K\u0131z\u0131m\u00a0ve\u00a0O\u011fluma\u00a0ithafen\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015eunu da bilin ki, mallar\u0131n\u0131z ve evl\u00e2tlar\u0131n\u0131z bir imtihand\u0131r\u2026\u201d\u00a0ENFAL\u00a0\/\u00a028<\/p>\n
\u201cZaten umurunuzda de\u011filim ki\u201d diye sitem ediyorsun ya, belki de hakl\u0131s\u0131n \u00e7ocuk.<\/p>\n
Hen\u00fcz niyetine\u00a0bile girmemi\u015fken,\u00a0ad\u0131n\u0131n ne olaca\u011f\u0131na dair\u00a0sevimli\u00a0kavgam\u0131zd\u0131n ve sen bunu bilemezdin\u00a0\u00e7ocuk.\u00a0L\u00fctf-u \u0130lahiden\u00a0rahm-\u0131\u00a0mader\u2019e\u00a0d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimizde sen miydin yoksa biz miydik \u00e7ocuk?!<\/p>\n
Gecenin ka\u00e7\u0131 olursa olsun her g\u00fcn\u00fcne bir Yasin okunand\u0131n sen, \u00e7aresiz, kat\u0131ks\u0131z tevekk\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fcn yaratana kar\u015f\u0131 en ihlasl\u0131s\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n
Anne karn\u0131ndan el sallarken g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm o minik ellerini \u00e7ocuk, hi\u00e7 b\u0131rakmayaca\u011f\u0131m in\u015fallah diye i\u00e7imden yemin ederek.\u00a0\u015eimdiye kadar\u00a0ki hasrete dair hayallerimin en yo\u011funuydun sen, kavu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcne kadar y\u00fcr\u00fcmemi\u015fim ki zaten, bulutlar ta\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f beni, \u00f6yle diyordu annen.<\/p>\n
Sak\u0131n bana ilk bulu\u015ftu\u011fumuz g\u00fcn\u00fc sorma \u00e7ocuk, mahcup olurum!\u00a0O g\u00fcnden akl\u0131mda kalan,\u00a0bize cennetten getirdi\u011fin hediye kokun.\u00a0Ama a\u015fk olsun be \u00e7ocuk, bazen uykuyu unutturdun bazen yemek yemeyi, o g\u00fcnlerde bizi seyredip, g\u00f6rmesen de olurdu deliyi.<\/p>\n
Hakl\u0131s\u0131n belki de\u00a0\u00e7ocuk! Hi\u00e7 umurumuzda olmad\u0131n!<\/p>\n
\u201cAllah\u2019\u0131m ne olur ge\u00e7sin sanc\u0131s\u0131, uyusun\u201d\u00a0diye odan\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015fesinde, dizlerimiz \u00fczerinde sars\u0131larak a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 iyi ki g\u00f6rmedin \u00e7ocuk, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcn. Nazar de\u011fmeyen g\u00fcn\u00fcn yok gibiydi ama yats\u0131 namaz\u0131ndan sonra sakinle\u015fmen i\u00e7in bir battaniyede kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 sallay\u0131p okurken oturmadan hi\u00e7, sabah ezan\u0131 okunmu\u015ftu \u00e7ocuk.<\/p>\n
Ey g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne kurban oldu\u011fum, nas\u0131l \u00f6fkelenirdim\u00a0r\u00fczg\u00e2ra\u00a0bir\u00a0bilsen, de\u011fil mi ki\u00a0z\u00fcl\u00fcflerini da\u011f\u0131t\u0131yordu ve g\u00fcne\u015f tenini yakar diye hafakanlar\u00a0bas\u0131yordu. Kar taneleri elini dondurmas\u0131n\u00a0ey\u00a0emanet!\u00a0Ellerimde\u00a0sev sevecekken beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131skanan\u00a0kar\u2019\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Bizim i\u00e7in k\u0131yamet senin can\u0131n\u0131n yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 and\u0131,\u00a0\u00f6p\u00fcnce ge\u00e7er diyorduk,\u00a0sen sadece \u00f6pt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc san\u0131yordun ya, \u00f6pm\u00fcyor, can\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 can\u0131na \u00fcfl\u00fcyorduk \u00e7ocuk. Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc inand\u0131ramad\u0131k seni, oysa ger\u00e7ekten sen yedik\u00e7e biz doyard\u0131k, nas\u0131l anlat\u0131l\u0131r ki bu duygu bilemedik,\u00a0en iyisi bunu sana yavrular\u0131n anlats\u0131n \u00e7ocuk.<\/p>\n
Ad\u0131m\u0131 bir mele\u011fin sesinden duymaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlar, senin konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flay\u0131p \u201c Baba \u201c dedi\u011fin zamanlard\u0131. Moralim \u00e7ok bozuk oldu\u011funda i\u00e7i g\u00fclen g\u00f6zlerin hayat iksirim oluyor, dertlerimden ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ma\u011faram oluyordun \u00e7ocuk.\u00a0Biliyor musun?!\u00a0D\u00fcnyan\u0131n en lezzetli ekme\u011fini yiyordum, minnac\u0131k parmaklar\u0131nla kopart\u0131p bana uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n ekme\u011fi yerken.<\/p>\n
Hadi bana\u00a0hayalindeki cenneti tarif et dese biri, hi\u00e7 teredd\u00fct etmeden, \u201cbabammm\u201d\u00a0diye sard\u0131\u011f\u0131n kollar\u0131n derim yemin etmeye hacet b\u0131rakmayacak kadar\u00a0emin\u00a0kendimden.<\/p>\n
\u00d6nce Allah\u2019a sonra annene emanet edip gitti\u011fim askerde \u015fafak sayard\u0131 tertiplerim, benim \u015fafa\u011f\u0131m seninle kavu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnd\u00fc \u00e7ocuk. \u015eimdi yan\u0131mda arabam\u0131z\u0131 s\u00fcrerken sen, ben minicik seni izliyorum haberin yokken senin. Size g\u00f6re boyunuz boyumuza erdi hatta ge\u00e7ti, rica ederim aldatmay\u0131n kendinizi, hala kuca\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda oldu\u011funuzdand\u0131r bizden uzun duru\u015funuz.<\/p>\n
Annen hala anlat\u0131p g\u00fcler bana, uykumuzdayken, ac\u0131k\u0131p m\u0131r\u0131ldanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda\u00a0sen, seni p\u0131\u015fp\u0131\u015fl\u0131yormu\u015fum uykumda kendi g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme vururken ben. Ben de g\u00fcld\u00fcm \u015fimdi \u00e7ocuk,\u00a0umursamazl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131m da,\u00a0ben de g\u00fcld\u00fcm, me\u011fer hi\u00e7 umursamam\u0131\u015f\u0131z seni \u00e7ocuk.<\/p>\n
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015farken annen, uyuyan sen de\u011fildin ki \u00e7ocuk, bizim g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz hep melekti. Sen biberonuna, ben senin yumuk ellerine sar\u0131l\u0131yordum ve \u00f6ylece uyuya kal\u0131yorduk sen dizlerimde,\u00a0ben kanepeye yaslanm\u0131\u015f halde \u00f6ylece. Tel\u00a0tel\u00a0alt\u0131n m\u0131 taramak istersin yoksa sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 m\u0131 baba diye sorma, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcme ferman \u00e7\u0131karsa bir g\u00fcn, urgan\u0131m sa\u00e7lar\u0131n olsun \u00e7ocuk.<\/p>\n
Biliyorum; \u00e7ok uzatt\u0131m, \u00e7ok da uzatabilirim asl\u0131nda \u00e7ocuk.<\/p>\n
Ve sen hakl\u0131s\u0131n!\u00a0Umurumuzda de\u011filsin \u00e7ocuk. Sevdirenin hat\u0131r\u0131na sevece\u011fiz seni ihtar-\u0131 ilahi i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n
Sevdiren olmasayd\u0131 ne olurdun sen, ne olurdu\u00a0sevenin?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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