Annesinin yan\u0131k bu\u011fday\u0131 and\u0131ran nas\u0131rl\u0131 ellerini \u00f6perken dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n titremesine engel olamad\u0131, dudaklar\u0131 anne rahminden ayr\u0131lmak istemeyen bebek gibiydi, hani a\u011flar ya yeni do\u011fan bebek, o da tutamad\u0131 kendini birka\u00e7 damla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc annesinin titrek eline, F\u0131rat oldu, Dicle oldu g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 co\u015ftu kurak ellerinde. Helallik isteyip bindi trene okumaya gidiyordu \u0130stanbul\u2019a Hasan.<\/p>\n
K\u00f6m\u00fcrhan k\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erken g\u00f6z bebe\u011finin yakamozu d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc F\u0131rat\u2019\u0131n sular\u0131na, \u00e7ocukluk ve gen\u00e7li\u011fi, en \u00e7ok da ana hasretini sald\u0131 sulara. Trenin cam\u0131ndan kendi yans\u0131mas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde elinin boynundaki muskada oldu\u011funu fark etti, anas\u0131n\u0131n nas\u0131rl\u0131 ellerine benzer kuma\u015f i\u00e7erisinde Ayet-el K\u00fcrsi yaz\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcne kadar sanki hi\u00e7 \u00f6yle \u00e7almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 telefon, ilk Zeynep duymu\u015ftu, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc en \u00e7ok da onun duymaya ihtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131, ka\u00e7 zamand\u0131r hapsetmi\u015fti kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 telefon sesine. Yavuklusu ha bug\u00fcn ha yar\u0131n derken bir bu\u00e7uk y\u0131l sonra bug\u00fcn arad\u0131, ya\u015fma\u011f\u0131 dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f, kap\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6vesine yaslanm\u0131\u015f mu\u015ftu bekliyor gibiydi ve gelmi\u015fti beklenen\u2026<\/p>\n
– Peki o\u011ful, sen nas\u0131l istersen\u2026<\/p>\n
Eri Almanya\u2019ya gitmi\u015fti i\u015f\u00e7i olarak, giderken f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131yla s\u00f6yledikleri hi\u00e7 akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu;<\/p>\n
– Seni de ald\u0131racam yan\u0131ma, her\u2019im, her \u015feyim.<\/p>\n
Belli ki bu tren ku\u015f olup u\u00e7acak, pen\u00e7e at\u0131p kopartacak raylar\u0131 s\u0131la dedi\u011fin y\u00e2rin y\u00fcrek topra\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Da\u00fcss\u0131la ne k\u00f6t\u00fc bir hastal\u0131kt\u0131r. \u00d6mr\u00fcnde ilk defa trene binmi\u015fti Zeynep, Trenin raylar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan sesi sadece o duyuyordu;<\/p>\n
– Az kald\u0131, az kald\u0131, az kald\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Trenin cam\u0131nda kendi siluetini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde duda\u011f\u0131nda tebess\u00fcm, sa\u011f eli de havada el sallar durumdayd\u0131, fark eder etmez indirdi ellerini, ke\u015fke indirmek zorunda kalmasayd\u0131, \u00f6yle ya, bu\u011fday ba\u015faklar\u0131 kendisini u\u011furluyor, m\u00fcjdeliyor sallan\u0131yordu, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermese miydi?!<\/p>\n
Vatan borcu namus borcudur o\u011ful!<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn heybetiyle duran Haydarpa\u015fa Gar\u0131na bakt\u0131 uzun uzun, oysa \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu gen\u00e7li\u011fi hep buralarda ge\u00e7mi\u015fti, hi\u00e7 bu kadar dikkatini \u00e7ekmemi\u015fti. Gar\u0131n i\u00e7erisine kadar uzanan raylar\u0131 kan damarlar\u0131 gibiydi, ona hayat ta\u015f\u0131yan damarlar her g\u00fcn her saat can ta\u015f\u0131yordu, oysa koca gar hep kasvet rengindeydi, \u00e7ocuklu\u011funda da bu renkteydi, galiba anl\u0131yordu kasvetin sebebini, ayn\u0131 raylar eline aya\u011f\u0131na vurulmu\u015f zincirden prangalard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Gidi\u015flerin h\u00fczn\u00fc kaybolurken yolcu edenin g\u00f6nl\u00fcnde ve zihninde, Haydarpa\u015fa unutam\u0131yor, i\u00e7ine at\u0131yordu, h\u00fczn\u00fc ve kasveti bu y\u00fczdendi. Kime sorsan g\u00f6sterir diye tarif edilmesi de bu sebepten. Evet, g\u00f6sterirlerdi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc kimse daha dertlisini, bir o kadara da umutlusunu g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Babas\u0131n\u0131n eli omzundayd\u0131 \u015fimdi, bu hareket vaktin geldi\u011finin habercisiydi, baba heybetine gizlenmi\u015f merhametten, gar heybetindeki merhamete ad\u0131m atma zaman\u0131yd\u0131 \u015fimdi.<\/p>\n
– Beni merak etme, Allah\u2019a emanet ol;<\/p>\n
Dedi ve k\u00e2inatta g\u00f6z ile g\u00f6r\u00fclebilecek en de\u011ferli komutana, hem ana hem babal\u0131k yapan adama selam durdu \u00f6ks\u00fcz Ali\u2026<\/p>\n
Allahtan denize naz\u0131r konumdayd\u0131, yoksa bu yanmalar s\u00f6nmez, \u0130stanbul\u2019u hatta t\u00fcm \u00fclkeyi yakard\u0131 \u00c2lim Allah. Herkes sevdi\u011fini bekler hasretle ben de bekliyorum kar k\u0131\u015f, gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz demeden bu k\u0131y\u0131da der gibiydi, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hasret ve umut raylar\u0131yla zincirlenmi\u015f gibi vatan\u0131n en \u00fccra ba\u011fr\u0131na, kopmak ne m\u00fcmk\u00fcn, kaderine figan d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f kadersiz gar\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Sabah saat 10.35\u2019i g\u00f6sterdi\u011fi s\u0131ralarda Ahsen ve S\u00fcmeyye arkada\u015flar\u0131 Ay\u015fe\u2019yi bekliyorlard\u0131. Kad\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019de sahile yak\u0131n bir kafede bitirme tezini \u00fc\u00e7 arkada\u015f beraber yapacaklard\u0131. Mimarl\u0131k fak\u00fcltesi y\u00fcksek lisans tezi i\u00e7in, mimarinin sosyok\u00fclt\u00fcrel etkileri konulu tezi vermi\u015fti profes\u00f6r, bu \u00fc\u00e7 arkada\u015f\u0131n da akl\u0131na Haydarpa\u015fa Gar\u0131 gelmi\u015fti nedense.<\/p>\n
– Merhaba k\u0131zlaaaar.<\/p>\n
– Ho\u015f geldin Ay\u015fe.<\/p>\n
Selamla\u015fma ve k\u0131sa bir kahvenin ard\u0131ndan gardaki \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalara ait planlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irdiler. Yap\u0131n\u0131n hem i\u00e7erisinden hem de d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan farkl\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lardan foto\u011fraflanma i\u015fi bitmi\u015fti. Bu g\u00f6rseller tezin bas\u0131m\u0131nda kullan\u0131lacakt\u0131 bu y\u00fczden \u00f6nemliydi \u0131\u015f\u0131k, netlik ve a\u00e7\u0131. Saat 13.40 olmu\u015f art\u0131k iyiden iyiye ac\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 hissetmi\u015flerdi. Nispeten sakin bir restoran bulup yemeklerini sipari\u015f ettiler;<\/p>\n
– Babam y\u0131llar \u00f6nce okumak i\u00e7in gelmi\u015f \u0130stanbul\u2019a, \u0130stanbul \u00dcniversitesini kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ok zor gelmi\u015f ona ayr\u0131l\u0131k, babaannemle vedala\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 hala anlatt\u0131k\u00e7a a\u011flamamak i\u00e7in kendisini zor tutar. Nas\u0131rl\u0131 ellerinden hi\u00e7 ay\u0131rmak istemedim dudaklar\u0131m\u0131 der. Sonra hemen o heybetli yap\u0131 diye anlatmaya ba\u015flard\u0131 Haydarpa\u015fa Gar\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ayn\u0131 benim annem gibiymi\u015f baban da Ay\u015fe diyerek s\u00f6z\u00fc Ahsen ald\u0131 bu sefer;<\/p>\n
– Uzun s\u00fcre Almanya\u2019daki babama hasret ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f k\u00f6yde annem, bir g\u00fcn \u00e7alan telefon umutlar\u0131na can suyu olmu\u015f. Babam Almanya\u2019ya gelebilirsin art\u0131k deyince sevin\u00e7ten havalara u\u00e7mu\u015f. Memleketten ayr\u0131l\u0131rken ba\u015fak tanelerine el sall\u0131yordum trenden, beni g\u00f6renler bu deli galiba d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcler diyerek g\u00fcl\u00fcyor hala her anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda. Bana mabet gibi gelmi\u015fti o zaman bu gar diyordu Haydarpa\u015fa\u2019y\u0131 anlat\u0131rken.<\/p>\n
– Benim babam\u0131 bu gardan yolcu etmi\u015f dedem askere u\u011furlarken, ikisi i\u00e7in de \u00e7ok zor olmu\u015f ama yine ikisi de duygular\u0131n\u0131 ele vermemek i\u00e7in yar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015flar, en az\u0131ndan ben \u00e7ok zorland\u0131m diye anlat\u0131rd\u0131 babam diye an\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ekledi S\u00fcmeyye.<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn bu hat\u0131ra dolu anlar dile gelirken g\u00f6zler Haydarpa\u015fa Gar\u0131ndayd\u0131, Haydarpa\u015fa Gar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zleri de onlar\u0131n \u00fczerindeydi, yutkundu ve en derinden duas\u0131n\u0131 etti kimseye duyurmadan yine\u2026<\/p>\n
-YOLUNUZ A\u00c7IK OLSUN.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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