Bug\u00fcn g\u00fczel haberlerim var sana. Anla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi sahaflara gittim sabah. Gitmeden Kozahan’a u\u011frad\u0131m. Her zaman oturdu\u011fumuz masada \u00e7ay i\u00e7tim simit yedim s\u00f6z verdi\u011fim gibi. \u0130ki \u00e7ay istedim. \u0130kinciyi \u015fekerli i\u00e7tim senin yerine. \u0130ki simit istedim. Birini yedim. Birini de dedi\u011fin gibi yol \u00fcst\u00fcndeki H\u0131d\u0131r amcaya verdim selam\u0131nla. G\u00f6rsen nas\u0131l duyguland\u0131 senden haber al\u0131nca; selam\u0131n\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fcne nas\u0131l dualar ekledi de ald\u0131. Ah bir g\u00f6rseydin!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hava \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi. Ne \u00e7ok so\u011fuk ne \u00e7ok s\u0131cak… Tam sevdi\u011fin gibi… Sonbahar. Yapraklar\u0131 g\u00fcz renklerine boyanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0131narlar\u0131n alt\u0131nda biraz oturup etraf\u0131 seyrettim. \u0130nan ben de \u00f6zlemi\u015fim. \u00c7ok iyi geldi bana da. \u0130yi ki vermi\u015fsin bu \u00f6devi bana iyi ki s\u00f6z alm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. Sahaflara vard\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ilkin kalakald\u0131m \u00f6ylece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sanki…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sanki sen yine beni bekliyorsun ilk sahafta, Neyzen Yusuf\u2019la \u00e7ay i\u00e7iyorsunuz. Ben i\u00e7eri girince ikiniz birden aya\u011fa kalkacaks\u0131n\u0131z, bir \u00e7ay da bana getirecek Neyzen. Sen kula\u011f\u0131ma e\u011filip \u201c\u0130yi ki ge\u00e7 geldin hatun. \u00d6zlemi\u015fim Neyzen’i.\u201d diyeceksin. \u00c7ay\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7erken adet \u00fczere ney \u00fcfleyecek Yusuf. Sonra s\u0131rayla gezece\u011fiz t\u00fcm d\u00fckk\u00e2nlar\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sanki…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaa \u00f6yle!.. \u0130lkin kalakald\u0131m \u00f6ylece i\u015fte. Sonra Yusuf g\u00f6rd\u00fc ya beni. Toparland\u0131m. Mektubunu verdim merak etme. Selam bile vermeden onu verdim. Kap\u0131ya bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck masa koymu\u015f. Buyur etti beni. \u00c7ay getirdi yine. \u0130\u00e7tim. Ama sessiz, neysiz bu sefer… \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Yusuf i\u00e7eri ko\u015ftu mektubunu okudu hemen. Geri geldi\u011finde anlad\u0131m ki a\u011flam\u0131\u015f. O da yazm\u0131\u015f. \u201cSen dola\u015f abla, ben bir ka\u00e7 \u015fey ekleyeyim mektubuma, baz\u0131 \u015feyler sormu\u015f hay\u0131rh\u00e2h\u0131m. \u00c7\u0131karken u\u011frarsan -sana zahmet- veririm in\u015fallah.\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Olur, dedim ne zahmeti!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tam kalkaca\u011f\u0131m, bir ihtiyar teyze geldi. M\u00fcsaade isteyip oturdu az soluklanmak i\u00e7in. K\u0131z\u0131na kitap almaya gelmi\u015f o da.” Ben pek anlamam k\u0131z\u0131m, sen bana yard\u0131mc\u0131 olur musun?” dedi. Nas\u0131l hay\u0131r derim. \u201cElbette\u201d dedim \u201cSeve seve!\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yusuf’un getirdi\u011fi bir bardak suyu i\u00e7ti, kalkt\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zaman\u0131m\u0131z dar m\u0131yd\u0131 yoksa bolca var m\u0131yd\u0131 bilmiyorum. O da bilmiyordu bence. Onun ad\u0131mlar\u0131yla yava\u015f yava\u015f y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck. Bir bir girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k d\u00fckk\u00e2nlara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00e2h onun listesinden g\u00e2h benim listemden birer kitap ald\u0131k. Eksiklerimiz i\u00e7in iki g\u00fcn sonra tekrar bulu\u015fmak \u00fczere anla\u015f\u0131p ayr\u0131l\u0131rken sanki y\u0131llar\u0131n dostu gibi s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131k birbirimize. B\u0131rakmak istemedi gibi geldi bana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biraz g\u00f6zleri doldu sanki. Sonra acelesi var gibi merdivenlere y\u00f6nelip kalabal\u0131\u011fa kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ahh, neler anlatt\u0131 bir bilsen! Sencileyin mazlum bir k\u0131z\u0131 bir damad\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f kom\u015fu \u015fehirde. \u0130ki torunu bununla kal\u0131yormu\u015f; biri 6 biri 10<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Babalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zl\u00fcyorlarm\u0131\u015f en \u00e7ok. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck olan merak da ediyormu\u015f. Nas\u0131l biri babas\u0131, diye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cPar\u00e7a par\u00e7a g\u00f6rmekle bilinir mi baba k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Annesinin yan\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015f bir s\u00fcre. \u015eimdi b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f diye alm\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201c6 ya\u015f\u0131nda olmakla b\u00fcy\u00fcr m\u00fc insan k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00fcy\u00fck olan a\u011fabey ya a\u011flamazm\u0131\u015f ondan hi\u00e7.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHep i\u00e7ine atar, i\u00e7ine ak\u0131t\u0131r g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bilirim. Yoksa \u00fcz\u00fclmez mi anadan ayr\u0131lan yavru k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hem anadan, hem babadan…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Neyse i\u015fte ne yazay\u0131m ki sana bilemedim. Analar\u0131ndan her ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda par\u00e7alanan ci\u011ferler nas\u0131l anlat\u0131l\u0131r ki. Beklemenin b\u00f6yle \u00f6\u011frenildi\u011fi bir \u00e7ocukluk nas\u0131l anlat\u0131l\u0131r ki. Hasretin b\u00f6yle yak\u0131\u015f\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Benimki de ac\u0131 m\u0131 dedim do\u011frusunu istersen. Yanl\u0131\u015f anlama \u00f6zledim elbette seni. Hem \u00e7ok \u00f6zledim. Ama \u015funca yavrular\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duyunca ac\u0131mdan utand\u0131m i\u015fte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hep \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordum ya bir evlad\u0131m yok diye. \u015e\u00fckrettim bug\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Neyse i\u015fte g\u00fcn \u00f6ylece t\u00fckendi. G\u00fcne\u015f batmaya yak\u0131n Yusuf’a u\u011frad\u0131m. Ald\u0131m mektubunu. Benimkine katar\u0131m. Beraberce g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr okunurlar senden evvel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bug\u00fcn hayli yoruldum. Yar\u0131n ilk kitab\u0131 okumaya ba\u015flar\u0131m. Yazar\u0131m sana bir bir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eimdilik kalemimi k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlara emanet edip uykuya \u00e7ekileyim. G\u00f6r\u00fcrsem r\u00fcyamda seni anlat\u0131r\u0131m sabaha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sevgiyle… Hasretle…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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