\u201cG\u00e2vurun g\u0131z\u0131! Gene yat\u0131yor h\u00e2l\u00e2. Bunca zaman oldu, \u00f6\u011frenemedi gitti. Ya hu insan bu denli uykucu olur mu? Ah ah, benim o\u011flan, deli o\u011flan! Akl\u0131 g\u0131t o\u011flan!.. Gene gendimi veriyom velveleye. Tepi\u011fi vurum \u015funun gafas\u0131na, gags\u0131n da gavurun g\u0131z\u0131\u2026 Sabah\u0131n ga\u00e7\u0131 oldu!?<\/p>\n
\u2026
\nG\u0131z! Deli, gagsana art\u0131k! Hu g\u0131\u0131\u0131\u0131!..\u201d
\nHareketsiz yatan gelinin \u00fczerine e\u011filip sa\u011f elinin yumru\u011fuyla boylu boyunca\u00a0 put gibi duran kad\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011f omzunu d\u00fcrtt\u00fc Hacer Kad\u0131n:
\n\u201cG\u0131z diyom, gak hadi!\u201d<\/p>\n
Yumru\u011funun sivri taraf\u0131yla itti\u011fi gelininden hi\u00e7 ses gelmedi\u011fi gibi kad\u0131na dokundu\u011funda i\u00e7inin \u00fcrpermesi bir oldu, Hacer Kad\u0131\u2019n\u0131n i\u00e7i buz gibi oldu. Dokundu\u011fu bir kad\u0131n de\u011fil de bir k\u00fct\u00fckt\u00fc. Omzu ne de sertti. Ancak bu sertlik y\u00fcre\u011fini depre\u015ftirdi. \u0130\u00e7ini bir korku sard\u0131. Akl\u0131 buland\u0131. Dudaklar\u0131ndan sessizce \u201c\u00f6ld\u00fc m\u00fc bu!\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131k\u0131verdi. Akl\u0131 \u201c\u00f6l\u00fc bu be!\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcyle doldu ta\u015ft\u0131. Hemen t\u00f6vbe isti\u011ffar getirdi.<\/p>\n
Akl\u0131na geldik\u00e7e savu\u015fturmak i\u00e7in bu k\u00f6t\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceyi la havlelerini s\u0131ralad\u0131. \u0130kinci defa dokundu\u011funda gelinine, yine sertti gelinin eti. Ve yine dokundu\u011funda yana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7ti gelinin. Yana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n buz gibi kaskat\u0131 oldu\u011funu anlar anlamaz elini \u00e7ekmesi bir oldu. T\u00fcm direnci bitiverdi, dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc. Elini, yeniden uzatmak i\u00e7in cesaret toplamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da diline bu sefer k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ne zaman korksa, bebeleri hasta olsa, kocas\u0131n\u0131 yola \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ya da nazara gelse bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131; t\u00fcm inanc\u0131yla okudu\u011fu Ayet-el k\u00fcrsi dolanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir, iki, \u00fc\u00e7… Bitirdi\u011finde bir yenisine ba\u015flamadan gelinin \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcfl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
Nas\u0131l yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamad\u0131 ama gelini omuzlar\u0131ndan tutup kad\u0131n\u0131 kendine do\u011fru \u00e7evirdi. Gelin, bir a\u011fa\u00e7 devrilir gibi, bir tepenin y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131 gibi y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131verdi dizlerinin dibine; hi\u00e7 nefes alm\u0131yordu kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z. O an hem gelin hem de Hacer Kad\u0131n birdi, hareketsiz, so\u011fuk, renksiz…<\/p>\n
Elini gelininin burnuna uzatt\u0131, son garantisi buydu. Ya\u015f\u0131yorsa ve kad\u0131na oyun ediyorsa tokad\u0131 surat\u0131na var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle vuracakt\u0131. Sanki \u00f6yleymi\u015f gibi de sinirlendi.\u00a0Titrek ellerini uzatt\u0131 gelinin ince kemerli burnuna. Umudu kalmad\u0131.
\nYok\u2026
\nHi\u00e7 nefes yok.
\nElini kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne koydu, son bir umut hatta\u2026
\nP\u0131t p\u0131t ederdi belki y\u00fcreci\u011fi gelinin. K\u0131zmayacakt\u0131. Yeter ki a\u00e7s\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc. \u201cHalim yok, ana\u201d desin; desin ne derse desin, a\u00e7s\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tek.<\/p>\n
\u2026<\/p>\n
Gelinin d\u00f6\u015f\u00fc de tahta gibiydi. Memeleri de sertle\u015fmi\u015f, kalbinde bir t\u0131k yok, ses gelmiyordu.
\n\u0130yice bast\u0131rd\u0131 sa\u011f elini. Yok, yok\u2026 Hi\u00e7bir belirti yok. Ne nefes ne de bir kalp at\u0131\u015f\u0131\u2026 O zaman d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc koca bir ate\u015f avu\u00e7lar\u0131na, b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudu gerildi Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n. G\u00f6zleri b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc, yutkunamad\u0131; t\u0131kand\u0131 i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey. Gelininden bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131ramad\u0131. Yand\u0131 t\u00fcm bedeni.
\nKavruldu i\u00e7i\u00a0bir kez daha ve daha ka\u00e7 kez\u2026 O k\u0131sac\u0131k anlar ne uzun anlar oldu. Anlad\u0131, zihninin hayk\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201co \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f gad\u0131n!\u201d feryad\u0131n\u0131 duydu.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte o zaman bast\u0131 feryad\u0131. \u00a0Kim duyacaksa art\u0131k?..<\/p>\n
Erkekler g\u00fcn do\u011fmadan gitmi\u015flerdi tarlaya, \u00fc\u00e7 bebe d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kimse yoktu evde. Hele en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fc daha ay\u0131n\u0131 doldurmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile. Be\u015fi\u011finde\u2026 Herifler \u00f6\u011fleye do\u011fru gelecekti. Kim duyuracakt\u0131 \u015fimdi onlara. Ah, ah! Geldiklerinde kim diyecekti onlara? Hem nas\u0131l denirdi ki bu\u2026 \u201cGelin \u00f6ld\u00fc\u201d dese ne, demese ne\u2026<\/p>\n
Hacer Kad\u0131n yutkunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor ama bo\u011faz\u0131 kurumu\u015f, dili dama\u011f\u0131na yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, anca bir kuru h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131yla kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir daha ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, bu sefer sesini tek t\u00fck evlerden olu\u015fan sa\u011fl\u0131 sollu y\u00fcz metre \u00e7ap\u0131nda yer alan kom\u015fular\u0131na yeti\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bu sesleni\u015flere b\u00fcy\u00fck torun kalkt\u0131 evvela. Ad\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z- alt\u0131s\u0131na yeni girmi\u015f- uyand\u0131 korkuyla. Uykulu ama daha ziyade korkmu\u015f, babaannesine bak\u0131yordu. O ac\u0131 ses, o\u011flan torununu da – Mustafa\u2019s\u0131, kocas\u0131n\u0131n ada\u015f\u0131- ayakland\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Mustafa daha d\u00f6rd\u00fcnde, bebeydi o da. Hemen ard\u0131ndan Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bast\u0131racak bir ses peyda oldu. Be\u015fikteki bebek a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130\u015fte o vakit tutamad\u0131 i\u00e7inde ne varsa Hacer Kad\u0131n, h\u00f6yk\u00fcrerek a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerinden sel olup akt\u0131 biriktirdi\u011fi ne varsa. Bir be\u015fi\u011fe bak\u0131yor bir kendisini korkarak izleyen di\u011fer yavrucaklara.<\/p>\n
Dizlerinin dibinde bir put\u2026 Boylu boyunca yat\u0131yor gelini. \u0130ki elini dizlerine vurmaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Mustafa da koyuverdi a\u011f\u0131d\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Hacer,\u00a0 ne ara anas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na gelmi\u015fti. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z can havliyle sar\u0131ld\u0131 yerde yatan kad\u0131na. Anas\u0131na\u2026 Ne yaps\u0131n yavrucak korkudan s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131 ilk liman ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n dibindeydi. Sar\u0131lmas\u0131n da ne yaps\u0131n?! K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Hacer\u2019i,\u00a0 Mustafa takip etti. O da anas\u0131na sar\u0131ld\u0131 a\u011flayarak. Hacer Kad\u0131n iyice kendinden ge\u00e7ti. \u0130\u00e7inde \u00f6yle bir ac\u0131 birikti ki\u00a0 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce\u2026 \u00d6yle bir feryat oldu ki o ac\u0131. Yer inledi, ses g\u00f6\u011fe dek yay\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n
Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019a en yak\u0131n kom\u015fusu ine\u011fini sa\u011fan Meryem Ebe bile irkildi. Sesi tan\u0131yamad\u0131 ama kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 o denli ac\u0131yd\u0131 ki s\u00fct sa\u011fmay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p ah\u0131rdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Etraf\u0131na\u00a0bak\u0131nd\u0131; \u00f6nce R\u0131fk\u0131 Emmi\u2019nin evine sonra K\u0131nal\u0131 Cuma\u2019n\u0131n evine en sonra da Kara Mustafa\u2019n\u0131n evine d\u00f6nd\u00fc. \u00dc\u00e7 evin ortas\u0131nda duran Meryem Ebe,\u00a0 sesi bir daha bekledi. \u0130\u00e7i burkuldu \u201cne oldu ki kimdi o?\u201d diye i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irdi. Merak\u0131 iyice artt\u0131. \u0130\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6nemedi. \u201cKesin bir \u015fey oldu birine.\u201d dedi ve i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fcyle Kara Mustafa\u2019n\u0131n evine y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yeniden d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Gelin k\u0131z Zeynep\u2019in bir ayl\u0131k bebesi vard\u0131. \u201cOna m\u0131 bir \u015fey oldu ki…\u201d dedi i\u00e7inden korkuyla. \u201cK\u00f6yl\u00fck yer,\u00a0 gece \u00e7ocuk hastaland\u0131 da… aman Allah korusun!\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ancak hemen kovmak i\u00e7in bu fikri akl\u0131ndan k\u0131zd\u0131 kendine. \u201cYok can\u0131m\u201d dese de bilirdi bu mevzular\u0131. Y\u0131llar evvel 3 ayl\u0131k bebesini vermi\u015fti topra\u011fa. \u201cT\u00f6vbeler olsun!\u201d dedi yeniden. \u201cHem Zeynep\u2019in sesine de benzemiyordu ki… Yok, ba\u015fka ses bu\u2026\u201d ama ses yok.<\/p>\n
D\u00f6nd\u00fc ah\u0131ra y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc, ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 atarken i\u015fte o an bir feryat daha. \u201cMeryem Ebe, Meryem Ebe!\u201d\u00a0 Kendisine seslenen sesi duyunca d\u00f6nd\u00fc geriye. Kendine do\u011fru nefes nefese ko\u015fan Zeynep\u2019in en b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z nas\u0131l da ko\u015fuyordu \u00f6yle. Beklemedi k\u0131z\u0131, kendi de ona do\u011fru hareketlendi. \u00a0K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131n kendine gelmesinden evvel o yeti\u015fti yavruca\u011fa. A\u011flayan k\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcverdi: \u201cNe oldu kuzum, ne oldu?\u201d<\/p>\n
– Nenem kendini d\u00f6v\u00fcyor, a\u011fl\u0131yor;\u00a0 anam kalkm\u0131yor, dedi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yavrucak.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnam kalkm\u0131yor\u201d duyar duymaz bu s\u00f6z\u00fc Meryem Ebe, ya\u015f\u0131na ra\u011fmen can havliyle topuklad\u0131 eve do\u011fru. Bah\u00e7eden ge\u00e7ti. Eve girip tahta merdivenlerden \u00fcst kata \u00e7\u0131k\u0131verdi. Geni\u015f\u00e7e bir balkon olan \u00fcst kat\u0131n bir kap\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131. \u0130\u00e7eri dald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda solundaki odan\u0131n ac\u0131k kap\u0131s\u0131na y\u00f6neldi. A\u011flay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n geldi\u011fi odaya girdi\u011finde Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n yazmas\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011f elinde oldu\u011funu a\u015fa\u011f\u0131-yukar\u0131 sallayarak sol eliyle de dizine vurdu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Hacer Kad\u0131n, neredeyse k\u0131s\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sesiyle a\u011f\u0131tlar yak\u0131yor,\u00a0 a\u011fl\u0131yor; K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Mustafa anas\u0131na sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f a\u011fl\u0131yor, be\u015fikte bebek a\u011fl\u0131yor. Bu an\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ne oldu\u011funu kestiremedi. Sonra yerde boylu boyunca yatan Zeynep geline bakt\u0131. T\u00fcm bu heng\u00e2mede tek susan oydu. \u00c7ocuk kad\u0131n\u0131 sarsarak a\u011flay\u0131p sar\u0131lsa da kad\u0131n\u0131n hi\u00e7 tepki vermemesi… \u0130\u015fte o an anlad\u0131: gelin \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Dizlerindeki b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fc\u00e7 bir anda yok oldu. Onca \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u00f6ren Meryem Ebe, Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n yan\u0131na adeta y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131verdi. Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019a sar\u0131ld\u0131 a\u011flayarak. G\u00f6z\u00fc Zeynep\u2019e kayd\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Mustafa\u2019y\u0131 sanki ilk kez fark etmi\u015f gibi irkildi.\u00a0 K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, umutla anas\u0131n\u0131 uyand\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u00c7ocu\u011fu hemen kucaklad\u0131 odadan \u00e7\u0131karken k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Hacer\u2019i kap\u0131da g\u00f6rd\u00fc onun da kolundan tutup balkona c\u0131kt\u0131. Kendi evine do\u011fru ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nZiya! Ay\u015fe! \u00d6mer!.. Arka arkaya ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131, canh\u0131ra\u015f ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131; \u00d6mer uzatt\u0131 kap\u0131lar\u0131ndan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131; anas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce yan\u0131ndaki \u00e7ocuklarla; aya\u011f\u0131na ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi ne varsa ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Onun ard\u0131ndan Ziya ve hemen sonra Ay\u015fe \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p ko\u015fturmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn de kafas\u0131 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k ard\u0131 ard\u0131na solu\u011fu\u00a0 analar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda ald\u0131lar. Kad\u0131n hi\u00e7 bekletmeden \u00d6mer\u2019e “Ko\u015f, hemen git Mustafa Emmi\u2019nin yan\u0131na; kim varsa tarlada hepsini tez \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r gel!\u201d
\n\u00d6mer \u201cne oldu ana?\u201c dedi ama Meryem ebe laf\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na soktu “at\u0131 al, \u00e7abuk git! Haydi, haydi\u2026\u201d Daha ikilemedi \u00d6mer, h\u0131zla d\u00f6n\u00fcp denileni yapmaya ko\u015fturdu.
\nAy\u015fe odaya girdi bast\u0131 a\u011f\u0131d\u0131.
\n– Ziya \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 eve g\u00f6t\u00fcr bir \u015feyler yedir, ah\u0131rda s\u00fct var hemen \u00e7ocuklara ver g\u00f6n\u00fcllerini eyle. Sak\u0131n b\u0131rakma onlar\u0131. Haydi, o\u011flum haydi.
\nDonup i\u00e7eriye girdi. Ay\u015fe\u2019ye \u201cgel Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131 kald\u0131ral\u0131m buradan\u201d Ay\u015fe bir koluna, Meryem kad\u0131n bir koluna girip Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131 yerden kald\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131lar. \u0130lk denemelerinde g\u00fc\u00e7leri yetmedi. Yeniden y\u00fcklenip yar\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fckleyerek kad\u0131n\u0131 balkona \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar. \u201cAy\u015fe, Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131 yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakma sak\u0131n i\u00e7eri gelmesin\u201d O s\u0131ra merdivenlerden gelen ayak seslerine d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131lar. Zeliha Kad\u0131n ve k\u0131z\u0131 Fadime balkonda belirmi\u015fti. Daha ne oldu\u011funu soramadan Meryem Ebe i\u00e7eri aceleyle girip a\u011flayan bir ayl\u0131k bebe\u011fi getirip Fadime\u2019ye uzatt\u0131. \u201ctez eve g\u00f6t\u00fcr \u00e7ocukla ilgilen. Bakma hadi dedi\u011fimi yap\u201d Fadime ne oldu\u011funu bile soramadan ortam\u0131n\u0131n panik havas\u0131ndan etkilenip kendisine verilen emri tez yerine getirmek i\u00e7in kuca\u011f\u0131nda bebek evinin yolunu tuttu.<\/p>\n
Yeniden i\u00e7eri girerken Meryem Ebe\u2019ye Zeliha Kad\u0131n da e\u015flik etti. Odada boylu boyunca yatan Zeynep\u2019i g\u00f6r\u00fcnce Zeliha Kad\u0131n da bir feryat kopard\u0131. Zeynep\u2019in ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6melen Meryem Ebe, kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne koydu ama koyunca duyacak bir \u015fey yoktu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc sert bir y\u00fczeye gelmi\u015f, kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7oktan \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlad\u0131. Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n a\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131na Zeliha Kad\u0131n da a\u011f\u0131tlar yakarak e\u015flik ediyordu. Meryem Ebe, Zeynep\u2019i ba\u015ftan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fc. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemiyor sadece kad\u0131n\u0131n geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yavrulara ac\u0131d\u0131. Bildi\u011fi b\u00fct\u00fcn sureleri okumaya koyuldu g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yla.
\nEvin erkekleri bir s\u00fcre sonra kap\u0131da belirdi. \u00a0A\u011flay\u0131\u015f\u0131na ara vermeden gelecek olanlar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lamak \u00fczere aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. D\u0131\u015far\u0131daki seslerin i\u00e7eriye dolmaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca g\u00f6z\u00fcne ilk Zeynep\u2019in kayn\u0131 Ahmet ili\u015fti. Kay\u0131n Ahmet, yerde y\u00fcz\u00fc \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc yatan cesede bak\u0131nca dizlerinin \u00fczerine y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131verdi. Hemen ard\u0131ndan kocam\u0131\u015f Kara Mustafa girdi; ayakta, kad\u0131nlara g\u00f6zlerini dikip tam ba\u011f\u0131racakken yerdeki cesedi fark edip sol eliyle a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 kaparken sa\u011f eliyle \u015fapkas\u0131n\u0131 indirip y\u00fcz\u00fcne kapad\u0131. Arkadan bir \u201cZeynep!\u201d feryad\u0131 y\u00fckseldi. H\u00fcseyin -Zeynep\u2019e deli divane \u00e2\u015f\u0131k, sevdal\u0131 yi\u011fit H\u00fcseyin- dizlerinin \u00fczerinde emekleyerek cesedin ba\u015f\u0131na geldi. Meryem Ebe\u2019ni kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fc a\u00e7maya yeltenirken Zeliha Kad\u0131n engel olmak istedi H\u00fcseyin\u2019e. Meryem Ebe, Zeliha Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131 tutup kenar \u00e7ekti.
\nH\u00fcseyin cans\u0131z bedeni kendine \u00e7ekip kad\u0131n\u0131n bas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne dayay\u0131p a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n\u201cNe oldu sana Zeynep!\u00a0Zeynep, ne olursun a\u00e7 g\u00f6zlerini! Zeynep, bebelerini b\u0131rakma! Bana k\u0131yd\u0131n, onlara k\u0131yma! Zeynep ela g\u00f6zl\u00fcm, bal dudakl\u0131m, sevdam\u2026y\u00e2rim, kad\u0131n\u0131m, Zeynep
\nZeynep!..
\nKay\u0131n Ahmet abisinin yan\u0131na sokulup H\u00fcseyin\u2019i omuzlar\u0131ndan kavray\u0131p cesetten uzakla\u015ft\u0131ma i\u00e7in kendine do\u011fru \u00e7ekmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kara Mustafa, o g\u00fcne dek 70 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermese de ilk defa y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, duvara bir \u00e7uval gibi ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015f, sessizce g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcyordu. Zeynep\u2019ten H\u00fcseyin\u2019i koparamayan Ahmet, pes etmi\u015f abisinin yan\u0131nda ona e\u015flik edecekken i\u00e7erisi kom\u015fular\u0131n geri kalan\u0131, e\u015f dost akraba kad\u0131nlar\u0131yla doldu. H\u00fcseyin\u2019i kom\u015fu erkekleri kucaklay\u0131p Zeynep\u2019ten ay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Kay\u0131n Ahmet\u2019in ve Kara Mustafa\u2019n\u0131n kolunu da birbirleri girip a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indirdiler. \u00c7ok ge\u00e7medi k\u00f6y\u00fcn imam\u0131 da yanlar\u0131nda geldi.\u00a0Bah\u00e7ede erkekler evin i\u00e7inde kad\u0131nlar…\u00a0A\u011f\u0131tlar ve ayetler birbirine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, taziyeler t\u00fcm samimiyetler e\u015fli\u011finde H\u00fcseyin\u2019e; evin i\u00e7inde Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019a sunuluyordu.
\nMeryem Ebe kendini ilk toplayan oldu. Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n yan\u0131na gelen ebe, Zeliha Kad\u0131n\u2019la yasl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 teskin etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ne oldu\u011funu bilmeleri gerekti. Ceset beklemezdi. Defin i\u00e7in de haz\u0131rl\u0131klar ba\u015flamal\u0131yd\u0131.
\nNihayet uzun bir \u00e7abadan sonra Meryem Ebe,\u00a0 konu\u015fturabildi Hacer Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131. Ger\u00e7i ac\u0131l\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6ylediklerinden bir \u015fey anlamad\u0131. Yeniden ama bu sefer azarlayarak ac\u0131l\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 sorgulad\u0131. Birka\u00e7 kad\u0131n da ebeye destek verdi. Tek \u00f6\u011frenebildikleri; d\u00fcn, tarladan geldikten sonra yatmadan evvel karn\u0131n\u0131 tutan Zeynep, a\u011fr\u0131yla yata\u011fa uzanm\u0131\u015f, gece bir ara bebe\u011fe s\u00fct vermi\u015f, o s\u0131rada ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n uyanm\u0131\u015f onlara bak\u0131p yeniden yatm\u0131\u015f daha da sabaha dek bir \u015feyin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Meryem Ebe,\u00a0 cesedin ba\u015f\u0131na gidip \u00fczerideki \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc beline dek \u00e7ekti, ard\u0131ndan ayak ucuna dek s\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc. Kad\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0 pazenden bol dikilmi\u015f \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n kad\u0131nl\u0131k k\u0131sm\u0131nda bir koyuluk vard\u0131. Kad\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcz \u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7evirdi kaslar\u0131 v\u00fccudun arka bel atl\u0131 ve yatak tamamen k\u00f6y\u00fc bir renkle kapl\u0131yd\u0131. Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 kan kaybetmi\u015f,\u00a0\u00a0yata\u011f\u0131n her yan\u0131 kana bulanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Olay\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ebe.<\/p>\n
Zeynep, do\u011fumdan birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra i\u015fe ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. daha kendini toparlayamadan aya\u011fa kalkmas\u0131,\u00a0 Zeynep\u2019in t\u00fcm g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00fcketmi\u015f bir g\u00fcn \u00f6ncesinde de a\u011f\u0131r i\u015flerden sonra kanama olmu\u015f. Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z o kadar yorgun olmal\u0131yd\u0131 ki gece boyunca ba\u015f\u0131na gelenlerin ne oldu\u011funu anlayacak durumda de\u011fildi. Ve uykusunda son nefesini vermi\u015fti. Do\u011fumunda da \u00e7ok kaybetmi\u015fti Zeynep, Meryem Ebe \u00e7ok tedirgin olmu\u015f ama bebek do\u011fup da a\u011flamaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca o heng\u00e2mede Zeynep\u2019in kuca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 erkek \u00e7ocuk ne\u015fesiyle herkes rahatlam\u0131\u015f do\u011fumun Zeynep\u2019te b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hasarlar\u0131 fark etmemi\u015flerdi. O\u011fland\u0131 bebek ve Zeynep bu sefer kendi babas\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 verece\u011fi bir evlad\u0131 oldu\u011funun sevincini ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 o gece.<\/p>\n
Meryem Ebe, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 imam\u0131 yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Durumu imama anlatt\u0131. Meryem Ebe\u2019nin g\u00f6zleri H\u00fcseyin\u2019i arad\u0131, ac\u0131l\u0131 adam bah\u00e7edeki ceviz a\u011fac\u0131na yaslanm\u0131\u015f, a\u011flamakl\u0131 topra\u011fa bak\u0131yordu. Yan\u0131ndakilerin neler dedi\u011fini duymuyor sadece kendine verilen sarma sigaras\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7iyordu. On dakika sonra imam kar\u0131s\u0131yla geldi. \u0130mam, H\u00fcseyin\u2019in yan\u0131na oturup \u201cYasin\u201d okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131, herkes ba\u015f \u00f6nde sessizce dinledi. H\u00fcseyin, kendisine uzat\u0131lan sigaralar\u0131 arka arka yak\u0131yor, ne duyuyor ne de hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi hissediyordu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 cevize dayay\u0131p masmavi g\u00f6\u011f\u00fc a\u011fac\u0131n dallar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan izlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130mam\u0131n duas\u0131na herkes el a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fken H\u00fcseyin hala g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Birden aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. \u201cHacer, Mustafa, Kadir nerede? Hacer. Mustafa Kadir!\u201d Kendinden ge\u00e7mi\u015f bir halde ba\u011f\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 H\u00fcseyin. Sigaray\u0131 yere at\u0131p sa\u011fa sola h\u0131zla hareket ediyor, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 ad\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor, onlar\u0131 ar\u0131yordu. Meryem Ebe\u2019nin b\u00fcy\u00fck o\u011flu Ziya koluna girip \u201c\u00e7ocuklar bizim evde\u201d deyip eve do\u011fru g\u00f6t\u00fcrmeye niyetlendi. Ziya\u2019n\u0131n kolundan s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131p eve do\u011fru t\u00fcm g\u00fcc\u00fcyle ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, arkas\u0131ndan ona yeti\u015fmeye yeltenen tan\u0131d\u0131klara imam el hareketiyle engel oldu. \u00d6yle bir hasretle ko\u015ftu ki ebenin evine. \u00d6yle bir istekle \u00f6yle bir hevesle i\u00e7eri girdi ki..
\nEbenin k\u0131z\u0131 Ay\u015fe, Hacer ve Mustafa\u2019y\u0131 oyal\u0131yordu kendince. Ay\u015fe, H\u00fcseyin\u2019i g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u00fczg\u00fcn bir \u015fekilde aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p taziyelerini sunacakken H\u00fcseyin\u2019le g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze gelince sustu. Yutkundu.\u00a0 A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7amad\u0131, ac\u0131dan dudaklar\u0131 kilitlindi. H\u00fcseyin \u201cKadir nerede?\u201d diye h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 bir sesle sordu. Tek seferde\u00a0 \u201cFadime ablada\u201d dedi Ay\u015fe.\u201d Al, gel!\u201d komutunu duyar duymaz Ay\u015fe yal\u0131n ayak ko\u015fturdu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Hacer ve Mustafa\u2019ya d\u00f6nd\u00fc \u00f6nlerinde s\u00fct ve bazlama vard\u0131. Her ikisi de birbirine sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f i\u00e7in i\u00e7in a\u011fl\u0131yordu. \u0130ki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn o hali. H\u00fcseyin\u2019i y\u00fcre\u011finden yaralad\u0131. Yanlar\u0131na diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp istemsizce g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. Kollar\u0131n\u0131 iki yana a\u00e7\u0131p \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131na\u00a0 do\u011fru uzand\u0131. \u00c7ocuklar \u00fcrkm\u00fc\u015f, bu hali anlamland\u0131ramad\u0131klar\u0131ndan birbirlerine daha da s\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131lar. H\u00fcseyin dondu kald\u0131 kollar\u0131 havada. \u0130ki \u00e7ocukla g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldi. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinden akan ya\u015flar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Tek tek, damla damla ak\u0131yordu ya\u015flar. Mustafa titriyor, Hacer bombo\u015f g\u00f6zlerle babas\u0131na bak\u0131yordu. Ellerini y\u00fcz\u00fcne kapat\u0131p kas\u0131larak a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131 H\u00fcseyin. \u0130\u00e7indeki ac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n korkusu, yetimli\u011fi de eklendi ancak o ba\u015fka bir \u015feyin alt\u0131nda eziliyor a\u011flad\u0131k\u00e7a sars\u0131l\u0131yor sallan\u0131yor ve bo\u011fuk bo\u011fuk sesler \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu a\u011flarken. Bu iki yavruyu kucaklamak istese de \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n bu hali \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u015fiddetinden daha beter bir \u015feyi anlamas\u0131na neden oldu.
\n\u0130\u015fte o an a\u011flay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ve b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrmelerinin aras\u0131nda bir ses duydu\u011funu fark etti. H\u00fcseyin sars\u0131larak ileri geri, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 elleri y\u00fcz\u00fcnde a\u011flarken \u00f6yle bir hal ald\u0131 ki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Mustafa, bunu bir oyun sanm\u0131\u015f babas\u0131n\u0131n kendisini g\u00fcld\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcyordu Mustafa.<\/p>\n
Elleriyle y\u00fcz\u00fc kapal\u0131 olan H\u00fcseyin, bir an duraksay\u0131p bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tiz g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fleri dinledi. Parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ablas\u0131na sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f Mustafa\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc babas\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f bir halde g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7indeki ac\u0131 at\u0131lacak gibi de\u011fildi belki ama \u015fuan o\u011flunun bu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc her \u015feyi dondurdu ruhunda H\u00fcseyin\u2019in. En son ne zaman o\u011fluyla oyun oynam\u0131\u015f ya da ilgilenmi\u015fti ki… Emin olmak i\u00e7in ellerini y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7ekmeden yeniden kas\u0131la kas\u0131la a\u011flama tak\u0131ld\u0131 yaparken b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrmelerini de g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir \u015fekilde \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Ve kahkahalar artt\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Mustafa\u2019ya bu sefer \u00fcrkek bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fle k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Hacer de e\u015flik etmi\u015fti.
\nDizlerinin \u00fczerinde \u00e7ocuklara yakla\u015ft\u0131 H\u00fcseyin ve onlar\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fcrmeye devam ediyordu. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fleri o kadar g\u00fczeldi ki \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn t\u00fcm kasvetini silip atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ba\u015fucunun \u00fczerinden.
\nBaba ve \u00e7ocuklar o kadar e\u011fleniyor g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu ki y\u0131llarca birbirlerine hasret kalm\u0131\u015f halleri vard\u0131.\u00a0H\u00fcseyin de g\u00fcl\u00fcyor g\u00fclerken de hem Mustafa\u2019y\u0131 hem Hacer\u2019i g\u0131d\u0131kl\u0131yordu. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n bu denli g\u00fczel kahkahas\u0131, g\u00f6renler olsa babalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ok uzak diyarlardan \u00e7ok zaman sonra d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011funu ve kavu\u015fman\u0131n \u00e7ok do\u011fal ve ancak bu kadar g\u00fczel olabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrlerdi
\nMustafa babas\u0131n\u0131n boynuna sar\u0131ld\u0131, H\u00fcseyin sa\u011f kolunu ona dolad\u0131; Hacer de atlad\u0131 babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine H\u00fcseyin sol kolunu da ona dolad\u0131. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n kokusunu ald\u0131, kokular\u0131n\u0131 derin derin \u00e7ekti i\u00e7ine. \u00d6l\u00fcmden \u00e7ok \u00e7ok uzak o an da en g\u00fczel kokulardan daha g\u00fczeldi bu koku hatta cennet kokusu kadar\u2026<\/p>\n
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