Bir sonbahar ak\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fcnde y\u00fcre\u011fim.\u0130lkbahar sabahlar\u0131 kadar taze ve \u0131l\u0131k bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn benimkisi\u2026G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m, h\u00fczn\u00fcn meftunu g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn tek terc\u00fcman\u0131. G\u00f6zlerimde esir tuttu\u011fum birka\u00e7 damla ya\u015f\u0131n \u0131slakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var kirpiklerimde. Ve belki de g\u00f6zlerimde, i\u00e7imdeki derbeder duygular\u0131n sahibi \u0131ss\u0131z y\u00fcre\u011fimden sana s\u00fcz\u00fclen,sana hasret kalm\u0131\u015f isyan\u0131m var ey dost.<\/p>\n
\u00d6n\u00fcmde ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131m,yine vefas\u0131z kelam\u0131ma s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131yorum,zaman seline kendini kapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015f bir gecede.Bir ceylan \u00fcrkekli\u011finde bedenim,bir \u00f6l\u00fc so\u011fuklu\u011funda\u2026Kalemime sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ellerim,sokaklarda ,belki de bir cami avlusunda insanlar\u0131n merhametine uzanm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir avucun \u00e7aresizli\u011finde.Kulaklar\u0131m,beni sana \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran yitik na\u011fmelerin sonsuzlu\u011funda.Yaln\u0131z,yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f birka\u00e7 kendini bilmez kelimenin ac\u0131mas\u0131z isyan\u0131nda. Ya ben ?…<\/p>\n
Seni bulmak i\u00e7in gecenin sessizli\u011finden kopup gelmi\u015f tek ki\u015filikhikayemde, i\u00e7inde \u201ddost\u201dge\u00e7en c\u00fcmlelerle k\u00f6rebe oynuyorum.Gece rengine b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m ve k\u0131zg\u0131n aldan\u0131\u015flar yak\u0131yor \u015fimdi ruhumu. D\u00fc\u015f bozumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor d\u00fc\u015flerime.<\/p>\n
Gelsene art\u0131k ey dost, beraberinde hayallerimden y\u0131ld\u0131z \u00e7alan periyi de s\u00fcr\u00fckleyerek. S\u00fcrg\u00fcn etme\u00a0 beni sensizlikle, hen\u00fcz hayat\u0131m\u0131n bahar\u0131ndayken. Gecenin bile gizleyemedi\u011fi zaman\u0131 y\u0131rt\u0131p a\u015fan sevgiler besliyorum sana. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131mla i\u015fliyorum vefa kanevi\u00e7emi.<\/p>\n
\u015eairler bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kafiyeleyemiyor i\u00e7imdeki ahengi. Beni ne \u015fiir anl\u0131yor ne de nesir. Seni ,sana anlatman\u0131n zorlu\u011fuyla bir araya gelmi\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki birka\u00e7 kesik s\u00f6zden ba\u015fka.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zbebeklerimin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki kalabal\u0131ktan s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131p bir ula\u015fabilsem g\u00f6nl\u00fcndeki s\u00fckunete. Ara s\u0131ra dal\u0131p giden bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n bile g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcyor beni y\u00fcre\u011fine. G\u00f6nl\u00fcn, g\u00f6nl\u00fcme akm\u0131yorey \u00a0dost. Hep, sen olan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim bensizle\u015fiyor d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinde.<\/p>\n
Ve seni y\u00fcre\u011fimde hasret ya\u011fmurlar\u0131yla b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcyorum. Dalgalar\u0131n a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kayalar misali t\u00fcketiyor ruhumu \u00f6zlemin. Dua listemde silinmeye y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f ismin kaybolduk\u00e7a ka\u011f\u0131ttan, daha da belirginle\u015fiyor g\u00fcl y\u00fczl\u00fc sevdan.<\/p>\n
Ne seni unutturacak zaman gelecek bir g\u00fcn, ne de zaman seni unutmaya yetecek,biliyorum.Denizler kadar engin \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgim, gurbetler kadar uzun\u2026<\/p>\n
Bazen siyah g\u00f6zlerinde unuttu\u011fum bir g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fck,bazen \u0130brahim\u2019i yakmayan y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki ate\u015f , bazen de d\u00f6rt odac\u0131kl\u0131 kalbimdeki kocaman bir par\u00e7a\u2026Ne fark eder ? Hepsi de senden \u00f6te bir sen\u2026<\/p>\n
Durmadan sevgimi ye\u015fertecek rahmet damlalar\u0131,gel art\u0131k dost ,menek\u015feler h\u00fczne vurgun\u2026<\/p>\n
Zaman al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretiyor ama unutmay\u0131 asla\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bir sonbahar ak\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fcnde y\u00fcre\u011fim.\u0130lkbahar sabahlar\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":63,"featured_media":7815,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7810"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/63"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7810"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7810\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7810"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7810"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7810"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}