\u201c Sen bu d\u00fcnyada \u00f6ld\u00fcn, kabrin kuca\u011f\u0131md\u0131r \u201c\u2026<\/p>\n
Uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dudaklar\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fclen bu c\u00fcmleyi ona kurduran r\u00fcyas\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ama olmad\u0131\u2026
\n\u0130kindi namaz\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, tesbihat\u0131n\u0131 yaparken yine diline \u00e7arpt\u0131 bu gizemli c\u00fcmle. Zihni sald\u0131r\u0131 alt\u0131nda kalan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kale gibiydi. Kalkt\u0131 ve pencereye y\u00f6neldi, sazl\u0131\u011fa dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6zleri. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da yer yer h\u0131zlanan, sonra da sakinle\u015fen esintiyle Halveti zikrine benzetti sazl\u0131klar\u0131\u2026
\n\u0130lahi bir davet gibi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc bu seyri, kap\u0131ya y\u00f6neldi, nal\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 usulca ili\u015ftirdi ayaklar\u0131na ve yola koyuldu, yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a sazl\u0131klar\u0131n c\u00fb\u015f-u h\u00fbru\u015fu art\u0131yor, h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131 \u201cH\u00fb\u201d nidas\u0131 gibi geliyordu kula\u011f\u0131na. Orac\u0131\u011fa, sazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n hemen yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na ba\u011fda\u015f kurdu, sessizce virde e\u015flik edip, hafif hafif sa\u011fa sola sal\u0131n\u0131yordu.
\nAni bir sessizlik\u2026 Cezbede teslim olmu\u015f bir ruh\u2026
\nD\u00fcnya durmu\u015ftu, sazl\u0131k ve zikir de durmu\u015ftu. Bir saz, boylu boyunca kuca\u011f\u0131nda yat\u0131yordu\u2026
\n\u201cSen bu d\u00fcnyada \u00f6ld\u00fcn, kabrin kuca\u011f\u0131md\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi daha iyi kavrad\u0131 sabah namaz\u0131ndan bu yana dilini i\u015fgal eden bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn anlam\u0131n\u0131. \u201c\u00d6len bedendir, ruh k\u0131yamdad\u0131r\u201d ilham\u0131 ile aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131, sazl\u0131ktan kopan boyu da tutup kald\u0131rd\u0131. Sazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sessizli\u011fi bitmi\u015f, yine kendi tela\u015fesine koyulmu\u015f, hay huyuna geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc t\u0131pk\u0131 d\u00fcnya ve ondakiler gibi\u2026
\n\u00c7ok y\u00fcksek ve b\u00fcy\u00fck olmayan tek g\u00f6z odas\u0131na, bir \u00f6yle, bir b\u00f6yle uzatt\u0131 ama nafile, uzun saz boyu s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yordu. Belinden \u00e7ak\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131 ba\u015f sa\u00e7aklar\u0131n\u0131 ve yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 budad\u0131. Budand\u0131k\u00e7a soyuluyor, soyulduk\u00e7a bo\u011fumlar\u0131 daha da belirginle\u015fiyordu.
\nYutkundu\u2026 Adem elmas\u0131 yani g\u0131rtla\u011f\u0131, sazl\u0131k bo\u011fumu gibiydi. Bu benzerlik onu tefekk\u00fcre sevk edip i\u00e7ten bir H\u00fb dedirtti. Bu vird, telaffuz edilirken, insan\u0131n nefes borusundan ci\u011ferine kadar yanmas\u0131 ne tuhaf. Demek n\u00e2r da rahmettir c\u00fcmlesiyle bitirdi tefekk\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc.
\nFakir sofras\u0131n\u0131 \u015fenlendiren dostu Hidayet ziyaretine gelmi\u015fti, Allah ne verdiyse beraber oru\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131lar zaman daralmadan \u00f6nce abdest tazeleyip namaza durdular. Hidayet namaz\u0131 selamlam\u0131\u015f duas\u0131n\u0131 ve tesbihini de bitirdikten sonra dostunun y\u00fcz\u00fcne bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.
\n\u2013 Sakal\u0131na aklar d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f garda\u015f\u0131m.
\nO bunu duymam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hidayet s\u00f6zlerinin duyulmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015f, dostunun dalg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 merak etmi\u015fti ki, g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze gelince anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 dervi\u015f ge\u00e7en seneki hadiseyi\u2026
\nUzun zamand\u0131r ardiyede o saz boyu, \u015fimdilerde kuruyup sarard\u0131 Hidayet garda\u015f dedi. Beraber ardiyeye ge\u00e7tiler, c\u0131l\u0131z l\u00fck\u00fcz \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda iyice inceledikten sonra, \u201cBismillah\u201c diyerek \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, yedi bo\u011fum saym\u0131\u015f, sonras\u0131n\u0131 kesmi\u015fti Hidayet. \u0130lk bo\u011fum di\u011ferlerinden daha k\u0131sa ancak \u00f6teki bo\u011fumlar neredeyse ayn\u0131 boyda. Yutkundu\u011fu o an akl\u0131na geldi, ilk bo\u011fum\u2026
\nZamanla d\u00fczg\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc kaybetmi\u015f saz boyunu aleve tutuyor, sonra \u00e7ekip bast\u0131rarak e\u011frili\u011fini terbiye etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, deliklerini bo\u011fumlar\u0131n uygun yerlerine a\u00e7\u0131yor ara s\u0131ra da \u015f\u00f6yle uzat\u0131p her taraf\u0131n\u0131 kontrol ediyordu Hidayet. Aleve uzaktan tutulan kal\u0131nca bir \u015fi\u015f ile i\u00e7ine bat\u0131r\u0131p saz\u0131n i\u00e7ini iyice bo\u015falt\u0131yordu.
\n\u2013 \u00c7ay vermeyecek misin bu garda\u015f\u0131na, diye tebess\u00fcmle sitem ediyordu Hidayet. Tebess\u00fcm\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, iade-i kalp eyledi.
\n\u2013 \u00c7aya kand\u0131 bedenler, ya\u011fa doydu kuru kam\u0131\u015f, s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc ya\u011f\u0131, \u00e7ekildi kan\u0131, yok muydu \u015fimdi an\u0131n can\u0131, diye sordu dervi\u015f.
\n\u2013 Can\u0131 veren H\u00fbd\u00e2d\u0131r, bundaki a\u015fk ile can kimde vard\u0131r?
\n\u2013 Hayat ki; Bir nefes ile var idene bir nefesle varmakt\u0131r. Deyiverdi Hidayet.<\/p>\n
Sevgili naz\u0131n\u0131 and\u0131ran ses, kuru bir kam\u0131\u015ftan m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor!? Allah-u Ekber. G\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131 tefekk\u00fcr\u00fcne dalm\u0131\u015f, e\u015fsiz g\u00fczellikteki Ney sesi onu adeta b\u00fcy\u00fclemi\u015fti. M\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u00fcmlenin yeni fark\u0131na varm\u0131\u015f, anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu dervi\u015f.<\/p>\n
Har\u2019a d\u00fc\u00e7ar olan\u0131 sak\u0131n hor belleme,
\nNur i\u00e7inde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn illa lay\u0131k belleme<\/p>\n
Zihni tefekk\u00fcr\u00fc bitti\u011finde, ba\u011fda\u015f kurmu\u015f Ney \u00fcfleyen dostu Hidayet\u2019i izliyordu. Kuca\u011f\u0131nda, kabrindeki meyyit gibiydi Ney. Dervi\u015f yine ba\u015fa d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f o gizemli c\u00fcmleyi hat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131,<\/p>\n
\u201c Sen bu d\u00fcnyada \u00f6ld\u00fcn, kabrin kuca\u011f\u0131md\u0131r \u201c\u2026
\nOndan \u00e7\u0131kan tek ve ger\u00e7ek ses, sadece duru bir H\u00fb idi \u015fimdi\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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