Duman\u0131 t\u00fcten bir bardak \u00e7ay m\u0131, yoksa kokusunu ta i\u00e7inize \u00e7ekti\u011finiz bir fincan kahve mi, nedir hasbihale yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z?
\n\u015eehrin g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcnden uzak k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esi mi yoksa yer minderlerinde, sesi y\u00fcre\u011finizi \u0131s\u0131tan bir dostun nameleriyle dolu d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131 m\u0131? Fark\u0131 yok de\u011fil mi?
\nZaman\u0131n ve mekan\u0131n kendini kaybetti\u011fi yerlerin ba\u015f\u0131nda gelmez mi hasbihal. Akrep ile yelkovan\u0131n ko\u015fturmas\u0131n\u0131 fark edemedi\u011fimiz, s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131-so\u011fu\u011fu hissedemedi\u011fimiz, sohbet demini al\u0131nca benli\u011fin ortadan kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlar.
\nY\u00fcrek dolusu anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, y\u00fcrek dolusu dinledi\u011fimiz belki bir o kadar sustu\u011fumuz zaman dilimleri.
\nHayat\u0131 anlaml\u0131 k\u0131lan, tad\u0131 muhakkak dima\u011fa yerle\u015fen, hevesle \u00fcmitle \u00f6zlemle bekledi\u011fimiz, hasretini \u00a0\u00e7ekti\u011fimiz fas\u0131llar.
\nKendimiz gibi oldu\u011fumuz, c\u00fcmlelerin hesaps\u0131z ak\u0131p gitti\u011fi yerler.
\nDilden d\u00f6k\u00fclenlerin y\u00fcrekten ta\u015fanlar oldu\u011fu muhatab\u0131n bir kelimesini dahi ziyan etmeme ad\u0131na hassas olunan demler.
\nEn son ne zaman ya\u015fad\u0131m b\u00f6yle bir an-\u0131 seyyale diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce cevab\u0131 \u00e7ok gerilerde ar\u0131yorsan\u0131z, durdurun zaman\u0131. Her \u015feyi \u201cdaha \u00e7ok\u201d k\u0131lmak i\u00e7in \u00e7abalaman\u0131n, d\u00fcnya heng\u00e2mesinin i\u00e7inde, nefes ald\u0131racak tatlar yoksa \u201cdaha \u00e7ok\u201d olmas\u0131n\u0131n ne anlam\u0131 kal\u0131r ki?
\nZaman\u0131 durdurmak elbet m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil, yava\u015flatal\u0131m o halde.
\nBir dostla hemhal olmay\u0131, ailece yap\u0131lan keyifli sohbetleri, -d\u00fcnyan\u0131n h\u0131z\u0131na ald\u0131rmadan- y\u00fcrek dolusu hissetmenin g\u00fczelli\u011fini sa\u011flayacak zamanlar\u0131 \u00e7o\u011faltal\u0131m hayat\u0131m\u0131zda. Ta ki g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hakim olsun her simada.
\nYa\u015fam\u0131n anlam\u0131 biraz da bu de\u011fil mi? Vedud isminin tecellisi biraz da bu de\u011fil mi veya ruhlar\u0131n diri kalmas\u0131n\u0131n? Hasbihal sonras\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn daha g\u00fczel olmas\u0131, her insan\u0131n daha de\u011ferli hale gelmesi, renklerin daha ma\u011frur, hayat\u0131n daha anlaml\u0131, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n daha ya\u015fan\u0131l\u0131r olmas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek ba\u015fka nas\u0131l a\u00e7\u0131klanabilir ki?
\nHer g\u00fcn de\u011fil her an yeni bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 i\u00e7in sebep. \u015eimdi ba\u015flama vakti, hayat\u0131m\u0131zda yer edenlerin \u00f6nem s\u0131ras\u0131na g\u00f6z atma vakti. Sadece can bildi\u011fimiz dostlarla de\u011fil, masadaki mor menek\u015feyle, kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki \u00e7imenle, akvaryumdaki bal\u0131kla, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn her tonuyla en \u00f6nemlisi aynada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz ki\u015fiyle, \u00f6z benli\u011fimizle hasbihal vakti. Kimin kaybedecek zaman\u0131 var ki veya hangi zaman kaybedilecek kadar de\u011fersiz ki?
\nBu da hasbihalin hasbihali oldu sanki. Kalem, ka\u011f\u0131tla g\u00f6n\u00fcl aras\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131 durdu, yorulmadan usanmadan. \u201cVazifem bu\u201d demedi kalem, \u201cHasbihalde yerim olsun kafi.\u201d dedi devam etti d\u00f6nmeye.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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