{"id":9464,"date":"2019-08-01T23:27:33","date_gmt":"2019-08-01T20:27:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=9464"},"modified":"2019-08-01T23:27:33","modified_gmt":"2019-08-01T20:27:33","slug":"9464","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=9464","title":{"rendered":"R\u00dcYADA \u015eAVKIYAN SULAR KADAR"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><em>E\u011fer bu derd ile hasta d\u00fc\u015fersem <\/em><\/strong><br \/>\n<strong><em>Saf\u00e2l\u0131k vermesin, t\u00eem\u00e2r gerekmez<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong><em>Yunus Emre<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Otob\u00fcs, ihtiya\u00e7 molas\u0131 i\u00e7in benzinlikte durdu. \u0130\u011freti tuvalette y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc y\u0131karken puslu aynaya bakt\u0131m. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz uykuya, gece \u00e7aresizli\u011fe s\u0131\u011f\u0131nan bir \u201cben\u201d vard\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131mda. Bir de hayat\u0131n rutinini korumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan yorgun adam. Yoruldum, de\u011fdi mi yorgunlu\u011fuma? De\u011fsin diye mi yoruldum, kendimi kaybetmek ve seni bulmak i\u00e7in mi yoksa? Sende i\u015fgal etti\u011fim bir yer vard\u0131 ama o yer ne kadard\u0131? Bana ger\u00e7ekten de\u011fer verdin mi? Nereye koydun beni, y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, yorgunlu\u011fumu&#8230; D\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde yeniden kalkabilece\u011fine inan\u0131r d\u00fc\u015fmeyi bilmeyen.<\/p>\n<p>Koltu\u011fuma oturduktan k\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra otob\u00fcs hareket ediyor. Bug\u00fcn r\u00f6tar yok. Beklememek yeni bir \u015fey benim i\u00e7in: Eylemsizli\u011fe kar\u015f\u0131 eylem. Etki, tepki. Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Asl\u0131nda her \u015fey nas\u0131l da yaln\u0131zl\u0131kla ku\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bana duvarlar \u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn, mesafeler ard\u0131nda g\u00fcvenli bir k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131 tutmu\u015ftun kendine. O g\u00fcvenli uzakl\u0131kta, uzakl\u0131k sayesinde kazan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir emniyet i\u00e7inde ay\u0131rd\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131. \u0130\u015fte buras\u0131 koskoca bir sitem, sitem! O ayr\u0131l\u0131kta anlad\u0131m ki bitmek t\u00fckenmek bilmeyen tela\u015f\u0131nda bana yer yok. G\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6ren g\u00f6rmeyen t\u00fcm kuytular\u0131m s\u0131zl\u0131yordu ve sen ya\u015fay\u0131p gidiyordun.Ya\u015fay\u0131p gitmek\u2026 Bir \u015fekilde tutunmak kaderin sapasa\u011flam ipine. Ben k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vran\u0131yordum ve sen mesela d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne gidip e\u011flenecek kadar rahatt\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p>Akl\u0131na gelir mi arada s\u0131rada bilmiyorum ama t\u00fcm karma\u015fa beni g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ilk g\u00fcn ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kendimin bile fark\u0131nda de\u011filken \u00f6nce sen g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn beni. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma bir tutam anlam serpmi\u015ftin. Beni g\u00f6r\u00fcp de fark edince bilmi\u015ftim ki \u201cben\u201d diye biri vard\u0131 d\u00fcnyada. Benli\u011fimin ke\u015ffi sonras\u0131nda \u0131ss\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kunda\u011f\u0131na sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n ruhumu kimselere sezdirmeden. H\u00fccre h\u00fccre varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kurarken ve v\u00fccudumun t\u00fcm atomlar\u0131na bir bir i\u015flerken kendini, kimsesizlik sepetine koyup sahipsizlik \u0131rma\u011f\u0131na salm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. Sular g\u00fcnlerce akt\u0131ktan sonra \u0131rmak beni sessizlik saray\u0131na getirmi\u015fti. Orada, insanl\u0131ktan ve insanlardan uzakta bir kimsesizlikte b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm bebekli\u011fimi. B\u00fcy\u00fcrken sana d\u00f6nece\u011fimi, bana \u00e7izdi\u011fin s\u0131n\u0131rlardan \u00e7\u0131kamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n belirledi\u011fi ufkun \u00f6tesine ad\u0131m atamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim ilkin. Sonra yerimi, g\u00f6lgene bile sahip olamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131. Senden geriye de\u011fil iki sat\u0131r yaz\u0131, bir ayak izi bile kalmayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Rasim So\u011fan Turizmin yepyeni otob\u00fcs\u00fc Mersin\u2019den Karaman\u2019a \u00e7\u0131karken derin vadilere bak\u0131p s\u00fcrekli seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim daldan dala konuyordu. Bir otob\u00fcs firmas\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7ekici olmayan bir isim kabul. Ama Rasim Amca\u2019n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini bilsen anlars\u0131n. Rasim Amca, Mersin\u2019in bir da\u011f k\u00f6y\u00fcnden. Gen\u00e7li\u011finde bir k\u0131za sevdalan\u0131yor. Gelgelelim evlenmek i\u00e7in elde avu\u00e7ta yok. K\u0131z\u0131n ailesi bu garibin \u00e2h\u0131n\u0131 almak istemiyor ama k\u0131z\u0131 da vermemeye kararl\u0131. Oyalamak i\u00e7in \u00f6nce askerli\u011fini yap diyorlar. Askerlik d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc de d\u00fczenli bir i\u015f bul kendine. Rasim Amca \u015fartlar\u0131 yerine getiriyor ama ne yap\u0131p ettiyse yaranam\u0131yor bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc k\u0131z\u0131n ailesine. Ho\u015f, i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e biliyor bu i\u015fin sonunun hayra \u00e7\u0131kmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ama vazge\u00e7meyi de g\u00f6ze alam\u0131yor. Bir umut bir umutsuzluk derken g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7iyor, k\u0131z da tutuluyor bu azimli delikanl\u0131ya. Ailesi topra\u011fa veririz de o \u00e7ulsuza k\u0131z vermeyiz diye resti \u00e7ekince bir gece ka\u00e7\u0131yor Rasim\u2019e. K\u0131z\u0131n ailesinin g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc ili\u015fkilerinden korktuklar\u0131 i\u00e7in \u015fehir \u015fehir dola\u015fmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor gen\u00e7 \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar. Memlekette gitmedikleri vilayet, saklanmad\u0131klar\u0131 ucuz otel kalm\u0131yor. Ad\u0131n\u0131 soranlara aradan ge\u00e7en onca y\u0131la ra\u011fmen cevap vermez Rasim Amca. Edepte en b\u00fcy\u00fck pay sevdan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, \u00f6yle der.<\/p>\n<p>Karanl\u0131k yo\u011funla\u015f\u0131yor. Biz h\u00e2l\u00e2 da\u011flar\u0131 t\u0131rmanmaktay\u0131z. Art\u0131k vadiler g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez oluyor. Birer karart\u0131, \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc siluetler orman\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 otob\u00fcs\u00fcn cam\u0131na dayay\u0131p seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. \u015eiirler u\u00e7u\u015fuyor zihnimde, \u015fairlerin hayaletleri ile konu\u015fuyorum. Her \u015fey kendi b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc i\u00e7inde k\u0131vran\u0131p duruyor. Benimse akl\u0131mda tek bir hakikat, ruhumda tek bir \u0131st\u0131rap, \u00f6mr\u00fcmde tek bir s\u00fck\u00fbt var. \u00d6yle ki s\u00f6zl\u00fckte \u201cbeklemek\u201d maddesinin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ad\u0131n\u0131 yazsam yeri. Otob\u00fcs yolun bozuk yerlerinden ge\u00e7erken aln\u0131m art arda cama \u00e7arp\u0131yor, damarlar\u0131m par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na \u015fiddetli a\u011fr\u0131lar hissediyorumba\u015f\u0131mda.<\/p>\n<p>Rasim Amca sevdi\u011fi k\u0131zla oradan oraya ka\u00e7\u0131p dururken kaderin cilvesiyle \u0131ss\u0131z bir otogarda k\u0131st\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yorlar. Ceplerindeki para bitmi\u015f, kalkan son otob\u00fcse bilet bulamam\u0131\u015flar. Ne yapacaklar\u0131n\u0131 kara kara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckleri esnada k\u0131z\u0131n amca \u00e7ocuklar\u0131ndan ikisi k\u0131sk\u0131vrak yakal\u0131yor gen\u00e7leri. Rasim\u2019i bir g\u00fczel d\u00f6v\u00fcyorlar. Yapmay\u0131n etmeyin diye ayaklar\u0131na kapanan k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131 da s\u00fcr\u00fckleye s\u00fcr\u00fckleye bir otomobile bindirip h\u0131zla ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yorlar. Rasim, o g\u00fcnden sonra sevdi\u011fini \u00e7ok ar\u0131yor ama hi\u00e7bir iz bulam\u0131yor ondan. Kara kara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, derdi onu yiyip bitiriyor. Divanelik ve avarelikle ge\u00e7en aylardan sonra akrabalar\u0131ndan birinin vesilesiyle yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kma f\u0131rsat\u0131 buluyor.Bak\u0131yor ki memlekette umut da yok ekmek de. Ver elini Almanya deyip atl\u0131yor gurbet kazan\u0131na.Arabesk bir hik\u00e2ye de\u011fil mi? Benzerini \u00e7ok duydun, \u00e7ok g\u00f6rd\u00fcn! Ama olsun, kolay de\u011fil bu hik\u00e2yeyi ya\u015famak, do\u011frusu ya\u015famak zorunda kalmak.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor Rasim, g\u00fczel de para kazan\u0131yor orada. Hatta evleniyor, \u00fc\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fu oluyor. As\u0131l zorluk burada i\u015fte. Herkes onun para h\u0131rs\u0131yla \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor ama o, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemek i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Her g\u00fcn \u00f6ylesine yoruyor ki bedenini, tasas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye vakti kalm\u0131yor. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyor ama o g\u00fcn\u00fc de hi\u00e7 unutmuyor.Paras\u0131zl\u0131k y\u00fcz\u00fcnden binemedi\u011fi otob\u00fcs\u00fc, otob\u00fcse binemedi\u011fi i\u00e7in elinden al\u0131nan sevgilisini\u2026 Memlekete d\u00f6n\u00fcnce bir otob\u00fcs firmas\u0131 a\u00e7maya karar veriyor. Yepyeni be\u015f otob\u00fcs al\u0131p Rasim So\u011fan Turizmi kuruyor. Bu isimde otob\u00fcs firmas\u0131 olmaz, seninle dalga ge\u00e7ilir, ele g\u00fcne rezil olursun diyenlere inat kurdu\u011fu firma h\u0131zla b\u00fcy\u00fcyor. \u015eimdi memleketin d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131na giden onlarca otob\u00fcs\u00fcn sahibidir Rasim Amca. Onlarca \u015fehrin i\u00e7inde sadece bir \u015fehre u\u011framaz bu otob\u00fcsler: Sevgilisinin elinden al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 o \u015fehre!<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>\u00a0 \u00a0 \u201cFark\u0131na varmaks\u0131z\u0131n al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k ya\u015famaya\u201d*<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan baz\u0131 ger\u00e7ekleri en iyi yolda, yol halindeyken idrak ediyor. \u0130\u00e7inde dolan\u0131p durdu\u011fumuz yol i\u00e7imizde derinle\u015fip duran kuyunun taban\u0131na do\u011fru uzanan bir merdiven olur sanki. Bu merdiven tek y\u00f6nl\u00fcd\u00fcr ve bellidir hedefi. Yollarda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler \u00e7izdi\u011fin hatt\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmaz, \u00e7\u0131kamaz. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor ve biliyorum.Sen tek bir foto\u011fraf karesine s\u0131\u011fmayacak eski ve t\u0131ls\u0131ml\u0131 bir r\u00fcyan\u0131n nefes alan imgesisin. Ama bilmedin, bilmiyorsun, bilmeyeceksin.G\u00f6remesem bile biliyorum g\u00f6zlerinde neler oldu\u011funu.<\/p>\n<p>Karanl\u0131ktan ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kan bir sabah kadar saf ve temizsin.<br \/>\nBir ad\u0131n \u00f6zlem, bir ad\u0131n umut ve illaki \u00e7i\u00e7ekler y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda.<br \/>\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131nda seni sevdik\u00e7e \u00e7o\u011falan g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131.<br \/>\nAyd\u0131nl\u0131k sabahlar ve sen: Parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131ma kadar n\u00fcfuz eden uzun bir \u015fiir.<br \/>\nSessizli\u011fin sesi: Kli\u015fe!<br \/>\nSensizli\u011fin sesi: Ger\u00e7ek!..<br \/>\nZaman\u0131n \u0131rma\u011f\u0131nda y\u0131kad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir avu\u00e7 ta\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde sakl\u0131yorum sana vermek i\u00e7in.<br \/>\nBirinci ta\u015f g\u00f6zlerindir, katliam benim i\u00e7in.<br \/>\n\u0130kinci ta\u015f sesindir, sarho\u015flu\u011fuma sebep.<br \/>\n\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc ta\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131nd\u0131r, dokunmak yasak.<br \/>\nD\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc ta\u015f kalbindeki \u201cben\u201ddir, s\u0131rd\u0131r aram\u0131zdaki.<br \/>\nBe\u015finci ta\u015f uzakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131r, kara bir b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi uzan\u0131r aram\u0131zda. Pasl\u0131 demiri kanat\u0131r avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sen bu be\u015f ta\u015f\u0131 al, kerem et bana, bir tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. G\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i g\u00fcls\u00fcn yeter, g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i, g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i, g\u00f6zlerinin\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Yol uzuyor sevgilim. Rasim Amca\u2019n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini otob\u00fcslerinde muavinlik yaparken \u015fof\u00f6rlerinden dinledim. Ho\u015f, o otob\u00fcslere binip de bu hik\u00e2yeyi duymayan yoktur ya neyse. Rasim Amca, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 tembihlerdi: Paras\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na kanaat getirdi\u011finiz hi\u00e7bir Allah\u2019\u0131n kulunu yolda, darda, yabanda koymayacaks\u0131n\u0131z. Yol, dar, yaban\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7 kollu mengene. Ta o g\u00fcnden, sevgilisinin hat\u0131ras\u0131 pe\u015finden otob\u00fcsler ko\u015fturan bu ihtiyara hayran olmu\u015ftum. Otob\u00fcsleri o \u015fehir senin bu \u015fehir benim diye hasret \u00e7ekenleri kavu\u015ftururken, Rasim Amca uzaklara bakarak \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 yudumlar, kimsenin anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 dillerde s\u00f6zler m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yol boyunca kal\u0131n kal\u0131n \u00e7iziyorum baz\u0131 m\u0131sralar\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131:<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u201cBana geliyorsun\u201d**<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Da\u011flardan s\u00f6z ettim sana. Bahar dallar\u0131ndan, denizlerden ve yosun kokusundan. G\u00f6zlerin \u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131. \u0130ki g\u00f6z de\u011fil iki g\u00f6kta\u015f\u0131 parlad\u0131 aram\u0131zda. Geceyi ayd\u0131nlatan nurlu bir mesaj olarak bu\u011fular i\u00e7inde s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n. Do\u011fu ufkundan g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131na ilerleyen o nur halesi sonunda geldi ve kap\u0131mda durdu. Sen bile bilmiyordun. Sen bile bilmiyordun, nas\u0131l parl\u0131yordu g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i.<\/p>\n<p>Sarho\u015ftum hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.Seni seviyorum ve bilincindeyim t\u00fcm o ge\u00e7mi\u015f ya\u015fant\u0131n\u0131n.Ad\u0131n\u0131 \u201cK\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7\u201d koyduklar\u0131 d\u00f6rt kanatl\u0131, \u00e7ekik g\u00f6zl\u00fc bir melekle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m \u015fimdikinden uzun ve uzak bir yolculukta. Bana kahve ikram etmi\u015f, ben de ona \u015fiirler okumu\u015ftum. T\u00fcrkmenistan\u2019dan gelmi\u015fti ve kendi deyi\u015fiyle \u201cKalbistan\u201d\u0131 ar\u0131yordu. Kanatlar\u0131n olmasa da u\u00e7abilir miydin, diye sormu\u015ftum ona. Kalbim \u00e7arpt\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcddet\u00e7e u\u00e7man\u0131n ne h\u00fckm\u00fc var ki, diye cevaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 beni. Ama aramak zormu\u015f ve aramak zorunda olmak ya\u015famaktan da zor. Kalbi \u00e7arpt\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcddet\u00e7e ku\u015flardan da \u00f6zg\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f. \u00d6yle demi\u015fti K\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 u\u00e7madan hemen \u00f6nce.<\/p>\n<p>Ciddiyetimi seninle gitti\u011fimiz o son lokantada b\u0131rakt\u0131m. Sen \u00e7ok a\u011flad\u0131n sonra, ben \u00e7ok sigara i\u00e7tim. G\u00fcnde en az iki paketle payla\u015ft\u0131m efk\u00e2r\u0131m\u0131. Aylar boyunca ve h\u00e2l\u00e2\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\u201cHayat\u0131m\u0131n \u00fczerinde imk\u00e2ns\u0131z ku\u015flar u\u00e7uyor\u201d ***<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Hayat\u0131m\u0131n \u00fczerinde imzas\u0131z ku\u015flar u\u00e7uyor ve sahipsiz bak\u0131\u015flar dola\u015f\u0131yor.\u00d6\u011fretmenler G\u00fcn\u00fc\u2019nde bana bir hediye alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n hani. Ben o zaman hen\u00fcz \u00f6\u011fretmenlik yapm\u0131yor, bir ofiste \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Hediye paketini masama b\u0131rak\u0131p ka\u00e7arcas\u0131na kendini ofisin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na att\u0131\u011f\u0131n o g\u00fcn\u00fc unuttum sanma. O g\u00fcn\u00fc, sesindeki hassasiyeti, ellerindeki titremeyi, kalbinin birka\u00e7 metre uzaktan duyulan g\u00fcmb\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc&#8230; Kumru mu desem g\u00fcvercin mi \u00fcrkekli\u011fine? Yoksa d\u00fcmd\u00fcz ad\u0131nla seslensem sana, asarlar m\u0131 beni?<\/p>\n<p>Hediye bahaneydi. Y\u00fcz y\u00fcze konu\u015fmaktan daima ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o \u201cs\u0131r\u201dr\u0131 konu\u015fmak zor ve gerekliydi. S\u0131rr\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131. Zorlu\u011fundan m\u0131 korktuk, gereklerinden mi ka\u00e7t\u0131k bilmiyorum ama konu\u015fmad\u0131k. Konu\u015fmaya \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 kald\u0131k. Oysa konu\u015fmak i\u00e7in ne \u00e7ok zaman, ne \u00e7ok imk\u00e2n vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Asfalt k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vr\u0131m alt\u0131m\u0131zdan akarken \u201cUsta, bu yollar biter mi?\u201d diyor muavin belki y\u00fcz\u00fcnc\u00fc kez.\u201c\u00d6m\u00fcr biter yol bitmez o\u011flum!\u201d diye i\u00e7 ge\u00e7iriyor \u015fof\u00f6r ve tekrarl\u0131yor: \u201c\u00d6m\u00fcr biter yol bitmez!\u201d\u015eimdi bir kez daha soruyorum sana: Gitti\u011fin o d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn nas\u0131ld\u0131? Bir de d\u00fcped\u00fcz s\u00f6ylesem ad\u0131n\u0131, beni asarlar m\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>D\u0130ZELER:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>*Mustafa \u015eerif Onaran<\/p>\n<p>**Nihat Behram<\/p>\n<p>***Didem Madak<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>E\u011fer bu derd ile hasta d\u00fc\u015fersem&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":158,"featured_media":9465,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9464"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/158"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9464"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9464\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9464"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9464"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9464"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}