{"id":8250,"date":"2017-07-01T12:14:01","date_gmt":"2017-07-01T09:14:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=8250"},"modified":"2017-07-01T12:14:01","modified_gmt":"2017-07-01T09:14:01","slug":"kulaklarimda-org-calan-seytanlar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=8250","title":{"rendered":"KULAKLARIMDA ORG \u00c7ALAN \u015eEYTANLAR"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I.SORGU<br \/>\n<\/strong>\u0130nsan neyle doyar, nas\u0131l do\u011furulur, onun maddesi nedir, hamuruna ne kat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, onun hissi ka\u00e7 \u015fekilde ellenir, hakikate nas\u0131l erer insan, nas\u0131l unutabilir t\u00fcm bildiklerini, kime sorabilir kaybettiklerini?<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6lece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyenlerin \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bu d\u00fcnyada ben, kendimi hangi kah\u0131rda ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayabilirdim hayata? Yolda olman\u0131n kekremsi tad\u0131yla, o ek\u015fi y\u00fcz buru\u015fuklu\u011fu ve tatminsizlikle kendimde dokunamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m onca \u015feye bir ba\u015fkas\u0131nda ula\u015fman\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine nas\u0131l inanabilirdim? Bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nan\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 kuca\u011f\u0131mda toplay\u0131p y\u00fcr\u00fcrken, hangi de\u011fi\u015fmez kural inand\u0131rabilir beni ba\u015ftan ba\u015flamayaca\u011f\u0131ma? Karn\u0131ma hi\u00e7 \u00f6lmeyecekmi\u015f gibi bast\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, kendim sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m onca \u015feyin s\u0131rt\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kmayaca\u011f\u0131na bana hangi kad\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi kan\u0131tlayabilir?<\/p>\n<p><strong>II. KENT MEYDANI<br \/>\n<\/strong>\u0130nsan, hi\u00e7bir zaman h\u00fcr bir huzura ermez. Yan\u0131ndaki bina y\u00fcz\u00fcnden g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remiyorsan \u00f6zg\u00fcr de\u011filsin, ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z de\u011filsin talanlardan. K\u00f6yl\u00fcler diyeceksin, orada ufak evler olur ve g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr pozisyondad\u0131r hep g\u00f6k. Ben diyece\u011fim ki; onlar da kafalar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine dikilen binalardan hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmezler g\u00f6\u011fe bakmay\u0131, g\u00f6\u011fe bakman\u0131n manas\u0131n\u0131 dizginleyerek kendilerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmezler. Binalar\u0131n aras\u0131na hapsoluyoruz, binalar, binalar, binalar&#8230; Ne kalabal\u0131k bir kelime! K\u0131rk dairenin k\u0131rk\u0131nda birbirinden habersiz yata\u011f\u0131nda k\u0131vran\u0131rken acizli\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek s\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7erisinde a\u011flayan k\u0131rk insan, ne korkun\u00e7. Kimsenin, ihtiyac\u0131 yok sanki kimseye. Ne korkun, herkesin payla\u015fmaya ihtiyac\u0131 var ayn\u0131 zamanda. \u00d6yleyse \u00e7\u0131kar k\u0131n\u0131nda saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015fehveti, sapla kalbine g\u00f6z\u00fcne paralel a\u00e7\u0131lan\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan, hi\u00e7bir zaman mutlu olamaz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o hayalinde kurdu\u011fu insanlar\u0131, ger\u00e7ek hayatta kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kan insanlara adapte eder. Oysa ger\u00e7ekler hesaplara uymamak \u00fczere nefes al\u0131r. Yani ben uzunca zaman tiner \u00e7eken bir kad\u0131nla ili\u015fki ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n hayaliyle ho\u015f olduktan sonra, kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kan ilk kad\u0131ndan tiner \u00e7ekmesini bekleyemem. Evet, abes \u00f6rnekler anlama kesinlik katar.<\/p>\n<p>Kendini sevmeyen insana, h\u00fcmanizm diyorsun. Dostunu aldatandan, d\u00fcnya bar\u0131\u015f\u0131 bekliyorsun. Kendini diri, din\u00e7, yalans\u0131z tutamayan insanda arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bunca g\u00fcven gerektiren \u00e7\u00f6p fikir seni de bunaltm\u0131yor mu? E\u011fer bunaltm\u0131yorsa, vazge\u00e7 gitsin. \u00d6l\u00fcmden sonra ya\u015fam var, belki orada g\u00fclersin. \u015eimdilik kendini sevmeyi dene ve \u00f6l\u00fc bedenine duraks\u0131z morfinler i\u011fnele.<\/p>\n<p><strong>III. BU DA MI FUCK DE\u011e\u0130L?<\/strong><br \/>\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn. Seni yoranlar nerelerde, nas\u0131l yoruluyorlar. Delirmeye varan yolda bir nehir var, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek oradaki \u00f6l\u00fcmle hayat aras\u0131nda kalan k\u00f6pr\u00fc. Nefesini tutabiliyorsan ge\u00e7ersin, korku insan\u0131 ya\u015fatmaz. Korku insan\u0131 k\u00f6pr\u00fclerden nehirlere a\u00e7ar, korkunca insan kendini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerden ka\u00e7ar. Ka\u00e7t\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 yan\u0131nda buldu\u011funda hissetti\u011fin \u015fey, ke\u015fkeler olur. \u0130nsano\u011flu haf\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131 silebilseydi, masumiyetini koruyabilirdi. \u0130nsano\u011flu haf\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131 kur\u015funa dizebilseydi, kalbindeki hapishaneyi havaya u\u00e7urabilirdi. Temizlik: Ne pazar kelime&#8230; \u0130nsan temizli\u011fi: \u0130\u015fte bu! 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