Oturdum ayak ayak \u00fcst\u00fcne atarak yelkovan\u0131n \u00fczerine,
\nDurdurdum zaman\u0131 ve ba\u015flad\u0131m b\u00f6l\u00fcm b\u00f6l\u00fcm sivri bir paragrafa.
\n\u00d6nce tanr\u0131dan sonra
\nGepetto ustadan yeni bir al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 yontmas\u0131n\u0131 diledim.
\n\u015eans\u0131m\u0131 daha da zorlayarak buluttan ya\u011fmas\u0131n\u0131 istedim yalan\u0131n i\u00e7inde bo\u011fulan \u00fclkeme.
\nAkmas\u0131n\u0131 umdum tozun \u00e7amurun yalan\u0131n demir mazgallara.
\nFakat olmad\u0131, sular alt\u0131nda kald\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimin kuzeyinde bir memleket.
\nYast\u0131klar\u0131 \u00fcst \u00fcste koyarak bir \u015fehir olu\u015fturmak istedim kendime
\nPeyderpey a\u011fa\u00e7lar diktim, \u00e7o\u011fu ahlat a\u011fac\u0131yd\u0131.
\nVe diz \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcm ya\u015fl\u0131, beli e\u011fri bir ahlat a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesine.
\nDallar\u0131ndan meyve d\u00f6k\u00fclece\u011fi yerde, h\u00fcz\u00fcn ak\u0131yordu bir \u015ferit halinde.
\nK\u00f6k\u00fcne, saplan\u0131p kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yere uzanmak istedim ama korktu\u011fumla kald\u0131m.
\nYa bende bo\u011fulursam bende meyve verece\u011fim yerde elem \u00e7an\u0131n\u0131 dolarsam boynuma.
\n\u00c7ay taba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na s\u0131zan damlalar gibi d\u00f6k\u00fclmeye so\u011fumaya mahk\u00fbm edilirsem.
\nKoridorda doland\u0131m d\u00f6rt d\u00f6nd\u00fcm trib\u00fclans halinde ki duygular\u0131mla.
\nKaranl\u0131kta \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc bir nebze ayd\u0131nlatan bir kandil arad\u0131m durdum.
\nVe seslendim i\u00e7 sesime Carlo\u2019ya.
\nHeyhat bay\u0131m heyhat.
\nNergis ve papatya kokan bu sokaklar haberdar de\u011fil ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bu vaziyetten.
\nYaslad\u0131m s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 ahlat a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n geni\u015f g\u00f6vdesine
\nAld\u0131m avu\u00e7 i\u00e7lerime s\u0131\u011facak kadar t\u00fcrap par\u00e7as\u0131, dedim ki bay\u0131m insan yarat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyi ni\u00e7in k\u0131rar.
\nD\u00f6nd\u00fcm nas\u0131rl\u0131 yal\u0131n ayaklar\u0131mla kutu gibi odama.
\nPencereden seyrettim \u00f6nceleri kan\u0131mla damar\u0131mla i\u011frendi\u011fim d\u00fcnyay\u0131.
\n\u00c7ektim \u00fczerime r\u00f6pd\u00f6\u015famb\u0131r m\u0131 yazd\u0131m yamuk yumuk duvarlara, ben bu asra ait de\u011filim.
\nBen bu asra ait de\u011filim.
\nBen bu asra ait de\u011filim.
\nDurmadan yank\u0131land\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm gibi sessizlikte\u2026
\nK\u0131r\u0131k kavanozlar gibi kan s\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131yorum.
\nK\u0131r\u0131k yerlerime par\u00e7a par\u00e7a bez s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya meyil ediyorum.
\nBiliyorum bir kez k\u0131r\u0131lan, “-lar, -ler” ekine de a\u015fina olur.
\nAsl\u0131nda ben yeni gezegenler ke\u015ffetmek istiyorum.
\nH\u00fczn\u00fcn elemin m\u00e2temin bertaraf oldu\u011fu, \u015fetaretin mutlulu\u011fun huzurun tedav\u00fcle girdi\u011fi yerleri tan\u0131maktan yanay\u0131m.
\nVe durmadan g\u00f6be\u011fime irili ufakl\u0131 hudhud ku\u015fu \u00e7izmek, renkli kalemlerle boyama gereksinimi duyuyorum.
\n\u00c7ocuklar gibi emeklemek geliyor i\u00e7imden yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ba\u011fr\u0131nda.
\n\u00c7imlerden ta\u00e7 yap\u0131p da g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme ili\u015ftirmek ge\u00e7iyor akl\u0131mdan.
\nVe yine sesleniyorum i\u00e7 sesim Carlo’ya
\n“Pulsuz adressiz lalettayin mektuplar ya\u011fd\u0131rmak istiyorum b\u00fcy\u00fck mavi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden.”
\nKapat\u0131yor herkes tepesinde ki siyahl\u0131 beyazl\u0131 \u015femsiyeleri.
\nZarf i\u00e7lerinden k\u0131zlara beyaz f\u0131rf\u0131rl\u0131 gelinlikler dikiyorum, erkeklere ise zarflardan beyaz damatl\u0131klar tasarl\u0131yorum.
\nD\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 herkes g\u00f6r\u00fcversin, lakin i\u00e7leri d\u0131\u015flar\u0131na m\u00fcnhas\u0131r ve \u00f6zel olsun.
\nMutfa\u011fa girdim so\u011fuk mermere dayad\u0131m dirse\u011fimi.
\nHaz\u0131rlad\u0131m malzemeleri, tarhana \u00e7orbas\u0131 pi\u015firmeye niyet ettim.
\nAma yoruldum, oturdum solucan gibi b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015ferek siyah derili sandalyeye.
\nHaz\u0131r mutfaktayken ruhumu tazyikli suyla y\u0131kamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ozon d\u00f6kt\u00fcm ama kirinden pas\u0131ndan ar\u0131nmad\u0131.
\nYoruldum d\u00fcnyan\u0131n kendi ekseni etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6nmesinden.
\nBirazc\u0131k da olsa benim eksenim etraf\u0131nda, benden yana olmas\u0131n\u0131 istedim, olmad\u0131.
\nHayallerim yine ye\u015fermemi\u015flikten ayalar\u0131mda kurudu.
\nBeyaz battaniyeyi att\u0131m \u00fczerine kefen \u00f6rtercesine.
\nVe ailecek topland\u0131k cenaze merasimi d\u00fczenledik, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna gelen d\u00fc\u015flerime.
\nMatara matara sular d\u00f6kt\u00fck mezar ta\u015f\u0131na.
\nFesle\u011fenler rokalar ek\u015fimenler ektik.
\nHerkes papatya g\u00fcl ekerken, farkl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n dibine dibine vurduk.
\nHerkes Yasini \u015ferif okurken, a\u00e7t\u0131m \u00c2l\u00e2k suresini okudum yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc oku diyor ilk ayeti “Oku yaradan Rabbinin ad\u0131yla oku”.
\nVe o g\u00fcn bu g\u00fcnd\u00fcr i\u00e7 sesimle kitaplarda kaybettik benli\u011fimizi
\nKitap kokusunu parf\u00fcm mahiyetinde s\u0131kt\u0131k kaderimizin yakas\u0131na.
\n\u0130ki kapak aras\u0131n\u0131 evimiz, yurdumuz belledik
\nAlt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izdik be\u011fendiklerimizin, kiri\u015fv\u00e2ri ayakta tutsun diye evimizi.
\nA\u00e7t\u0131k, a\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 berceste dizelerle giderdik.
\nK\u00f6pr\u00fcler kurduk kitaplar aras\u0131na.
\nK\u00f6pr\u00fcden ge\u00e7erken bo\u015fluklara dalmamak d\u00fcnyaya boyun e\u011fmemek i\u00e7in g\u00f6zlerimize k\u0131zg\u0131n ya\u011flar, kezzaplar d\u00f6kt\u00fck.
\nNefsimize buka\u011f\u0131lar ge\u00e7irdik kulaklar\u0131ndan duvarlara \u00e7iviledik
\nKerih beldenin kerihli\u011fine maruz kalmamak i\u00e7in.
\n\u00c7\u0131kard\u0131m tek tek k\u00fcl tablas\u0131na kursa\u011f\u0131mda kalan moloz y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131
\nK\u00fcrek k\u00fcrek att\u0131lar denizin longoz yerine bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bitiremediler.
\nG\u00f6zlerimden akan so\u011fuk buzul selleri
\nBoynumun s\u0131cak b\u00f6lgesinde k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 yuvalar\u0131
\n\u0130ki ileri bir geri v\u00fccudum da art\u0131k ayar tutmamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nVe sen i\u00e7 sesim, bay\u0131m
\nYollama beni hayat\u0131n ac\u0131mas\u0131z \u00e7engelli kollar\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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