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Zile bas\u0131yor Nam\u0131k Bey, yine her zamanki utanga\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla. Aylardan Kas\u0131m, haftan\u0131n son i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc. D\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131 kar, k\u0131yamet. Kap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor, g\u00fclen g\u00f6zleriyle \u00e7ocuklar kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131yor bizi; daha do\u011frusu Nam\u0131k Beyi. B\u00f6yle \u015feyleri olur olmad\u0131k \u00fcst\u00fcme al\u0131n\u0131yorum, ke\u015fke benim de \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m olsa diyorum. Kuma\u015f k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fu mu olurmu\u015f? Hi\u00e7\u2026<\/p>\n
Nam\u0131k Bey, portmantoya as\u0131yor beni, ev s\u0131cac\u0131k. Portmantodan onlar\u0131 izliyorum. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcyor Nam\u0131k Bey, onlara sar\u0131l\u0131yor; g\u00fcn\u00fcn yorgunlu\u011funu adeta onlarla at\u0131yor. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde y\u0131llar\u0131n birikintisi, tebess\u00fcm\u00fcnde y\u0131llar\u0131n \u00f6\u011fretilerini g\u00f6zlemliyorum. Bu zamanda muallim olmak kolay i\u015f mi? Ekmek aslan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda de\u011fil, midesinde. Herkesi ya\u015famak tela\u015f\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015f. N\u2019aps\u0131n muallim Nam\u0131k Bey, her sabah b\u00fcy\u00fck bir umutla beni s\u0131rt\u0131na ge\u00e7irip okula gider; bor\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, taksitlerini \u00f6deyebilmek i\u00e7in var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Eve geldi\u011finde \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n g\u00f6zlerindeki bir damla umut onu hayata ba\u011flar. Bu aralar kar\u0131s\u0131 G\u00fclnihal Han\u0131m ile aralar\u0131 pek limoni. Ge\u00e7im derdinden\u2026 Ge\u00e7en aydan kalan do\u011falgaz faturas\u0131n\u0131 hala \u00f6deyememi\u015f Nam\u0131k Bey, at\u0131\u015f\u0131p dururlar her ak\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Duyar\u0131m, mutfaktan kap\u0131 giri\u015fine kadar gelir sesleri. \u00dcz\u00fcl\u00fcr\u00fcm hallerine, iki \u00fc\u00e7 kelam edecek olurum; \u00e7\u0131kar m\u0131 ki kuma\u015f k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n sesi? Hi\u00e7\u2026 Benimki de bir umut i\u015fte. Bu ak\u015fam da di\u011fer ak\u015famlar gibi, hatta daha beter bir vaziyet hissedilmekte. G\u00fclnihal Han\u0131m, a\u011fl\u0131yor. B\u0131km\u0131\u015f kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z, bu d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalmaktan, giderin diz boyu kap\u0131ya dayanmas\u0131ndan, ya\u015fayamamaktan\u2026 \u00a0Biraz da pi\u015fman olmu\u015f, sesinden belli. Be\u015f sene \u00f6nce varlar\u0131n\u0131 yoklar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p bu koca \u015fehre geldi\u011fi i\u00e7in i\u00e7i yan\u0131yor, besbelli. \u201cSatal\u0131m Nam\u0131k\u201d diyor, her \u015feyi satal\u0131m. Uzakla\u015fal\u0131m bu kentten, bu ta\u015f duvarlardan, samimiyetsiz, \u00e7\u0131karc\u0131 insan y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131ndan\u201d Susuyor Nam\u0131k Bey. Gece oluyor, kapkara sulara g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyor g\u00fcn. Herkes ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir g\u00fcne uyanabilmek umuduyla g\u00f6zlerini geceye teslim ediyor.<\/p>\n
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Saat sabah 08.30. G\u00fcnlerden cumartesi. Nam\u0131k Bey, bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla beni ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi ko\u015fuyor sokaklarda, bir eskici d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131na giriyoruz.\u00a0 \u201cKa\u00e7 y\u0131ll\u0131k, ama satmam gerekiyor. Tek dostum. Az kahr\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ekmedi\u201d diyor. G\u00f6zlerim doluyor. \u00d6zleyecek gibi oluyorum \u015fimdiden Nam\u0131k Bey\u2019i, i\u00e7im ac\u0131yor. Eline birka\u00e7 lira s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, beni b\u0131rak\u0131p kendi d\u00fcnyas\u0131na \u00e7ekiliyor.<\/p>\n
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\nAylardan Ocak. Bu sabah yine her zamanki gibi yaln\u0131z\u0131m. Duydu\u011fuma g\u00f6re Nam\u0131k Bey ve e\u015fi G\u00fclnihal Han\u0131m, k\u00f6ylerine d\u00f6nmek \u00fczereyken yolda kaza ge\u00e7irip hayatlar\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fler. Kokusunu hissediyorum birden, i\u00e7ime \u00e7ekiyorum. Ne g\u00fczel adamd\u0131 Nam\u0131k Bey, hayat\u0131n ko\u015fu\u015fturmacas\u0131 i\u00e7inde kaybolup yitti, geriye iki g\u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 yavrucak b\u0131rakt\u0131. Her \u015feyi b\u0131rakal\u0131m diye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 bu yolculukta hayat onlar\u0131 yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakt\u0131. Akmayan g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 siliyorum, bu karanl\u0131k bo\u015f odada sessiz bir uykuya dal\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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