\u0130nsan kendisini do\u011fururmu\u015f. Evet, yanl\u0131\u015f anlamad\u0131n sevgili yol arkada\u015f\u0131m. \u0130nsan kendisine gebe kal\u0131r, i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcr, geli\u015ftirir ve kendisini do\u011furur. Sonrada d\u00fcnya\u2019ya getirdi\u011fi kendisine daha s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya ba\u011flan\u0131r. Bunu nereden mi biliyorum? Tabii ki kendimden… Peki, ben bunu ne zaman anlad\u0131m? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir k\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc bir bavul ve bir s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131 ile bombalanm\u0131\u015f, d\u00fcmd\u00fcz olmu\u015f, kardan her yerin beyaza b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, ayazdan insan\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131da buz kesti\u011fi o \u015fehre ilk kez ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn anlad\u0131m. Elimde bavulum ve s\u0131rt\u0131mda bir s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131 gitti\u011fim yolun nereye varaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeden etraf\u0131 izledi\u011fim o g\u00fcn, i\u00e7imdeki \u00fcrkeklik, tela\u015f, korku ad\u0131na daha ba\u015fka neler denilebilirse\u2026 \u0130\u00e7imde daha \u00f6nce hissetmedi\u011fim \u015feyler ve bir ton cevaps\u0131z soru:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu sorular ne kadar can s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 dursa da me\u011fer kendime gebe kal\u0131yormu\u015fum. Bu zamana kadar hi\u00e7 yaln\u0131z kalmam\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Hep arkamda olanlar varm\u0131\u015f ama \u015fimdi yapayaln\u0131z bir bavul bir s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131\u2026 Art\u0131k ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n fikirleri ile de\u011fil kendi fikirlerim ile yola \u00e7\u0131kmak zorunda kendi kendime yard\u0131m etmek zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daha sonra kalaca\u011f\u0131m eve gittim. Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m be\u015f insan, be\u015f karakter, yeni oda, yeni mutfak, yeni i\u015f\u2026 Yeniden ba\u015flamak ne kadar korkutucu diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken bunun benim kendi i\u00e7imdeki beni besledi\u011fini, b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc nereden bilecektim. T\u00fcm bu zorluklar\u0131 ya\u015farken bir tomar pe\u00e7ete ile \u00f6mr\u00fcmde g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim o karl\u0131 da\u011flar\u0131 izlerken, \u00f6mr\u00fcmde hi\u00e7 dinlemedi\u011fim \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 dinlerken buldum kendimi. Derin bir nefes \u00e7ektim i\u00e7ime. \u201cDO\u011eMAK ZAMANI\u201d dedim ad\u0131na bu nefesin. Ve \u201cKEND\u0130ME HO\u015e GELD\u0130M\u201d. Art\u0131k bamba\u015fka bir ben vard\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131mda. Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131, duygular\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri, zorluklar onu zaman i\u00e7erisinde bamba\u015fka yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve yeni bir karakter gelmi\u015fti d\u00fcnyaya. Ama do\u011fmak yetmezdi. Bir de d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyaya al\u0131\u015fmak ve yeti\u015fmek laz\u0131md\u0131. Peki, sonra ne mi oldu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Hatalar\u0131m en b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fans\u0131m oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Kendim kendimin en yak\u0131n arkada\u015f\u0131 oldum<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Kendi kendime kahve yudumlamak en b\u00fcy\u00fck ihtiyac\u0131m oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Ba\u015far\u0131 en b\u00fcy\u00fck keyfim oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– Maddeye, markaya daha az maneviyata daha \u00e7ok \u00f6nem vermeme sebep oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– En \u00f6nemlisi bireysel mutlulu\u011fumu tamamlay\u0131p, toplumsal mutlulu\u011fa y\u00f6nelerek mutlulu\u011fu toplumun faydas\u0131nda aramak oldu. Yani bir bak\u0131ma ba\u015fka mutluluklara el\u00e7ilik yapmak oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve hep diyorum ki \u201c\u0130Y\u0130K\u0130 KEND\u0130M\u0130 DO\u011eURMU\u015eUM, HO\u015e GELD\u0130M GER\u00c7EK BANA, HO\u015e GELD\u0130M GER\u00c7EK BEN\u0130M\u201d.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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