\u201c\u0130hanet de s\u00fcrpriz yapar\u201d<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Kafan\u0131 kap\u0131dan d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya uzat\u0131rsan, i\u00e7erdeki so\u011fu\u011fu g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcn.\u201d dedi ve ilave etti, \u201cFark eder, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki esareti evde \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyenler. Duvarla \u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fc giz, d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kamayan i\u00e7 gibidir. Bilmez donmayanlar, i\u00e7erdeki buz sark\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131 ve b\u00fct\u00fcn kad\u0131nlar yanmayan soban\u0131n \u00fczerinde kurutur; \u0131slanan hayallerini, ac\u0131yan yanlar\u0131n\u0131 ve bilir d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen hayat\u0131n bir hapishane oldu\u011funu, evinin parmakl\u0131klar\u0131ndan bakarken \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe…<\/p>\n
\u00c7aresizlik; ekmek kavgas\u0131n\u0131n, tuzu kurular\u0131n semtinden ge\u00e7erken kopard\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u00e2veylayd\u0131. O kuru tuz, fakirin \u00e7orbas\u0131na hi\u00e7 d\u00f6k\u00fclmemi\u015fti her nedense! Ekme\u011fe s\u00fcr\u00fclen esaretti; yoklu\u011fun deli h\u0131nc\u0131. Ta\u015fran\u0131n eski zaman kokulu mahallelerinde, tuzu kurumam\u0131\u015flar\u0131n kavgas\u0131d\u0131r hayat. \u00a0Aslan\u0131n midesindeki ekmek, bir de ya\u015fam m\u00fccadelesi\u2026 Hi\u00e7bir par\u00e7as\u0131 yerine oturmam\u0131\u015f puzzle gibiydi hayat. \u00d6m\u00fcr, puzzle par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n yerini bulmakla ge\u00e7erdi, a\u011f\u0131r aksak arabesk bir senfoni i\u015fte.<\/p>\n
T\u0131rnaklar\u0131n kaz\u0131ma hik\u00e2yesi kuru ve kat\u0131ks\u0131z\u2026 Selvi boylu \u00fcz\u00fcm a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131nda kurtlanan elma, olgun dutlara inat a\u015f olurdu fakirin sofras\u0131na… Kara makinan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na ne zaman oturdu\u011funu bilmiyordu Elika. Az \u00f6nce \u00c7in mal\u0131 guguklu saatinin plastik ku\u015fu \u00fc\u00e7 defa \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yuvas\u0131ndan. Bir da\u011f\u0131n kamburu gibi iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm ge\u00e7en onca saat; omuzlar\u0131ndaki s\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131 y\u0131llar\u0131n cefas\u0131, son nak\u0131\u015f\u0131 da att\u0131 m\u0131 yar\u0131nki sipari\u015fler tamam olacakt\u0131. G\u00f6zlerine oturan, yorgun misafir s\u0131z\u0131, bir hayal tufan\u0131na d\u00f6nerken, g\u00f6zleri apans\u0131z bir uykuya teslim olacakt\u0131 ki, kap\u0131n\u0131n tekme tokat d\u00f6v\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc fark etti, birden irkildi. K\u00f6hne gecenin bir \u015farap gibi eskidi\u011fi rutubetli duvarlarda gezerken g\u00f6z\u00fc, sanki hi\u00e7bir \u015fey an\u0131msam\u0131yor gibi sersemlemi\u015fti. Vurulmaktan deliye d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f kulp ile \u201cA\u00e7 kap\u0131y\u0131 neredesin kad\u0131n?\u201d diye hayk\u0131ran sesin aras\u0131nda birden gitti geldi Elika, h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. A\u00e7mas\u0131yla adam\u0131n kap\u0131ya y\u0131\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131 bir olmu\u015ftu. Kocas\u0131 Hayri i\u00e7ip i\u00e7ip gene k\u00fcfelik olmu\u015f, meyhane \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 Abdi taraf\u0131ndan kap\u0131ya b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yine. Elika, Hayri\u2019yi i\u00e7eriye sokmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, adamsa durmadan konu\u015fuyor, k\u00fcf\u00fcrler s\u0131ral\u0131yordu. \u201cAllah cezan\u0131 versin R\u0131fk\u0131 yakt\u0131n beni, yakt\u0131n beni…\u201d Elika, g\u00f6zlerinin alt\u0131nda sisli halkalar\u0131 k\u00f6r kuyu bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f avurtlar\u0131yla elli ya\u015f\u0131nda bir kad\u0131n gibi g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyor olsa da, daha otuz iki ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Ellerinde, s\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hayat kavgas\u0131n\u0131n demir parmakl\u0131k izleri, yorgun y\u0131llar\u0131n takvim yapraklar\u0131, bir de pala b\u0131y\u0131kl\u0131 bir adam\u0131n dayak s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131. En son ne zaman g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlamayacak kadar a\u011flamakl\u0131, bir o kadar da dertliydi. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131na sinmi\u015f bir keder nereye gitse onunla giderdi. Mavimt\u0131rak \u015fahikalarda a\u00e7an bahts\u0131z gelincik Elika, hayat\u0131n r\u00fczg\u00e2ra direnen ipsiz u\u00e7urtmas\u0131 gibi oradan oraya savurdu\u011fu g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc sakini dertli Elika! Giydirilmi\u015f aplikler gibi h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131\u2026 G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n son bestesi gibiydi. Odaya sinmi\u015f, k\u00fcf kokan pasl\u0131 sessizli\u011fi, Hayri\u2019nin sesi bozdu bir anda. \u201cKalk bi\u2019 kahve yap!\u201d Elika, h\u0131zla mutfa\u011fa giderken ser\u00e7e y\u00fcre\u011finin sesi meydan okuyordu her \u015feye, \u00f6fkeden a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zlerine e\u015flik ediyordu ruhunun ritim bozuklu\u011fu. Bir bardak suyla ve kahveyle Hayri\u2019nin yan\u0131na geldi\u011finde adam \u00e7oktan s\u0131zm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cHayri, uyan kahve getirdim.\u201d Hayri\u2019nin uyanmas\u0131yla kahve tepsisine yumruk savurmas\u0131 bir olmu\u015ftu. \u201cBeceriksiz kad\u0131n, iki saatte bir kahveyi yapamad\u0131n, \u00fcstelik bir de beni uyand\u0131r\u0131yorsun!\u2019\u2019 demesiyle ikinci yumruk Elika\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnde patlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Oysa be\u015f dakika da yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kahveyi. Elika, ah Elika! \u00c7\u0131ra a\u011fac\u0131, direksiz derme \u00e7atma ya\u015fama s\u0131z\u0131nt\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yla s\u0131va olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan suskun kanarya, ya\u015famdan \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131p \u00f6l\u00fcme biriktirilmi\u015f \u00f6m\u00fcr ve bozuk para gibi harcanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7eksiz nevbahar, yine sesini \u00e7\u0131karamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile gelen darbelere, hem y\u00fcre\u011fine hem bedenine… Yan odada g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcye uyanan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Samet ya\u015fanan tufan\u0131 anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da anlam veremiyordu olanlara. Samet yedi ya\u015f\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f de k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir \u00e7ocuktu, ikinci s\u0131n\u0131fa gidiyordu. Elika bir yandan y\u00fcz\u00fcne buz koyuyor di\u011fer yandan d\u00f6k\u00fclen kahve ve bardak k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 topluyordu. G\u00f6z\u00fcnden d\u00f6k\u00fclen damlalar; \u00e7\u00f6le damlayan kor gibi, demir gibi, derin bir kesi\u011fe damlayan zehir gibi yak\u0131yordu y\u00fcre\u011fini, bir avu\u00e7 damla, yaban bir \u0131sl\u0131k gibi hem dudaklar\u0131nda hem ba\u011fr\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yordu. Hayri tekrar s\u0131zm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 oldu\u011fu yere, horlama sesini sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn mahalle duyuyor gibiydi. Elika yorgunluktan ve ac\u0131dan ayakta duracak halde de\u011fildi, yata\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131na k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131nca guguk ku\u015fu tam be\u015f defa \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yuvas\u0131ndan; guguk guguk guguk…<\/p>\n
Sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131, yeni g\u00fcn m\u00fccadelesini haber verircesine y\u00fcksek h\u00fczmeliydi. G\u00fcne\u015f sanki bir kumandan edas\u0131yla heybet sa\u00e7\u0131yordu g\u00fcne.\u00a0 Ya\u015fama \u015fahit yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir ekmek kavgas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6znesiydi Elika. Maviden g\u00fcne\u015f izi toplayacak, k\u00f6r k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 gibi denize a\u00e7\u0131lacakt\u0131 birazdan.\u00a0 \u00c7ay\u0131 demlemi\u015f kahvalt\u0131y\u0131 haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, mis gibi k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f ekmek kokusu her yere yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, Hayri\u2019nin burnuna kadar gelmi\u015fti. \u201cKahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131r, herkes sofraya!\u201d diyen seste d\u00fcn gecenin temi bile kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcndeki morluk ve bedenindeki a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131 saymazsak. Hayri y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kam\u0131\u015f ve sofraya gelmi\u015fti Samet de yerini alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile, okul vakti yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. D\u00fcn gece dedi Hayri, d\u00fcn gece neler oldu? Bir tek R\u0131fk\u0131\u2019n\u0131n cebimdeki b\u00fct\u00fcn paray\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, ba\u015fka bir \u015fey yok. Elika, savurdu\u011fun yumruklar\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yor musun der gibi, ac\u0131 ac\u0131 bakt\u0131 kocas\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne ama konu\u015famazd\u0131 ayn\u0131 darbelere maruz kal\u0131rd\u0131 yine. Hayri devam etti: \u201cR\u0131fk\u0131 dedi, beni \u00f6ld\u00fcrtecekmi\u015f borcumu \u00f6demezsem, b\u00fct\u00fcn param\u0131 ald\u0131 \u015ferefsiz d\u00fcn gece, iki g\u00fcn de s\u00fcre verdi, ya borcumu \u00f6dermi\u015fim ya da…\u201d Elika: \u201cSus!\u201d \u00a0Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn duvarlar \u00fczerine y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu, laf\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret edemeyen falc\u0131n\u0131n kekeme dili gibi, s\u00fck\u00fbt ikliminin bozk\u0131r \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi gibi soluyordu s\u00f6zler. Birden direndi kelimeler suskunlu\u011funa, \u201cSus, bulaca\u011f\u0131z \u00e7aresini.\u201d Hayri\u2019nin R\u0131fk\u0131\u2019ya tam y\u00fcz elli bin lira borcu vard\u0131, kumar borcu. R\u0131fk\u0131 az\u0131l\u0131 bir kumarbaz ve tefeciydi. Ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f ac\u0131lar, yol kesmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yine Elika\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde. Har\u00e2mi ustura aynadaki y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7izikler atmaya ba\u015flayacak gibi duruyordu. Kahvalt\u0131 sofras\u0131n\u0131 toplar toplamaz teslim etmesi gereken i\u015fleri alarak d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 Elika. Kald\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131 sanki s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yordu, beyninde dolanan bir tek soru vard\u0131; ne yapacakt\u0131, nas\u0131l bulacaklard\u0131 o paray\u0131? R\u0131fk\u0131 belal\u0131 bir gangsterdi, her yol vard\u0131 onda; kocas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrebilir, kendisini k\u00f6t\u00fc yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrebilirdi. Zaten s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti de Hayri \u2018ye \u2018\u2018Elika da pek gen\u00e7 ve g\u00fczel.\u2019\u2019 diye\u2026 Bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken Elika iyice kaybolmu\u015ftu; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerde, sokaklarda ve korkular\u0131nda. Dapdar bir g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn evreniydi d\u00fcnyas\u0131, bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n zaman dibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc y\u00fcksekli\u011finin, b\u00fct\u00fcn denedi\u011fi mutluluklar ya bol gelir ya da bir ka\u00e7 beden b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc. \u00dczerine sevin\u00e7 hep te\u011felli dururdu \u00fczerinde, ha d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc ha d\u00fc\u015fecek. Becerememi\u015fti orkestras\u0131n\u0131 y\u00f6netmeyi, hep ba\u015fkalar\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7alar s\u00f6ylerdi Elika. \u0130potekli ya\u015fam ve hacizli g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fler Elika\u2019dan ibaretti. Bir yolu olmal\u0131, bir \u015fey yapmal\u0131\u2026 Bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f Allah\u2019\u0131m diyordu, bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f… So\u011fuk bir duman t\u00fcter \u00e7aresizlerin y\u00fcre\u011finde, k\u00f6r bir duman. Genzine yap\u0131\u015f\u0131r, bir \u015fey yapamaman\u0131n adi tortusu. Bilge hayat\u0131n yelelerine emanet edilmi\u015f zaman s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcr zay\u0131flar\u0131, yoksunlar\u0131. S\u0131n\u0131fta kal\u0131r, hep bir salk\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn rahmine d\u00fc\u015fen kakt\u00fcs kokulu cemre, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f arar d\u00fc\u015fmek i\u00e7in; havaya, suya, topra\u011fa.<\/p>\n
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Elika d\u00fckk\u00e2na ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fi teslim ettikten sonra paras\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131 ve tekrar d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yoluna koyuldu. Beynini kemiren o soru, bir de elindeki be\u015f y\u00fcz lira\u2026 \u0130kisinin aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, makinedeki tost gibi hissediyordu kendini, \u201cD\u00fcnyaya s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir k\u0131ym\u0131\u011f\u0131m ben\u201d diyordu kendi kendine. Y\u00fcz elli bin liral\u0131k bor\u00e7, elde var be\u015f y\u00fcz lira, ac\u0131 ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi a\u011flanacak haline. Eve geldi\u011finde Samet okuldan yeni gelmi\u015f, Hayri ortalarda yoktu, yine o cehennemde k\u00fcfelik olmu\u015ftur diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, tarhana \u00e7orbas\u0131na ka\u015f\u0131k sallarken. Tam sofray\u0131 kald\u0131rmak \u00fczereyken kap\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131nmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, gelen Hayri\u2019ydi. Elika kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131, Hayri ayaktayd\u0131, paras\u0131zl\u0131ktan yeterince i\u00e7ememi\u015fti. \u201cKarn\u0131m tok, bir kahve yap\u0131ver.\u201d dedi. Sarho\u015ftu ama akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Elika kahveyle odaya girince, Hayri\u2019nin g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcn\u00fc adeta \u0131slatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131: \u201cPi\u015fman\u0131m, dedi hem de \u00e7ok\u2026 Sana e\u015f, \u00e7ocu\u011fumuza baba olamad\u0131m. Hep kurban oldum, sizi de kurban ettim.\u201d Y\u0131llar\u0131n nedameti d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu sanki Hayri\u2019nin g\u00f6zlerinden, pasl\u0131 makas i\u00e7ini y\u0131rt\u0131yor bir ac\u0131 ci\u011ferini kemiriyordu sanki \u201cPi\u015fman\u0131m, affet\u201d diyecek cesareti bile yoktu. Kanatlar\u0131n\u0131 toplam\u0131\u015f muzaffer Anka ku\u015fu gibiydi Hayri. Da\u011f g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc y\u00fckseklik, sa\u011f\u0131r semaya emanet, dilsiz beden, \u015fifa da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 zanneden zehirli zakkum gibi bak\u0131yordu. \u201c\u00c7areler t\u00fckenmez\u201d dedi Elika, \u201cAllah bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f yolu verir…\u201d \u201cVerir mi\u201d dedi Hayri \u201cSahi verir mi?\u201d \u201cS\u00f6z\u201d dedi \u201cBir kurtulay\u0131m \u015fu bor\u00e7tan yakla\u015f\u0131rsam \u015ferefsizim, sana s\u00f6z Elika sana s\u00f6z\u2026\u201d Elika\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 Hayri\u2019nin g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131yla sarma\u015f dola\u015f olmu\u015ftu, \u201cS\u00f6z\u201d \u00a0dedi Elika. \u201cNeye m\u00e2l olursa olsun kurtulaca\u011f\u0131z bu illetten, kurtulaca\u011f\u0131z!\u201d Hayri kar\u0131s\u0131na hem sar\u0131l\u0131yor hem a\u011fl\u0131yordu. Elika kocas\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti Hayri de ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, kar\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcnde birden devle\u015fti. Elika oturdu\u011fu yerden h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131, kendini g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131 gibi hissediyordu adeta, bir k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 yoktu elinde, \u201cKurtulaca\u011f\u0131z, bedeli neyse \u00f6deyece\u011fiz!\u201d dedi. Elika; da\u011f ke\u00e7isi demekti. \u0130nat\u00e7\u0131 ve kararl\u0131, m\u00fccadeleci\u2026 T\u0131pk\u0131 bir ke\u00e7i gibi… O korkak \u00fcrkek ser\u00e7e kad\u0131n gitmi\u015f, sanki bir \u015fahin gelmi\u015fti yerine. Elika, Elika! Yama\u00e7lar seni bekliyor. Saf nokta, galip ku\u015f, Atlas, kuma\u015f para\u015f\u00fct\u2026 U\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z\u0131n kahraman kartal\u0131 u\u00e7maya haz\u0131rd\u0131. Sabah erkenden g\u00fcndeli\u011fe gidecekti, \u201cYatal\u0131m, sabah ola hayrola, ac\u0131lar kenetlermi\u015f derler ya\u2026\u201d Sabaha kadar sar\u0131larak uyudular. G\u00fcn\u00fcn ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 Elika\u2019dan y\u00fckselen bir ses \u00e7\u0131nlatt\u0131, \u201cBuldum, buldum!\u201d diyordu Elika, avaz\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar ba\u011f\u0131rarak\u2026 \u201cBu sefer tamam…\u201d Hayri \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle bak\u0131yordu kar\u0131s\u0131na ne buldun der gibi, yoksa define mi?\u00a0 Elika temizlik i\u00e7in gidece\u011fi evin kap\u0131s\u0131na varana kadar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, yapacakt\u0131 akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7eni ba\u015fka \u00e7aresi yoktu ve buna mecburdu. Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn evine kadar gelip adres b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015flar ve yalvarm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 kabul etmesi i\u00e7in. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle i\u015fini bitiren Elika paras\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131 ve tekrar yola koyuldu. Eve geldi\u011finde saat sekiz olmu\u015ftu, karar\u0131 hem korkutuyor hem \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcyordu onu, \u201cAcaba do\u011fru muydu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n?\u201d diye soruyordu bir ses. Bir yandan da, e\u011fer bunu yapmazsan kocan\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcrler, seni k\u00f6t\u00fc yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcrler ya o\u011flun? \u0130\u00e7indeki sesler, yapmal\u0131s\u0131n ba\u015fka \u00e7aren yok, son \u00e7aren… \u0130\u00e7eride m\u00fcthi\u015f bir ses kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131, ayr\u0131 telden \u00e7alan yurttan sesler filarmoni orkestras\u0131… Kabul edenler, etmeyenler… Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle oldu\u011fu yere uyuyakalan Elika, kocas\u0131n\u0131n \u201cKar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m, \u00e7ay haz\u0131r, Samet hadi o\u011flum kahvalt\u0131ya\u201d sesiyle uyand\u0131, birlikte kahvalt\u0131 yapt\u0131lar. Elika e\u015fine ve o\u011fluna \u015f\u00f6yle bir bakt\u0131, pek nadir g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir mutluluk tablosuydu, feda etmeliyim dedi. Hayri ger\u00e7ekten de\u011fi\u015fecek, zaten yokluk bu hale getirdi onu diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Yepyeni bir hayat ba\u015flayacakt\u0131, \u201cYapmal\u0131y\u0131m, \u00e7ocu\u011fum ve mutlulu\u011fum i\u00e7in\u2026\u201d Korku ve \u00fcrkekli\u011fi gitmi\u015f, inan\u0131lmaz bir g\u00fc\u00e7 ve cesaret gelmi\u015fti. Ne de olsa o yuvas\u0131n\u0131n di\u015fi kartal\u0131yd\u0131. Hayri arkas\u0131ndan ko\u015fsa da yeti\u015femedi, Elika \u00e7oktan binmi\u015fti \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 taksiye. Ne de olsa art\u0131k paras\u0131 olacakt\u0131. Taksiye binebilirdi.\u00a0 Hayri eve girdi\u011finde merak i\u00e7indeydi, giyinip d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131. Yatak odas\u0131na y\u00f6neldi, kafas\u0131ndaki soru i\u015fareti yuma\u011f\u0131yla. \u00c7ekmecede \u00e7oraplar\u0131n\u0131 ararken bir zarf \u00e7arpt\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcne, pembe bir zarf… Bir mektuptu bu\u2026 Hayri yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 okur okumaz h\u0131zla d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Ko\u015far ad\u0131m bir yerlere yeti\u015fecek gibi y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu Belli ki akl\u0131nda bir \u015feyler vard\u0131. Elika; hayat\u0131n sarp bir u\u00e7urumda, pamuk iplik, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck tahta bir k\u00f6pr\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 da\u011f ke\u00e7isi, inat\u00e7\u0131 \u00fcrkek ve ma\u011frur… S\u00fcrpriz yapacakt\u0131 e\u015fine ve o\u011fluna. Yatak odas\u0131ndaki, ah\u015fap, a\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, ayakta zor duran, dert k\u00fcp\u00fc komidinin i\u00e7ine bir mektup b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kom\u015fu Halime\u2019ye tembihlemi\u015fti, \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra gidecek mektubu s\u00f6yleyecekti Hayri\u2019ye… Ama Hayri \u00e7orab\u0131n\u0131 ararken bulmu\u015ftu o mektubu, vaktinden \u00f6nce. Saatler bazen d\u00f6rtnala ilerler, atl\u0131 de\u011fildir ard\u0131ndaki ama ko\u015far i\u015fte… \u0130hanet; hainlerin koltuk de\u011fne\u011fidir, zalimlerin yardak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r, insan postu giymi\u015fler. Zalime ac\u0131mak ise mazluma ihanettir, b\u00fct\u00fcn iyiler iyiliklerinin bedelini ihanetle \u00f6derler, iyi niyet k\u00f6t\u00fclere \u00f6denen bir diyettir. Elika \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra bir \u00f6zel hastane odas\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda; bor\u00e7 \u00f6denmi\u015f, y\u00fcz bin liras\u0131 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, kocas\u0131, o\u011flu ve bir b\u00f6bre\u011fi olmayan terkedilmi\u015f bir kad\u0131nd\u0131 art\u0131k.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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