K\u00f6yl\u00fc babalar\u0131n yorgun \u00f6fkesi y\u00fczlerinden okunur. O\u011flan\u0131 buluncaya kadar \u00e7ocuk tela\u015flar\u0131 olur; sonbahar gelinceye kadar t\u00fct\u00fcn, arpa, bu\u011fday, susam\u2026 \u201cMezarda, dinlenmeye vakit \u00e7ok\u201d derler. Sevdi mi tam sever bu adamlar. U\u00e7lar\u0131 ya\u015fatmak gibi huylar\u0131 vard\u0131r kasketli pederlerin. Bir \u00e7\u0131kmazdad\u0131r hepsi. A\u011f\u0131r i\u015f y\u00fck\u00fc ve omuzlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcren sorumluluklar\u2026 Ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f hayaller ve kursakta kalm\u0131\u015f \u00fcmitler\u2026 \u015eansl\u0131 do\u011fmak m\u0131? \u00c7ocuklar g\u00f6zden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lacak kadar \u00e7ok. Bostana, ba\u011fa bah\u00e7eye, eve dama \u0131rgat laz\u0131m. Biri a\u011flamaya g\u00f6rs\u00fcn savrulur kap\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131. Ah nerede \u00f6\u011fretmenin ya da imam\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fu olsalard\u0131 ya. K\u00f6yde ya\u015f\u0131yorsan a\u011fa o\u011flu dahi olsan \u00f6lesiye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fman gerekir. Avu\u00e7lar\u0131n yar\u0131k yar\u0131k, belinde birka\u00e7 f\u0131t\u0131k, ka\u015f\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u00e7izik olmazsa olmaz\u0131d\u0131r adamlar\u0131n. Hele anan baban yoksa kimsenin fazladan bir topak ekme\u011fi yoktur sana vermeye. Bir de\u011fil iki de\u011fil, bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu kim kime tahamm\u00fcl eder ki? Herkesten iki kat fazla \u00e7al\u0131\u015fman gerekti\u011fini kavrat\u0131r hayat, zor da olsa. Kar\u0131n toklu\u011funa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n. Fakat kalbin ve kollar\u0131n bo\u015flu\u011funu dolduracak bir ana, bir y\u00e2r bulamazs\u0131n.
\nY\u0131llar bir atl\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131nda ko\u015far gibi ge\u00e7er. Kim oldu\u011funu anlamas\u0131na f\u0131rsat vermez de \u00f6ks\u00fczl\u00fck kan\u0131na i\u015fler \u00e7ocu\u011fun. Ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na gelirse gelsin yakas\u0131nda as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r.
\nBir aya\u011f\u0131 mangala dayanm\u0131\u015f, dirse\u011finin \u00fcst\u00fcne yaslanm\u0131\u015f a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r t\u00fct\u00fcn sarar adam. Yere yasl\u0131 yanarda\u011f gibi duman\u0131 t\u00fctmeye ba\u015flar. Keyif i\u00e7in de\u011fil ki. Al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k bu. Belki \u00fcretti\u011fi bitkiyi test etme g\u00fcd\u00fcs\u00fc, belki de yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 giderme d\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fc. Bu k\u00f6yde ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131ktan \u00f6lmek olas\u0131d\u0131r da, hen\u00fcz cigaradan \u00f6len olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Ya hasretlik? Neden \u00f6ld\u00fcrmez insan\u0131? Belki i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, k\u00fcle d\u00f6nmeden anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndand\u0131r insan.
\nAk\u015famdan kalma mangalda k\u00fcl b\u0131rakmayan r\u00fczg\u00e2r; sussun art\u0131k! Birazdan onun da i\u00e7ine k\u00f6z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrecek biri\u2026
\nAnal\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r aksak kap\u0131da; \u201ck\u0131z\u0131 \u0130zmir\u2019e gelin edeceklermi\u015f yak\u0131nda.\u201d<\/p>\n
H\u00fcseyinler hep Kerbela\u2019da \u00f6lmez ki! Bu sevdan\u0131n ard\u0131ndan, bir kez daha \u00f6l\u00fcr H\u00fcseyin\u2026
\nBu aralar dokundu\u011fu her \u015fey biraz so\u011fuk. Odan\u0131n s\u00f6nmeye y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f sobas\u0131n\u0131n borular\u0131 da so\u011fuk. So\u011fuk sokaklar zat\u00fcrre olmu\u015f ci\u011fer gibi u\u011fulduyor. \u201cKar, mikroplar\u0131 k\u0131rmaya gelmi\u015f\u201d diyorlar, bu sene k\u0131r\u0131lacak mikrobun kendisi olmas\u0131ndan korkuyor. Bu so\u011fuklar da insanlar gibi; i\u00e7i \u0131s\u0131nmay\u0131nca birine, k\u0131r\u0131p ge\u00e7irmek istiyor.
\nHer an\u0131, her olay ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f say\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131? Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe dair ne varsa ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f saymak en kolay\u0131 olmaz m\u0131..? Mazinin gazete k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131yla birlikte yanmas\u0131n\u0131 seyretmek\u2026 Mektuplar mangalda yanarken; akl\u0131n \u00fccra k\u00f6\u015felerini yakamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemez ki insan. Kalbi yanarken k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131ktan, elde edememekten kin kaplarken ruhunu. Olur da g\u00f6z\u00fcnden devrilecek ya\u015f s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcr yang\u0131n\u0131 diye s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kapat\u0131r g\u00f6zlerini\u2026 Ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f var say\u0131p tavana dikse de bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131; co\u015fmakta olan dalgan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki set y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131verir, sal\u0131n\u0131verir tutsak edilmi\u015f \u00f6zlem\u2026 Y\u00fcre\u011fi yufka ekme\u011fi gibi a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, geni\u015fler. Sevmeme ihtimalini zamana b\u0131rakmak, \u00e7aresizli\u011fin insani olmas\u0131yla alakal\u0131 de\u011fil midir?
\nSevginin kavu\u015fmakla alakal\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamas\u0131 zor de\u011fildir annesiz b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f birinin. Sevmek kalpte ya\u015fatmak de\u011fil midir? Onu ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, nar a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde deli dolu bir k\u0131z g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemi\u015fti, nar\u00e7i\u00e7eklerini k\u0131skand\u0131ran\u2026 Siz hi\u00e7 nar\u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi koklad\u0131n\u0131z m\u0131? Onun kokusu ne \u0131hlamur, ne s\u00fcmb\u00fcl ne de re\u00e7ineye benzer. Rengi kokusunu bast\u0131ran bir \u00e7i\u00e7ektir o. As\u0131l amac\u0131 da \u00e7i\u00e7ek olmak de\u011fildir zaten. K\u0131z\u0131l nar\u0131 patlatmak g\u00f6vdesinden. Ek\u015fi, tatl\u0131 lezzetlere boyayabilmek damaklar\u0131. Peki, siyah beyaz foto\u011frafta nar\u00e7i\u00e7ekleri hangi renktir? Ona siyah beyaz foto\u011frafta bak\u0131yor olsa da k\u0131z\u0131l sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, beyaz gerdan\u0131na dizili \u00e7illerini, yanaklar\u0131nda nar\u00e7i\u00e7ekleri a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f izlenimini hat\u0131rlamas\u0131 \u00e7ok da zor de\u011fildi. \u015eimdi o g\u00fczellik, kitap aras\u0131nda kurutulmu\u015f nar\u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi gibi hayat\u0131n\u0131 ikiye ay\u0131r\u0131yor. Ondan \u00f6ncesi ve sonras\u0131\u2026 Art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin eskisi gibi olmayaca\u011f\u0131 belli.<\/p>\n
Hen\u00fcz kara cam kutuya g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 onca y\u0131l ge\u00e7er. Orta oyunu, masal anlat\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131, bitmek bilmeyen hac yolculuklar\u0131 ve bilmem ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 kez anlat\u0131larak destanla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f askerlik hat\u0131ralar\u0131\u2026 Bir de Eyl\u00fcl ay\u0131n\u0131 takip eden g\u00fcnlerde panay\u0131r havas\u0131nda ge\u00e7en \u0130zmir Fuar\u0131 vard\u0131r.
\nSevdi\u011finin ayn\u0131 havay\u0131 soludu\u011fu \u015fehre ibadethaneye girer gibi girmesi ince ruhundand\u0131r sevenlerin. Sen ya\u015flansan bile, sevgilinin son g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc haliyle ya\u015famas\u0131 olas\u0131d\u0131r zihninde\u2026 \u015eehirden \u00e7\u0131karken de ruhunun atmosfere kar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 yat\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 bir histir. Bedenini s\u00fcr\u00fckleyerek eve d\u00f6nerken, \u00e7aresizli\u011fini kabullenmi\u015f olmak m\u00fcthi\u015f bir rahatl\u0131kt\u0131r. Zaten hayat\u0131n y\u00fczde doksan\u0131 kabullenmek de\u011fil midir?
\nH\u00fcseyin, s\u0131rt\u0131nda av t\u00fcfe\u011fi, \u00f6n\u00fcnde e\u015fe\u011fi kasabadan m\u00fcjdeli haber getirdi\u011fi belli. C\u00f6mert kelimesini zorlayan bir savruklukla; her cuma, \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131da pazarda ne varsa, kat\u0131ra y\u00fckleyip k\u00f6yl\u00fcye ta\u015f\u0131yan adam bu. \u0130nce uzun bedeni belli ki k\u00f6ye uygun yarad\u0131l\u0131\u015fl\u0131 de\u011fil. \u0130lkleri seven merakl\u0131 adam teknolojik reform yapmaya hayli hevesli. \u0130zmir fuar\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc siyah beyaz televizyona tarla h\u00e2s\u0131lat\u0131n\u0131 yat\u0131rarak k\u00f6yl\u00fcy\u00fc \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtmay\u0131 ba\u015faraca\u011f\u0131 kesin de, han\u0131m\u0131ndan yiyece\u011fi z\u0131lg\u0131t\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015f olacak ki i\u00e7i rahat… Uzunca bir s\u00fcre televizyondakilerin de onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckleri i\u00e7in bayraml\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 giyip ge\u00e7erler kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na. At\u0131k, k\u0131\u015f gecelerinde; sobal\u0131 tek g\u00f6z odaya istiflenen ahalinin, ak\u015fam a\u011f\u0131rlanan misafir nefesiyle \u0131s\u0131t\u0131lm\u0131\u015f a\u011f\u0131r kokulu uykular\u0131 vard\u0131r, r\u00fcyalar\u0131 \u015fenlikli\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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