\u2018\u2019Bir varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutkuyla ve nam\u00fctenahi bir \u00f6zlemle sevme. Ayaklar\u0131 yerden kesen, dizlerin ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zen, kar\u0131nda kelebekler u\u00e7u\u015fturan, y\u00fcre\u011fi yerinden s\u00f6ken, akl\u0131 ba\u015ftan alan tarifsiz sevda.\u2019\u2019 Diyorlard\u0131 a\u015fk\u2019a. Uzun s\u00fcredir kendini dinle(ye)memenin verdi\u011fi can s\u0131kk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla a\u00e7t\u0131 l\u00fcgati. \u00d6n\u00fcne ilk \u00e7\u0131kan kelimeydi a\u015fk. Yan\u0131nda da Nazan Bekiro\u011flu\u2019nun c\u00fcmlesi,\u2018\u2019\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc a\u015fk k\u00fcllidir. B\u00fct\u00fcnler, bir\u2019ler.\u2019\u2019Ne zamand\u0131r g\u00f6nl\u00fcndeki soru i\u015faretiydi a\u015fk. Neydi? Kime ya da neye g\u00f6reydi? Nas\u0131l sahip olunulurdu? Ya da herkeste bulunur muydu?<\/p>\n
Bir de sevda kelimesi vard\u0131. \u00c7o\u011fu insan\u0131n sevda ve a\u015fk kelimelerine birmi\u015f muamelesi yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131. Oysa e\u011fer iki s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn manas\u0131 ayn\u0131 olsayd\u0131, iki farkl\u0131 terim kullan\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131? Kafas\u0131ndaki cevab\u0131 netti. E\u011fer iki farkl\u0131 kelime varsa, iki farkl\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck mana vard\u0131 orada. A\u015fk\u2019\u0131n tan\u0131m\u0131nda ge\u00e7en kelimelere tak\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00d6zlem.<\/p>\n
Kelebek.<\/p>\n
Sevda.<\/p>\n
\u00d6zlem kelimesi kendini bildi\u011finden beri hep g\u00f6nl\u00fcndeydi. \u201cDalg\u0131n m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d sorusunu \u00e7ok duyard\u0131. Dalg\u0131nd\u0131. Bilhassa, uzaklarayd\u0131 dalg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini \u00e7ekemezdi denizin sonundaki beyaz \u00e7izikten. Oradan \u00f6tesini d\u00fc\u015flerdi. T\u0131pk\u0131 kelebeklerin uzun olmayan \u00f6m\u00fcrlerine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fler gibi. Hem imk\u00e2ns\u0131zd\u0131, hem imk\u00e2nl\u0131. Kelebekler de d\u00fc\u015flerine \u00f6zlemle ba\u015flay\u0131p, \u00f6yle can verirlerdi. \u00d6nce d\u00fc\u015flerlerdi sonra d\u00fc\u015flerini \u00f6zlerlerdi. Kor olurdu g\u00f6n\u00fcllerinde bu d\u00fc\u015f \u00f6zlemi. Sonunda dayanamaz, d\u00fc\u015f u\u011fruna can verirlerdi. Kelebe\u011fi de a\u015fka oturtmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Bir de sevda vard\u0131. \u0130kisinin de ham maddesi kordu. G\u00f6nle d\u00fc\u015ferlerdi. Olmas\u0131 gereken a\u015fkt\u0131 da bizler onu basite al\u0131p sevda demi\u015fiz ve herkesin diline dolanmas\u0131na m\u00fcsaade etmi\u015fiz gibi hissediyordu. Kolay de\u011fildi a\u015fk u\u011fruna divane olmak. A\u015fk, insan\u0131n i\u00e7 kimli\u011fiydi. Dokundu\u011fu tele na\u011fmeler konduran bir sevin\u00e7ti. A\u015fk\u2019\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f yerde aramamal\u0131yd\u0131. O, hi\u00e7 bahsinin ge\u00e7medi\u011fi yerlerdeydi. Alevin, korla yer de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fi yerlerde. G\u00f6nle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce alevi her yanda hissedilirdi. Sevdadan bir \u015fey beklenirdi de a\u015fktan beklenilemezdi. M\u00fck\u00e2fat\u0131, a\u015fk\u0131n kendisiydi. Ve ger\u00e7ek a\u015fk, sadakat ile derinle\u015fen a\u015fkt\u0131.<\/p>\n
T\u00fcm bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinden sonra g\u00f6nl\u00fcne bakt\u0131. G\u00f6nl\u00fc \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 onu. A\u015fk\u2019\u0131 g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda de\u011fil, g\u00f6nl\u00fcne koydu\u011fu g\u00f6k ve denizin aras\u0131nda bir yerlerde alev alev tutu\u015fmu\u015f olarak buldu. G\u00f6zlerini alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 denizin sonundaki beyaz \u00e7izikten ileriye do\u011fru yol al\u0131rken, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 her yolda biraz daha kor\u2019unun harland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Ola\u011fan \u015fartlarda alev denizde bar\u0131namazd\u0131. Bu, g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00fcy\u00fck bir mesaj\u0131yd\u0131 ona. O\u2019nun alevi denizlerdeydi. O \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi denizi, a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 besliyordu. Maviye olan sahipleni\u015finin de cevab\u0131n\u0131 bulmu\u015ftu. G\u00f6zlerini g\u00f6nl\u00fcnden al\u0131p, g\u00f6\u011fe \u00e7evirdi. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan birka\u00e7 kelime m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2019S\u00f6ner yang\u0131n birazdan<\/em><\/p>\n Yat\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u00f6zlem.<\/em><\/p>\n Bir g\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131r\u0131z<\/em><\/p>\n Bir g\u00fcn, bir yar\u0131m ak\u015fam.\u2019\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u2018\u2019Bir varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutkuyla ve nam\u00fctenahi bir…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":70,"featured_media":8624,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7903"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/70"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7903"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7903\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7903"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7903"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7903"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}