Ka\u011f\u0131t \u00f6zlem duyuyor kalemime, onlar birbirine a\u015f\u0131k bense onlar\u0131n a\u015fk\u0131nda bir perde.<\/p>\n
Tutsa\u011f\u0131m sevdalar\u0131na. K\u00fcrd\u00ee sazsema\u00eesi \u00e7alarken gidip geliyor g\u00f6zlerim, ba\u015f\u0131m; bir ileri bir geri.<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnyan\u0131n en g\u00fczel \u015fiirini yazmak isterken en g\u00fczelin asl\u0131nda bir yok olu\u015f oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m. \u015eiirin ta kendisi oldum sonra. Kalemim yine darg\u0131n yine k\u00fcsk\u00fcn bana. K\u0131z\u0131yor onlar\u0131 bulu\u015fturmad\u0131m diye. Bak\u0131\u015famad\u0131lar tabi uzun uzun. Halini hat\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 soramad\u0131 dertli kalemim. \u0130\u00e7ini d\u00f6ker gibi ak\u0131tamad\u0131 m\u00fcrekkebini \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da.<\/p>\n
O da \u015fu bizim s\u00eenesi geni\u015f yi\u011fitler gibi renk ay\u0131rt etmez hi\u00e7. Siyah olsa rengini de\u011fi\u015ftirir beyaz taraf\u0131yla yazar, beyaz olsa siyah taraf\u0131yla yazar.<\/p>\n
A\u015fka d\u00e2ir sazsema\u00eesi \u00e7al\u0131yor ya! En sevdi\u011fi\u2026<\/p>\n
Sonras\u0131 i\u015fte ben dayanam\u0131yorum onlar\u0131 b\u00f6yle izlerken. Sanki g\u00f6zlerimden de\u011fil de b\u00f6yle kalbimden \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k bir \u015feyler akt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyorum. Usta bir m\u00fczisyen kanuna nas\u0131l dokunuyorsa usul usul \u00f6yle gibi i\u015fte\u2026<\/p>\n
Kalem diyordum kalem.<\/p>\n
Ne de olsa b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fklara \u015fahit olan kenarlar\u0131 yak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t bir de kalem.<\/p>\n
Kimi defalarca denenmi\u015f buru\u015fturulup bir kenara f\u0131rlat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir mektup. Ne diyece\u011fine karar veremeden. Sevgili diye mi yoksa c\u00e2n\u00e2n\u0131m diye mi ba\u015flasam deyip karar verememi\u015f, atm\u0131\u015f \u00f6ylece. Kimisi de u\u00e7ak yapm\u0131\u015f, kom\u015fu k\u0131z\u0131n penceresine u\u00e7urmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Kalemim g\u00fcl\u00fcyor. Ucuna bir balon ba\u011flay\u0131p g\u00f6nderse daha g\u00fczel u\u00e7ar diyor belki de. \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle olurken her \u015fey kendince, ben de izliyor, bak\u0131yor ve h\u00fcz\u00fcnleniyorum kendimce.<\/p>\n
Gitmelere gurbet, kavu\u015fmalara vusl\u00e2t demi\u015fler. Peki, ben g\u00f6n\u00fcl yaram kabuk ba\u011flarken ne demeliyim ona? Gel kalemim gel de ak\u0131t \u0131zd\u0131rapl\u0131 m\u00fcrekkebini bu gece. Masum a\u015fk \u00e7aladursun plakta. \u015e\u00f6yle demli, \u015fekersiz birer \u00e7ay i\u00e7sek gelsen de. Ama bak, k\u0131\u015f gecelerinde gel olur mu? Hem i\u00e7imiz \u0131s\u0131ns\u0131n, hem de k\u0131\u015f geceleri uzun olur, doya doya sohbet ederiz seninle keyfimizce. Ellerimi tut, birbirimizin ellerini \u0131s\u0131tal\u0131m k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczdeki gibi. \u015eark\u0131lar s\u00f6yle kadife sesinle. Ruhuma bir ruh \u00fcfle. Da\u011f\u0131ls\u0131n gecenin efk\u00e2rl\u0131 karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, ne\u015f\u2019e gelsin g\u00f6zlerimize. Bak, \u0131s\u0131nd\u0131k bile. Hayali bile g\u00fczeldi. Ah be dertli kalem!<\/p>\n
Sinedekileri d\u00f6kt\u00fc bile, yakt\u0131 bile, da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131 yine beni bu gece de.<\/p>\n
\u0130yi geceler g\u00fczel \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar, kalemler ve ka\u011f\u0131tlar, \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar ve a\u015fk\u0131 bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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