{"id":11798,"date":"2023-02-01T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-01-31T21:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11798"},"modified":"2023-10-23T23:00:19","modified_gmt":"2023-10-23T23:00:19","slug":"her-sey-anda-gizli-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11798","title":{"rendered":"Her \u015eey Anda Gizli"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p> Gelecekte arkam\u0131za bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z vakit<em> <\/em>\u015fimdi ya\u015f\u0131yor ve yap\u0131yor olduklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz. Hat\u0131ralar\u0131m\u0131zla \u015fu an\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 anlamland\u0131rmak istiyoruz istemsizce. Sorgularken kendimizi ve ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizi; ya korkarak, utan\u00e7la \u00e7eviriyoruz kafam\u0131z\u0131 ya da y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fczde beliren m\u00fctevaz\u0131 bir gururla. Kafam\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7evirdi\u011fimizde g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimiz ve hissetti\u011fimiz duygular, \u0131\u015f\u0131k oluyorsa bize yolumuzu ayd\u0131nlatan, i\u015fte o zaman kafam\u0131z\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa huzur i\u00e7inde koyabiliyoruz ve o zaman ya\u015fam\u0131n tatl\u0131 lezzetine eri\u015fiyor yorgun y\u00fcre\u011fimiz. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f k\u00fcsm\u00fcyor bize b\u00f6ylece, kaybetmek ve silmek istedi\u011fimiz bir hard diske d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcyor, bilakis arkam\u0131z\u0131 yaslayarak g\u00fc\u00e7 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, f\u0131rsat bulduk\u00e7a and\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z sevin\u00e7ler oluyor; umut oluyor, \u0131\u015f\u0131k oluyor, gelecekteki \u015fu anlara ilham oluyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> Gelecekte bizi i\u00e7ine alacak hisler, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015fu an\u0131 daha fazla etkiliyor \u015f\u00fcphesiz. Lakin insan bazen yap\u0131yor olduklar\u0131n\u0131n sonucuyla biraz ge\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yor, fark edi\u015fi a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r oluyor. Bu y\u00fczden ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizle y\u00fczle\u015fti\u011fimizde daha \u00e7ok i\u00e7leniyor ve esef ediyoruz. Mesela bir sevdi\u011fimizin, yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kalbini k\u0131rd\u0131k. \u00c7o\u011fu zaman \u00f6fkemize yenik d\u00fc\u015ferek sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 muhakeme edemeden k\u0131r\u0131p d\u00f6k\u00fcyoruz. \u00d6fkenin kalbimizde kara bulutlar gibi gezindi\u011fi anda ve sonras\u0131nda o pek yaralay\u0131c\u0131 olan duyguyu yani <em>pi\u015fmanl\u0131k<\/em> duygusunu hissediyoruz. Hissediyoruz hissetmesine de bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kavrayam\u0131yoruz; kalp hasar\u0131n\u0131n kal\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc silinemeyecek olmas\u0131n\u0131 ve asl\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin buna de\u011fmeyecek olmas\u0131n\u0131&#8230; Sonras\u0131 ise y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e artan, y\u0131llar\u0131 esir alan h\u00fcz\u00fcn oluyor, ac\u0131 oluyor. Telafi edemeyi\u015fimizin beynimizi ve kalbimizi kemiren acziyetiyle \u00f6ylece kalakal\u0131yoruz, yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki hi\u00e7bir i\u015fe yaramayacak olan ke\u015fkelerimizle. \u201cBir kere kalp k\u0131rmaya g\u00f6r vicdan\u0131n zor bar\u0131\u015f\u0131r seninle.\u201d diyor i\u00e7imizdeki malum ses. Bir nevi, kaybolmamak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yoruz i\u015fte ruhumuzun kuytu ve karanl\u0131k k\u00f6\u015felerinde. Umudumuzu yitirmeden, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z hatalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6rts\u00fcn diye iyiliklerimizi \u00e7o\u011faltarak yolumuzu \u00e7i\u00e7ekler ekmek geliyor elimizden sadece, gerisi ise dua ve yakar\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> Peki \u201c\u015eimdiki zamana\u201d bizi \u00e7epe\u00e7evre ku\u015fatan huzurlu anlar b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda ne oluyor? \u00d6rne\u011fin, bir yetimin-\u00f6ks\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u00e7inin ne\u015feyle dolmas\u0131na vesile oldu\u011fumuzda yahut sokakta s\u0131k kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z fakat g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze gelmemek i\u00e7in ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 e\u011ferek \u00f6n\u00fcne h\u0131zl\u0131ca birka\u00e7 lira at\u0131p g\u00f6zden kayboldu\u011fumuz dilenen bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6zlerine bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek ona bir \u00e7ikolata ikram etti\u011fimizde ne hissediyoruz? Tabii ki safi bir mutluluk, ar\u0131nm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k; s\u0131cac\u0131k duygular yani i\u00e7imizi \u0131s\u0131tan. Kalplere sevgiyle dokunmu\u015f oluyoruz, varolu\u015fumuzun hakk\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015f oluyoruz adeta. Amac\u0131m\u0131za bir ad\u0131m daha yakla\u015f\u0131yor oldu\u011fumuzu bilmek, ya\u015fama sevincimizi peki\u015ftiriyor. Bu iyi hasletler \u015fu an\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ho\u015f k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi gelece\u011fimizdeki hissiyatlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 da sa\u011flamca in\u015fa ediyor. Bu e\u015fsiz bir his. Sonra ne kal\u0131yor yapmam\u0131z gereken, iyili\u011fi ve c\u00fczi irademizi kullanma yetene\u011fini yaratan Rabbe \u015f\u00fckretmek, acziyetimizi derin bir minnetle tefekk\u00fcr etmek; iyilik ve g\u00fczellik yolundaki izlerimizin \u00e7o\u011falmas\u0131 i\u00e7in dua etmek kal\u0131yor bir de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> \u201cAn\u201d ne kadar m\u00fchim; daha a\u00e7\u0131k ifadeyle an\u0131n i\u00e7ini nas\u0131l ve neyle doldurdu\u011fumuz ne denli k\u0131ymetli&#8230; \u00dcstelik, gelecek anlar\u0131m\u0131z i\u00e7in belirleyici rol oynamas\u0131 ayr\u0131ca bir de\u011fer kat\u0131yor. S\u0131nan\u0131yor oldu\u011fumuz d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda zaman kavram\u0131n\u0131n en m\u00fcstesnas\u0131 olan \u015fu an\u0131n, ya\u015farken yani hen\u00fcz ebedi aleme g\u00f6\u00e7 etmemi\u015fken k\u0131ymetini fark etti\u011fimizde ve iyilik ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 istikrarl\u0131 hale getirdi\u011fimizde evvelimiz de ahirimiz de buram buram huzurla dolacakt\u0131r. \u00d6yle ki, ya\u015farken an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131zdaki iyi i\u015flerin \u00e7oklu\u011funu, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr i\u00e7inde ve nefsimizi y\u00fcceltmeden tefekk\u00fcr etti\u011fimizde hissetti\u011fimiz g\u00fczel hisler bir yana; hikayemizin sonu\u00e7 k\u0131sm\u0131 olan \u00f6l\u00fcm an\u0131nda musalla ta\u015f\u0131ndan ard\u0131m\u0131za (an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131za) son kez bakarken ruhumuzdaki huzurun ve mutlulu\u011fun hi\u00e7 ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kadar derin olaca\u011f\u0131ndan \u015f\u00fcphemiz olmas\u0131n. T\u00fcm \u00e7abam\u0131z bunun i\u00e7in de\u011fil mi zaten?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Gelecekte arkam\u0131za bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z vakit \u015fimdi ya\u015f\u0131yor&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":337,"featured_media":12407,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11798"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/337"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11798"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11798\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12408,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11798\/revisions\/12408"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12407"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11798"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11798"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11798"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}