Ne zor \u015feymi\u015f unutmak seni.
\nNe bela \u015fey
\nTam unutur gibi oluyorum art\u0131k olmay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131.
\nCo\u011frafyaya ad\u0131n\u0131 veriyorlar.
\nBir y\u0131ld\u0131za resmin,
\nBir hayale de h\u00fczn\u00fcn kaz\u0131n\u0131yor.
\nVe daima,
\n\u00d6nce giden kazan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Sen gidince.
\n\u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00e7ocu\u011fu \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcm.
\nVe mezarl\u0131k \u00e7i\u00e7eklerine isyan etmeyi \u00f6\u011frettim kendime.
\nCenazelerde dik durmay\u0131,
\nSusmay\u0131 sonra.
\nEn g\u00fcl\u00fcnesi yerlerde susmay\u0131
\nFakir mahallemin kanad\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k parklar\u0131nda sabah\u0131 etmek d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda,
\nBirka\u00e7 g\u00fcnah daha \u00f6\u011frendim.
\nTanr\u0131m; \u00e7ok k\u0131zacaks\u0131n ama
\nUnuttum sonra.
\nCehenneme g\u00f6t\u00fcren g\u00fcnah\u0131 unuttum.<\/p>\n
Sen gidince.
\nSosyal sorumluluklar\u0131m azald\u0131.
\nK\u00f6t\u00fc al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar da edindim kendime.
\nMesela, m\u00fczi\u011fi damardan almaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.
\nYemek yemek ve nefes almak gibi mecburiyetlerden s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131m sonra.
\nYani utanmasam.
\nGece yata\u011fa a\u00e7 giren bebekten,
\nA\u011flar\u0131m gidi\u015fine.
\nMendil satan g\u00f6zleri ye\u015fil k\u0131zdan utanmasam,
\nA\u011flar\u0131m diyorum.
\nCesedi k\u0131y\u0131ya vurmu\u015f \u00e7ocuktan,
\nUtanmasam.<\/p>\n
Sen gidince.
\nBir harf eksilir.
\nHaritadan bir ye\u015fillik,
\nDenizden bir mavi,
\nBabadan bir tebess\u00fcm,
\nVeya bir hayal \u00e7ocuk beyninden\u2026
\nBende bir dert artar.
\nVe kahretsin,
\nArt\u0131k \u015fiirler cenneti anlatmaz.
\nVe kahretsin,
\nArt\u0131k \u015fiirler cenneti anlatmaz.<\/p>\n
Cennet dedim de, akl\u0131ma geldin.
\nG\u00f6zlerin nas\u0131l?
\n\u0130yiler mi?
\nOnlara g\u00f6z\u00fcn gibi bak.
\nBen i\u00e7ini bilirim.
\n\u015eimdi de kayboldu\u011fum yerimi.
\nSenden uzak,
\nVe so\u011fuk.<\/p>\n
Me\u011fer ne zormu\u015f unutmak seni.
\nRehberden ad\u0131n\u0131 silince,
\nNe bileyim.
\nBirka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sesine denk gelmeyince
\nGe\u00e7er sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m yoklu\u011funun genzimi yakan ac\u0131s\u0131.
\nAlt\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m sevday\u0131 sana \u015fik\u00e2yet ediyorum Rabbim.
\nYan\u0131ma koyma bunu,
\nRaz\u0131y\u0131m, yak bu duygumu.<\/p>\n
Sen gidince.
\nTek yanl\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn do\u011frular\u0131m\u0131 yan\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nVe isminle uykudan s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131nca dedim ki kendime.
\nBu sevda i\u015flerinin anayasada yeri olmal\u0131.
\nYa iki taraf da bitmeden gitmek olmamal\u0131.
\nYa da gidenlerin cenazesi kalan\u0131n omzuna y\u0131k\u0131lmamal\u0131.
\nSen gidince,
\nDedim ki kendime\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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