Nice hayallerle \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bu yolculukta nelerle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6nceden bilmemiz m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi elbette. Biz yol haritam\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7izerken ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za gelebilecek aksiliklerin yada s\u00fcrprizlerin yolculu\u011fu etkilemeyece\u011finin garantisi de yoktu tabi. Yine de var\u0131lmak istenen bir hedef varsa tabi, her \u015feyi g\u00f6ze al\u0131p yola d\u00fc\u015fmekti niyetimiz. Belli bir s\u00fcre ilerledikten sonra kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kacak \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 problemlerin kap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7alaca\u011f\u0131ndan bihaber olarak yolculu\u011fun i\u00e7inde bulmu\u015ftuk kendimizi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tren istasyonunda en son s\u00f6nen gece lambas\u0131 gibi veda ettik geceye. Tam olarak neye, kime veda etti\u011fimizi hi\u00e7 bilemeden. Evet, son vagondaki yolcu gibiydik, \u00fcrkek ve yolculu\u011fun nerede son bulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemeyen. Valizimizde pahada de\u011fersiz ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kopamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, ba\u015fkalar\u0131nca manas\u0131z, bizce ise belki de hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n anlam\u0131 diyebilece\u011fimiz garip e\u015fyalarla yol al\u0131yorduk. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 yolun uzunlu\u011fu ve me\u015fakkati kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda erken duraklarda ayr\u0131l\u0131yordu aram\u0131zdan. Ama baz\u0131lar\u0131 da inatla dayan\u0131yordu son dura\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rene kadar, niyetinden vazge\u00e7meden. \u0130\u015fte bu yolda, aram\u0131zda ger\u00e7ekten ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 neresi ve son durak nerede bilen olmadan \u00f6ylece ilerliyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Baz\u0131lar\u0131 valizlerinden bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kopam\u0131yor, \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131rt\u0131ndan indirmiyordu. Baz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z ise ne olacaksa olsun dercesine b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 emanetleri s\u0131rtlar\u0131ndan. Ben de galiba y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc b\u0131rakamayanlardand\u0131m. Neden bilmem, i\u015fte \u00f6yle bir g\u00fcvensizlik a\u011f\u0131nda, ta\u015f\u0131yordum her \u015feyimi yan\u0131mda. Belki b\u0131rakabilseydim \u015fimdi bunca y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131nda kalmaz, h\u0131zl\u0131 ad\u0131mlar atabilirdim, bilemeyiz, kim bilebilir ki?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hi\u00e7 yolcusu yokmu\u015f gibi ilerleyen yol, bir o yana bir bu yana k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131rken bizler de an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bir o tarafa bir bu tarafa sa\u00e7a sa\u00e7a gidiyorduk. \u0130yi k\u00f6t\u00fc hat\u0131ralarla \u00e7alkalan\u0131yordu beynimiz de. Kimi geride b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, kimi tamamlayamad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, kimisi de ba\u015flayamad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. B\u00f6ylece yolda ilerlerken zamanla m\u00fcthi\u015f bir sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcverdi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze. \u00d6l\u00fcm sessizli\u011fi sanki… Beklemekten yorulmu\u015flar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm sessizli\u011fi misali… Acaba daha bekleyecek miyiz? Ne vakte kadar, ne vakit dolacak vademiz? Sorular, sadece cevaps\u0131z sorular. Gariptir ama onca a\u011f\u0131tlardan sonra gelen bu sessizlikte, sanki bir nimet vard\u0131. Sa\u011fanak ya\u011fmurlar gibi nimet ya\u011f\u0131yordu bir yandan her taraf\u0131m\u0131za. Bunun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda mahcup bir \u015fekilde \u015fu c\u00fcmleler d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc dilimizden: \u201cNimet olmaz m\u0131 hi\u00e7, beklenen k\u0131ymetli ise, nimet olmaz m\u0131 hi\u00e7, son durak g\u00f6r\u00fclmeye de\u011fer ise. \u201d \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle teselli ettik kendimizi ve \u00e7evremizi. \u00d6yleyse ne yapal\u0131m dedik, bekledik bi\u00e7are. Ama ne bekleyi\u015f, aman Allah\u2019\u0131m! Yakub\u2019un Yusuf\u2019unu, Hacer\u2019in \u0130brahim\u2019ini beklemesi misali, \u00f6yle beklemek i\u015fte. G\u00f6\u011fe bakt\u0131k hep beraber. T\u0131pk\u0131 bulutlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan s\u0131zan g\u00fcne\u015f gibi i\u00e7imize s\u0131zd\u0131 umut. Bize \u015f\u00f6yle seslendi: \u201cBekleyin, kutlu bir bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7inde, korkmadan, y\u0131lmadan, sars\u0131lmadan. Beklerken de y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcn ate\u015fe su ta\u015f\u0131yan kar\u0131nca misali, varamasam da yolunda \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcm der gibi.\u201d Vesselam\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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