{"id":9087,"date":"2019-03-01T00:00:31","date_gmt":"2019-02-28T22:00:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=9087"},"modified":"2019-03-01T00:00:31","modified_gmt":"2019-02-28T22:00:31","slug":"sayiklamalar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=9087","title":{"rendered":"Say\u0131klamalar"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>B\u00f6l\u00fcnecek suretin aynada. Boynunda o eski sardunya, o s\u00fcsl\u00fc \u0130brani Harfleri; kuyu kadar g\u00fczel, s\u0131zlayan bir \u00e7ift meme gibi, gece yar\u0131s\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p>Geni\u015fleyecek anlam\u0131n.<br \/>\n(Y\u0131rt\u0131lan taraf\u0131nda k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n\u2026)<br \/>\nAd\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyece\u011fim sana koro \u00e7ocuklar\u0131yla. S\u0131cac\u0131ks\u0131n paltomun alt\u0131nda.<br \/>\nMora d\u00f6necek duda\u011f\u0131ndaki u\u00e7uk hazdan yorulunca. Yanacak y\u00fcz\u00fcn sonra, d\u00f6k\u00fclecek usulca. \u00dcz\u00fclece\u011fim pek az dara\u011fac\u0131 diktim diye senin ad\u0131na. \u0130pleri kopacak \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn. Cebrail inecek ku\u015flara.<\/p>\n<p>Da\u011f\u0131lsan \u015fimdi \u00fczerime, m\u00fcrekkep olsan\u2026 \u00c7izsem susman\u0131 ge\u00e7ip giden bir faytonun kenar\u0131na, s\u00f6k\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc diksem ete\u011finin\u2026 \u015eeker kokar\u0131m belki. Belki begonya.<\/p>\n<p>Sarma\u015f\u0131k b\u00fcy\u00fct sen kal\u0131n odalarda. Hi\u00e7 \u00f6p\u00fclmemi\u015f olacaks\u0131n yery\u00fcz\u00fc yok olunca.<br \/>\nSenin hayalindir o ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n parmaklar\u0131yla mandolin \u00e7alan. Biraz daha k\u0131r\u0131lsam ben, \u0131rk de\u011fi\u015ftirecek sanki a\u011fz\u0131mdaki zenci ten. K\u0131r\u0131lsam biraz daha, s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacak \u015fehirler k\u00f6rfez u\u00e7lar\u0131na. Y\u0131k\u0131lacak asma k\u00f6pr\u00fcler\u2026<br \/>\nVe duas\u0131z kalacak katedral kubbeleri. \u015earapnel s\u0131\u00e7rayacak nak\u0131\u015fl\u0131 limanlara. \u00dcz\u00fclece\u011fim pek az vuruldum diye senin ad\u0131na. \u00dcz\u00fclece\u011fim aln\u0131mdaki utan\u00e7la.<\/p>\n<p>B\u00fct\u00fcn gece kirletece\u011fim seni, yapra\u011f\u0131n suya de\u011fmesi gibi.<br \/>\nB\u00fct\u00fcn gece, yarat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ilk sevgi ile\u2026<br \/>\nTefrika romanlar okuyaca\u011f\u0131m sana. \u00c7i\u00e7ekler ya\u011facak yast\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki define \u00e7ukuruna.<br \/>\nAh benim k\u00e2\u011f\u0131ttan g\u00f6mle\u011fim! Viranem ol. Ve mahallemdeki kanayan \u00e7e\u015fmem\u2026 Ve topra\u011f\u0131m\u0131n nabz\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>II<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Alegorik bir yan\u0131n var senin. \u0130smin Nasra. S\u00fcryani miydin yoksa? Ya da kabartma bir yontu bakireler diyar\u0131nda.<br \/>\nAte\u015f miydi yanan kasaba tiyatrolar\u0131nda. Dokunduk sa\u00e7aklara, ya\u011fmur olduk. Su satt\u0131k atl\u0131kar\u0131ncalara. Ayak \u00fccreti \u00f6dedik hayata.<br \/>\nKap\u0131 aralar\u0131na b\u0131rak sen t\u00fcm bildirileri. Korsan\u0131z nas\u0131l olsa. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce de\u011filiz. Eylem ya da duygu\u2026 Par\u00e7alanmaz ruhumuz. Da\u011f\u0131lmaz etrafa.<\/p>\n<p>Az sonra sesin ula\u015facak y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f bir kablonun ucunda. Zaman d\u0131\u015f\u0131 olacak her \u015fey az sonra. Simak Burcu do\u011facak \u00e7ocuklar. Meteorlar ya\u011facak kutuplar\u0131ma. Ve ilikleyece\u011fim kendimi Buzul \u00c7a\u011f\u0131\u2019ndan kalma bir yaraya \u00f6yle derin, savruk ve tenha. Sonra limon dilimleri basaca\u011f\u0131m ac\u0131yan yerlerime. Kendini ka\u015f\u0131y\u0131p kanatan bir \u015fiir misali, eklem yerlerimden tutunaca\u011f\u0131m sana.<\/p>\n<p><strong>III<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sustum, itaat ettim. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcler tabutumu omuzlar\u0131ndan. Abdestsizdiler\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130z b\u0131rakmad\u0131 \u015f\u0131r\u0131ngalar bedenimde. H\u00fczn\u00fc vurdum kendime.<br \/>\nHayra yor beni, lekeli bir arzu gibi. Duvardaki tebess\u00fcm kadar yaln\u0131z\u0131m. Man\u015fetteki katiller kadar\u2026<br \/>\nGel i\u015fte, bir aral\u0131k s\u0131z\u0131ver kuzeydeki \u00fclkeme.<br \/>\nKehanetinle gel. Donanmas\u0131 yok olan bir amiral gibi, \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fma \u00f6ncesi.<br \/>\nHem fail ol hem maktul. Hem ak\u0131\u015f hem de darbe.<br \/>\n\u00c7aykovski \u00e7al bana g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez bir piyanoyla. Yumruk at hadi y\u00fcz\u00fcmdeki morfin m\u00fcptelas\u0131na.<br \/>\nCismim ne? S\u00fck\u00fbnetim: Yetim bir yerim\u2026<br \/>\nGel i\u015fte ba\u015f\u0131ndaki Nas\u0131ra \u00d6rt\u00fcs\u00fc\u2019yle. Daha m\u0131 adil olacak d\u00fcnya \u2018reformist\u2019 d\u00f6nemlerde? Sans\u00fcrlenecek miyiz hep birlikte?<\/p>\n<p>(Mim koy \u00fczerime dindar ellerinle. Geri tepme etkisi bu: duygusal durum bozuklu\u011fu.)<\/p>\n<p><strong>IV<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u2026<br \/>\nU\u00e7urtmayd\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131 kat\u0131ma s\u00fcz\u00fclen. Kuyru\u011funa kas\u0131rga de\u011fmi\u015f bir u\u00e7urtma\u2026 \u00c7it ser\u00e7esiydim ben posta kutusunda.<br \/>\nSu dalgas\u0131 kopard\u0131m sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan. A\u011flad\u0131m g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f kad\u0131nlar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan. Yer kaplad\u0131m bo\u015flukta, kuantum tuhafl\u0131klar\u0131yla.<br \/>\nBa\u011f\u0131ml\u0131 m\u0131y\u0131m anne ben, a\u011f\u0131r yaral\u0131 \u00f6yk\u00fclere? Zencefil s\u00fcrsen \u015fakaklar\u0131ma, havlu koysan s\u0131rt\u0131ma\u2026<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ilek aromas\u0131 bula\u015ft\u0131 Ay\u2019daki kraterine. Ne g\u00fczeldi f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131na cepheden bakmak.<br \/>\nDola\u015ft\u0131m m\u00fczeni, \u00fcst\u00fcne kuma geleni. Terk etmedi insanl\u0131k duygum beni.<br \/>\nMola yerlerinde unuttum seni. Yorgun insanlar biriktirdim i\u00e7imde imzas\u0131z mektuplar gibi.<br \/>\nKim s\u00f6kt\u00fc y\u00fcr\u00fcnmemi\u015f kald\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131? Kimin sanc\u0131s\u0131 bu k\u00e2fur gibi beyaz?<br \/>\nYat\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir otel odas\u0131yd\u0131n sen. Kalbimde o yersiz rutubet, g\u00f6vdemin bir yar\u0131s\u0131, tuvalimdeki renk\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>V<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>T\u00fcm \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Masumiyet mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kollar\u0131n\u2026 \u0130\u00e7imden ge\u00e7 hadi, cinsel organlar\u0131na tapan kad\u0131nlar\u0131 gibi.<\/p>\n<p>Perdesizdi pencere \u00f6nleri. Sarho\u015f muydu baban, yeni kalkm\u0131\u015f kumardan.<br \/>\nNeydi kaybetti\u011fi? Ceketinde saklad\u0131 seni. Tutsam b\u00fcy\u00fcn bozulacak sanki. Tutsam dili s\u00fcr\u00e7ecek pavyonlar\u0131n.<br \/>\nAnkara buras\u0131 Balat de\u011fil. Cebeci, batakhane \u015fehri\u2026 Genzimi yak\u0131p ge\u00e7en sen misin yoksa? B\u00fct\u00fcn o yollarda, b\u00fct\u00fcn o pervas\u0131z eskimelerin ard\u0131nda, ard\u0131nda senin.<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131z kas\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile \u00e7o\u011falan bir d\u00fcnya buras\u0131. Unut art\u0131k telgraf direklerini. Vazodaki yaseminleri unut.<br \/>\nSa\u00e7 l\u00fclesinden sokaklar yapt\u0131m sana. Pompei Ta\u015f\u0131\u2019ndan kulakmemeleri.<br \/>\nTespihb\u00f6cekleri getir bana. Biblolar getir.<\/p>\n<p>(B\u0131rak patiklerini. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcrken de g\u00fczel ayaklar\u0131n.<br \/>\nS\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 daya kanepeme, sigarandaki \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle.<br \/>\nV\u00fccudumu ver bana. Y\u00fckt\u00fcr ya\u015famak ba\u015fucunda.<br \/>\nEkmek b\u0131rakal\u0131m hadi yoksullar\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131na. Ve Kom\u00fcnist Manifesto en temiz sayfalar\u0131yla.<br \/>\nTemize \u00e7ek not defterimi. \u00c7\u00fcr\u00fcyecek m\u00fclteci y\u00fckl\u00fc \u015fileplerin g\u00fcvertesi.)<\/p>\n<p><strong>VI<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Tebe\u015fir tozu i\u00e7sem biraz. Saklansam elbise dolab\u0131nda\u2026 Dokunsam h\u0131rkandaki g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131na\u2026 Mucize bulurum belki. Belki de bir Latin \u015eiiri.<\/p>\n<p>Sokul bana \u00e7i\u00e7ek toplar gibi bah\u00e7elerden. Oyuncaklar\u0131m olmad\u0131 ki benim. Gizli ge\u00e7itlerim, sihirli k\u00fcrelerim olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ok seslidir a\u011f\u0131tlar. \u00c7ok m\u0131sral\u0131 tutulmam\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn yaslar.<br \/>\nBa\u011fnazd\u0131r t\u00fcm\u00f6r rahim a\u011fz\u0131nda. S\u00fct s\u0131zar hastane \u00e7ar\u015faflar\u0131na.<br \/>\nZ\u00fchrevi bir an\u2019d\u0131n sen. M\u00fcstehcen bir an\u2026<br \/>\nNe yapabilirdim ki ayak\u00fcst\u00fc seviyordu seni herkes. El testeresiyle oyulan bir \u015fekildin sanki. Mistik bir \u00c7in Kutusu masa\u00fcst\u00fcnde. Ya da haf\u0131za kayb\u0131, sersemlik hissi\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Kim \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr aynadaki y\u00fcz\u00fcyle? Sar\u0131p sarmala beni. Kalamam ben kendimle. Yer\u00e7ekimsiz bir zaman\u0131 enjekte ettim en diri yerime. Sokul bana t\u00f6rp\u00fclenmi\u015f t\u0131rnaklar\u0131nla. \u00c7er\u00e7evesiz foto\u011fraflar gibiyim ben. Uzak adamlar gibi.<\/p>\n<p><strong>VII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Kavuksuzdu ortaoyunlar\u0131. Kimse i\u015flemedi k\u00f6\u015fesini mendillerin. \u00c7a\u011f m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirecekti harem duvarlar\u0131? Barok\u00e7a edilecekti b\u00fct\u00fcn dualar.<br \/>\nNeydi fani olan; g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f kandillerle ayd\u0131nlat\u0131lan atlas yorganlar, y\u00fcz\u00fck ta\u015flar\u0131, \u00e7ello \u00e7alan had\u0131ml\u0131klar, han\u0131m sultanlar\u2026<br \/>\nK\u00f6rd\u00fc dilsiz cell\u00e2tlar. Hangi cariyenin ba\u015f\u0131yd\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fen? \u2018Belk\u0131s\u2019 m\u0131yd\u0131 zevale y\u00fcz tutup bi\u00e7are giden?<\/p>\n<p>(\u0130ncindi zaman. A\u015fk yasak\u2026<br \/>\nKa\u00e7 Galyal\u0131 g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc uzuvlar\u0131n\u0131zda? Ka\u00e7 \u0130spanyol G\u00fczeli?)<\/p>\n<p>Sen g\u00fcl\u00fcnce daha da g\u00fczelle\u015fir odal\u0131klar.<br \/>\nG\u00fcl\u00fcnce sen, de\u011fi\u015fir payitaht ve o\u011flanlar.<\/p>\n<p><strong>VIII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yar\u0131s\u0131 kustu\u011fun hecenin\u2026 Bir dura\u011f\u0131n tam ortas\u0131&#8230; Tekmelenmi\u015f bir h\u00fccre kap\u0131s\u0131 belki de i\u00e7imde o Filistin \u015eark\u0131s\u0131, o e\u015fsiz a\u011fr\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ntihar\u0131 an\u0131msat\u0131r bana kom\u015fu terlikleri. Sonra \u015fark trenleri, okunmam\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6ns\u00f6zler, b\u00fct\u00fcn ayak izleri; gideni an\u0131msat\u0131r. Gidip de d\u00f6nmeyeni.<\/p>\n<p>Yok art\u0131k k\u00f6rebe oynayarak \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fan \u00e7ocuklar. Sat\u0131ld\u0131 sek sek ta\u015flar\u0131 sokaklar\u0131n. Kurulmad\u0131 sal\u0131ncaklar a\u011fa\u00e7 dallar\u0131na. Ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131 kimse ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026<br \/>\nRecmedilmeden \u00f6nceydi. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p gitmeden \u00f6nce\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Elma m\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcn bileklerine? Kapat art\u0131k \u00e7ekmeceleri. B\u0131\u00e7ak yaras\u0131d\u0131r bu karn\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcyen. Sev beni minder y\u00fczleriyle. Sev beni di\u015flerine susam bula\u015fm\u0131\u015f mart\u0131lar\u0131n sesleriyle.<\/p>\n<p><strong>XI<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sana kar\u015f\u0131 de\u011filim. Duyu ya da anlam nesnesiyim.<br \/>\nAkdeniz Erkekleri vard\u0131 kollar\u0131nda. Yan etkisi y\u00fcksek s\u00f6zc\u00fckler dipnotta.<br \/>\nThales\u2019le ba\u015flad\u0131 m\u00fczik: \u2018her \u015feyin ba\u015f\u0131 su\u2019 Her \u015fey devinim yoklu\u011fu\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Kaskat\u0131, dimdik uzayacak sakallar\u0131m. H\u0131zlanacak nabz\u0131m.<br \/>\nProletarya, buseni ver bana.<br \/>\nKim bu n\u00f6rolojist? Hangi hakla onaylad\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015fimi?<br \/>\nBacaklar\u0131m hantal benim. Ya\u015famdan sonraki cans\u0131zl\u0131k gibiyim.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026<br \/>\nBa\u015fka cinse ge\u00e7tim. Sa\u011fanak yedim.<br \/>\n\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>X<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yanacak deli fenerleri, tap\u0131naks\u0131z kayal\u0131klara \u00e7arparak. Mercan adalar\u0131nda kilden piramitler, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm bah\u00e7eleri, yaban pelikanlar\u0131 bir de, prafan iskeleler, manast\u0131r anar\u015fizmi: kesif, makul bir koku: r\u00fcya\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Uyan! Bildi\u011fin gibi de\u011fil \u2018\u015fimdiki zaman\u2019. Din de\u011fi\u015ftirdi Katolik \u00c7anlar\u0131. Ayn\u0131 yery\u00fcz\u00fc de\u011fil buras\u0131. Fuhu\u015ftur bu aynal\u0131 \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131. Bu kal\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u00fc k\u0131zlar, b\u00fcy\u00fck beden \u00e7o\u011fu zaman. \u00c7o\u011fu zaman Nudist, Paganist\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Monologsuzdu nakka\u015flar. Feylesoflar Berzah.<br \/>\nUcuz jartiyerli rahibeler gibi, korku, r\u00fcya\u2026 Uyan!<\/p>\n<p>(G\u00fcn do\u011facak birazdan, yast\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki o define \u00e7ukurundan.)<\/p>\n<p>Yass\u0131 bir yol anlat\u0131s\u0131 bu kekeme say\u0131klamalar. \u0130\u00e7inde bir yerlerde soluksuz bekliyorum. Ke\u015ffet beni, ayk\u0131r\u0131 bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce su\u00e7u gibi.<br \/>\n\u0130nsand\u0131m vaktiyle, yasaklanmadan \u00f6nce. Giy beni \u00fczerine, yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131r kendine.<\/p>\n<p><strong>XI<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sava\u015fmadan \u00f6ld\u00fck. Vebal\u0131yken ve ink\u00e2r ederken putlar\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nEnd\u00fcl\u00fcs\u2019ten beri vard\u0131k. \u015eit\u2019ten beri\u2026 Ebcet hesab\u0131yd\u0131k. K\u00e2hin ya da deli\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Kad\u0131nlar gelecek g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bilezikleriyle. Kandaharl\u0131 kad\u0131nlar. \u00c7ingene gibi g\u00fczelle\u015feceksin sen giyotinde.<br \/>\nK\u0131r \u015fimdi m\u00fccevherlerini. Malta Ta\u015f\u0131 getirdim sana. A\u015ferersin diye mimoza getirdim.<\/p>\n<p>Hayaletler taburudur insan. \u00d6ylesine bir h\u00e2ldir s\u00fcrer usumda. Kendiyle sava\u015fan ve kendini bat\u0131k bir gemiye zincirleyen ben; ac\u0131n\u0131n ilk h\u00e2li, daralan bir an, giderek eroinle\u015fen, giderek k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclen bir enkaz ya\u011fmac\u0131s\u0131 sanki.<br \/>\nToprak yiyen bir birle\u015fme bizimkisi; ben, sen, o\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Yabanc\u0131d\u0131r bu kent sana, bana ve \u00f6teki sana. Kar ya\u011facak az sonra, ili\u015fkimizdeki teslis inanc\u0131na. Yolma zambaklar\u0131 bo\u015funa. \u015eizofren mevsimidir bu; esrarengiz fanteziler \u00fcslubu\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Yoruldum. Ka\u00e7 kap\u0131 kapand\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme? Ka\u00e7 nehir indi i\u00e7imdeki denize? Kulampara bir pi\u00e7 gibi y\u00fcr\u00fcyor yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fczerime. Mungan\u2019\u0131n Ulsangeymas\u0131 olsan, hayal olsan\u2026<\/p>\n<p>(S\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcn g\u00f6steri\u015fli avizeleri. Atlay\u0131n y\u00fcksek bir \u015felaleden. Golyat olun Davud i\u00e7in. \u0130sa i\u00e7in Levitasyon\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131r mal de\u011fil zihnim. \u00c7ocuk masallar\u0131ndaki yarat\u0131klar gibiyim. Bunakl\u0131k h\u00e2lim bu benim. Sald\u0131rgan bir etkiyim.<br \/>\nSen, g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n arka y\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u00f6m beni Soranice bir leh\u00e7ede. G\u00f6m beni derg\u00e2hs\u0131z dervi\u015flerin kabrine\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>XII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Berlin\u2019de bir terzi salonunda as\u0131l\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. Bir toplu i\u011fnenin ucunda yapayaln\u0131z\u2026 Sonra meyhanede kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k. Sol k\u00f6\u015fede Ermeni Pakrat. T\u0131rnaklar\u0131 kir pas i\u00e7inde.<br \/>\nCin, votka, rom\u2026 Ne varsa ceplerinde. Ne varsa destanlara ait: yanl\u0131\u015f bir co\u011frafyada s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f s\u00f6zc\u00fckler, sana dair.<\/p>\n<p>Sevmezdin Laternac\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131. Lepral\u0131yd\u0131n. Kirece benziyordun. \u201cBen duymam\u201d dedin. Oysa seslerin h\u00fczn\u00fc yoktu, bilmiyordun.<\/p>\n<p>Berlin\u2019de bir terzi salonunda as\u0131l\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. Y\u0131rt\u0131k bir kuma\u015f\u0131n \u00e7izgilerinde yapayaln\u0131z\u2026 Sonra y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck beraber. Dar bir soka\u011f\u0131n d\u00fc\u015flerine girdik. Sonra sen durdun: \u201c\u00f6lmek istiyorum\u201d dedin. Ben sokakt\u0131m; y\u00fczlerce cinayete tan\u0131kl\u0131k etmi\u015f\u2026 Sonra \u201cah\u201d dedim. \u201cNe kadar da kabay\u0131m. En g\u00fczel \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ona ya\u015fatmal\u0131y\u0131m. Sevi\u015firken \u00f6lmeli.\u201d<\/p>\n<p><strong>XIII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>O,<br \/>\nSen de\u011fildin. Cebeci buras\u0131, batakhane \u015fehri\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I B\u00f6l\u00fcnecek suretin aynada. 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