Her biri e\u015fsiz bir bilinmezlik pelerinine b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z, bamba\u015fka gizemler saklard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maddenin sesi kesilince gecelerde, \u00e7\u0131karlard\u0131 ortaya usulca. Kalbimizdeki tahtlara kurulurlard\u0131. B\u00f6yle gecelerde sevgi, \u015fefkat dolan\u0131rd\u0131 damarlarda. \u015eark\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u201ckarde\u015flik\u201d dedi\u011fimiz adil bir h\u00fck\u00fcmdar bestelerdi. Yabanc\u0131 seslerden, tan\u0131d\u0131k dost ezgileri y\u00fckselirdi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn lacivert \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcne. Da\u011flardan; a\u011fa\u00e7lar ve ku\u015flar, topraktan; yeni f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rm\u0131\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7ekler ve fidanlar e\u015flik ederlerdi bu ezgilere.\u00a0Ad\u0131 konulmam\u0131\u015f bir cennetti; \u015fu koca, \u015fi\u015fko, a\u00e7\u0131k mavi gezegen. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. Bar\u0131\u015f r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131,\u00a0 g\u00fczel haberleri pe\u015fine tak\u0131p gelirdi tepelerin ard\u0131ndan. Bulutlar c\u00f6mertti. D\u00f6rt mevsim ya\u011fmurlar ya\u011fard\u0131 g\u00fcnlerce. \u015eemsiyelerimiz yoktu. Ama \u0131slanmay\u0131 seven ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. Ya\u011fmurlarda el ele tutu\u015fup \u0131slan\u0131rd\u0131k, g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc damlalar. Ac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z az da olsa silinirdi y\u00fcreklerimizden. \u00d6zg\u00fcr hissederdik, kanatlan\u0131rd\u0131 duygular ve i\u00e7imizdeki sevgi seli t\u00fcm bedenimizi s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam ederdi. Bu \u00f6zg\u00fcr ruhlar\u0131m\u0131zdan y\u00fckselirdi g\u00f6\u011fe g\u00fcne\u015f. \u00dczerimizdeki son damlaya kadar kururduk. Kuruduk\u00e7a hafiflerdik.<\/p>\n
Arabalar\u0131m\u0131z yoktu. Ama maceraya a\u00e7 ruhlar ta\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k. Ve yollara d\u00fc\u015ferdik. Y\u0131ld\u0131zlardan adres sordu\u011fumuz gecelerde, \u00f6zg\u00fcrd\u00fck. Ard\u0131m\u0131zda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kimsemiz yoktu. Da\u011flarla \u00e7evrili k\u0131vr\u0131lan yollarda, da\u011flar\u0131n heybeti y\u00fcre\u011fimize dolard\u0131. Hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kadar cesur olurduk. Ve ko\u015fard\u0131k, da\u011flar\u0131n ard\u0131nda yepyeni yerler bulman\u0131n umuduyla.\u00a0 Yorulunca bir a\u011fa\u00e7 g\u00f6lgesi bulman\u0131n kolay oldu\u011fu g\u00fcnlerdi. B\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fecek ekme\u011fimiz yoktu. Ama ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. Ve ruhlar\u0131m\u0131zdan d\u00f6k\u00fclen \u015fiirlerimiz vard\u0131 elbette. Defterlerimiz vard\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sayfalar\u0131na d\u00fcnyalar\u0131 karalad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. Baz\u0131 gecelerde, m\u0131sralar s\u00f6ylerdik birbirimize, kalbin en kuytu k\u00f6\u015felerinde b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz. Y\u0131ld\u0131zlar ve Ay; ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za toplan\u0131rd\u0131, sat\u0131rlar bitmek bilmezdi. Geceler bizim \u015fiirlerimizden \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc uzundu yaz aylar\u0131nda. Ve art\u0131k \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmeye ba\u015flayan bedenlerimiz, tak\u0131rdayan di\u015flerimiz y\u00fcz\u00fcnden okuyamaz hale gelirdik. Ay, y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n ellerinden tutup gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. G\u00fcne\u015f da\u011flar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan de\u011fil, \u00f6zg\u00fcr ruhlar\u0131m\u0131zdan y\u00fckselirdi. G\u00fcne\u015fin \u015fefkatli kollar\u0131nda \u0131s\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131k. \u00dczerimizde k\u0131\u015fl\u0131k bir montumuz yoktu, ama birbirimize sar\u0131lmay\u0131 bildi\u011fimiz g\u00fcnlerdi.<\/p>\n
Ger\u00e7ekli\u011fin en keskin haliyle etrafta kol gezdi\u011fi zamanlard\u0131. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z ger\u00e7ekti, \u00f6l\u00fcm kadar. Ve kaybedilenin ard\u0131ndan, bir par\u00e7am\u0131z eksik olarak devam ederdik ya\u015famaya. A\u015fk en bozulmam\u0131\u015f haliyle kurulurdu duygular\u0131n ba\u015fk\u00f6\u015fesine, her birimiz daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocukken. Bu y\u00fczdendi herkesin g\u00fczel olmas\u0131, yine bu y\u00fczdendi kad\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ac\u0131dan \u00e7izgilerin olmamas\u0131.<\/p>\n
Anne ve babalar daha az a\u011flard\u0131. Topra\u011f\u0131n gencecik bedenlere al\u0131\u015fk\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlard\u0131. Umut ve heyecan dolu hayallerin sahipleri tahta tabutlarla omuzlarda ta\u015f\u0131nmazd\u0131. Ve feryatlar\u0131m\u0131z yoktu g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc karartacak kadar koyu. Kan kokan \u00e7i\u00e7ekler bitmezdi toprakta. Bahar\u0131 koklard\u0131k yaln\u0131zca ilkbaharlarda. Gidenler ve bekleyen vard\u0131 elbette. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn insanla beraberli\u011finden haberdard\u0131k. Yaln\u0131zca \u00f6l\u00fcm vard\u0131. \u00d6ld\u00fcren kavram\u0131na yabanc\u0131yd\u0131k. Zalim heveslerin ayaklar\u0131 alt\u0131nda par\u00e7alanan masumlar\u0131n oldu\u011fu sava\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z yoktu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. Ekme\u011fi bar\u0131\u015f olan ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 hepimizin. Yaln\u0131zca sevgiye susayan ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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