Hi\u00e7 g\u00fcne\u015fe \u00e7\u0131plak g\u00f6zle bakt\u0131n\u0131z m\u0131? \u0130nsan\u0131n g\u00f6zleri ne kadar ac\u0131r bilmelisiniz. Uzun zamand\u0131r g\u00fcne\u015fe \u00e7\u0131plak g\u00f6zle bakmak yetmiyormu\u015f gibi g\u00fcne\u015fe do\u011fru yol al\u0131yorum. G\u00f6zlerim halini sormaya gerek bile yok.
\nV\u00fccudumun her yerinde hissediyorum g\u00fcne\u015fin yakan ate\u015fini. Ellerime bak\u0131yorum. Hen\u00fcz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrde bir \u015fey yok fakat bir yabanc\u0131 dokunsa fark eder elbet, yan\u0131yorum.
\n\u00d6yle bir yan\u0131yorum ki, hangi bir yanarda\u011f\u0131n ate\u015fiyle tarif edebilece\u011fimi bilmiyorum bu ate\u015fi. Sanki, en sevdiklerinden hi\u00e7 ummad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duymu\u015f gibi. Sanki, art\u0131k duymamak i\u00e7in kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0131kamak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015f gibi.
\nDaha da yakla\u015f\u0131yorum g\u00fcne\u015fe bu sefer k\u0131yafetlerime tak\u0131l\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerim. G\u00f6mle\u011fimin ucu tutu\u015fmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Ne yapay\u0131m nas\u0131l s\u00f6nd\u00fcreyim demeye kalmadan pantolonum da alev al\u0131yor. Yanmaya ba\u015flayan k\u0131yafetlerimden \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc galiba, t\u00fcm v\u00fccudum ac\u0131yor \u015fimdi. Lakin y\u00fcre\u011fime s\u0131\u00e7ramad\u0131 hala ac\u0131s\u0131.
\nK\u0131yafetlerimin k\u00fcl olmas\u0131 bile engellemiyor hala yol al\u0131yorum g\u00fcne\u015fe. Yalvar\u0131yorum beni o yolda zorla ittirenlere, k\u0131yafetlerimiz diyorum yan\u0131p k\u00fcl oldular. Bak\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcze ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za, tozdan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey kalmad\u0131 geriye. Ne olur diyorum d\u00f6nelim geriye, daha ilerisi i\u00e7imize d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrecek koru. Aman diyorum. Ama b\u0131rak\u0131n dikkate almay\u0131 kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0131kayan ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor; \u201cBu tozdan ve k\u00fclden k\u0131yafetler y\u0131llardan hasretini \u00e7ekti\u011fimiz \u015feylerdi, g\u00fcne\u015fe yol ald\u0131ranlara selam olsun!\u201d
\nH\u0131zla yol al\u0131yoruz. Art\u0131k vard\u0131m say\u0131l\u0131r, neden bilmiyorum en \u00f6n\u00fcnde ben var\u0131m seyahat edenlerin. Kaderin cilvesi belki de ama bu bana gerimde olanlara g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimi s\u00f6yleme imk\u00e2n\u0131 tan\u0131yor. Arkam\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp tekrar sesleniyorum \u2018insanlar\u0131ma\u2019; \u201cAte\u015f art\u0131k y\u00fcre\u011fime var\u0131yor yine de devam edecek miyiz?\u201d
\nHep beraber \u00e7\u0131nlat\u0131yorlar evreni \u201cG\u00fcne\u015fe yol ald\u0131rana selam olsun!\u201d
\nDiyorum ki, \u201cYanaca\u011f\u0131z o halde, vars\u0131n yanal\u0131m.\u201d En ba\u015fta ben yanaca\u011f\u0131m diyorum. Belki beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce d\u00f6nerler gerisin geri diye can\u0131m\u0131 di\u015fime tak\u0131p h\u0131z\u0131ma h\u0131z kat\u0131yorum. Art\u0131k onlar\u0131 geride b\u0131rakt\u0131m say\u0131l\u0131r. Lakin gittik\u00e7e t\u00fcm v\u00fccuduma \u00e7arpan ate\u015f art\u0131k y\u00fcre\u011fimin derinliklerine kadar vard\u0131. Alev alan v\u00fccudum de\u011fil de y\u00fcre\u011fim \u00f6yle bir ac\u0131t\u0131yor ki can\u0131m\u0131, bunca ac\u0131ya ra\u011fmen arkamdaki kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n gelmesine kendim dahi \u015fa\u015f\u0131yorum. Hemen arkam\u0131 d\u00f6neyim de s\u00f6yleyeyim buras\u0131 yang\u0131n yeri, geri d\u00f6ns\u00fcnler. S\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6nmemle beynimden vurulmam bir oluyor. Bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n insan g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum \u00fczerlerinde hi\u00e7 bir k\u0131yafet kalmam\u0131\u015f, elleri ve al\u0131nlar\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fin s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131ndan kapkara olmu\u015f. \u00d6yle h\u0131zl\u0131 yol al\u0131yorlar ki bu y\u00f6ne, y\u00fcreklerinin yanmamas\u0131 imk\u00e2ns\u0131z. Ama yanm\u0131yorlar, hi\u00e7 birinin y\u00fcre\u011fine kor d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcyor.
\nBen diyorum r\u00fcya g\u00f6r\u00fcyor olmal\u0131y\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olamaz. Sonra okudu\u011fum bir kitap geliyor akl\u0131ma g\u00f6zleri var olup g\u00f6rmeyenlerden kulaklar\u0131 var olup i\u015fitmeyenlerden bahseden. Diyorum ki, y\u00fcrekler var olup yanmayabiliyormu\u015f demek ki.
\nBen de d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc tekrar g\u00fcne\u015fe. Son s\u00fcrat yola devam ediyorum, mecburen.
\nYanaca\u011f\u0131m elbet herkes gibi fakat y\u00fcre\u011fim de yan\u0131yor ya, ne mutlu. Art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir ate\u015f beni y\u00fcreksizlik kadar yakamaz.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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