Halimiz itten beter, keyfimiz hi\u00e7 yok.<\/p>\n
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Her sabah daha ac\u0131 bir sabaha uyanman\u0131n verdi\u011fi yorgunluktan daha yorucu olan bir \u015fey varsa o da hep daha ac\u0131 bir geceye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncenin zifirinde, acziyetin en koyu haliyle dalmakt\u0131r.
\nHi\u00e7 bir dilde bulunmayan ac\u0131 s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerinin olu\u015fturdu\u011fu c\u00fcmlelerden kuruludur d\u00fczenimiz. Korkunun ve \u00f6fkenin kollar\u0131nday\u0131z ve fildi\u015fi kulelerimiz dahi yang\u0131n kulelerine d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fken, \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rman\u0131n kendine has sessizli\u011findeyiz. Sessizli\u011fimiz imdat \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131yla bezenmi\u015ftir. Her d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz k\u00f6\u015fede,\u00a0 cellatlar ellerinde fermanlarla beklemektedir. Kanun h\u00fckm\u00fcnde ya\u015fan\u0131r t\u00fcm \u00f6l\u00fcmler. Ve kanun h\u00fckm\u00fcnde \u00f6l\u00fcr her can.<\/p>\n
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Anlatabilsem bile anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdan \u015f\u00fcphe etti\u011fim ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131 yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fabiliyorum sadece. Kimsenin kimseyi dinlemeye mecali yokken, kimsenin kimseyi anlamaya niyeti de olmaz.
\n‘Seni o kadar iyi anl\u0131yorum ki’ diye ba\u015flayan sahte kal\u0131plardan ba\u015fka c\u00fcmleler kalmad\u0131 elimizde. Koklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m tek \u015fey plastik \u00e7i\u00e7ekler. Ba\u015frollerini oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z a\u011f\u0131r bir trajedi filminde kahkaha atmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz. Ne abs\u00fcrt, ne sa\u00e7ma, ne ahmak\u00e7a…<\/p>\n
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Yorgunum, yorgunlu\u011fum dinmeyecek. \u0130\u00e7imde d\u00f6v\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm sanc\u0131lar var. Kazanan benim ac\u0131m, kaybeden bizim ac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z. Kendi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 dahi ba\u015fka b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131lardan daha fazla \u015fiddetli ya\u015f\u0131yorum. Bunda dahi bencilken, sosyal sorunlar, toplumsal duyarlar hakk\u0131nda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m her harfin ikiy\u00fczl\u00fc olu\u015funun bilincindeyim. Olsun. G\u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 insanlara g\u00fclmeyecek kadar insan kalabilmek de bir meziyet g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczce. Tecav\u00fczlerin, \u00f6l\u00fcmlerin, haks\u0131zl\u0131klar\u0131n, iltimaslar\u0131n g\u0131rla gitti\u011fi bir \u00e7a\u011fda, yani hayvanlar\u0131n zevk u\u011fruna \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bu zamanda, yani toplumun kendi gibi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyen herkesi hor ve hakir g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015fu anda ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131na ev sahipli\u011fi yapmak erdemdir. De\u011fil mi?<\/p>\n
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Babas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, ad\u0131n\u0131 dahi bilmeyen Suriyeli k\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin dolmas\u0131yla i\u00e7imde kopan tufanlar\u0131 nas\u0131l anlatay\u0131m size bilmiyorum. Toprak i\u00e7inde h\u0131rpalanm\u0131\u015f o tecav\u00fcze u\u011frayan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l kaz\u0131yabilirim ki akl\u0131mdan. So\u011fuk sularda bo\u011fulan minik bedenleri nas\u0131l unutabilirim.
\nHastal\u0131kl\u0131 bir toplumun koku\u015fmu\u015f ruhlar\u0131yla devam ediyor nefes al\u0131p verme eylemimiz.
\nYa\u015famak denilirse,\u00a0 ya\u015f\u0131yoruz ama ya\u015famak denilmez buna. Benden \u00e7ok daha canl\u0131 hisseden \u00f6l\u00fcler oldu\u011funa eminim. Savunmas\u0131z olan ne varsa kirletiliyor karanl\u0131k arzularla. Ne 5 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu muaf bundan ne de 3 ayl\u0131k bir yavru kedi. Durumun vahametini, \u00fcmidimin ahvalinden anlay\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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Cehalet mutluluktur. Bilmemek huzurdur. Nas\u0131l? Sahte, ahlaks\u0131z bir huzur.
\nOnca yang\u0131n i\u00e7inde nas\u0131l ferah olabilir insan? Onca a\u011f\u0131ta nas\u0131l sa\u011f\u0131r kalabilir..?
\nNas\u0131l g\u00f6rmez olabilir solunda kalp ta\u015f\u0131yanlar, sa\u011f\u0131nda a\u011flayanlar\u0131… Gayet de olabiliyor.
\nGayzdan k\u00f6r olanlar, nefrete gark olanlar, \u015feytana ilhak olanlar gayet k\u00f6r, sa\u011f\u0131r ve mutlu olabilir. Oluyor.<\/p>\n
Siz t\u00fcm zalimler; cehennemde ba\u015far\u0131lar diliyorum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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