G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc parampar\u00e7a bug\u00fcn, ya\u011fmura doymuyor \u015fehirler, g\u00f6zlerim de d\u00e2hil her yer s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam. \u00d6yle bir hayat ya\u015f\u0131yorum ki bir yakas\u0131 kirlense \u00f6b\u00fcr yakas\u0131 temiz kalam\u0131yor. Y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131 m\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc tavan\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcyor \u00fczerime. Ge\u00e7 de olsa anlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131lar, bizim sevgimizin de kederimizin de dozaj\u0131 yok h\u00e2kim bey\u2026<\/p>\n
Bilmiyorum i\u015fte, hesap kitap yaparak sevmeyi bilmiyorum. G\u00f6zlerim k\u00f6r olur mu diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden a\u011flamay\u0131 seviyorum, kalbim duracak olsa da g\u00f6zlerinin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na var\u0131p ellerimin titremesine a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m ben. Hep yoku\u015f \u00e7\u0131ksam da olur, y\u00e2rin ufkuna kilitlenmi\u015fim gayr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmez ki g\u00f6zlerim\u2026<\/p>\n
Sevda dedikleri \u015fey bahar bulutu gibi, kavurucu yaz s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda g\u00fcne\u015f seni yakmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda tepende efil efil esen r\u00fczg\u00e2r gibi, i\u00e7indeki ya\u015fama sevinci gibi\u2026<\/p>\n
Mesela sen ilkokul \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131nda sevdaland\u0131n m\u0131? Ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda akranlar\u0131n camdan soka\u011f\u0131 seyrederken, sen hi\u00e7 sevdi\u011fin \u0131slan\u0131p hasta oldu diye h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011flad\u0131n m\u0131?<\/p>\n
Ya da sen hi\u00e7 vapur k\u0131y\u0131ya varmadan atlamay\u0131 denedin mi iskeleye? Ben sevdi\u011fimin g\u00f6zlerinden k\u00f6r kuyulara d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm kirpiklerine varamadan\u2026<\/p>\n
Ad\u0131na sevda diyorlar ama bir ka\u015f\u0131k suda bo\u011fulmak kadar zor bir \u015fey. O gelip seni buldu\u011funda ne kadar \u00f6nlem al\u0131rsan al y\u00f6r\u00fcngenden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorsun. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131n hep tek y\u00f6ne, soluna kay\u0131yor. \u00d6n\u00fcn-arkan sa\u011f\u0131n-solun de\u011fil sadece sol yan\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n
G\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn renkleri var g\u00f6zlerinde, umudun k\u0131rk baht\u0131na birden selam yolluyor s\u00f6zleri. Sabah\u0131 buluyor kendimize gelmelerimiz. Geceden sabaha onun i\u00e7in ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m orkideler soluyor, g\u00f6k ayd\u0131nlan\u0131yor, ku\u015flar \u00f6zg\u00fcrce a\u011fa\u00e7 dallar\u0131nda \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor fakat i\u00e7im karar\u0131yor durduk yere, anlayam\u0131yoruz ama ya\u015f\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n
Ne zormu\u015f sevdalanmak; hep onu d\u00fc\u015fl\u00fcyorsun, g\u00f6n\u00fcl titriyor, zihin donuyor, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc ku\u015flara k\u00fcs\u00fcyor, ay bulutu k\u0131skan\u0131yor g\u00fcne\u015f r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Hep b\u00f6yle i\u015fte nefes gibi, \u00f6zlem gibi anlayam\u0131yoruz ama ya\u015f\u0131yoruz i\u015fte.<\/p>\n
Baz\u0131 duygular var \u2018\u015fey\u2019den \u00f6teye ge\u00e7emiyor. Bir g\u00fcn var biliyorum, o g\u00fcn mutluluk da h\u00fcz\u00fcn de hak edenin olacak. O g\u00fcn gelinceye dek ad\u0131na sevda dediklerimiz i\u00e7imizde mahfuz\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc parampar\u00e7a bug\u00fcn, ya\u011fmura doymuyor \u015fehirler,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":123,"featured_media":8733,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8732"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/123"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8732"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8732\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8732"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8732"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8732"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}