\u0130lk gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131md\u0131. Dokuz Eyl\u00fcl \u00dcniversitesi, Rehberlik ve Psikolojik Dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131k b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde \u00f6\u011frenci oldu\u011fum y\u0131llar. E\u011fitim-\u00f6\u011fretim d\u00f6nemi boyunca al\u0131\u015fk\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yo\u011funluktaki hayat ak\u0131\u015f\u0131, trafi\u011fi, kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile bo\u011fuldu\u011fum \u0130zmir\u2019den, son final s\u0131nav\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kar \u00e7\u0131kmaz yine \u0130zmir\u2019in en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck il\u00e7esi Beyda\u011f\u2019a ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131llar. Sessizlik, s\u00fckunet ve huzuru buldu\u011fum yer. Anadolu\u2019nun k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir beldesinde do\u011fup b\u00fcy\u00fcyen, huzuru ye\u015filde arayan birisi i\u00e7in b\u0131rak\u0131n \u0130stanbul\u2019u, \u0130zmir\u2019in kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 bile \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 olabilir. \u0130lk otob\u00fcsle, elimde bavulum, omzumda gitar\u0131m sevgiliye gider gibi giderdim o zamanlar da\u011f ete\u011finde kurulmu\u015f, ye\u015fil g\u00f6zl\u00fc, mavi ba\u015fl\u0131 bu s\u00fckunet beldesine.
\nGitar\u0131m\u0131n bana en g\u00fczel yolda\u015f oldu\u011fu, her t\u00fcrl\u00fc derdimi, mutlulu\u011fumu, heyecan\u0131m\u0131 onunla payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne de g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlerdi o g\u00fcnler.<\/p>\n
M\u00fczi\u011fe olan merak\u0131m ve ilgim k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme dayan\u0131r benim. Hen\u00fcz ilkokul y\u0131llar\u0131nda t\u00f6renlerde, kutlamalarda sahneye \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeye bay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk hafta, elimdeki neredeyse t\u00fcm parayla gidip bir gitar alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Gitarla b\u00f6ylelikle ba\u015flayan ve sonras\u0131nda tutkuya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fen ili\u015fkimizin do\u011fumu, tam da 1999 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n eyl\u00fcl ay\u0131na denk gelir.<\/p>\n
M\u00fczik tutkunu, hemen her gencin en \u00e7ok \u00e7almak isteyece\u011fi iki m\u00fczik aletinden biridir gitar. Ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fczik tarz\u0131na, yeti\u015fti\u011fi k\u00fclt\u00fcre g\u00f6re ya gitar yada ba\u011flama \u00e7almak ister ortalama bir Anadolu \u00e7ocu\u011fu. Ben de, dinlemekten ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fczik t\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn etkisinden olsa gerek gitar \u00e7almay\u0131 tercih etmi\u015f olmal\u0131y\u0131m o y\u0131llarda.<\/p>\n
Yaz ak\u015famlar\u0131nda, bir kumsalda, yak\u0131lan ate\u015fin etraf\u0131nda, k\u0131zl\u0131-erkekli gruplar\u0131n kendinden ge\u00e7ip, gitar e\u015fli\u011finde, kimi zaman romantik, kimi zaman co\u015fkulu \u015fark\u0131lar s\u00f6yledi\u011fi film sahnelerini mutlaka g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn\u00fczd\u00fcr ya da, b\u00f6yle bir sahneyi ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r hayat\u0131n\u0131zda. Benim hayat\u0131mda ise b\u00f6yle bir sahne hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131. Gitar\u0131m\u0131n tellerine dokundu\u011fum \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 mekanlar oldu elbette. Bu mekanlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde kafeler, parklar, \u00fcniversite bah\u00e7eleri, deniz k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131 da vard\u0131 muhakkak. Ama benim hayat\u0131mda as\u0131l iz b\u0131rakan yaz ak\u015famlar\u0131nda gitar \u00e7al\u0131p, \u015fark\u0131lar s\u00f6yledi\u011fim, memleketimdeki bir dut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 oldu. O dut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda yaz ak\u015famlar\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131p s\u00f6yledi\u011fim \u015fark\u0131lar, bug\u00fcn hala haf\u0131zamdaki tazeli\u011fini korur ve o yaz ak\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131 hasretle yad ederim. O g\u00fcnlerdeki dinleyicilerimi ise stadlar\u0131, konser salonlar\u0131n\u0131 dolduran, d\u00fcnya star\u0131 \u015fark\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131n dinleyici kitlelerine de\u011fi\u015fmem.
\nPeki kim miydi bu dinleyicilerim?
\nYa\u015f\u0131 70\u2019e dayanm\u0131\u015f ihtiyar teyzeler, mahallemizden her ya\u015f grubundan \u00e7ocuklar ve gen\u00e7ler, orta ya\u015fl\u0131 kom\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z, yaz tatilini akrabalar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda ge\u00e7irmeye gelen misafirler ve yoldan ge\u00e7enler\u2026<\/p>\n
Her ak\u015fam yats\u0131 namaz\u0131ndan \u00f6nce bir ayin, bir t\u00f6ren i\u00e7in toplan\u0131r gibi toplanan bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en farkl\u0131 ve benim i\u00e7in en \u00f6zel dinleyici kitlesinin, bug\u00fcn\u00fcn kirli ve yapay g\u00fcndeminden uzak, samimi, s\u0131cac\u0131k, toprak kokan sohbetleri, i\u00e7ilen \u00e7aylar\u0131n doyumsuz lezzeti, sonsuzlu\u011fa uzanan yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f \u015fark\u0131lar, hat\u0131ralar.<\/p>\n
\u0130htiyar teyzeler i\u00e7in \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m t\u00fcrk\u00fcler, gen\u00e7ler ve \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m pop \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131, \u00f6zg\u00fcn m\u00fczik se\u00e7meleri ve hemen her gece ge\u00e7 saatlerde Fikret K\u0131z\u0131lok\u2019un \u201cG\u00f6n\u00fcl\u201d adl\u0131 \u015fark\u0131s\u0131 ile yap\u0131lan kapan\u0131\u015f. \u015eimdilerde anl\u0131yorum ki bir rit\u00fcele ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f\u0131z asl\u0131nda biz bu minik konserleri. \u00d6nce g\u00f6n\u00fcllerini asla k\u0131r(a)mayaca\u011f\u0131m, \u00f6p\u00fclesi pamuk ellerin sahibi, Anadolu kokulu ihtiyar teyzelerin t\u00fcrk\u00fcleri ile ba\u015flayan, uyku saatini ge\u00e7irmeden \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131nan pop \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 ile devam eden, ihtiyar teyzelerin ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131ndan sonra \u00f6zg\u00fcn m\u00fczik par\u00e7alar\u0131 ile s\u00fcren ve \u201cG\u00f6n\u00fcl\u201d ile sonlanan geceler\u2026<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn hala memlekete her gitti\u011fimde, o dut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan her ge\u00e7i\u015fimde, i\u00e7imi titreten hat\u0131ralar\u0131n, yar\u0131m kalan \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n, hasretlerin, birbirinden farkl\u0131 hayat hikayelerinin, o dut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n dallar\u0131nda as\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve ruhuna sindi\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcm. Bir g\u00fcn cesaretimi toplayabilirsem, o a\u011fac\u0131n dallar\u0131nda as\u0131l\u0131 kalan t\u00fcm an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 heybeme doldurup getirece\u011fim yan\u0131mda. Mezar\u0131ma o a\u011fa\u00e7tan kopar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir dal dikilmesini, heybemle birlikte g\u00f6m\u00fclmeyi vasiyet edece\u011fim. Ve sonsuza kadar saklayaca\u011f\u0131m, o an\u0131lar\u0131 koynumda.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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