Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc hayat\u0131n\u0131zdaki renkleri. Ve renkler sadece g\u00f6r\u00fclenlerden ibaret mi? Duygular\u0131m\u0131z da bir t\u00fcr renk kabul edilemez mi? Sahi siz hayat\u0131n\u0131zdaki renkleri ilk ne zaman ke\u015ffettiniz, ne vakit bildiniz. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcndeki sonsuz maviye ilk ne zaman dal\u0131p gittiniz. Peki g\u00f6k mavisinin ruhunuza katt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 ilk ne vakit hissettiniz. \u0130lk ne vakit g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn ba\u011fr\u0131na kanat tak\u0131p u\u00e7abilmeyi, hayallerinizi bulutlara resmetmeyi \u00f6\u011frendiniz. Yaln\u0131z m\u0131yd\u0131n\u0131z bu ke\u015fifte veya var m\u0131yd\u0131 e\u015flik edeniniz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Benim hayat\u0131m\u0131n renkleri hen\u00fcz ilkokula ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce hayat\u0131ma girmi\u015f me\u011ferse \u00e7ok sonradan \u00f6\u011frenecektim. O zamanlar boya kalemlerim yoktu ve bir resim defterim. Her Pazar sabah\u0131 annemin biz do\u011fmadan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck avlumuza kurdu\u011fu \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r kazan\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6recektim karay\u0131, altta t\u00fcm g\u00fcn yanan odunlar\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcnde bulacakt\u0131m grimsiyi. Yaz ba\u015f\u0131 rutiniydi sanki yol yap\u0131m \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131 her sene. Utan\u0131rd\u0131m, annem yol yapan ustalara \u00e7ay yapt\u0131m bunu g\u00f6t\u00fcr dedi\u011finde. Ne gerek vard\u0131 ki i\u015fte. Sanki mahallede bizden ba\u015fka kimse yoktu ustalara \u00e7ay yap\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrecek. Hem ne vard\u0131 beni hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m amcalara hizmet ettirecek. Utana s\u0131k\u0131la al\u0131rd\u0131m elime tepsiyi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcm onlara. Onca yorgunlu\u011fu \u00e7aydan bir yudum al\u0131nca dindiren ustalar nas\u0131l dua ederlerdi bana. O zaman biraz sevinirdim. \u00c7ocuktum bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 koru derdi annem, direk y\u00fczlerine bakma, yan taraflar\u0131nda dur ya da b\u0131rak gel tepsiyi al\u0131rs\u0131n sonra. Sonra bir g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131 i\u00e7lerinden biri, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda fark etmi\u015fim eme\u011fi, gayreti, al\u0131n terini. Besberrakt\u0131 rengi, al\u0131n terinin dupduru idi. Ve y\u00fczlerdekilerin kir de\u011fil topra\u011f\u0131n rengi oldu\u011funu, d\u00f6k\u00fclen al\u0131n teri ile birle\u015fince kahverengimsi bir hal ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Hava s\u0131cak m\u0131 s\u0131cak hararetten yanacak yoldan ge\u00e7enler, pazarc\u0131lar, sokaktaki hayvanlar derdi annem. Boyum kadar olan toprak k\u00fcp\u00fc y\u0131kard\u0131k beraber. Yer eviydi evimiz, tahta kap\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131 bah\u00e7emiz. Hemen kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki duvar\u0131n dibine, devrilmesin diye etraf\u0131na dizdi\u011fimiz kiremitlerle yerle\u015ftiririz k\u00fcp\u00fc. Hemen bir iki ad\u0131m mesafesine konan yayvan toprak kap biz yalak derdik eskiden. Kediler, k\u00f6pekler bazen de minicik ku\u015flar kumrular i\u00e7in konur ikram olunurdu bir yudum \u201cSu\u201d. Ve ben ilk o vakit g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm merhametin sadece evin i\u00e7indekine de\u011fil, herkese ve her canl\u0131ya sunuldu\u011funu. 45-50 derece s\u0131cak alt\u0131nda suyu i\u00e7ip ferahlayanlar\u0131n dualar\u0131nda, te\u015fekk\u00fcrlerinde g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm \u015f\u00fckr\u00fc, tefekk\u00fcr\u00fc. Sonra her sabah elime tutu\u015fturulan \u00e7al\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrge ile s\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm sokak kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde ke\u015ffetmi\u015fim \u00e7evre temizli\u011finin \u00f6nemini. Ve temizli\u011fin ilk \u015fart\u0131n\u0131n kendinden ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcnde ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131… Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bedenine, ruhuna, evine, \u00e7evresine yay\u0131lan temizli\u011fi i\u015flemi\u015f annem zihnime. Sonra kap\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne dikti\u011fimiz \u00e7i\u00e7eklerde g\u00f6recektim renkleri. Ye\u015filin hayat\u0131m\u0131zdaki huzuru temsil etti\u011fini. Kokular\u0131nda bulacakt\u0131m vazge\u00e7ilmez rayihan\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc. \u015eimdilerde hala orta ref\u00fcjlere dikebildi\u011fi g\u00fcllerde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm gibi. Ta\u015f duvar betonlar size yenilmeyen bir taraf\u0131m\u0131z hala var diyebilmeyi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her insan\u0131n kendine \u00f6zg\u00fc bir hikayesi var. Duygular\u0131, rengi, resmi, a\u015fk\u0131, varolu\u015fu, olamay\u0131\u015f\u0131, ayr\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131, sevin\u00e7leri, h\u00fcz\u00fcnleri k\u0131sacas\u0131 devam eden hayat ser\u00fcveni, ser\u00fcvenin renkleri var. Devam eden ve edecek. Ta ki bir g\u00fcn, bir sala vakti ad\u0131 okununcaya dek…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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