{"id":11746,"date":"2023-01-01T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2022-12-31T21:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11746"},"modified":"2023-10-23T23:03:02","modified_gmt":"2023-10-23T23:03:02","slug":"iki-farkli-beden-tek-bir-ruh","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11746","title":{"rendered":"\u0130ki Farkl\u0131 Beden, Tek Bir Ruh"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><strong>\u0130ki farkl\u0131 beden\u2026 \u0130ki farkl\u0131 ruh\u2026 Bir a\u015fk hik\u00e2yesine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorlar birlikte, tek bir ruhta birle\u015fiyorlar.<\/strong> Kad\u0131n yere ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flam bir \u015fekilde basarak y\u00fcr\u00fcyor b\u0131rakmaktan korkarcas\u0131na; adam ise her an kay\u0131p d\u00fc\u015fecekmi\u015f gibi at\u0131yor ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131, insanlar\u0131n suratlar\u0131na bakmaktan aciz. Ve bu adam; hayat\u0131nda ilk defa birinin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bak\u0131yor t\u00fcm ac\u0131lar\u0131yla, t\u00fcm korkular\u0131yla ve t\u00fcm kalbiyle\u2026 Maria Puder\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fcne bak\u0131yor korkusuzca, gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zlerinde kaybediyor kendini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sabahattin Ali\u2019nin 1943 y\u0131l\u0131nda yay\u0131mlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu g\u00f6z dolduran eser, yay\u0131mland\u0131\u011f\u0131 tarihten beri okurlar\u0131n kitapl\u0131klar\u0131ndan indirilmeyen ve o da yetmezmi\u015f gibi herkesin kalbinde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir hik\u00e2ye olarak ya\u015famaya devam ediyor g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde. Bu hik\u00e2ye bir g\u00fcn, Raif ve Maria isimli iki kay\u0131p ruhun Almanya\u2019da kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131yla ba\u015fl\u0131yor ve onlar\u0131n a\u015fklar\u0131, belki de bir zamanlar unuttu\u011funuzu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z her ne varsa hepsini size tekrar hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Karakterlerimizden Raif, biraz pasif bir karakter. \u0130nsanlarla bir arada olmay\u0131 sevmez, kendi hayal g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u00fcsledi\u011fi r\u00fcyalar\u0131nda ya\u015fay\u0131p gider kitab\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131nda. Hatta \u201c<strong>Ben d\u00fcnyadan ziyade kafam\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u015fayan bir insan\u0131m\u201d<\/strong> diyerek a\u00e7\u0131klar bize bu r\u00fcyalar\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rmayarak Almanya\u2019ya gitmesi \u00fczerine, gezdi\u011fi sergilerden birinde bir Madonna\u2019n\u0131n portresine rastlar. Uzun zamand\u0131r onu ar\u0131yormu\u015f gibi hisseder ruhu, a\u00e7\u0131klayamaz neden b\u00f6yle h\u0131zla \u00e7arpmaya ba\u015flar kalbi. Ve her g\u00fcn gelir, izler o portreyi saatlerce. Sanki t\u00fcm hayat\u0131 boyunca bu kad\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131yormu\u015f gibi, sanki sadece o kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda nefes alabiliyormu\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu, her bak\u0131mdan ger\u00e7ekten de \u00f6zel bir a\u015fk hik\u00e2yesidir. Birbirinden farkl\u0131 iki insan\u0131n nas\u0131l ayn\u0131 dili konu\u015fabileceklerini hatta nas\u0131l konu\u015fmadan bile birbirlerini anlayabileceklerini g\u00f6sterir bize. \u201c<strong>Bir ak\u015fam anlad\u0131m ki, bir insan di\u011fer bir insana bazen hayata ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ok daha kuvvetli ba\u011flarla sar\u0131labilirmi\u015f<\/strong>\u201d diyor Raif. Maria i\u00e7in hissetti\u011fi \u015feyleri, az da olsa bizlere de anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor umutsuzca.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Maria ise asla \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olamayaca\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen bir kad\u0131n, inanm\u0131yor Raif\u2019in sevgisine. Uzun bir s\u00fcre kendi kalbini \u00e7\u00f6zmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor ve anl\u0131yor ki inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fey Raif\u2019in a\u015fk\u0131 de\u011fil; birinin, hayat\u0131nda ilk defa birinin kendisini bu derece g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc sevebilmesi. Ve g\u00f6r\u00fcyor ki sevgilisinin a\u015fk\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten hafife al\u0131nabilir gibi de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Aralar\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle bir konu\u015fma ge\u00e7iyor ikilinin, Maria\u2019n\u0131n Raif\u2019in ruhuna nas\u0131l dokundu\u011funa bu sat\u0131rlarda \u015fahit olabilirsiniz:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>\u201cBerlin\u2019de yaln\u0131zs\u0131n\u0131z de\u011fil mi?\u201d <\/strong>diye sorar Maria.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>\u201cNe gibi?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>\u201cYani\u2026 Yaln\u0131z i\u015fte\u2026 Kimsesiz\u2026 Ruhen yaln\u0131z\u2026\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu kitab\u0131 bir yolculuk esnas\u0131nda okuma f\u0131rsat\u0131 buldum. Okurken b\u0131rakt\u0131m dalgalar\u0131n sesi doldursun kulaklar\u0131m\u0131, r\u00fczg\u00e2r savursun sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131, vapur yol al\u0131rken mart\u0131lar da takip etsin beni. Ve ben anlamadan akmaya ba\u015flas\u0131n g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m; kaybetti\u011fim birilerini arats\u0131n bu kitap bana, yitirdi\u011fimi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m ruhumu tekrardan bulmam\u0131 sa\u011flas\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Raif\u2019in de dedi\u011fi gibi birbirlerini b\u00f6ylesine anlayan iki insan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131 bir mucizeydi, ruhlar\u0131 birbirine ait olan iki ki\u015fi mutlaka kavu\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131 hik\u00e2yelerinin sonunda. <strong>Ama baz\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7leri vard\u0131r evrenin, engellenemez\u2026 Ve iki a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n elinden boyun e\u011fmek d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey gelmez.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>E\u011fer a\u015fk\u0131n tan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131yorsan\u0131z; belki birden kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir insan\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde, belki g\u00fcnd\u00fcz ayr\u0131 gece ayr\u0131 sevdi\u011finiz g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde, belki de h\u00e2l\u00e2 umutla kendisinin bir kopyas\u0131n\u0131 arayan y\u00fcre\u011finizde\u2026 Al\u0131n \u201cK\u00fcrk Mantolu Madonna\u201dy\u0131 elinize, kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131n sayfalar\u0131 tek tek ve b\u0131rak\u0131n dolan g\u00f6zleriniz \u015fu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 bulsun: \u201c<strong>Tesad\u00fcf seni \u00f6n\u00fcme \u00e7\u0131karmasayd\u0131, gene ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde, fakat her \u015feyden habersiz, ya\u015fay\u0131p gidecektim. Sen bana d\u00fcnyada ba\u015fka bir hayat\u0131n da mevcut oldu\u011funu, benim bir de ruhum bulundu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frettin&#8230;\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u0130ki farkl\u0131 beden\u2026 \u0130ki farkl\u0131 ruh\u2026&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":335,"featured_media":12441,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[53,54],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11746"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/335"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11746"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11746\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12442,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11746\/revisions\/12442"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12441"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11746"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11746"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11746"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}