0131ndan konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n sonunda \u201cTe\u015fekk\u00fcrler\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Patronun da pek oral\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sezer sezmez i\u00e7eriye girip bir k\u00f6\u015feye b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131. D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p Ercan Abi\u2019yi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc y\u00f6ne bak\u0131nd\u0131. Emindi art\u0131k, Ercan Abi hi\u00e7 gecikmemi\u015f dakikli\u011fini bir kez daha peki\u015ftirmi\u015fti. Sigaras\u0131n\u0131 yakarken ad\u0131mlar\u0131 Ercan Abi\u2019nin taraf\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oktan yar\u0131lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ercan Abi\u2019nin y\u00fcz\u00fcnde yine kocaman, dalga ge\u00e7er gibi bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fle Re\u015fit\u2019i kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. H\u0131zl\u0131ca bir tokala\u015fman\u0131n ard\u0131ndan \u00f6n koltu\u011fa ge\u00e7ip oturdu. On dakika s\u00fcrmeden k\u0131zlar ellerinde paketlerle arabaya gelip usulca arka koltu\u011fa yerle\u015ftiler. Musa\u2019n\u0131n b\u00fcrosuna konu\u015fulmadan sadece radyoda \u00e7alanlar dinlenerek gidildi. Ne k\u0131zlarda tek bir kelime konu\u015facak takat vard\u0131 ne de Re\u015fit\u2019in iste\u011fi\u2026 Musa, kap\u0131da kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 gelenleri. K\u0131zlar, oflaya puflaya direk bodrum kata y\u00f6nelirken Re\u015fit sabahki oturdu\u011fu koltu\u011fa yay\u0131ld\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yaslay\u0131p g\u00f6zlerini yumdu. Tek dile\u011fi Musa\u2019n\u0131n konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n minimum seviyede olmas\u0131yd\u0131. Ama asla bu dilek ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmeyecekti ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 dinlemedi Musa\u2019y\u0131. Car car konu\u015fan Musa\u2019n\u0131n elinden k\u0131zlar kurtard\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019i. B\u00fct\u00fcn ilgisi k\u0131zlara y\u00f6nelen Musa\u2019dan ka\u00e7\u0131p bodruma s\u0131v\u0131\u015fan Re\u015fit, aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00f6nce makyaj\u0131n\u0131 temizledi, \u00fczerini de\u011fi\u015fti bir sigara daha yak\u0131p yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Musa ve k\u0131zlar geyik muhabbetini ba\u015flatal\u0131 \u00e7ok olmu\u015f; k\u0131zlar\u0131n her dedi\u011fine g\u0131c\u0131k ve gevrek gevrek g\u00fclerek kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k veren Musa\u2019y\u0131 bir an \u00f6nce atlatman\u0131n hesab\u0131 kurmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. K\u0131zlar t\u00fcm g\u00fcn yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015ftahl\u0131 i\u015ftahl\u0131 anlat\u0131yor, Musa dedikleri her \u015feyi ilk kez duyuyormu\u015f gibi abart\u0131l\u0131 tepkiler veriyordu. Musa\u2019n\u0131n bu tavr\u0131n\u0131n nereye gidece\u011fini \u00e7ok iyi biliyordu Re\u015fit. Ac\u0131d\u0131 birden k\u0131zlara. \u0130\u00e7lerinden biri bu ak\u015fam kesinin Musa\u2019n\u0131n mezesi olacakt\u0131, ka\u00e7ar\u0131 yoktu ki her ikisi de bu konuda olduk\u00e7a tecr\u00fcbesiz ve bilgisizdi. Hele de kar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131nda Musa varken zaten hi\u00e7 \u015fanslar\u0131 da yoktu.<\/p>\n
Koltu\u011fa yerle\u015fmeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken k\u0131zlardan biri Re\u015fit\u2019e d\u00f6n\u00fcp k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir po\u015fet uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
-Bu senin.
\n-Ne bu?
\n-Patron hepimize bir hediye verdi.<\/p>\n
Di\u011feri yan\u0131ndaki po\u015feti kald\u0131r\u0131p:<\/p>\n
-Benim ki bir Japon bal\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026
\n-Benimki de melek bal\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Re\u015fit uzat\u0131lan po\u015feti eline al\u0131p bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda elinde olmadan sin kafl\u0131 bir k\u00fcfr\u00fc istemsizce sal\u0131verdi. K\u0131zlar sus pusken Musa i\u00e7ten ve derin bir kahkaha patlatt\u0131 ki kahkahan\u0131n devam\u0131n\u0131 getirip baya da g\u00fcld\u00fc. Sonra k\u0131zlardan biri de Musa\u2019ya kat\u0131l\u0131nca \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc -Re\u015fit d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda- ciddi ciddi komik bir durum varm\u0131\u015f gibi ortada g\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ba\u015f hizas\u0131na dek po\u015feti kald\u0131ran Re\u015fit, kendisine verilen hayvana dikkatlice bakt\u0131. Yine bir k\u00fcf\u00fcr sallad\u0131 \u201cBu ne lan\u201d diye Musa\u2019ya d\u00f6n\u00fcp kendi de g\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. K\u0131zlar\u0131n konu\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 duymuyor, g\u00fclerek Musa\u2019ya bak\u0131yordu. Ve bir kez daha k\u00fcfrederek \u201cBula bula bunu mu bulmu\u015f bu adam?\u201d dedi. O s\u0131ra da k\u0131zlardan biri \u201cAbi, patron \u00f6zellikle bunu sana vermemizi istedi. Sana benziyormu\u015f \u201cMusa, g\u00fclerek \u201cNe alaka?\u201d dedi. K\u0131z, \u201cAbi baksana yanaklar\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, neymi\u015f efendim, palya\u00e7oyu and\u0131r\u0131yormu\u015f.\u201d Yine g\u00fclerek konu\u015fmaya devam etti \u201cRe\u015fit de palya\u00e7o ya, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kocaman bir a\u011fz\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f da ondan dedi adam.\u201d Re\u015fit art\u0131k rahat rahat k\u00fcfrediyordu k\u0131zlara hi\u00e7 ald\u0131rmadan. Bu sefer de patrona g\u00fczelce sallad\u0131, tabii olarak her k\u00fcfredi\u015finde bu durum Musa\u2019n\u0131n daha \u00e7ok ho\u015funa gidiyor ve g\u00fclmesine neden oluyordu. Po\u015feti iyice inceledi Re\u015fit, evirip \u00e7evirdi; kendine yakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p uzakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Re\u015fit de istemsiz g\u00fcl\u00fcyordu art\u0131k ki bu hediyeyi alana kadar i\u00e7inde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fclme manya\u011f\u0131 ortaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f belki g\u00fcn\u00fcn yorgunlu\u011funu b\u00f6yle at\u0131yor belki de aylard\u0131r ilk kez g\u00fclecek bir \u015fey bulmu\u015fken f\u0131rsat\u0131 de\u011ferlendiriyordu.<\/p>\n
-Ya ben bal\u0131k bile bakamazken ki ka\u00e7 defa bana al\u0131nd\u0131 bakay\u0131m diye, hatta evde kocaman bir fanus da var ve ben her seferinde onlar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne neden oldum en sonunda\u2026<\/p>\n
Sustu Re\u015fit, hemen onunla birlikte g\u00fclen Musa da sustu. K\u0131zlar bu an\u0131 filmlerde g\u00f6rse ancak inanacaklar\u0131 bir sahne gibi suskunluk ve \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla izliyorlard\u0131. Re\u015fit\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fc birden as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve Musa da ondan geri kalmam\u0131\u015f bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 birbirlerinde kilitlemi\u015flerdi.<\/p>\n
Musa hemen da\u011f\u0131tmak i\u00e7in havay\u0131:<\/p>\n
-Ya bo\u015f ver ollum! Bu bal\u0131klar gibi de\u011fildir en az\u0131ndan suyun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda da ya\u015far, arada bir yem ver yeter. Sahi k\u0131zlar, bu ne yer ya?<\/p>\n
Re\u015fit\u2019in istifini hi\u00e7 bozmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce Musa\u2019n\u0131n can\u0131 da iyice s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131. Anla\u015f\u0131lan Re\u015fit bug\u00fcn hi\u00e7 tat vermeyecekti Musa\u2019ya. Ama Re\u015fit\u2019e \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fcyor da de\u011fildi. Mizac\u0131 gere\u011fi daha fazla bunalmadan hemen k\u0131zlara d\u00f6n\u00fcp akl\u0131ndakileri ortaya d\u00f6kmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
-K\u0131zlar ak\u015fama bir i\u015finiz yoksa gelin, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc ilk i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc kutlayal\u0131m. Hep beraber g\u00fczel bir yere gidelim ki benim yeni buldu\u011fum bir yer var ki\u2026 Aman ka\u00e7\u0131rmayal\u0131m hesaplar patrondan hem de, ne dersiniz?<\/p>\n
Her iki k\u0131z da olumlu yan\u0131t verdi. \u0130\u015fte Musa\u2019n\u0131n plan\u0131n ilk safhas\u0131 tamamd\u0131. \u0130\u015f, Re\u015fit\u2019in oyunbozanl\u0131k yapmamas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131. Musa yalvaran g\u00f6zlerle Re\u015fit\u2019e bak\u0131yordu. Re\u015fit hi\u00e7 ama hi\u00e7 bu i\u015flerin adam\u0131 de\u011fildi. Hele de \u015fimdi bu kafayla hayatta \u00e7ekemezdi ortam\u0131. Ama Musa\u2019ya da bor\u00e7lu hissediyordu. Akl\u0131na hemen yar\u0131n ki i\u015f geldi. T\u00fcm \u00fcmidi buydu Musa\u2019y\u0131 ekmek i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n
-Yar\u0131n i\u015f var diyorsun hem de e\u011flenelim diyorsun!
\n-Yar\u0131n kolay, Ada\u2019day\u0131z cumartesi pazar s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 bir i\u015f de\u011fil, hadi yapma ama\u2026<\/p>\n
Daha fazla ka\u00e7amayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamas\u0131 iyice bunaltt\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019i, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 ki Musa, kendisi i\u00e7in katlanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlas\u0131n diye.<\/p>\n
-Tamam ama \u00f6nce eve gideyim bu ucubeyi b\u0131rakay\u0131m, haz\u0131rlanay\u0131m gelirim sonra.
\n-Sak\u0131n motorla gelme!-
\n-Olmaz, onsuz olmaz.<\/p>\n
K\u0131zlardan kumral olan Beril, motosiklet laf\u0131n\u0131 duyunca b\u00fct\u00fcn ilgisini Re\u015fit\u2019e verip<\/p>\n
-Motosikletin mi var?
\n-Evet, eski bir model.
\n-Ne peki?
\n-Anlar m\u0131s\u0131n?
\n-Az \u00e7ok ama hastas\u0131y\u0131m, ilk f\u0131rsatta bir tane almak i\u00e7in \u00e7abal\u0131yorum.
\n-Kullanmay\u0131 biliyor musun?<\/p>\n
Bu \u201cevet\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc Beril\u2019in a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00f6yle i\u015ftahla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ki Re\u015fit\u2019in d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda herkesin bu denli hevesli olabilece\u011fine \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ortadayken vurdumduymaz bir tav\u0131rla kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 Re\u015fit.<\/p>\n
-G\u00fczel.<\/p>\n
Beril bozulmu\u015f gibi oldu ama Re\u015fit\u2019in bunu da fark edecek hali yoktu. \u00a0Uzatmad\u0131 mevzuyu.<\/p>\n
-Ben ka\u00e7t\u0131m, ak\u015fam nerede, saat ka\u00e7ta mesaj at Musa. K\u0131zlar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcz.<\/p>\n
Elinde po\u015fet i\u00e7indeki \u201cucube\u201dyle motoruna atlay\u0131p evin yolunu tuttu. Akl\u0131nda evdeki fanus vard\u0131. \u0130\u00e7indeki bal\u0131klar\u0131n teker teker \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc anlar canland\u0131 zihninde. \u201cO\u201dnun her seferinde inatla yenilerini getirip fanusa b\u0131rakmas\u0131n\u0131, bal\u0131klar i\u00e7in ciddi ciddi tembihleni\u015fini; bal\u0131klara bakma s\u00f6z\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda alaca\u011f\u0131 m\u00fck\u00e2fatlar ve dahas\u0131\u2026 Her \u015feyi hat\u0131rlad\u0131 daha d\u00fcn gibi.<\/p>\n
\u201cBana benziyormu\u015fmu\u015fmu\u015f\u2026 Ne alaka?\u201d diye i\u00e7lendi Re\u015fit motoruyla giderken. \u201cAsl\u0131nda \u015f\u0131mar\u0131k ve g\u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fcz patronun bana uygun g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bu hayvan\u0131n ne su\u00e7u var ki, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131ktan yola \u00e7\u0131karak bana uygun g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f hepsi bu. Asl\u0131nda bir iyilikti bu hem de ince bir davran\u0131\u015f sonucu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclen bir iyilik. \u015e\u00f6yle bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsek; kumral olan k\u0131za, Beril\u2019e Japon bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok uygundu, esmer k\u0131za da melek bal\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Esmer k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc de \u00e7ok cici ve \u00e7ocuksuydu, tam bir melek misali. Art\u0131 t\u00fcm bu ayarlamalar\u0131 yaparken patron, k\u0131zlar\u0131n ger\u00e7ek y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ve hatta sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmemi\u015f tamamen tesad\u00fcf\u00ee bir \u015fekilde taksim yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama bana neden ucube bir hayvan d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc?\u201d<\/p>\n
Re\u015fit palya\u00e7o olurken her seferinde, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 bir k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131kla boyar kocaman bir a\u011f\u0131z olu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flard\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnde. B\u00f6ylece hafif bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde kocaman bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeye d\u00f6ner daha etkili sunumlar yapmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flard\u0131. En az\u0131ndan Re\u015fit bunun, b\u00f6yle oldu\u011funa inan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Ki bu palya\u00e7oluk Re\u015fit\u2019e en b\u00fcy\u00fck s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 da ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Belki de sahte g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerinin bu denli abart\u0131l\u0131 olmas\u0131 da bu y\u00fczdendi. Re\u015fit, iki y\u0131ld\u0131r birlikte oldu\u011fu son \u00fc\u00e7 ay\u0131 ise kavgal\u0131 ge\u00e7en \u201cO\u201dnunla ayr\u0131lma e\u015fi\u011findeyken sunum yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn O\u2019nu ba\u015fka biriyle g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ve her \u015feyin sonu olmu\u015ftu. \u0130\u015f gere\u011fi y\u00fcz\u00fcnde kocaman bir sahte g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fle i\u015f bitene kadar deli divane herkesle ilgilenmi\u015f, y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyi hi\u00e7 silmeden sunumuna devam etmi\u015fti. \u0130\u015f bittikten, kendini eve att\u0131ktan sonra \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn boyunca telefonu kapal\u0131 hi\u00e7 kimseyle konu\u015fmadan evden \u00e7\u0131kmadan sinirlili\u011fine i\u00e7kileri de ekleyerek ac\u0131dan olu\u015fan kozas\u0131n\u0131 tamamlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra evden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, motoruyla delicesine gezmi\u015f yak\u0131t\u0131 bitinceye dek s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Sakarya giri\u015finde yak\u0131t\u0131 biten motorunu, kilometrelerce s\u00fcr\u00fckleyerek bir benzinciye g\u00fc\u00e7 bela ula\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cO\u201d tamamen akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kmasa da fikren bitmi\u015f bir a\u015fk\u0131n duygusal k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 silerek olay\u0131 kabullenmi\u015fti. Eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde Musa\u2019y\u0131 aram\u0131\u015f eve \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131p durumu anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Musa\u2019dan O\u2019na ait e\u015fyalar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrmesini, kendininkileri verecek olursa e\u011fer kendisine getirmeden \u00e7\u00f6pe atmas\u0131n\u0131 istemi\u015fti. Musa denilenleri harfiyen yapm\u0131\u015f, Re\u015fit\u2019i de bu konu hakk\u0131nda konu\u015fmaya hi\u00e7 zorlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bunca zaman arada bir konuyu a\u00e7may\u0131 denemeye kalksa a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n pay\u0131n\u0131 alan Musa, her zaman Re\u015fit\u2019in yan\u0131nda olmu\u015ftu. Allah var \u00fcst\u00fcne hi\u00e7 gitmedi ki mizac\u0131 gere\u011fi de yapamazd\u0131. Bu da Re\u015fit\u2019in \u015fans\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi eve giderken t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131 bal\u0131klar, \u201cucube\u201d ve dahi palya\u00e7olu\u011fu nedeniyle yeniden hat\u0131rlamak iyiden iyiye can\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Re\u015fit\u2019in. Evinin soka\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6p bidonlar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda durup \u00e7antas\u0131ndaki po\u015feti \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Niyeti atmakt\u0131 ucubeyi. Ama ucubenin yanaklar\u0131na bak\u0131p k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce patronun neden kendine bunu lay\u0131k g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlad\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri onu bu ucubeye yakla\u015ft\u0131rmasa da hafiften bir ac\u0131ma hissine neden oldu. Po\u015fetteki bir k\u0131r\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yanaklar\u0131yla masum bir palya\u00e7oya benziyordu. H\u00e2lbuki tatl\u0131, minik, a\u00e7\u0131k ye\u015fil bir su kaplumba\u011fas\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Kendinden ne fark\u0131 vard\u0131 ki… Y\u00fcz\u00fc alabildi\u011fine komik ve k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cBelki bu sefer bir canl\u0131ya bakabilirim\u201d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi canland\u0131. Belki de \u201cO\u201dna inat evinde, sevip besleyece\u011fi bir hayvan\u0131 olurdu. Belki de \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn perdelerini her g\u00fcn aralay\u0131p kendini motoruyla bo\u011faz\u0131n sular\u0131na b\u0131rakmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen birine can olurdu bu su kaplumba\u011fas\u0131. Belki de bu sefer yar\u0131nlar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015febilirdi. Ya da sadece bu ucube ona hayat\u0131n ba\u015fka bir tad\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011funu ve bunlar\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fclme zaman\u0131n\u0131n geldi\u011fini g\u00f6sterebilirdi.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7inde biriken ve varsay\u0131mlar\u0131yla \u015fi\u015firdi\u011fi her \u015feyi o an kaplumba\u011fa yerine \u00e7\u00f6pe atman\u0131n zaman\u0131 gelmi\u015fti art\u0131k. Yar\u0131n, belki de hem kaplumba\u011fa hem de kendi bu hayatta olmayacakt\u0131. Bu andan itibaren yeniden bir sayfa a\u00e7mal\u0131 ve yeniden ya\u015fama dair ger\u00e7ek g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fleri sunmal\u0131yd\u0131 herkese en \u00e7ok da kendisine. Ya da t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda her g\u00fcn kendisine her g\u00fclebilecek gibi bakan bir kaplumba\u011fas\u0131 olurdu bu da ona bahane olurdu g\u00fczel olan her \u015fey ad\u0131na.<\/p>\n
Sahiplenme de\u011fildi i\u00e7inde ye\u015feren duygular bir dost, bir ev arkada\u015f\u0131 bulmaman\u0131n hevesiydi hissetti\u011fi. \u00c7antas\u0131na usulca yeniden yerle\u015ftirirken po\u015feti \u201cBu su kaplumba\u011fas\u0131na bir isim vermeli. H\u0131m, ne koymal\u0131 ad\u0131n\u0131\u2026 \u2018palya\u00e7o\u2019 olsun.\u201d Palya\u00e7o ad\u0131nda karar k\u0131lmakla iyi etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Odaya girdi\u011finde fanusu hemen haz\u0131rlay\u0131p kaplumba\u011fay\u0131 i\u00e7ine b\u0131rakt\u0131. Elinde fanus pencere \u00f6n\u00fcne gelip kaplumba\u011faya \u201cSelam Palya\u00e7o, benim ad\u0131m\u2026\u201d Bir an duraksad\u0131, \u201cRe\u015fit\u201d\u00a0 demenin ne anlam\u0131 vard\u0131 ki. \u201cRe\u015fit\u201d s\u00f6ylenecek bir ad de\u011fildi ki \u015fimdi. \u0130\u00e7inde garip bir sevin\u00e7le hem de en g\u00fczel i\u00e7ten bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle \u201cMerhaba dostum, benim ad\u0131m da Palya\u00e7o!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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