Anneannem Hozatl\u0131 G\u00fble;
\nGenelde konu\u015fmaz, isyan\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7inde ya\u015far, bildim bileli odas\u0131ndan pek \u00e7\u0131kmazd\u0131. S\u00fcrg\u00fcnle g\u00f6nderildi\u011fi \u0130zmir\u2019e geldikten sonra Dedemin ailesinden ba\u015fka akrabas\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7evresi pek kalabal\u0131k de\u011fildi.
\nHat\u0131ralar\u0131na dair anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u015fey de yoktu. Ne ilk kocas\u0131 Haydar-\u0131 Kerrar Alisi, ne de elinden zorla al\u0131na Hasan ve H\u00fcseyni\u2026
\nMah-\u0131 muharremlerde matem tutan her Ehli Beyt gibi, o da matem eder, i\u015fte belki o vakit \u2018Hasan ve H\u00fcseyin\u2019ini anlat\u0131verirdi;
\n\u201cB\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine kadar giren bir adam idi, siyah pos b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 elleriyle d\u00fczeltti, bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.
\n\u00ac+ Kad\u0131n! \u00c7ocuklar\u0131 beri \u00e7evir hele, devlet fotuhraf\u0131n\u0131 ister, asile\u015fme\u2026
\nTek tek resmini \u00e7ekti Hasan\u0131m ve H\u00fcseynimin.
\n+ Ad\u0131 ne bunlar\u0131n?
\nB\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fc Hasan\u0131m, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fc H\u00fcseyn.
\n+ S\u00f6yle hele sana ne derler?
\nG\u00fble \u2026
\n+ S\u0131radaki!\u201d
\n\u2026
\n\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn, \u00fc\u00e7 gece y\u00fcr\u00fctt\u00fcler Hozat\u2019tan gayr\u0131 memlekete. Biri bir mememde, biri bir mememde. Efendim Aliyi ise \u00e7oktan Hop\u0131ke\u2019de kur\u015funa dizip \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015flerdi. Ben on dokuzunda m\u0131yd\u0131m, yirmi mi bilemedim. Ama o foto\u011fraf\u0131 \u00e7eken makinenin karas\u0131 kadar kara idi Kaderim.\u201d
\nSonra ne oldu anneanne?
\n\u201cDevlet \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131za sahap \u00e7\u0131kacak, devletli olacaklar, aziz olacaklar diyesiye ald\u0131lar guzular\u0131m\u0131. Beni de yollad\u0131lar duman\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnde bir trenle. Ben \u0130zmir\u2019e geldim gelmesine de, Hasan\u0131mla H\u00fcseynimi bulamad\u0131m senelerce. Sonralar\u0131 da Dedenle izdiva\u00e7 edince \u00e7ok arad\u0131 Rahmetli Hasan\u0131mla H\u00fcseynimi. Me\u011fersi Ankara\u2019da kay\u0131t ediliveren bir yer var imi\u015f. Seneler evveli bir yang\u0131n \u00e7\u0131k\u0131vermi\u015f. Kimin \u00e7ocu\u011fu kime verildi, nere g\u00f6nderildi yazarm\u0131\u015f da, yang\u0131nla yan\u0131vermi\u015f. Bilemedim guzular\u0131m nerde\u2026 Sa\u011f m\u0131 selim mi, selamette mi?\u201d
\nBa\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey anlatmazd\u0131 Rahmetli anneannem. Ne evlerini ate\u015fe verdiklerini ne de \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7 gece a\u00e7 susuz y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fcld\u00fcklerini. A\u011flayarak anlat\u0131rken a\u011fz\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. A\u00e7 susuz y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yolda, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 bir iple a\u011faca ba\u011flay\u0131p zorla tecav\u00fcz etmi\u015fler, yerden bir cam par\u00e7as\u0131 al\u0131p sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kesmi\u015fte, evlad\u0131na ancak \u00f6yle meme verebilmi\u015f. yine bir Muharrem ay\u0131nda, inkisar ile intizar aras\u0131 anneme anlatm\u0131\u015f seneler \u00f6nce. Ancak bu kadar\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fimiz, i\u015fte; bu kadarc\u0131k bir hik\u00e2ye.
\nDokuz Eyl\u00fcl \u00dcniversitesi G\u00fczel Sanatlar Fak\u00fcltesinden o yaz mezun olmu\u015ftum, ertesinde de hi\u00e7 so\u011fuk olmayan bir k\u0131\u015f sabah\u0131nda kaybetmi\u015ftik kaderi kara anneannemi. Vefat\u0131ndan birka\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce dinledi\u011fim bir \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zleri dikkatini \u00e7ekmi\u015f olacak ki, bana \u201cBir daha \u00e7al hele\u201d demi\u015fti.
\n\u00dcst \u00fcste \u00fc\u00e7 kez mi d\u00f6rt kez mi dinledik bilememi\u015ftim. Kendi dilinden, kendi memleketinden biri sanki onun derdini, hasretini, kederini f\u0131s\u0131lday\u0131vermi\u015f, dinledikten sonra da;
\n\u201cAdresinde yoklu\u011funu
\nK\u0131yamet bilerek,
\nSadece susarak \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum, \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum seni
\nHi\u00e7 tan\u0131madan ne garip, hi\u00e7 tan\u0131madan ne garip<\/p>\n
Sadece susarak \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum seni
\nHi\u00e7 tan\u0131madan, ne garip
\nSense uzak, \u00e7ok uzakta
\nBir deniz gibisin resimlerde\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNe g\u00fczel anlatm\u0131\u015f de\u011fil mi? Hasan ve H\u00fcseynimi\u2026\u201d demi\u015fti.
\nHozatl\u0131 G\u00fble \u2026 Foto\u011fraf\u0131 \u00e7eken makinenin karas\u0131 kadar, Kara Kaderli Daye*\u2026<\/p>\n
(*Daye: K\u00fcrt\u00e7e\/Zazaca\u2019da \u201cAnne\u201d anlam\u0131nda kullan\u0131lan kelime)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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