Yaral\u0131 kelimelerin olu\u015fturdu\u011fu, manadan yoksun, \u00f6znesi me\u00e7h\u00fbl, yar\u0131m c\u00fcmlelerle ya\u015f\u0131yoruz hayat\u0131. Derdimizi anlatmaya bir ka\u00e7 c\u00fcmle yetmesine ra\u011fmen, bin ka\u00e7 c\u00fcmleyle anlatamama sa\u00e7mal\u0131\u011f\u0131yla bo\u011fu\u015fuyoruz her saniye. Zaman\u0131n d\u00f6rt nala gitmesine ra\u011fmen mutlulukla aram\u0131zdaki o bir ka\u00e7 saat donup kal\u0131yor sessiz bekleme odalar\u0131nda. G\u00fczel g\u00fcnler hep ba\u015fka baharlara kal\u0131yor da bizim pay\u0131m\u0131za k\u0131\u015f\u0131n zemheri so\u011fuklu\u011fu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, g\u00fcne\u015fin yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu s\u0131cak vakitlerde. Harc\u0131n\u0131 sab\u0131r, dua ve \u00fcmitle olu\u015fturup ilmek ilmek \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz duvarlar\u0131 bir k\u00f6t\u00fc haber balyoz olup parampar\u00e7a ediyor. Ta\u015fla\u015fm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcreklerimizde azimle can bulan bir minik papatya umut, zaman zaman g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yla sulanan.Iss\u0131z sokaklardan ge\u00e7iyoruz eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yollar\u0131nda. Bize g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen tek \u015fey kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n so\u011fuk ve tozlu y\u00fcz\u00fc\u2026 Sokak lambalar\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131k vermiyor ak\u015famlar\u0131. K\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015flar\u0131nda gulyabaniler gizlenmi\u015f ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00fczerimize atlayacaklar sanki. Sa\u00e7mal\u0131k. Hepimiz minik birer kar\u0131ncay\u0131z, y\u00fcksek binalardan bizi izleyenler i\u00e7in. Hayat \u015fartlar\u0131 beraberinde bir\u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r \u015fart\u0131 getiriyor, asl\u0131nda \u015fart olmayan\u2026 Ve bu \u015fartlar alt\u0131nda akl\u0131 k\u00f6r, vicdan\u0131 sa\u011f\u0131r, kalbi karanl\u0131k, merhameti k\u0131s\u0131r, basireti s\u0131\u011f bir nesil tohumlan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Yorgunuz.
\n\u00c7ok yorgunuz.
\nZiyadesiyle yorgunuz.
\nKalem yazmaktan yorgun, biz tutmaktan\u2026 Kalp hissetmekten yorgun, dil feryattan\u2026 Hissizle\u015fmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yoruz art\u0131k. \u00dczerimize \u00e7\u0131\u011flar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor k\u0131zg\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6llerden. Olmamas\u0131 gereken ne varsa oluyor. Dertlerimiz her seferinde daha da katmerleniyor. En belal\u0131 asr\u0131n muhataplar\u0131y\u0131z. Yalan\u0131n reva\u00e7ta oldu\u011fu bu zamanlarda toplum masallar\u0131 dinliyoruz. Ya\u011fmurlar ya\u011fm\u0131yor ya\u011fmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fi kadar, ya da \u00f6yle bir bata\u011fa sapland\u0131k ki hi\u00e7 bir su katresi temizlemeye yetmiyor kirlerimizi, ellerimizi, y\u00fcreklerimizi\u2026<\/p>\n
Hen\u00fcz \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f bir a\u011fac\u0131 k\u00f6k\u00fcnden kesip \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcler yine bug\u00fcn de. Masum papatyalar\u0131n her yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 nefret ediyor- az nefret ediyor diye diye kopard\u0131lar. Sokak kenar\u0131ndaki dilenci \u00e7ocu\u011fun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kimse ok\u015famad\u0131. G\u00fcld\u00fcrmedi kimsenin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc heybesinde mutluluk vaatleri ta\u015f\u0131yan kimseler. \u00dcz\u00fclmedi kimse \u00fcz\u00fclmesi gereken on binlerce \u015feye. Olsun. G\u00fcne\u015f karanl\u0131k do\u011fuyor \u00fczerimize. Yahut k\u00e2fi gelemiyor bu karanl\u0131klar\u0131n \u00fczerine, olsun. Ya\u011fmurlar d\u00fc\u015fmedi kurak g\u00f6n\u00fcllere. Soldu bir k\u00f6\u015fede mutsuz \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, olsun. Bug\u00fcn kimse kimseyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedi, kimse kimseye \u00fcz\u00fclmedi. Kimse kimseye tebess\u00fcm etmedi, olsun. Bug\u00fcn g\u00fczel bir g\u00fcn de\u011fildi, ayn\u0131 d\u00fcn ve ondan \u00f6nce ki g\u00fcnler gibi. Yar\u0131n da \u00f6yle olacak ve yar\u0131ndan sonra ve ondan sonra da\u2026 Olsun.<\/p>\n
Mutlaka, bir g\u00fcn mutlaka gelecek o bahar. Ya\u011fmurlar inecek solgun \u00e7i\u00e7ekler \u00fczerine. Sevmeye ba\u015flayacak nefret dolu papatyalar. Ayd\u0131nl\u0131k, karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 def edecek d\u00fcnyadan ve y\u00fcreklerden.<\/p>\n
Bekle. Yorulma. Vazge\u00e7me. \u00dcmit et. Y\u0131k\u0131lma\u2026
\nY\u0131k\u0131lma Sak\u0131n!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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