D\u0131\u015far\u0131da, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n al\u00e7al\u0131p y\u00fckselen u\u011fultusu, a\u011fa\u00e7 dallar\u0131ndan yay\u0131lan i\u00e7 \u00fcrpertici h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131lar, pencerelere \u00e7arpan ya\u011fmur damlac\u0131klar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan p\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131lar, ocakta yanmakta olan odun ate\u015finin c\u0131l\u0131z \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131, armonik bir uyum i\u00e7inde, en umars\u0131z, en derin yaralara bile\u00a0 merhem olabilecek serenad\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemekteydi… Do\u011fal notalar ile yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bu e\u015fsiz senfoni ve g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131pk\u0131z\u0131l korlara dikmi\u015f adam\u0131n, ara s\u0131ra kuru odunlar\u0131 oca\u011fa atarken \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli\u00a0 belirsiz\u00a0 t\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131lar d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ne bir ses, ne de bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k vard\u0131 bu y\u0131ld\u0131zs\u0131z simsiyah gecenin derin ve gizemli sessizli\u011finde…
Eski ah\u015fap d\u00f6\u015femeleri olan odan\u0131n\u00a0 i\u00e7inde, oca\u011f\u0131n hemen\u00a0 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na serilmi\u015f\u00a0 beyaz bir koyun postu, toprak bir su testisi, \u00e7aydanl\u0131k, defalarca\u00a0 okunmaktan kenarlar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131\u015f k\u0131r\u0131\u015f olmu\u015f\u00a0 \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f kitap, \u00fczerinde m\u00fcrekkep\u00a0 \u015fi\u015fesi, dolmakalem ve\u00a0 sar\u0131\u00a0 yaprakl\u0131 bir\u00a0 defter olan rahleden ba\u015fkaca bir e\u015fya\u00a0 yok.
Ba\u011fda\u015f\u00a0 kurmu\u015f vaziyette dimdik oturan, onlarca g\u00fcz onlarca yaz g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, bedensel olarak hala zinde olan ak sa\u00e7l\u0131 aksakall\u0131 bu adam\u0131n, yalazlanan odunlar gibi kor kor olan, derin bilgi ve anlamlara a\u00e7\u0131lan g\u00f6zlerinde zihinsel ate\u015finin alevleri hala canl\u0131\u00a0 hala \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l. Bu dingin duru\u015fun alt\u0131nda, nice f\u0131rt\u0131nalar nice dalgalanmalar ve nice hezeyanlar veya nice
y\u00fcceli\u015fler ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 elbette kimse bilemez. Tabii ki, ruhunun say\u0131s\u0131z mevsimine ve gelgitlerine tan\u0131k olmu\u015f fakat\u00a0 hala hayattan ne istedi\u011fini, hayat\u0131n ondan ne bekledi\u011fini veya\u00a0 ger\u00e7ekten bekleyip beklemedi\u011fini bilmedi\u011finin bilincinde olan, hem muallim hem talip, hem yolcu, hem yol g\u00f6sterici olan, hem de g\u00f6sterdi\u011finden kendisi de emin olmay\u0131p, yol
aray\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmekte olan fakat yolun sonuna gelmi\u015f ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015f bu\u00a0 adamdan ba\u015fka.
Sar\u0131 yaprakl\u0131\u00a0 defterine sadece bir ka\u00e7 c\u00fcmle yazabilmi\u015fti gecenin ilk saatlerinden beri.\u00a0 S\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f ate\u015fi defalarca alazlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 da\u00a0 kendi\u00a0 zihninde en ufak\u00a0 bir\u00a0 \u0131\u015f\u0131ma olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Soru\u00a0 netti, eksik olan \u015feyler netti ama her
zaman oldu\u011fu\u00a0 gibi\u00a0 cevaplar\u00a0 ya eksik, ya belirsiz, ya\u00a0 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k ya da tutars\u0131zd\u0131. Sorunu\u00a0 ortaya\u00a0 koymak ne\u00a0 kadar kolaysa cevaba\u00a0 ula\u015fmakta o kadar zordu. Herkes kendi cevab\u0131n\u0131n en do\u011frusu oldu\u011funu iddia ederken di\u011fer cevaplar\u0131 g\u00f6rmezden geliyor ya da hepten lanetliyordu. Ama hi\u00e7 bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn taraftar\u0131\u00a0 huzur i\u00e7inde\u00a0 de\u011fildi. Sorulardan\u00a0 ve sorunlardan biri de buydu zaten. Nedenlerin en\u00a0 \u00f6nemlisi, do\u011fas\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fim olan \u015fu\u00a0 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n s\u00fcrekli\u00a0 de\u011fi\u015fmesi ve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesi miydi yoksa… B\u00f6yle\u00a0 oldu\u011funu varsaysak bile, her \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fim halinde oldu\u011fu halde, insan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcne ait sorular neden\u00a0 hi\u00e7\u00a0 de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015fti?\u00a0 \u00d6z\u00a0 hep ayn\u0131 ise, neden en derin arzular\u0131m\u0131z bu kadar netken, ruhumuzun isteklerini tam olarak kavrayam\u0131yoruz. Neden s\u00fcrekli\u00a0 huysuzlan\u0131p tepiniyor da\u00a0 a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a ne\u00a0 istedi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemiyor?
Neden\u00a0 onun bilgisi\u00a0 gizli\u00a0 oldu\u011fu\u00a0 halde d\u00fcnya\u00a0 niye\u00a0 onun\u00a0 etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fcp\u00a0 duruyor? Neden bin y\u0131ld\u0131r\u00a0 sorulan her \u015fey, niye hala\u00a0 g\u00fcncel? Neden hi\u00e7 bir\u00a0 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, hi\u00e7 bir inan\u00e7, hi\u00e7\u00a0 bir sistem s\u00f6nd\u00fcremedi bu\u00a0 yang\u0131n\u0131?
Neden hi\u00e7\u00a0 bir\u00a0 \u00f6\u011freti, hi\u00e7 bir rehber\u00a0 ula\u015ft\u0131ramad\u0131 bizi\u00a0 yolun\u00a0 sonuna?
Eksik olan kitap m\u0131d\u0131r\u00a0 yoksa\u00a0 onu kendi\u00a0 ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131za\u00a0 g\u00f6re\u00a0 yorumlay\u0131p duran alg\u0131lar yuma\u011f\u0131 m\u0131? Do\u011fru\u00a0 bir anlam, do\u011fru bir yorum, do\u011fru bir uygulama bizi\u00a0 d\u00fcnya saadetine\u00a0 eri\u015ftirir\u00a0 mi?
Eri\u015ftirmez tabi\u00a0 diye hayk\u0131rd\u0131\u00a0 ya\u015fl\u0131 adam. Eri\u015ftirmeyecek de. \u00d6\u011fretilerin bir\u00a0 bir a\u00e7\u0131klan\u0131p uyguland\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0 d\u00f6nemlerde insanlar\u0131n saadet i\u00e7inde\u00a0 oldu\u011fu anlat\u0131s\u0131 bile muhtemelen sadece bir san\u0131. Ayn\u0131\u00a0 ve\u00a0 de\u011fi\u015fmez\u00a0 dogmalar\u0131n, do\u011fru anlay\u0131\u015f, do\u011fru yorum ve do\u011fru uygulamalarla\u00a0 ger\u00e7ek saadete eri\u015ftirebilece\u011fi\u00a0 s\u00f6yleminin de sadece \u00e7ok\u00a0 inanmak istedi\u011fimiz bir varsay\u0131mdan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey olmamas\u0131 gibi.
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her birinin farkl\u0131\u00a0 farkl\u0131\u00a0 harfleri eksik. Onun i\u00e7in c\u00fcmleler yar\u0131m, onun i\u00e7in form\u00fcller yetersiz. Bu y\u00fczden de insaniyet buhranda. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc eksik\u00a0 notalarla do\u011fru\u00a0 \u015fark\u0131\u00a0 \u00e7al\u0131nmaz. B\u00f6yle yapmaya devam edersek, deniz
kabu\u011fu ile nihavent saz semaisi icra etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ki\u015fi gibi hi\u00e7\u00a0 bir sonuca varamay\u0131z. Demek ki\u00a0 sorun, yetersiz olan enstr\u00fcmanlarda. O zaman tez elden yeni ve ses skalas\u0131 geni\u015f\u00a0 enstr\u00fcmanlar edinmeli, ayd\u0131nlanman\u0131n
yolunu a\u00e7acak derin ruh hallerini geli\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in yeni\u00a0 paradigmalar ortaya koymal\u0131y\u0131z.
Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle rahatlayan\u00a0 ya\u015fl\u0131\u00a0 adam, defterine ” DEN\u0130Z\u00a0 KABU\u011eUNU\u00a0 KIR VE \u00dcFLEMEKTEN\u00a0 VAZGE\u00c7 “diye\u00a0 yazd\u0131. \u00c7aydanl\u0131ktan\u00a0 bir\u00a0 bardak \u0131hlamur doldurdu. Keyifle\u00a0 \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 yudumlarken g\u00fcne\u015fin ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 seyre dald\u0131.
Mutluluk ve\u00a0 haz da b\u00f6yle anlar\u0131n toplam\u0131ndan ibaret de\u011fil\u00a0 miydi zaten..!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
D\u0131\u015far\u0131da, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n al\u00e7al\u0131p y\u00fckselen u\u011fultusu, a\u011fa\u00e7…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":278,"featured_media":11386,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11385"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/278"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11385"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11385\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11385"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11385"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11385"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}