\u201cI\u015fk bir \u015fem\u2019i il\u00e2hid\u00fcr benim perv\u00e2nesi
\n\u015eevk bir zinc\u00eerd\u00fcr g\u00f6nl\u00fcm anun div\u00e2nesi\u201d (Hay\u00e2li Bey)<\/p>\n
Ben seni sevdim g\u00fcl\u00fcm!
\nNaz\u0131n\u0131 sevdim, s\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 sevdim\u2026
\nBahar\u0131 k\u0131skand\u0131ran g\u00f6zlerini sevdim senin.
\nHer mevsim cemre d\u00fc\u015fen y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc sevdim.
\nMihr \u00fc m\u00e2h y\u00fcz\u00fcne z\u00fclf\u00fcn d\u00f6k\u00fclmesini, hil\u00e2lin ka\u015flar\u0131nda b\u00fck\u00fclmesini sevdim. Kirpiklerin bir tozkoparan elinde \u00fczerime bir ok gibi \u00e7ekilmesini sevdim!<\/p>\n
\u201cBu ne y\u00fczd\u00fcr bu ne g\u00f6zd\u00fcr bu ne z\u00fclf-\u00fc bu ne bel\u00e2
\nBiri l\u00e2le, biri nergis, biri s\u00fcnb\u00fcl, biri t\u00fbb\u00e2\u201d\u00a0 \u00a0(Ahmed\u00ee)<\/p>\n
Senin firkatini sevdim sabr\u0131n\u0131 sevdim. Musa\u2019ya tahamm\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026
\nH\u0131z\u0131r gibi.
\nY\u00fbsuf\u2019un iffetini, Z\u00fcleyh\u00e2 hamiyetini sevdim. Zulme ra\u011fmen mazlumlu\u011funu, \u00e2si duygular\u0131na \u00c2siye olman\u0131…
\nCeh\u00e2letimi y\u0131kamak i\u00e7in barana hamal bir seh\u00e2b olman\u0131 sevdim.\u00a0 Masmavi g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn kanatlar\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131nan\u2026
\nAd\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 n\u00e2r\u0131n ihtiras\u0131na n\u00e2file \u00e7ekerken. Per\u00e7emlerimden tutu\u015funu.
\nG\u00fcn\u00e2h\u0131m\u0131, \u00e2h\u0131nla s\u0131rtlan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sevdim.
\nDilimdeki isyan\u0131, g\u00f6nl\u00fcnde isk\u00e2n edi\u015fini… Sabr\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fck\u00fbnetin boynuna hamayl\u0131 gibi ge\u00e7irmeni\u2026
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn k\u0131bleg\u00e2h\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6n\u00fcl derg\u00e2h\u0131na \u00e7evirmeni. S\u00fbretin m\u00e2n\u00e2ya g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026
\nG\u00f6nl\u00fcndeki ehramlar\u0131n esr\u00e2r\u0131n\u0131 sevdim. G\u00f6zlerinden s\u00fcz\u00fclen Nil\u2019in hayretini\u2026
\nMuamma kelimelerin muhaceret yurduna hicretini sevdim.
\nG\u00f6n\u00fcl z\u00fcbdesinde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n r\u00e2yiha kokulu cennete m\u00fc\u015ft\u00e2k olu\u015funu sevdim.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u015fkum\u0131 yazma\u011f istesem noktas\u0131 bir kit\u00e2b olur
\n\u015eevk\u00fbmi s\u00f6ylesem e\u011fer zerresi \u00e2fit\u00e2b olur\u201d\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (Nev\u2019i)<\/p>\n
\u0130kra nidas\u0131n\u0131!
\nHayat\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde feveran eden bir perv\u00e2ne. Kanatlar\u0131 yan\u0131k zebun g\u00fcne\u015fe\u2026<\/p>\n
Me\u015fakkatini okumaya \u00e2m\u00e2de. S\u00fbretinden akseden s\u00eeretin. Muhabbetine meftun kelimelerin i\u015ftiyak\u0131 ile. Kel\u00e2m\u0131n\u0131 ziynetlendirir iksir-i s\u00fchan. H\u00fczn\u00fc tema\u015fa eder ehl-i cef\u00e2. N\u00e2bi\u2019nin \u201cHayrabad\u201d\u0131na de\u011fin n\u00e2me-i hicran s\u0131zar kelam\u0131n mukaddesat\u0131ndan. \u015eeyh G\u00e2lib\u2019in \u201cH\u00fcsn-\u00fc A\u015fk\u201d\u0131 ab-\u0131 feyyaz olur sevd\u00e2ya te\u015fne y\u00fcreklere. Sevgi \u015fafa\u011f\u0131ndan muhabbet \u00e2te\u015fini dev\u015firir u\u015f\u015f\u00e2k. Kenz-i h\u00e2fiye m\u00fcptel\u00e2 olur kalem. A\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r ebv\u00e2b-\u0131 hikmet. Tem\u00e2\u015fa eder \u015fu\u00e2r\u00e2. H\u00e2ne-i v\u00eeran i\u00e7inden. Erb\u00e2b-\u0131 a\u015fk galeyana gelir.<\/p>\n
Kalemim!
\n\u00c2h kalemim!<\/p>\n
\u00c2h-\u0131 enin ile s\u0131zlayan kalemim.
\nSenin de mi ba\u011fr\u0131na a\u015fk odu d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc?<\/p>\n
\u201cN\u00e2r-\u0131 \u015fevkinle cehennem odu yand\u0131rmaz beni
\nTe\u015fneyim ki yedi dery\u00e2 suyu kand\u0131rmaz beni\u201d (Ahmed R\u0131dvan)<\/p>\n
Siyah bir a\u011f\u0131tla d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyor c\u00fcmleler k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n s\u0131zlayan damarlar\u0131na. Beyaz sahifeler a\u011fl\u0131yor. Cem\u00e2linden ilhamlar dev\u015firiyorum. A\u015fk\u0131n mekrine akl\u0131m\u0131 yolda\u015f k\u0131l\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
Eriyorum!..
\nSanki billur tuz gibi\u2026<\/p>\n
Ve bir nokta ile s\u00fcsl\u00fcyorum efsun bar\u0131nd\u0131ran kelam\u0131m\u0131. Nakka\u015flar\u0131n en nazik ellerinden deriyorum s\u00fcl\u00fcsl\u00fc yaz\u0131lar\u0131. Nak\u0131\u015f nak\u0131\u015f i\u015fliyorum lik\u00e2-\u0131 b\u00ee ems\u00e2lini. F\u00e2\u015f ediyorum duygular\u0131m\u0131 esir c\u00fcmlelerimle.\u00a0 \u0130r\u015f\u00e2d ediyorum murad\u0131m\u0131, irademle. Tecrid ediyorum r\u00fbhumu bedenimden habersiz. M\u00fccerred bir heyulada \u00fcrpererek y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum. \u00c2fit\u00e2b\u0131n ziy\u00e2s\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor mehtaba. \u00c7\u00f6lde s\u00fcrg\u00fcn dolunay\u2026 Akl\u0131m av\u00e2re. Bir serap g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Muhabbet deryas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen g\u00f6lge… Beni sarmal\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerimde. Muzdarib kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131yor. Aln\u0131ma damgas\u0131n\u0131 bas\u0131yor bir m\u00fchr-\u00fc ebed.<\/p>\n
\u0130ntiz\u00e2r!
\nSonu gelmeyen bir vuslat\u0131 bekliyor a\u011flamakl\u0131.
\nBel\u00e2 ya\u011f\u0131yor bir kum f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131 gibi sevd\u00e2 r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131ndan.
\nYak\u0131yor y\u00fcre\u011fimi Temmuz s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131. Bir eyl\u00fcl mel\u00e2li gibi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor y\u00fcre\u011fime \u015feb-i yeld\u00e2.
\nGecelerimden kir daml\u0131yor siy\u00e2h\u00ee. \u00c2te\u015fin duygular kavruluyor kendi n\u00e2r\u0131nda. Yoklu\u011fun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sar\u0131yor titrek bedenimi. Bel\u00e2ya am\u00e2de bekliyor ben-i muhabbet.<\/p>\n
Susuyorum!
\nPeym\u00e2nelerde sunun bir b\u00e2de gibi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn sarho\u015flu\u011funu. Azrail\u2019im s\u00e2k\u00ee\u2026
\nSeviyorum ellerinden zehri tatmay\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00c2h ceylan!
\nAvc\u0131 yaral\u0131!
\nHakanlar m\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fini. Sada\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6l\u00fcm m\u00fc ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131n ey sevgili?
\nEy a\u015fk\u0131n g\u00f6klerinden, ba\u015f\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fen nergis!
\nGam ile sevdim seni. Bur\u00e7lar\u0131ndan sa\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131n\u0131\u2026
\nElemleri ellerimle tutu\u015fturu\u015funu sevdim.
\nAkl\u0131m cinnet tezg\u00e2h\u0131nda dokunur. Ad\u0131m div\u00e2neler meclisinde okunur.
\nAyaklar\u0131mda i\u015ftiyak\u0131n ipi… Ellerimi sa\u00e7lar\u0131n, s\u00f6zlerimi s\u00fck\u00fbtun ba\u011flar.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c2\u015f\u0131k olana \u0131\u015fk od\u0131ndan ni\u015f\u00e2n gerek
\nBa\u011fr\u0131 keb\u00e2b g\u00f6zlerinin ya\u015f\u0131 kan gerek\u201d\u00a0\u00a0 (Ahmedi)<\/p>\n
Merhamet!
\nBir sevd\u00e2ya kurban olsam\u2026
\nP\u00fcr-h\u00fbn olup akmaz m\u0131s\u0131n?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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