B\u0130NLERCE AHMET VE B\u0130NLERCE AY\u015eE \u0130\u00c7ER\u0130S\u0130NDEN:<\/p>\n
BIR AHMET VE BIR AY\u015eE ‘N\u0130N \u00d6YK\u00dcS\u00dc<\/p>\n
Ay\u015fe solukland\u0131. Hi\u00e7 b\u00f6ylesi daralmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde bir b\u00fcy\u00fck s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131yla uyanm\u0131\u015f; i\u00e7ine do\u011fmu\u015f karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 resmen hissetmi\u015fti. Hissetmi\u015fti i\u015fte, karanl\u0131k bir \u015feyler vard\u0131 ve bunu sadece o g\u00f6rebiliyordu. Her g\u00fcn eksik uyan\u0131rd\u0131 ama bu sabah tek eksi\u011fi bu eksiklik de\u011fildi. Ba\u015fka bir \u015fey vard\u0131, tan\u0131mlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir i\u00e7 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131\u2026 Sanki bir yerlerde topra\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na yuvalanm\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn kar\u0131ncalar \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve ku\u015flar topra\u011fa d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f; ormanlar alev alm\u0131\u015f ve ak\u015famlar bu alevlere d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, yanm\u0131\u015f gibi hissediyordu. Sanki gece diye bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Uzun uzun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc yata\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Ya\u015famak i\u00e7in sebep bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilk g\u00fcn bug\u00fcn de\u011fildi ama kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki mor salk\u0131ml\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm a\u011fac\u0131 tazeli\u011fini korurken, \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesini kendisine yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131ram\u0131yordu. Sahi, neydi bu a\u011fac\u0131n tarihi, destan\u0131, an\u0131s\u0131, hat\u0131ras\u0131, ge\u00e7mi\u015fi\u2026 Neydi? Hep merak etmi\u015fti. \u00d6n\u00fcnde neler ya\u015fand\u0131, ne gibi ac\u0131lara katland\u0131 bu a\u011fa\u00e7 bir ba\u015f\u0131na, h\u00e2l\u00e2 mor salk\u0131mlar vermeye nas\u0131l devam ediyor?<\/p>\n
Bir ku\u015f kondu penceresinin \u00f6n\u00fcne. Bir kere \u00f6tt\u00fc incecik sesiyle. Bir kerecik\u2026 Gagas\u0131yla hafif\u00e7e vurdu, Ay\u015fe\u2019nin daha \u00f6nce ilgilenmedi\u011fi odan\u0131n penceresine. Ay\u015fe kalkmaya \u00fc\u015feniyordu. Dokunsalar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp \u00f6lebilirdi, dokunmam\u0131\u015flard\u0131 \u015fimdiye dek. Dokunsalar a\u011flamazd\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6lm\u00fc\u015f olurdu, ya\u015fam\u0131yor olurdu. Bug\u00fcne uyanmam\u0131\u015f olsa ne de\u011fi\u015firdi ger\u00e7i, pek bir \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmezdi.<\/p>\n
Uzan\u0131p pencereyi hafif aralad\u0131. Ku\u015f biraz geri \u00e7ekildi lakin u\u00e7up ka\u00e7mad\u0131. Hafif\u00e7e kafas\u0131n\u0131 Ay\u015fe\u2019ye do\u011fru uzatt\u0131. Sanki bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyecekti, \u00f6yle hissetmi\u015fti Ay\u015fe. Sonra durdu ve kendi kendine:<\/p>\n
– \u0130yice paranoyak oldun k\u0131z\u0131m be! Ne s\u00f6yleyecek ku\u015f sana? Ac\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131r zavall\u0131m, dedi.<\/p>\n
Odan\u0131n i\u00e7inde a\u011f\u0131r aksak ilerledi. Mutfa\u011fa gidecekti.<\/p>\n
Ucu hafif\u00e7e yukar\u0131 do\u011fru kalkm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcl i\u015flemeli hal\u0131ya tak\u0131ld\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131. Ne kadar be\u011fenmi\u015fti bu k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fclleri. \u2018\u2018Bu olsun\u2026\u2019\u2019 demi\u015fti Ahmet\u2019e. \u201cEvet, evimizde g\u00fcller a\u00e7s\u0131n, evimiz g\u00fcller dolsun, bunu alal\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
K\u0131rmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Ahmet onu\u2026 Olduk\u00e7a pahal\u0131 bir hal\u0131yd\u0131 ama yeni evlilerdi hen\u00fcz. \u0130stedi\u011fi olsundu, \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Bir kere s\u00f6ylemesi, bir kere istemesi yetmi\u015fti Ay\u015fe\u2019nin. Ertesi g\u00fcn hal\u0131 evlerindeydi. Ay\u015fe hal\u0131y\u0131 evinin en g\u00fczel yerine sermi\u015fti. O\u2019na en g\u00fczel gelen yere sermi\u015fti. Ahmet yine bir \u015fey dememi\u015fti. Salonun ortas\u0131na serilse daha g\u00fczel olurdu O\u2019na g\u00f6re ama Ay\u015fe yatak odas\u0131na serilmesini istemi\u015fti hal\u0131n\u0131n. G\u00fclleri severdi. G\u00fcllerin kokusuyla, g\u00fcllerin ahengiyle uyanmak istiyordu besbelli. Kimsenin g\u00f6rmesine gerek yoktu, onlar g\u00f6rs\u00fcnler yeterdi.<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 k\u0131rmazd\u0131 Ahmet O\u2019nu. Elinden geldi\u011fince mutlu etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131 zaten? Ne istese alm\u0131\u015f, nas\u0131l isterse \u00f6yle yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u2018\u2018\u00c7ok seviliyorum\u2026\u2019\u2019 derdi Ay\u015fe. \u201cBen de zaten O\u2019nu, \u00e7ok seviyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Ne g\u00fczeldi her \u015fey!\u2019\u2019 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc sonra. Her \u015feyin b\u00f6yle s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131zca g\u00fczel olmas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr, bilinir \u015fey de\u011fildi. Bu kadar tamam olmazd\u0131 hayat, bir yerlerde eksikler kalmal\u0131yd\u0131. Ama yoktu i\u015fte. Hayat arkada\u015f\u0131, e\u015fi, \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu adam yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda; g\u00fcller i\u00e7inde bir ev, rahat bir hayat, iyi aileler\u2026 Daha ne olsundu?<\/p>\n
Seneler ge\u00e7irmi\u015flerdi b\u00f6yle. Uzun seneler\u2026 \u0130stedikleri bir \u00e7ocuktu; olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, olmuyordu. \u00d6\u011frenmi\u015flerdi ki \u00e7ok sonra, o mor salk\u0131ml\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n yamac\u0131ndaki mutlu yuva eksik kalmak zorundayd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Ay\u015fe\u2019nin \u00e7ocu\u011fu olmuyordu, olmayacakt\u0131. Y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Ay\u015fe, Ahmet dik durmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Ay\u015fe bunu g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e daha \u00e7ok t\u00fckeniyordu. Her g\u00fcn biraz, her g\u00fcn biraz daha\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Seni seviyorum ben\u2026\u2019\u2019 demi\u015fti e\u015fi. \u2018\u2018\u00d6nemli de\u011fil \u00e7ocuk. Evlatl\u0131k al\u0131r\u0131z, bak ne \u00e7ocuklar harap bitap yetimhane k\u00f6\u015felerinde. Birini kurtar\u0131r, al\u0131r biz bakar\u0131z\u2019\u2019 demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Bu kadar iyi olmak zorunda m\u0131yd\u0131? Bu kadar m\u0131 iyi olmal\u0131yd\u0131, yanl\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu. Bir yerlerde yanl\u0131\u015f olan bir \u015feyler vard\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcnde durmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Ay\u015fe, kocas\u0131na sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve te\u015fekk\u00fcr etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
B\u00f6yle bir zaman daha ge\u00e7ti. Derken, mahalle \u00e7alkalanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Konu kom\u015fu herkes Ahmet diyordu. Dillerinde bir Ahmet, s\u00f6zlerinde bir Ahmet\u2026 Bilindi ki Ahmet, k\u00f6\u015fedeki evden dul bir kad\u0131nla yat\u0131p kalk\u0131yor. Ay\u015fe ihtimal vermedi, kocas\u0131 \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131 kendisine. Yapmazd\u0131. Uydurmayd\u0131, iftirayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Lakin i\u00e7ine bir kurt da d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc Ay\u015fe\u2019nin. Bir g\u00fcn Havva Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131. Bir kek yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, \u00e7ikolatal\u0131 hem de. \u00c7ay i\u00e7eriz demi\u015fti, hem gidip bir g\u00f6reyim. Havva Kad\u0131n kap\u0131y\u0131 aralad\u0131 hafif\u00e7e, Ay\u015fe\u2019yi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131 fal ta\u015f\u0131 gibi. \u2018\u2018Ne i\u015fin var burada?\u2019\u2019 diyebildi. Bir tek bunu s\u00f6yleyebildi; g\u00f6zleri umut umut bakan Ay\u015fe\u2019nin surat\u0131na.<\/p>\n
Neye u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Ay\u015fe. \u2018\u2018Beni i\u00e7eri almayacak m\u0131s\u0131n? Sohbet ederiz diye gelmi\u015ftim. Kek de yapt\u0131m, oturur yeriz birlikte\u2026\u2019\u2019 diyebildi.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Kek, \u00f6yle mi!\u2019\u2019 dedi Havva Kad\u0131n. \u2018\u2018Tabii, gel gel, i\u00e7eri gel.\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n
Ay\u015fe i\u00e7eri ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 atar atmaz, portmantoda Ahmet\u2019in h\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Benzetmi\u015fti belli ki. Umursamad\u0131. Salona y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Duvar\u0131n birinde Ahmet\u2019in gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131na ait bir foto\u011fraf as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. Durdu, dondu kald\u0131 \u00f6ylece.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Nas\u0131l, anlamad\u0131m!\u2019\u2019 dedi Havva Kad\u0131n\u2019a d\u00f6nerek.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Neyi anlamad\u0131n?\u2019\u2019 dedi Havva Kad\u0131n. \u2018\u2018Neymi\u015f anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n?\u2019\u2019 dedi. \u2018\u2018Senin nik\u00e2hl\u0131 kocansa, benim de nik\u00e2hl\u0131 kocam. Hem benim daha \u00e7ok nik\u00e2hl\u0131 kocam Ahmet! Senin bir \u00e7ocuk veremedi\u011fin adamdan ikizlerim olacak benim. 4 ayl\u0131k hamileyim!\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n
Ay\u015fe beyninden vurulmu\u015fa d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Neye u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, kald\u0131 \u00f6ylece. Dondu kald\u0131. Ses edemedi, sesi solu\u011fu kesildi. Geri geri y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc ve bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 evden. Havva Kad\u0131n kap\u0131y\u0131 ard\u0131ndan \u00f6rtecekti ki, elindeki kek kal\u0131b\u0131n\u0131 fark etti Ay\u015fe. \u00d6ylece kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Senin kocan \u00f6yle mi, senin nik\u00e2hl\u0131 kocan \u00f6yle mi? Seni pis fahi\u015fe! Sen kimin kocas\u0131ndan \u00e7ocuk peydahl\u0131yorsun!?\u2019\u2019 diye ba\u011f\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kek kal\u0131b\u0131n\u0131 oldu\u011fu gibi Havva Kad\u0131n\u2019\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131na f\u0131rlat\u0131verdi. Son anda \u00f6rt\u00fcld\u00fc kap\u0131, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f ve s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f gibi \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fcverdi.<\/p>\n
Ay\u015fe inanmad\u0131 olanlara. Ahmet gelsin konu\u015facakt\u0131. Dinlemek istiyordu. Neydi i\u015fin asl\u0131, bilmek hakk\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ak\u015fam\u0131 zor etti, Ahmet gelmesi gereken saatte gelmemi\u015fti eve. Koltukta uyuyakalan Ay\u015fe, kap\u0131n\u0131n sesiyle uyand\u0131. Ahmet bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla i\u00e7eri girdi.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Sen ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131yorsun!\u2019\u2019 dedi Ay\u015fe\u2019ye\u2026 \u2018\u2018Kime fahi\u015fe dedin sen, kimsin lan sen!?\u2019\u2019 dedi.<\/p>\n
Ay\u015fe kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemeden \u00f6ylece bekledi.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Havva benim kar\u0131md\u0131r. Sen de benim kar\u0131ms\u0131n. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m olacak o kad\u0131ndan benim. Bana bir \u00e7ocuk veremedi\u011fin gibi, gidip bir de benim e\u015fime hakaret mi ettin sen!\u2019\u2019 dedi Ahmet. Ay\u015fe\u2019nin \u00fczerine y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Koltuktan bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da kald\u0131rd\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan tutarak. Ay\u015fe bir tek yumru\u011fu hat\u0131rlad\u0131, sonras\u0131 karanl\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n
Uyand\u0131 sonra, yatak odas\u0131ndayd\u0131. Buraya ne zaman geldi\u011fini hat\u0131rlamad\u0131. G\u00fcl desenli hal\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde boylu boyunca yat\u0131yordu. Ahmet s\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc belli ki O\u2019nu. Hem de yata\u011fa de\u011fil, hal\u0131ya. \u00d6zellikle hal\u0131ya b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hat\u0131ralar\u0131 canland\u0131 Ay\u015fe\u2019nin. Bir damla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcverdi g\u00fcl\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcne.<\/p>\n
Kalkt\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Dayak m\u0131 yemi\u015fti, ne olmu\u015ftu tam hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131. Aynaya do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc, g\u00f6z\u00fcndeki morlu\u011fu fark edince tekrar d\u00f6nd\u00fc Ay\u015fe\u2019nin ba\u015f\u0131. \u2018\u2018Ahmet\u2026\u2019\u2019 dedi. \u2018\u2018Nerdesin?\u2019\u2019 Ses gelmedi. Ahmet gitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Bir daha da gelmedi Ahmet Ay\u015fe\u2019ye. O mutlu sand\u0131klar\u0131 yuvas\u0131nda, bir ba\u015f\u0131na kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Ay\u015fe. K\u00f6\u015fedeki evden bebek sesleri gelmeye ba\u015flayana kadar sakin kalabilmi\u015fti. Sonra at\u0131lan mutluluk naralar\u0131na daha fazla dayanamad\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn pencereleri bir daha a\u00e7mamacas\u0131na kapad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Her g\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu olanlar\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedi\u011fi tek bir g\u00fcn olmuyordu. Ne yaz\u0131k, belki unutsa rahata erebilirdi. Belki de ilk i\u015fi, \u015fu sa\u00e7ma sapan hal\u0131y\u0131 evden atmak olmal\u0131yd\u0131. En do\u011frusu buydu belki.<\/p>\n
Mutfa\u011fa do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye devam etti. Bir lokma ekmek ald\u0131 ve yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n penceresine do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Ku\u015f h\u00e2l\u00e2 bekliyordu Ay\u015fe\u2019yi. Ay\u015fe sevindi bu duruma. Yaln\u0131z hissetmiyordu en az\u0131ndan, en az\u0131ndan h\u00e2l\u00e2 yan\u0131nda, yak\u0131n\u0131nda bir nefes vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ekme\u011fi ufalay\u0131p pencerenin pervaz\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131. Ku\u015f minnetle ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi ve ekme\u011fi yemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. O s\u0131rada bir \u015fey \u00e7ekti dikkatini Ay\u015fe\u2019nin. Mor salk\u0131ml\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n yerinde yeller esiyordu.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2018Nas\u0131l olur? Daha d\u00fcn gece buradayd\u0131. Nereye gidecek koskoca a\u011fa\u00e7? Nas\u0131l oldu bu!\u2019\u2019 dedi, tekrar ve tekrar\u2026<\/p>\n
Ku\u015fun g\u00f6z\u00fcnden bir damla ya\u015f indi Ay\u015fe\u2019nin avucunun i\u00e7ine. Bir ku\u015f evi vard\u0131 o a\u011fac\u0131n dal\u0131nda, hat\u0131rlad\u0131 Ay\u015fe; Ahmet\u2019le yapm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Uzan\u0131nca yerde g\u00f6rd\u00fc ku\u015f yuvas\u0131n\u0131. Ku\u015fu i\u00e7eri ald\u0131.<\/p>\n
Son g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131, kapanmadan \u00f6nce pencerenin pervaz\u0131na s\u00fcr\u00fcklendi Ay\u015fe\u2019nin g\u00f6zlerinden.<\/p>\n
Terk edilmek insanlar i\u00e7in de hayvanlar i\u00e7in de \u00e7ok ac\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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