Asl\u0131nda Siyah G\u00fcl\u00fcm,<\/p>\n
Bu hayat\u0131n ad\u0131 \u2018bekleyi\u015f\u2019 diye de\u011fi\u015ftirilmeli.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu susturamayanlar, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z sevilen duygular, s\u00f6ylenemeyen s\u00f6zler, tamamlanmay\u0131 bekleyen sat\u0131rlar, yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f sevgiler, \u00f6ks\u00fcz kalm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcrekler; hep bir bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n
Hayat diye ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her \u015fey, \u201celbet bir g\u00fcn\u201d diye i\u00e7imizde b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz umutlar, bir bekleyi\u015ften ibaret de\u011fil miydi?<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 b\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir yorgunlukla, sat\u0131rlar aras\u0131ndan \u201celbet bir g\u00fcn\u201d sesini duyma \u00fcmidiyle \u00f6m\u00fcr t\u00fcketmek, bir bekleyi\u015ften ibaret de\u011fil miydi?<\/p>\n
Bitirdi\u011fimiz bekleyi\u015flerin bile bir bekleyi\u015fi vard\u0131. Hakk\u0131m\u0131zda yaz\u0131lan\u0131, Rabbimizin emrini bekledik, bekliyoruz. Hayata bekleyi\u015f diyebilmeyi seninle \u00f6\u011frendim siyah g\u00fcl\u00fcm. Bir bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn bir nefes kadar bereketli olmas\u0131 dile\u011fiyle…<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00f6yle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze gelmeli seninle, hi\u00e7 b\u0131kmadan, yorulmadan dal\u0131p dal\u0131p gitmeli.<\/p>\n
Doya doya seyretmeliyim seni, sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan kirpiklerine kadar, doya doya…<\/p>\n
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015famal\u0131y\u0131m sonsuz bir sevgiyle, k\u0131yamadan.<\/p>\n
Hasret ile sevgiyi s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu \u00f6mr\u00fcnde \u015f\u00f6yle i\u00e7ime \u00e7eke \u00e7eke koklamal\u0131y\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u00d6zlemimi anlatmal\u0131y\u0131m. \u00d6zlemek \u00f6yle anlatmakla da ge\u00e7mez ki. Sen sard\u0131k\u00e7a nefesim kesilmeli, kendimi kaybetmeliyim, g\u00f6zlerim d\u00f6nmeli.<\/p>\n
Sonra arkadan \u015fark\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7al\u0131nmal\u0131, m\u0131r\u0131ldanmal\u0131y\u0131z notalar\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n
Ah karam benim\u2026<\/p>\n
\u0130nat etmi\u015f gibi ge\u00e7miyor zaman ama her nefeste ci\u011ferlerime sen \u00e7ekerken, kapat\u0131nca g\u00f6zlerimi geceye sen d\u00fc\u015ferken, g\u00fclerken kaybolan g\u00f6zlerinde ben kaybolurken, o g\u00fczel y\u00fcre\u011finde yer kurmu\u015fken; g\u00fcne\u015f bat\u0131dan do\u011fsa ne olur!<\/p>\n
Seninle sevmeliyim, seninle \u00f6zlemeliyim bizi. Gayr\u0131s\u0131 umurumda de\u011fil…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Asl\u0131nda Siyah G\u00fcl\u00fcm, Bu hayat\u0131n ad\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":157,"featured_media":8985,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[53,64],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8976"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/157"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8976"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8976\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8976"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8976"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8976"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}