\u0130\u00e7imde derin bir okyanus var \u015fimdi. Simsiyah sulardan griye boyanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcme a\u00e7\u0131lan, f\u0131rt\u0131naya kar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fccadele eden gemilerim.<\/p>\n
Meftun bir hal benimkisi. Ak\u0131l erdiremedi\u011fim, do\u011fruyu yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131 ay\u0131rt edemedi\u011fim. Yollar\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131p kayboldu\u011fum bir hal. \u0130\u00e7im alevler i\u00e7inde, d\u0131\u015f\u0131m buzdan bir kale adeta. T\u00fcm d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlerimi yanl\u0131\u015f ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f, ka\u00e7an ya\u011fmurlar\u0131ma sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibiyim.<\/p>\n
Gitmekle gelmek aras\u0131nda \u015fimdi gemim. Yoksa gitmek de gelmek midir asl\u0131nda? Mesela ya\u011fmur buluttan topra\u011fa gidip sonra bir daha d\u00f6ner mi buluta? Bir d\u00f6ng\u00fc m\u00fc bu gidip gelmeler? Ortas\u0131 olmayan bir i\u015f bu. Bizim g\u00f6remedi\u011fimiz, zaman\u0131 gelince bize g\u00f6sterilen bir mukadderat asl\u0131nda. Ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131 olmayan, her an\u0131nda imtihana tabi tutulan kay\u0131tlardan ibaret.<\/p>\n
Griye boyanmasa g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc verir miydi ki ya\u011fmurlar\u0131?<\/p>\n
Sonbahar olmasa u\u011frar m\u0131yd\u0131 ilkbahar?<\/p>\n
Zahmet olmadan olur muydu rahmet?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Do\u011fru liman\u0131 bulmaksa bu gidip gelmeler\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cGemilerim b\u0131rak\u0131n kendinizi sulara, simsiyah sular bir g\u00fcn akla\u015f\u0131r, gri g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcm bir g\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r elbet.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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