Bug\u00fcn mailimi kontrol ettim. Tan\u0131t\u0131mlarda herhangi bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek sitesinde xxxx kredi kart\u0131ma \u00f6zel y\u00fczde yirmi indirim varm\u0131\u015f. Dedim bu ka\u00e7maz, art\u0131k bana da \u00e7i\u00e7ek hediye edilebilir. L\u00fctfen, insanlara hediye olarak \u00e7i\u00e7ek al\u0131nmal\u0131d\u0131r. Alan kimsesi yoksa en az\u0131ndan kendilerine almal\u0131lard\u0131r.<\/p>\n
M\u00fcmk\u00fcnse saks\u0131da menek\u015fe; e\u011fer \u00f6l\u00fcmlerini izleyemeyecekseniz benim gibi, ba\u015fka birinin \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin cesetlerini defterlerinizin yapraklar\u0131 aras\u0131nda saklars\u0131n\u0131z. Ben, birka\u00e7 \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fin katiliyim; bir tanesine daha k\u0131yamayaca\u011f\u0131m. Evcille\u015ftirmedi\u011fim bir \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fin \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f olmas\u0131 rikkatime \u00e7ok dokunmaz, en az\u0131ndan ben b\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Hen\u00fcz bu teorimi ispatlayabilmi\u015f de\u011filim zira hi\u00e7 \u00f6l\u00fc \u00e7i\u00e7eklerim olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Mail demi\u015ftim, gerisini okudu\u011fumda kampanyan\u0131n son tarihinin \u00fczerinden yaln\u0131zca 22 saat ge\u00e7ti\u011fini fark edince histerik bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f doldu a\u011fz\u0131ma. Oysa \u00e7ok g\u00fczel hayal kurmu\u015ftum: Kap\u0131 \u00e7alacak, bir kargo firmas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6revlisi nefes nefese kalm\u0131\u015f, evim 6. kattad\u0131r ve asans\u00f6r\u00fc yoktur, elindeki \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri bana uzatacak: \u201cFatma Han\u0131m, siz misiniz?\u201d diyecek. Hi\u00e7 haberim yokmu\u015f gibi y\u00fcz\u00fcmde g\u00fcller a\u00e7acak, uzan\u0131p kucaklayaca\u011f\u0131m \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri. Bir de imzam\u0131 isteyecek. Yeni yetme bir \u015fark\u0131c\u0131 gibi b\u00fcy\u00fck bir hevesle imzalayaca\u011f\u0131m ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131. \u0130yi g\u00fcnler, diyece\u011fiz ve gidecek. Koklayaca\u011f\u0131m onlar\u0131, \u00fczerine s\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 yapay parf\u00fcm\u00fc bolca. Sanki \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin kendi kokular\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na i\u00e7ime dolduraca\u011f\u0131m. Salondaki masa \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc dolamak i\u00e7in orda olan vazodan plastik \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7ek dal\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcp \u00e7\u0131karaca\u011f\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7ine biraz su koyup \u00e7i\u00e7eklerimi b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131m. Oturup izleyece\u011fim sonra onlar\u0131. Bak\u0131p bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyece\u011fim. Sonra belki eski \u015fiir defterimin sayfalar\u0131 aras\u0131na dizece\u011fim \u00f6zene \u00f6zene. \u015eiirler \u00e7i\u00e7ek, \u00e7i\u00e7ekler de belki \u015fiir kokacak.<\/p>\n
Yirmi iki saat kadar ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n hayaliyle maili bir kez daha okuyup telefonu b\u0131rakt\u0131m elimden.<\/p>\n
Galiba \u00e7i\u00e7eklerim olmayacak; zaten kurumu\u015f g\u00f6vdelerini izleyebilece\u011fimden emin de\u011fildim. Bu kuru bir teselliydi, zaten insanlar kendilerine teselli olacak bir \u015feyleri hep bulurlar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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