Telefonuma
\nasl\u0131nda kameras\u0131na ve depolama alan\u0131na minnettar\u0131m.
\nYaln\u0131zca sevdiklerimin bak\u0131nca g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc bayram yerine \u00e7eviren \u00e7ehrelerini ve
\nruhumda huzur r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131 estiren mek\u00e2nlar\u0131 saklayabilmesi de\u011fil;
\nokurken alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izemedi\u011fim, zihnimden uzakla\u015f\u0131verir diye korktu\u011fum
\nsat\u0131rlar\u0131n muhafazas\u0131n\u0131 yapabilmesi o kadar g\u00fczel ki…
\nB\u00f6ylece ben de bana tan\u0131m\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu “Yaz\u0131lar koleksiyonu”nu yapma f\u0131rsat\u0131n\u0131
\nde\u011ferlendiriyorum.<\/p>\n
Biriktiriyorum, biriktirdiklerim benim enstr\u00fcmanlar\u0131m oluyor ve bamtelime
\ndokunmu\u015f hakikatleri bir g\u00fcn seslendirme \u00fcmidi ile yan\u0131p tutu\u015fuyorum.
\nYaradan’a, bana sanat\u0131 sanat yapan bu hakikatleri kendi s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerimle de
\nanlatabilme yetene\u011fini bah\u015fetmesi i\u00e7in \u00e7ok dua ediyorum.<\/p>\n
Bunca renk c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f\u00fc aras\u0131nda tabloma yak\u0131\u015facak tonlar\u0131 aray\u0131p duruyorum.
\nKar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131nca sarmalayas\u0131m geliyor her harfini, hecesini ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131.
\nSonunda farkl\u0131 gibi g\u00f6r\u00fclen yollar\u0131n kayna\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlere \u015fahit oluyorum,
\ni\u00e7im fokurduyor, bizleri \u00f6tekile\u015ftiren ne varsa buharla\u015ft\u0131rmak istiyorum.<\/p>\n
Seni anl\u0131yorum f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n samimiyeti i\u00e7imde o kadar b\u00fcy\u00fcyor ki
\nkulaklar\u0131m\u0131 sa\u011f\u0131r edebilecek \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor.
\nDerdinden pay alm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m var diyenlerin an\u0131lar\u0131 o kadar yer ediniyor ki
\ni\u00e7imde, kendi ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rabilecek bir k\u00f6\u015fe bulam\u0131yorum.
\n\u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00e7ekingen \u00e7ocu\u011fa g\u00f6z k\u0131rp\u0131l\u0131nca o kadar unutuyorum ki ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131
\nsorgulamadan, hesaps\u0131zca t\u00fcm masumiyetimle kucakl\u0131yorum hepsini.<\/p>\n
Zamanla \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit yazarlardan toplad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 sanki ayn\u0131 kalemin \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f
\ngibi hissetmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorum. Hani yabanc\u0131 bir eserin \u00e7evirisini yapan birka\u00e7 yay\u0131nevi vard\u0131r, i\u015fte \u00f6yle.
\nVe biz s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri daha b\u00fcy\u00fcleyici bi\u00e7imde s\u0131ralam\u0131\u015f olan bir di\u011feri ile
\nkar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda esere kar\u015f\u0131 hayranl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z artar.
\nTam bu noktada yine bir sat\u0131r aras\u0131nda denk geldi\u011fim c\u00fcmleyi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum:<\/p>\n
“T\u00fcm okumalar, tek bir kitab\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7indir”<\/p>\n
Binlerce nehrin sarp da\u011flar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131p, keskin k\u0131vr\u0131mlarda dola\u015f\u0131p
\nve nihayetinde hepsinin birle\u015fip
\ndingin denize d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerde,
\nkayna\u011f\u0131ndan bize ula\u015fan tek bir damlay\u0131 dahi i\u00e7sek
\nhakikate muhta\u00e7 hasta y\u00fcreklerimizin \u015fifa bulaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
“Ey insanlar!
\nRabbinizden size bir \u00f6\u011f\u00fct,
\nkalplerdeki hastal\u0131klara bir \u015fifa,
\ninananlara bir rehber ve rahmet gelmi\u015ftir.” (10\/57)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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