Sanki as\u0131rlard\u0131r kimse onu kalemine s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Belki bin y\u0131l \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131 belki de bin y\u0131l sonra ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131. Y\u0131\u011f\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zler \u00f6n\u00fcne sermesi i\u00e7in zamana ve mek\u00e2na ihtiya\u00e7 duymuyordu. Her as\u0131rda muhakkak olmal\u0131 lakin d\u00f6nemine s\u0131\u011fmamal\u0131yd\u0131. Her ad\u0131m\u0131 ile mevsimlerin t\u00fcm g\u00fczelliklerini ar\u015f\u0131nlamal\u0131yd\u0131. K\u0131\u015f\u0131n zemheri so\u011fuklar\u0131n\u0131 teselli etmeli, yaz\u0131n s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131na tevazu g\u00f6stermeliydi. Sonbaharda yerlere d\u00f6k\u00fclen sararm\u0131\u015f yapraklar\u0131n \u00fczerine basmay\u0131p, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 k\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in aheste aheste y\u00fcr\u00fcmeliydi. \u0130lkbaharda \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f a\u011fa\u00e7lara varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ne\u015fe sa\u00e7mal\u0131yd\u0131. Mevsimler birbirini k\u0131skanmal\u0131yd\u0131. Ba\u015fka bir diyarda, insanlar\u0131n s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerinde tarifi olmayan bir zamanda ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa herkese e\u015fit davran\u0131rd\u0131 zaman. S\u00f6zc\u00fcklere g\u00f6re tarifi de\u011fi\u015fmezdi. Ne ya\u015fa ne de ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa bakard\u0131. Bir k\u0131ym\u0131k gibi her \u015feyi biriktirerek daha da kuvvetlice bat\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimizin ortas\u0131na kendi seremonisini\u2026 Her \u015feye ra\u011fmen farkl\u0131 zamanlarda bir\u00e7ok s\u0131fatla tezah\u00fcr edebilirdi. As\u0131rlar sonra yaz\u0131lacak \u015fiirlerin ba\u015frol\u00fcn\u00fc \u015fimdiden ortaya koymu\u015ftu. Yine de kimse duymad\u0131 ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Belki de kendisi herkese duyurmak istemedi. Her sabah k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndaki kocaman ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 ku\u015flar i\u00e7in atmay\u0131 b\u0131rakmad\u0131. Bununla da yetinmeyip mahallesindeki tek baca\u011f\u0131 olmayan k\u00f6pe\u011fin y\u00fcr\u00fcmek i\u00e7in verdi\u011fi m\u00fccadelede duyurdu kendi ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Bir yetimin g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131nda bile hakk\u0131 vard\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun derdine de yanmay\u0131 bilirdi. Bir bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n ki do\u011fru istasyondan yanl\u0131\u015f kompart\u0131mana binmi\u015f gibi h\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6kerdi i\u00e7ine. Bo\u015f yere saatlerce bekleme salonunda oturmak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Kaskat\u0131 kesilmi\u015fti. \u0130stasyon k\u00f6\u015fesinde unutulmu\u015f s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131ndaki ge\u00e7mi\u015finin y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc bedeninin her zerresinde hissediyordu. B\u00f6yle d\u00f6nemlerde g\u00f6zlerindeki tela\u015f\u0131 belli etmemek ad\u0131na etrafa g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler sa\u00e7ard\u0131. Hani \u015fu g\u00f6lgesinde h\u00fcz\u00fcn bar\u0131nd\u0131ran g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler\u2026 B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n \u00fczerine bir de aya\u011fa kalkmak zorunda kal\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015fte o zaman rol yapman\u0131n en ufak detay\u0131n\u0131 bile atlamadan oyununu sergilemek durumundayd\u0131. H\u00fcz\u00fcn, tesad\u00fcf ve g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler\u2026 Nas\u0131l oyun ama! Ad\u0131mlar\u0131 aras\u0131ndaki y\u0131llar\u0131 dizginleyemiyordu. Zemheri so\u011fuklar\u0131n\u0131n vurdu\u011fu k\u00f6\u015feba\u015f\u0131 sokaklar\u0131n\u0131n yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7inde hissedeli uzun zaman olmu\u015ftu. Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belliydi\u2026 Az \u00f6nce bu sokaktan ge\u00e7mi\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn uzuvlar\u0131n\u0131 saran tarifsiz bir hissin esareti alt\u0131na girmi\u015f\u00e7esine titreyerek ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Iss\u0131z sokakta, sokak lambalar\u0131n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n yere yans\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6lgesini yakalamak i\u00e7in inatla ko\u015fuyordu. Kendisine ko\u015fuyordu fark\u0131nda de\u011fildi. Kendi i\u00e7ine\u2026 Nefes nefese kalmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen bu sefer b\u0131rakmak istememi\u015fti. Ancak bir s\u00fcre daha dayanabildi, ad\u0131mlar\u0131 yalpalamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f takati kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Biraz sonra soka\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131p kald\u0131. \u0130leriye do\u011fru bir iki hamle daha yapm\u0131\u015f olsa da tekrar aya\u011fa kalkmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00f6ylece\u2026 Boylu boyunca uzanm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu yerden yolun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7en g\u00f6lgeye sadece \u201cGitme!\u201d diyebilmi\u015fti\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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