Zaman zaman g\u00fcne\u015fli, zaman zaman bulutlu bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131nday\u0131m.
Bug\u00fcn ne k\u0131z\u0131l ne de k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc\u2026
Seni hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 bana: Fu\u015fya rengini severdin.
Her zaman g\u00f6z al\u0131c\u0131 etkiler b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131n bende.
\u015e\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na zarafet katan pastel tonlarda, fu\u015fya rengi bir elbise giyerdin.
Hele o elbisenin \u00fczerine takt\u0131\u011f\u0131n mor \u015fal\u0131n\u2026
Geceler hi\u00e7 bitmiyor, ben hi\u00e7 uyumuyorum.
Tahminim bu gece de yer yer y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 yer yer y\u0131ld\u0131zs\u0131z olacak.
Senden ayr\u0131 olsam da hep akl\u0131mdas\u0131n. Hep \u00f6zlemimde\u2026
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Yaz ya\u011fmuru beklenmedik anda geldi. Arka caddeyi g\u00f6ren k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck balkonumday\u0131m.
K\u00f6\u015fedeki yeni \u00e7i\u00e7ek\u00e7i, soka\u011f\u0131 renklendirip ho\u015f an\u0131lar b\u0131rakt\u0131.
Seni hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 bana.
Bu arada arka cadde s\u00fcslendi ve fu\u015fya rengine boyand\u0131.
\u00c7ok s\u0131cak havalarda hani salyangozlar su kaybederek kuruyabilirler ya, tam kurudu\u011fum, senin d\u00fc\u015flerinde yok oldu\u011fum anda geldi yaz ya\u011fmuru: ne k\u0131z\u0131l ne de k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131; fu\u015fya rengimsi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde\u2026 Yaz ya\u011fmuru gelip ge\u00e7icidir ama.
\u0130lk ya\u011fmurda toprak kokusu ve fu\u015fya rengi \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin kokusu buram buram\u2026
Bir anda so\u011fudu hava.
Yaz ya\u011fmuru kendini sa\u011fanak ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa b\u0131rakt\u0131.
Hani salyangozlar demi\u015ftim ya, i\u015fte o salyangozlar v\u00fccutlar\u0131nda bol miktarda su bulundu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u00e7ok so\u011fuk havalarda donar ya, fu\u015fya rengi \u00e7i\u00e7ek saks\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00f6yle donuk v\u00fccudum.
Senden ayr\u0131 olsam da hep akl\u0131mdas\u0131n. Hep \u00f6zlemimde\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Art\u0131k her gece d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcme geliyorsun, yere e\u011fik bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n, fu\u015fya rengi elbisenle.
Edep sa\u00e7\u0131yor bu y\u00fczden etrafa bak\u0131nca e\u011fik ba\u015f\u0131n.
Gece kayarken avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inden f\u00fctursuzca, bedenimi, akl\u0131m\u0131, duygular\u0131m\u0131 ve bu \u00fc\u00e7 his aras\u0131ndaki dengeyi kurabilmek ne de zor.
Eski, co\u015fkulu karakterimden \u00e7ok \u015fey kaybettim, karanl\u0131kta kald\u0131m sen gittin gideli.
\u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden belki de ya\u015fam alanlar\u0131m\u0131 planlarken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ilk \u015fey sen, ilk \u015fey fu\u015fya rengi..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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