Sen son kur\u015funu s\u0131kard\u0131n,
\nBense silah\u0131n namlusunda beklerdim seni.
\nTeti\u011fi k\u0131skan\u0131rd\u0131m.
\nEllerin y\u00fcz\u00fcme dokunmal\u0131yd\u0131,
\nSen teti\u011fe dokunurdun.
\nBen \u00e7oktan vurulmu\u015f olurdum g\u00f6zlerine.
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm sebebime kur\u015fun derlerdi,
\nBen demezdim.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o zarif parmaklar\u0131n de\u011fmeden teti\u011fe,
\nGidiyorum demi\u015ftin.<\/p>\n
Yani bir gece ans\u0131z\u0131n giderken sen,
\nNereye, nas\u0131l ve neden diye bile soramadan
\nSusman\u0131n bir \u00e7e\u015fit i\u015fkence oldu\u011funu
\nVe kabullenmenin terapi oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendim.
\nY\u0131ld\u0131zlar ard\u0131n s\u0131ra kayd\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimden
\nVe ay ac\u0131dan hilale d\u00f6nd\u00fc.
\nNe garip\u2026<\/p>\n
Cinayet silahs\u0131zda i\u015flenebilirmi\u015f
\nVe mermi gibi saplan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f baz\u0131 c\u00fcmleler.
\nVe bir adam\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in,
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcrmek gerekmezmi\u015f.
\nHer gece saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m resminin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm n\u00f6betleri ge\u00e7irince fark ettim\u2026
\nSana bir papatya vermek isterdim,
\nKanla sulanm\u0131\u015f
\nHer yapra\u011f\u0131 seviyor,
\nHer yapra\u011f\u0131 bir kur\u015fun ta\u015f\u0131yor
\nVe ben her yaprakta,
\nSana vuruluyorum\u2026<\/p>\n
Sen o kur\u015funu s\u0131kmasan,
\nBen s\u0131kard\u0131m sevgilim.
\nMorfin kokan yaralar\u0131mda seni hissederdim.
\nBaz\u0131 yaralar kabuk ba\u011flamazm\u0131\u015f,
\nOnu \u00f6\u011frendim.
\nGitmek, \u00f6ld\u00fcrmenin en pasif \u00e7e\u015fidiymi\u015f
\nBizse \u00f6l\u00fcmlere kar\u015f\u0131 hep ma\u011flubuz sevgilim.<\/p>\n
Yani sevgilim \u015fimdi sen, ellerinde k\u0131r kokusu,
\nY\u00fcz\u00fcnde kan g\u00fclleri ta\u015f\u0131rken
\nVe bir fidan gibi ye\u015ferirken g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde,
\nSana k\u00fcsmek;
\n\u0130ntihar\u0131n en zavall\u0131 halidir.
\nOysa bir \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi bile koparamayan ben,
\nBir \u00e7i\u00e7ek yerine koparmak istedim seni.
\nAd\u0131mlar\u0131n, yemye\u015fil vahalar\u0131m\u0131,
\nK\u0131zg\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6llere \u00e7evirdi.
\nVe ben bu sensizlikte, sessizce
\nKakt\u00fcslere sar\u0131ld\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n
Sen o kur\u015funu s\u0131ksayd\u0131n,
\nBen sana g\u00fclerdim.
\nVe mutlu bir adam olarak kar\u015f\u0131lard\u0131m sonumu.
\nBir adama yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u015fekilde,
\nG\u00f6zlerinin en i\u00e7ine bakarak
\nVe ta\u015f\u0131yarak y\u00fcz\u00fcmde bir sevdan\u0131n t\u00fcm \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131,
\n\u0130lk ve tek \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fc ya\u015fard\u0131m..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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