Bir rengi var m\u0131d\u0131r yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, ya da bir kokusu hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc?<\/p>\n
Son g\u00fcnlerde yo\u011fun hissetti\u011fimiz duygular\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda geliyor yaln\u0131zl\u0131k denen duygu.<\/p>\n
Sa\u011f\u0131ma bakt\u0131m, soluma bakt\u0131m. Bir \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n nakarat\u0131n\u0131 gibi tekrar eder gibi tekrar ediyor herkes, beni kimse anlam\u0131yor yapayaln\u0131z\u0131m diye. Sahi anlamak m\u0131d\u0131r zor olan, yoksa anla\u015f\u0131lmak m\u0131? Ki\u015filik kal\u0131b\u0131m\u0131zda en \u00e7ok hangi taraf a\u011f\u0131r basar hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck m\u00fc? Hi\u00e7 akl\u0131n\u0131za geldi mi anla\u015f\u0131lmak i\u00e7in anlaman\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131na vak\u0131f olmak gerekti\u011fi, i\u011fneyi ba\u015fkalar\u0131na bat\u0131rman\u0131n verdi\u011fi ac\u0131y\u0131, kendine bat\u0131rmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fin zaman zorla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131?<\/p>\n
Zaman i\u00e7inde kaybolup gitmektir biraz da yaln\u0131zl\u0131k. Kalabal\u0131klar i\u00e7inde sol yan\u0131n\u0131n seninle olmamas\u0131d\u0131r ayn\u0131 zamanda. Bir taraf\u0131n eksik olmas\u0131 ve yerini hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin dolduramad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir duygudur yaln\u0131zl\u0131k. Ayn\u0131 yolda y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye azmetti\u011fin yol arkada\u015flar\u0131n taraf\u0131ndan tek ba\u015f\u0131na b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerde bekler seni sessizce. Hatta ayn\u0131 davada, ayn\u0131 ruhta hayat\u0131n\u0131 birle\u015ftirdi\u011fin, ayn\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f koydu\u011fun yol arkada\u015f\u0131n senin g\u00f6z\u00fcnden akan ya\u015f\u0131n sebebini bilemiyor ve silemiyorsa yaln\u0131zs\u0131n. Ayn\u0131 evde ne\u015fet etti\u011fin annen, baban, karde\u015flerin bile duygular\u0131na dokunam\u0131yor temas edemiyorsa i\u015fte o zaman sar\u0131p sarmalar seni yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Bir renk arars\u0131n ve onunla \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015fsin istersin. Bir kokusu olsa da \u00e7eksem i\u00e7ime bir \u201cOh\u201d desem dersin, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bast\u0131racak. \u00c7eksem i\u00e7ime ve dinse t\u00fcm ac\u0131lar\u0131m, bast\u0131rsa t\u00fcm hasretlerimi diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
Ama yoktur bunun ilac\u0131 ya da \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Ta ki bu hali sana hediye edeni fark edece\u011fin ana kadar. \u0130\u015fte orada \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcr d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7ilir ve hakiki \u201cdosta\u201d eri\u015filir.<\/p>\n
Ve bu dost her daim seni bekliyordur asl\u0131nda anca fark edersin. Yar olur sana yaren olur. Sana senden yak\u0131n, senin onu sevdi\u011finden daha fazla seviyordur seni. Yarat\u0131lan her \u015feyi emrine amade k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r da sen g\u00f6rmemi\u015fsindir perdeli g\u00f6zlerinle.<\/p>\n
Hadi o zaman ne duruyorsun ovala g\u00f6zlerini, at \u00fczerinden uyku mahmurlu\u011funu ve niyet et sadece. B\u0131rak kendini onun rahmet iklimine ve arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Kendine rehber et, ne olur tut ellerimden beni bana b\u0131rakma diye yalvar yakar adeta. Tut ellerimden tut ki edemem sensiz de ve inle gecelerde. \u0130\u015fte o zaman yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n Sana vermi\u015f oldu\u011fu hediyeye ula\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n hem de bir daha kaybetmemecesine. \u0130\u015fte o zaman yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ula\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f seni ula\u015ft\u0131raca\u011f\u0131 en sevgili yare, s\u0131rda\u015f\u0131na ve arkada\u015f\u0131na.<\/p>\n
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