Her g\u00fcn, be\u015f katl\u0131 k\u00f6hne apartman\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 ba\u011f serenlemesini and\u0131ran, bir k\u0131sm\u0131
\nise balkon olarak kullan\u0131lan b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Sanki ortadan ortaya b\u0131\u00e7akla ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f
\nbir \u00e7at\u0131y\u0131 and\u0131ran bu k\u0131sm\u0131n alt\u0131nda, g\u00fcvercinleri ile ilgilenmeye koyulurdu.
\nHemen \u00fcst soka\u011f\u0131nda oturdu\u011fu \u0130stanbul Otogar\u0131’n\u0131n o bitmez da\u011fda\u011fas\u0131n\u0131,
\ng\u00fcvercinlerin ve g\u00fcvercinlere nispetle pek nadir u\u011frayan mart\u0131lar\u0131n mayho\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131yla
\neritirdi.
\nArt\u0131k yetmi\u015f sekiz ya\u015f\u0131na gelmi\u015fti. Uzun boylu, ya\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6re gayet dik duru\u015flu,
\nneredeyse g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs hizas\u0131na kadar varan titizlikle taranm\u0131\u015f, bembeyaz sakall\u0131 bir adamd\u0131
\nSalim Dede.
\nB\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131, sakallar\u0131na nispetle daha k\u0131sa kesilmi\u015f say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Salim Dede’nin sakal ve
\nb\u0131y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bu \u015fekilde tutmas\u0131n\u0131n nedeni, “ahir zamanda bir s\u00fcnnetin ihy\u00e2s\u0131” idi. Salim
\nDede, kendisine sakal\u0131n\u0131n ni\u00e7in b\u00f6yle uzun oldu\u011funu soran mahallenin ufakl\u0131klar\u0131na
\nhep b\u00f6yle derdi. Ger\u00e7i \u00e7ocuklar bundan pek bir \u015fey anlamazd\u0131. \u00c7o\u011funun s\u00fcnnete dair
\nbildi\u011fi tek \u015fey, \u00fc\u00e7 d\u00f6rt sene \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 ve her hat\u0131rlad\u0131klar\u0131nda canlar\u0131n\u0131n bir kez
\ndaha yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 hat\u0131ra idi.
\nEvet, \u00e7ocuklar anlamazd\u0131. Oysa Salim Dede bunu s\u00f6yledi\u011finde, yerine getirdi\u011fi bir
\ngereklili\u011fin verdi\u011fi \u00f6v\u00fcn\u00e7le \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan bir s\u00fcre bakar, tebess\u00fcm eder ve
\nkafas\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e iki yana sallayarak “Ah \u00e7ocuklar ah…” dermi\u015fcesine i\u00e7 \u00e7ekerdi.
\nDo\u011fal renginden biraz daha mora \u00e7alan cans\u0131z dudaklar\u0131nda yer yer \u00e7atlaklar vard\u0131.
\nBelki de her sabah havan\u0131n s\u0131cak veya so\u011fuk olmas\u0131na ald\u0131rmadan g\u00fcvercinlerini
\nyemlemesindendi.
\nYanaklar\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n da etkisiyle biraz i\u00e7eri g\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015f, bu da zaten \u00e7\u0131k\u0131k olan elmac\u0131k
\nkemiklerini y\u0131ldan y\u0131la daha \u00e7ok belli etmi\u015fti. Etrafa k\u0131s\u0131k g\u00f6zlerle bakar, g\u00f6remedi\u011fi
\nzamanlar da kim bilir ka\u00e7 senelik g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, \u015fehadet parma\u011f\u0131yla ortas\u0131ndan iterek
\ng\u00f6zlerine daha da yakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\nCami Soka\u011f\u0131’nda tan\u0131n\u0131r ve de sevilirdi. Herkes onu Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131 diye tan\u0131rd\u0131. Namaz
\n\u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda ayak\u00fcst\u00fc etti\u011fi sohbetlerde herkes ku\u015flar\u0131na “sel\u00e2m” yollard\u0131. Ne de olsa
\ng\u00fcvercinleri, Salim Dede’nin -daha do\u011frusu Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’n\u0131n- evlatlar\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ve bunu
\nherkes bilirdi…
\nKa\u011fan ise on ya\u015flar\u0131nda, ilkokul son s\u0131n\u0131fa giden afacan bir \u00e7ocuktu. Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’n\u0131n
\nhemen yan soka\u011f\u0131ndaki apartman\u0131n en \u00fcst kat\u0131nda otururlard\u0131. Evlerinin mutfak
\npenceresinden Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’n\u0131n “g\u00fcvercin teras”\u0131, ufak ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 hari\u00e7 neredeyse
\ntamamen g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nKa\u011fan da t\u00fcm sokak sakinleri gibi Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 \u00e7ok severdi. Her sabah kahvalt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131
\nyapmaya koyuldu\u011funda, mutlaka Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 ve g\u00fcvercinlerini seyrederdi.
\nBu durum Ka\u011fan i\u00e7in art\u0131k bir rit\u00fcel haline gelmi\u015fti. Baz\u0131 g\u00fcnler okula ge\u00e7 kal\u0131r,
\nkahvalt\u0131 yapmaya vakti olmazd\u0131. Annesi apar topar Ka\u011fan’\u0131 giydirir ve ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131
\ngiymesini ister, kendisinin de “hemen” gelece\u011fini s\u00f6ylerdi. Ka\u011fan, annesinin “hemen
\n” gelmesine kadar mutfa\u011fa ko\u015far, bir iki dakika da olsa Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 seyrederdi.
\nFeragat edemeyece\u011fi ender \u015feylerden biri, sabahleyin Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 az da olsa
\ng\u00fcvercinleriyle oyalan\u0131rken seyretmekti.
\nAnnesinin “hemen” gelece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemesi, Ka\u011fan’\u0131n Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 okula gitmeden
\nson bir kez g\u00f6rmek isteyece\u011fini bilmesindendi. \u015eayet “hemen” gelece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemese,
\nKa\u011fan ak\u015fama kadar Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 seyretmek isterdi. Annesi de bunu bildi\u011fi i\u00e7in,
\nKa\u011fan okula ne kadar ge\u00e7 kal\u0131rsa kals\u0131n bu ufak “ka\u00e7ama\u011fa” ses etmezdi.<\/p>\n
Mevsim k\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eubat ay\u0131, kar ya\u011fmamas\u0131na ra\u011fmen t\u00fcm so\u011fuklu\u011funu
\nhissettiriyordu. Ka\u011fan o sabah da kahvalt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yaparken Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’y\u0131 seyre
\nkoyulmu\u015ftu. Salim Dede teras\u0131n her bir k\u00f6\u015fesine avcundaki bu\u011fday tanelerinden
\nserpi\u015ftirmekteydi. G\u00fcvercinler b\u00fcy\u00fck bir aceleyle bu\u011fday tanelerine ko\u015fu\u015fuyorlard\u0131.
\nSalim Dede g\u00fcvercinleri, Ka\u011fan da Salim Dede’yi b\u00fcy\u00fck bir keyifle izliyordu. O s\u0131rada
\nannesi i\u00e7eriden seslendi:
\n-Hadi Ka\u011fan, ge\u00e7 kalaca\u011f\u0131z!
\n-Tamam anne, bir avu\u00e7 daha versin, s\u00f6z geliyorum…
\n-E hadi ama o\u011flum, yeter art\u0131k!
\nKa\u011fan istemeye istemeye kahvalt\u0131 masas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131. Annesi ona montunu
\ngiydirdi, Fenerbah\u00e7e logosunun bas\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011fu sar\u0131 lacivert y\u00fcn atk\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 boynuna s\u0131k\u0131ca
\nsard\u0131. \u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131 da s\u0131rt\u0131na ge\u00e7irdikten sonra kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ekip, be\u015f katl\u0131 apartman
\nmerdivenlerini yava\u015f yava\u015f inmeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar.
\nTam d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 s\u0131rada Salim Dede kar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131nda belirdi. M\u00fc\u015ffik bir ifadeyle ba\u015f
\nselam\u0131 verdi ve Ka\u011fan’\u0131n annesine “Nas\u0131ls\u0131n han\u0131m k\u0131z\u0131m?” diyerek hatr\u0131n\u0131 sordu.
\nKa\u011fan ise o s\u0131rada Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131’n\u0131n sa\u011f elindeki kafesle ilgileniyordu. Masmavi bir
\nmuhabbet ku\u015fu, b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir kafesin i\u00e7inde bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bir yukar\u0131 se\u011firtiyordu. Ku\u015f\u00e7u
\nDay\u0131 tebess\u00fcm ederek di\u011fer eliyle Ka\u011fan’\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131 ve annesine d\u00f6nd\u00fc:
\n-K\u0131z\u0131m, Ka\u011fan’\u0131n ku\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fini biliyorum. Ta ufakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan beri her sabah benim
\ng\u00fcvercinleri yemlememi izler, terastan beri g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcm. O zamandan beri akl\u0131mdayd\u0131
\nancak biraz daha b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcn istedim. G\u00fcvercin h\u00fcrd\u00fcr, kafese konmaz. Bar\u0131\u015f\u0131 temsil
\neder, etraf\u0131na hudut \u00e7izilmez. Muhabbet ku\u015fu ise tam tersidir. Hudutlarla \u00e7evrilmek
\nonun do\u011fas\u0131 gere\u011fidir. Birini hapsetsen \u00f6l\u00fcr, birini hapsetmesen… Ama ikisi de bir
\ng\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcr. \u00d6l\u00fcm; t\u00fcm tezatlar\u0131 i\u00e7inde bar\u0131nd\u0131ran, kimini g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcrken kimini h\u00fcng\u00fcr
\nh\u00fcng\u00fcr a\u011flatan, kimini maldan ar\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131rken kimine mal katan, kainat\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131d\u0131r \u00f6l\u00fcm…
\nSalim Dede bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6yledikten sonra biraz durdu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e g\u00f6\u011fe kald\u0131rd\u0131.
\nSabah \u00e7i\u011finin yalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7atlak dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n kenar\u0131nda hafif bir tebess\u00fcm belirdi.
\nS\u00f6zlerine devam etti:
\n-Bir senedir bende… Epeyce al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k birbirimize. Ama as\u0131l sahibine benden daha \u00e7ok
\nal\u0131\u015facakt\u0131r. Benden bu ufakl\u0131\u011fa bir hediye olsun sak\u0131ncas\u0131 yoksa…
\nAnnesi \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerinden att\u0131ktan sonra konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n-Salim Amcac\u0131m niye zahmet ettin? \u00c7ok sevindirdin bizi, te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederiz. Yaln\u0131z bir
\nkonuyu atlad\u0131n. Ka\u011fan, sadece ku\u015flar\u0131 de\u011fil seni de \u00e7ok seviyor…
\nAnnesi son c\u00fcmleyi s\u00f6ylerken ho\u015f bir tebess\u00fcmle Ka\u011fan’a d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, sanki kendisini
\ntasdik etmesini istemi\u015fti. Ka\u011fan’\u0131n bunu anlamas\u0131 ise pek zor olmad\u0131:
\n-Te\u015fekk\u00fcrler Salim Amca…
\nKa\u011fan’\u0131n i\u00e7i i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yor, \u015fimdiden bir an \u00f6nce okulun bitmesini istiyordu. O s\u0131rada
\nannesi Salim Dede’ye, okula ge\u00e7 kald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, han\u0131m teyze ile bir ak\u015fam misafirli\u011fe
\nbeklediklerini s\u00f6yledi. Salim Dede umutsuz ancak m\u00fctebessim bir tav\u0131rla “\u0130n\u015fallah
\nk\u0131z\u0131m” dedikten sonra Ka\u011fan’\u0131n so\u011fuktan pembele\u015fmi\u015f yana\u011f\u0131nda elini gezdirdi.
\nU\u011furlay\u0131p arkalar\u0131ndan bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rada istemsizce ve onlar\u0131n duyamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir sesle
\n“Ah \u00e7ocuklar, ah…” diye i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irdi ve teras\u0131n\u0131n yolunu tuttu.<\/p>\n
Annesi o sabah Ka\u011fan\u2019\u0131 yine ayn\u0131 saatte kald\u0131rd\u0131. Her g\u00fcnk\u00fcn\u00fcn aksine Ka\u011fan\u2019\u0131n bu
\nsabah kalkmas\u0131 biraz daha zor olmu\u015ftu. Gece boyunca yeni muhabbet ku\u015fu \u201cMavi\u015f\u201d
\nile vakit ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, evin bir o yan\u0131ndan bir bu yan\u0131na seyrini m\u00fcthi\u015f bir merakla
\nizlemi\u015fti.
\nKahvalt\u0131ya oturdu\u011funda pencerenin kenar\u0131nda bir g\u00fcvercin g\u00f6rd\u00fc. G\u00fcvercin \u00f6ylece
\ni\u00e7eriyi seyrediyor, \u00e7evik g\u00f6zleri sanki birini ar\u0131yordu.
\nG\u00fcn yeni yeni ayd\u0131nlan\u0131yordu. Ka\u011fan kahvalt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bitirmi\u015f ve masadan kalkmaya
\nhaz\u0131rlan\u0131yordu. Tam o s\u0131rada kulaklar\u0131 ac\u0131 bir sel\u00e2 sesi ile inledi. Annesi sel\u00e2 sesine hi\u00e7
\ndayanamaz, vefat eden kim olursa olsun g\u00f6zleri dolard\u0131. Yine g\u00f6zleri dolmu\u015f ve
\nya\u015flar\u0131 p\u0131narlar\u0131ndan a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r ta\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sel\u00e2n\u0131n sonunda ise bu durum hafif a\u011flamakl\u0131
\nbir h\u00e2l ald\u0131. Vefat eden Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131 idi. Sanki \u00f6lece\u011fini anlam\u0131\u015f gibi d\u00fcn Ka\u011fan\u2019a bir
\nmuhabbet ku\u015funu elleriyle teslim etmi\u015f, bir de \u00fczerine manidar bir konu\u015fma yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\nKa\u011fan ise ne oldu\u011funu anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakta ve pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki g\u00fcvercini
\nseyretmekteydi. O s\u0131rada Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131\u2019n\u0131n teras\u0131ndan hi\u00e7 d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere, onlarca
\ng\u00fcvercin havalanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131…<\/p>\n
-Bitti mi baba?
\n-Evet k\u0131z\u0131m, bitti…
\n-Baba! Ger\u00e7ekten Ku\u015f\u00e7u Day\u0131\u2019n\u0131n ku\u015flar\u0131 hi\u00e7 geri d\u00f6nmemi\u015fler midir?
\n-Bilmem ki can\u0131m benim, belki Ka\u011fan b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015flerdir.
\n-Baba! Yar\u0131n ak\u015fam da bana kitap okur musun?
\n-Okurum tabii k\u0131z\u0131m, okumaz m\u0131y\u0131m hi\u00e7? Sen yat da dinlen \u015fimdi. Yoksa sen de Ka\u011fan
\ngibi okula ge\u00e7 kalacaks\u0131n…
\nMurat, k\u0131z\u0131 Sude ile aralar\u0131nda ge\u00e7en ufak bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmeden sonra yavrusunu \u00f6p\u00fcp
\nyat\u0131rd\u0131. Elindeki kitab\u0131, lo\u015f odan\u0131n duvar\u0131na s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 dayam\u0131\u015f tozlu raflardan birine
\nyerle\u015ftirdi. Kap\u0131ya do\u011fru y\u00f6neldi. Bir an duraksad\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc. \u201cAh \u00e7ocuklar, ah…\u201d
\ndiye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131. Ah\u015fap kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ekti ve odadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Birka\u00e7 saniye sonra g\u00f6lgesi \u00e7oktan
\nkayboluvermi\u015fti…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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