\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc a\u015fk ta\u00e7land\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u00e7arm\u0131ha da gerer sizi. Hem besler hem budar sizi\u2026\u201d Halil Cibran<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n kalbindeki hastal\u0131klara kelam\u0131yla ince \u015fifa oklar\u0131 saplayan, sarsan, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcren bir avu\u00e7 insan bedensel olarak k\u0131sa, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsel olarak ne uzun ya\u015f\u0131yordu… L\u00fcbnan da ba\u015flay\u0131p New York\u2019ta sonlanan 48 y\u0131ll\u0131k ya\u015fam\u0131yla Halil Cibran gibi… \u201cBu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u00e7inde s\u00fcrg\u00fcndeyim ben… \u00d6l\u00fcm gelip vatan\u0131ma g\u00f6t\u00fcrene dek s\u00fcrg\u00fcnde kalaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d Belki de ayk\u0131r\u0131 s\u0131radanl\u0131\u011fa, haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f kald\u0131ran ruhu vatan\u0131nda kalabilseydi de muhtemelen m\u00fclteci gibi hissedecekti. Ne de olsa \u015fairlerin s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131 de\u011fil miydi \u00fctopik \u015fehirlerin denize ba\u011flanan yollar\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7ek kokular\u0131ndan sarho\u015f olmu\u015f ku\u015flar\u0131n \u00e2\u015f\u0131klara g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131ldamalar\u0131… Ama ger\u00e7ekler onlar\u0131n beyinlerinde ve y\u00fcreklerinde kurulu \u00e7arm\u0131hlarda sallan\u0131p durduk\u00e7a yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn huzursuzlar\u0131 olarak kalmaya mahkumdular.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eiiri kunda\u011fa saranlar bilir, mutluluktan do\u011fan dizeler ko\u015famaz k\u0131talar aras\u0131nda… Arap yar\u0131madas\u0131nda 20 y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131ndaki ilk kad\u0131n yazarlardan olan May Ziyade de Cibran\u2019la ayn\u0131 topraklar\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fuydu. Ziyade yazar\u0131n K\u0131r\u0131k Kanatlar<\/em> adl\u0131 eserini okuduktan sonra Cibran\u2019a mektup yazmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kahire ve New York aras\u0131 20 y\u0131l s\u00fcren bir a\u015fk\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Bedenlere s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f, \u015fartlarla prangalanmam\u0131\u015f, e\u011ferlerle tehdit edilmemi\u015f, tutkulara kurban edilmemi\u015f bir anla\u015fma bi\u00e7imi olabilirdi onlar\u0131nkisi. Bir mektubunda sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kestirdi\u011fini yazan May\u2019e \u201cDemek sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 kestirdiniz, o siyah dalgal\u0131 per\u00e7emleri kestirdiniz\u2026 Ne diyebilirim ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn makaslar ay\u0131planmal\u0131ysa\u2026\u201d diye cevap vermi\u015ftir. Kad\u0131nlara \u00f6zg\u00fc bu isyan \u015feklini, t\u00fcm makaslara naif\u00e7e sitemiyle adeta kesilen k\u0131s\u0131mlar\u0131 g\u00fcl suyuna bat\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f tarakla taram\u0131\u015ft\u0131r Cibran. Hik\u00e2yenin sonunda \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn s\u0131cak nefesinden edebiyata serin bir vaha b\u0131rakan adam\u0131n d\u00fcnya m\u00fcltecili\u011fi bitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vasiyeti \u00fczerine do\u011fdu\u011fu topraklara g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Onun gidi\u015finin ard\u0131ndan May toparlanamam\u0131\u015f bir s\u00fcre ak\u0131l hastanesinde yatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n neresinde olursan\u0131z olun, hik\u00e2yenizle benzerlikleri olanlar\u0131 yak\u0131n hissedersiniz kalbinizde. Sevdi\u011fi adamla 7,5 y\u0131l ya\u015fam\u0131 sat\u0131rlarda payla\u015fm\u0131\u015f biri olarak mektuplar\u0131n sihrine inananlardan\u0131m… \u0130ster onlar\u0131nki gibi se\u00e7ilmi\u015f bir ayr\u0131l\u0131k olsun, ister zorla kopar\u0131larak…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Renkleri seninle giden bu \u015fehir sensiz, bu ev sensiz. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ki ayn\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc alt\u0131nda biriz, ayn\u0131 gezegende biriz ve kalbimin her at\u0131\u015f\u0131nda biriz. Biliyor musun masadaki yerine kimseyi oturtmuyorum, kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden y\u0131llard\u0131r kald\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n her an gelecekmi\u015fsin gibi mutlu k\u0131l\u0131yor beni. Birazdan g\u00fcn a\u011faracak son mektubunu yeniden, yeniden okuyorum. Parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fdi\u011fi sat\u0131rlar\u0131 seviyorum. Bu mektubumda sonbahar\u0131n foto\u011fraflar\u0131n\u0131 yollayaca\u011f\u0131m sana. Sak\u0131n sararan yapraklar i\u00e7in h\u00fcz\u00fcnlenme. Biliyorsun t\u00fcm a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n vakti geldi\u011finde yeniden filizlenip \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7ar dallar\u0131… A\u015fk\u0131m ve Umudumla…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc a\u015fk ta\u00e7land\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u00e7arm\u0131ha da…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":296,"featured_media":12358,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11927"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/296"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11927"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11927\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12008,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11927\/revisions\/12008"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12358"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11927"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11927"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11927"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}