oturur. Za<\/a>man\u0131 gelmi\u015f veya ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman ne fark eder ac\u0131, her vakitte gitmeye geldi\u011fimiz \u015fu diyar neden iki kap\u0131l\u0131 hand\u0131? \u201cVakti zaman\u0131 eri\u015fince \u00e7ekip gidebilmek i\u00e7in\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 i\u00e7inden.<\/p>\nS\u00f6z uzar, uzard\u0131 elbette.<\/p>\n
Kelimeler zamans\u0131z\u00a0yaralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 sarm\u0131yor, kabuk ba\u011flad\u0131 bahar d\u00fc\u015flerimize\u00a0 nicedir.<\/p>\n
Derken i\u00e7inde kimsesiz bunca ac\u0131n\u0131n gizini hissetti, \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun kap\u0131 \u00f6nlerinde kimsesiz yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f oyunlar\u0131, yuvas\u0131n\u0131 bozdu\u011fu kar\u0131ncalar\u0131n \u00e2h\u0131 gibiydi i\u015fte. Yahut sokak kedilerinin \u00fcst\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131 kir pas i\u00e7inde \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fckte buldu\u011fu k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 kadar nasibini alamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 hayattan.
\nBir de nem ve rutubetli odalar\u0131 vard\u0131 gen\u00e7li\u011finin, genzini yak\u0131yordu an\u0131msay\u0131nca; yere en yak\u0131n evlerde ya\u015fan\u0131lan ke\u015fmeke\u015f garipli\u011fiydi bu…
\nHissetti, ta i\u00e7inde ak\u015fam\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fc\u015f\u00fc gibi yoklu\u011fun kederini, beslenme \u00e7antas\u0131ndaki kat\u0131ks\u0131z ekmekler kadard\u0131 yery\u00fcz\u00fc onun i\u00e7in…<\/p>\n
S\u00f6z u\u00e7ar, u\u00e7abilirdi elbette. Kelimeler han\u00e7er olup saplan\u0131yordu kalbinin iyi niyetli ya\u015fama sevdas\u0131na.<\/p>\n
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‘Kaleme ve sat\u0131r sat\u0131r yazd\u0131klar\u0131na yemin…’<\/p>\n
\u015eiirin tam kalbinden sesleniyorum d\u00fcnyaya; bu Nun noktas\u0131n\u0131 sen diktiydin tam orta yerinde y\u00fcrekevimize\u00a0 y\u0131llar evvel; \u015fiirler sulad\u0131, g\u00f6n\u00fcl bu ya ku\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, y\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 kanad\u0131na k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc tak\u0131p da sinemize bat\u0131rd\u0131, benzer yaralar ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131.
\nEski t\u00fcllerden gelinlik bi\u00e7ip fincanlarda olmayan \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7edurduk, yoklu\u011fun veresiye defterine yazd\u0131rd\u0131k \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzu, yine de satan olmad\u0131.
\nDivan altlar\u0131nda da yoktu, \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7 baharlar ku\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuz, kap\u0131 ard\u0131nda da…
\nKap\u0131lar ard\u0131na kadar aral\u0131k olsa da en b\u00fcy\u00fck ger\u00e7e\u011fi saklayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z a\u015fik\u00e2r. Bulunmaz Hint kuma\u015f\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, yeri yurdu olmayan benli\u011fimiz d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla \u00f6rt\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu, aldanan biz miydik bahar m\u0131yd\u0131? \u00c7i\u00e7ekli \u015fiirlerin a\u00e7mas\u0131na m\u00fcsebbip \u00e7okomel k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum gibi kitap aralar\u0131nda ben de biriktirdim, par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6z kama\u015ft\u0131rs\u0131n istedim; baht\u0131m\u0131n y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131, annemin g\u00f6zlerinde kay\u0131p gitmeden az evvel…
\nAnneler k\u0131zlar\u0131na baht \u00f6r\u00fcp sakl\u0131yorlar bembeyaz etaminlerle, \u00e7eyiz sand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n yazg\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7 veriyorlar, i\u015fte o vakit \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fumuzda \u00e7ikolata kokan \u015fiirler geliyor akl\u0131ma.<\/p>\n
Bir de deniz kabu\u011funu doldurmayan d\u00fc\u015fler var d\u00fcnyada, Nun noktas\u0131 onlar; ekilip bi\u00e7ilecek ruhumuzun yenilenmeye y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f d\u00fc\u015flerine…
\nG\u00f6n\u00fcl ku\u015fumuzun kanad\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00f6z etmeye s\u0131ra bile gelmiyor. Hepimiz beklemek \u00fczerine s\u0131nanm\u0131\u015f sorularla dolu, kapa\u011f\u0131 yaln\u0131zl\u0131k \u00fczerine bas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, kal\u0131n cildi bozulmaya y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f, beklerken tozlanm\u0131\u015f ve d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en \u00fccra raflar\u0131na \u00f6zenle yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015fiz.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
S\u00f6z u\u00e7ar; yaz\u0131lar kals\u0131n, muallakta bir…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":149,"featured_media":8991,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8963"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/149"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8963"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8963\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8963"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8963"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8963"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}